Terminal Apotheosis - this bio has moved!

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06/03/2016 - BAM

Like the title says, this bio is now on my new account ;v; Crucio insists on me playing him again, so it's that time. It can be found here for those wishing to retrack. If not, that's okay too!

This node won't be used again in the future, but I might keep it for old time's sake. There's a lot of history here - good and bad, and I think it's worth holding onto.
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The golden stag did not

The golden stag did not expect the bitter retort, and it made his skin prickle. There was so much sorrow in Death's voice...so much anger and regret. It was almost overwhelming. Oliver took in a slightly shuddering breath, the lantern that hung from one of his tines swinging gently with every movement. The flame encased within flickered dimly as though it were an afterthought. It seemed to possess a life of its own, swelling and dwindling to every influx of emotion and aura.

Oliver began to wonder if it was a mistake to approach the dark stag...no, why would he ever think that? It was not a mistake. It never was. The golden stag tilted his head slightly, his ears swiveling as he pondered Death's words.

"It's a funny thing, death is. Some say it's a blessing, others a curse. Some fear it, some welcome it. But in the end, we must all meet it," he spoke softly, a faint smile upon his lips. "I do not see why anyone would fear death, for without it there wouldn't be life. I do not believe that death brings grief or suffering...it is just the next step in the continuation of life. It's beautiful."

What Oliver was saying might not make sense...after all, he did not think like most mature deer. But he only spoke the truth, of what his heart believed. "I suppose it is no concern of mine. But, I do not like to see others suffer. It...hurts me. And to see Death like this...well, it is unusual to me. To embrace death and its beauty is one of the greatest things anyone could do."

Edit: Oh SNAP, I claimed your own page! *flaildance*
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Crucio listened in silence as

Crucio listened in silence as Oliver spoke, giving a rough little laugh under his breath along with an ill-purposed smile beneath his mask. His eyes flickered open a portion of the way, glaring coldly at the ground in front of him, their hatred fleeting as they threatened to soften. Inevitably, they did, then hardened just as fiercely all over again.

"Some of them - many of them - would disagree with you, Oliver. It's easier to put together pretty words and make it seem as if everything's going to be alright. But it's not. I appreciate your efforts to help, I do. I just think I'm beyond help by this point, if I've gone so low as to fall in love at a first glance, knowing I haven't a chance in the world. My heart's open right now, in tune with the most subtle hints of affection, drawn to them relentlessly. For such a small, corrupted thing, it has a very strong will of its own," Death murmured bitterly, shooting a resentful glare down at the emblem on his chest.

"I'd tear the thing, still beating, from my own chest if I could stand the agony that went with it. It's a different type of pain, but one I might prefer to stand, if it meant this one was gone for good. It's a curse, a weight, nothing I'd have a thing to do with." Shaking his mask off, he curved his neck, snapping down onto the fur and what flesh he could seizue between his predatory jaws. They trembled from the strain, biting down, gripping until blood spilled out over his lips. What a nuisance, a disgusting nuisance, a despicable hindrance he could do without.
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The laugh made Oliver blink

The laugh made Oliver blink in slight confusion. It was a laugh, yes, but it was not full of mirth as laughter was wont to do. That smile did not represent joy, either, and it befuddled him. Crucio's aura was blazing with negative energy, and it was beginning to make the golden stag anxious. His heart bled for Death; he truly was suffering, and he felt helpless. For once in his life, he could not reassure another, and that greatly disturbed him. What was his purpose, then, if he could not light the darkness in everyone's hearts?

He listened in silence as Crucio spat his words, flinching with every influx of his voice and energy. And then, for the first time in an eternity, shock and terror seized Oliver as Crucio began to bite at himself. With a gasp, without thinking, Oliver lunged forward and with all of his strength nudged Death's head aside, his shoulder pressing into the dark stag's chest.

"S-Stop! Gods...why are you doing this to yourself? Please, stop!" he cried in a strangled voice, his heart pounding furiously and his mind racing as he tried to figure out what to say or do. Slowly, Oliver backed away and drew in another breath, his legs shaking. The flame within the lantern seemed to explode with white-hot light.

"There is hope. There is always hope," Oliver finally spoke once his found his voice, his ears swiveling. "To desire love and affection is build inside of us all, no matter if we are Death or not. To love, to crave is to be alive. We are all alive." The golden stag paused, and then gingerly took a couple of steps forward. Leaning down, he gently pressed his muzzle against the emblem upon Crucio's chest, trying his best to ignore the smell of blood. "This, here, is not a curse. It is a blessing. It is a will, a gift. It has the power to do so many things. It makes you alive. It would be a pity to waste such a precious thing..."
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Crucio nearly snapped at the

Crucio nearly snapped at the stag as he dove in much too close, invading his space thoroughly when it most definitely wasn't welcomed. His jaws parted in an unearthly hiss, thick and sharp, dense in sound but piercing to the ears. He staggered back to his feet as well, gazing down at the much smaller deer, slowly but surely letting his features relax from their sudden outburst. A dangerous mixture of panic, insecurity and spite had welled up in him, staying bundled up until it was triggered, like a snake waiting to strike.

It was impossible to reason with such a frantic, senseless mind.

"You're wasting your time," the Reaper breathed out dangerously, trembling with restraint. The muzzle against his fur brought it to bristle up, his ears to flatten, and his eyes to narrow into slits.

"I can't die, to waste such a 'precious thing' would be to give me some peace of mind. I don't need this THING getting in my way, or screwing with my head, there's enough crap that gets in the way and does that without any assistance. Why the devil would charge a beast like myself with this task, something with a heart and morals, is no secret; he's got a sick sense of humor, and like the rest of his servants, he wants this one to suffer. And since I can't end that suffering, what better way to rid myself of it than parting with the source? There's nothing precious about it. That's childish, pointless thinking best saved for those diseased with mortality."

He dismissed the matter with a low growl, backing away from the stag until he could look down on him completely. An apologetic spark lit up in those pale eyes briefly, then he turned, nudged his mask back on from the ground, and took off without further delay. He wasn't the type of deer Oliver would get anything out of associating with.
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Such anger, such confusion...

Such anger, such confusion... The hiss was horrifying in itself, but Oliver did not back down. Rather, he gazed upon Crucio with a mixture of sympathy and fascination. He was not easily swayed by creatures of darkness, but Crucio was not like the others that Oliver had previously associated with. He was different, certainly, but so much more...human. A crackling energy seemed to filled the void between them as Death's negativity continued to grow, so much so that Oliver considered fleeing. No...he would not give up on Crucio. Not this quickly, not this easily. He'd be damned if the darkness overtook him.

The words were harsh, and they stung. Oliver had never heard so much bitterness in another's voice, and he took a step back as Crucio towered over him. He crouched submissively, but his gaze never left Death's. Childish, pointless...is that what Death really thought? Perhaps it really was pointless, what Oliver was doing. The golden stag's heart plummeted, and tears welled up in the corners of his eyes. No...you can't give up. Not you, not Crucio. Be strong...keep the light strong. And so the light flickered warmly, brightly...and Death was running away. Oliver had caught the apologetic look in the dark stag's eyes, however; he did not miss much when it came to others' emotions.

With a heavy heart, he watched Crucio gallop off until he was nothing but a speck in the distance. The light began to die down, dim. It flickered weakly, and Oliver sank to his knees in defeat. A lone tear slid down the bridge of his muzzle and pooled upon his lip. He could taste its saltiness, and it stung. It burned. "Everything happens for a reason...everything," was all he could whisper before curling into himself, shivering as he was once again left alone.
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FFF I COULD'VE SWORN I WAS

FFF I COULD'VE SWORN I WAS TRACKING THIS. Ifail.
ldjdjg -lick-

By Leuvr
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:'D

:'D <3
*rubrubrub* |D ♥
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The crow waited until he was

The crow waited until he was certain the stag was alone this time before approaching him. This past week gave him a lot of time to think, but it all still lead down to one thing; he desperately needed to try to patch things up. He needed Crucio in his life, even if it meant watching Death chase after countless tails again while he sat on the sidelines silently pining after him. There were no words exchanged last time, it was completely awkward and.. obvious how badly they both hurt. He wanted to make things right. Somehow.

".. Crucio," he near whispered as he neared the stag, feathers ruffling from sheer nerves and pain. "Please.. please listen to me. I never wanted to hurt you, never wanted to see you upset. And.. I know I lost sight of things, but.. I only want to make things right now." Tandem could feel the tears welling up in his eyes but he fought to keep them from falling for the time being.

Did he seriously not understand what he was getting himself into? Crucio could have left him after he learned that crows mated for life and that Tandem had chosen him, but no.. he committed himself to Dismay. And Tandem was miserable over it, hopeless.. completely and utterly torn up. It was obvious just by looking at him.

"I just want a chance.. a chance to make things up to you. A chance to.. be with you again, one way or another. We're still.. Death and Dismay first, Crucio, and we cannot ignore what we are. Let me.. prove myself to you." No matter how desperately he wanted to throw himself at the stag and beg him to take him back, to love him again, he knew Death better than that. For now, all he could hope for is a chance to be in his life again and maybe they would be brought together once more if the fates allowed it.
Please call me Lyssa or Kir. n.n

Art by Anjali. ♥
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Crucio locked his jaws

Crucio locked his jaws together as the crow neared him, fur bristling up bitterly. The mere sight of the bird was stones in his black heart. Behind his mask, his lips pulled back in a low growl, exposing more of the sharpened teeth lining his slender jaws dangerously. The stag's ears flicked back, his eyes narrowed, and he stepped back away from Tandem, silently warning Dismay to mind his space.

Yet, he stayed where he was, twitching and shuddering irritably as he forced himself to listen to every single word that came out of the crow's beak. By the end of it, the black stag huffed stubbornly, shooting a thick hiss down at him before coherent words could string themselves into a sentence moments later.

"Then you can do so as my partner," Crucio responded with another quiet growl, kneading at the ground beneath his front hooves disdainfully.

"I'm not even sure where my affections lay anymore, but I know one thing for certain; they're not on you. I need you to know that, right now, no matter how harsh it may seem. Whether that's at potential for change I don't know. I can't see the future. If I had, I never would have chosen to be with you," he added, his facial features relaxing as a frown washed over the scowl that had occupied them previously. Finally, he shook his head in disbelief, becoming distraught again.

"Do what you want. I won't drive you away.. not unless you get in my way," Crucio snapped coldly, dismissing the topic entirely.
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Those words hurt. They stung

Those words hurt. They stung like salt rubbed into the open wound that was his heart and brought the crow to tremble beyond his control. He could feel the way Crucio was looking at him, the harsh tone of that deep voice. The one that always had him melt so easily. Did he really regret being with him that much..?

"If that is how it must be, then so be it.." he mumbled, feeling those tears start to spill over somewhat and dampening his feathers. Those words were too harsh, harsher than he ever thought was possible to be directed at himself, not from his experiences. But.. he's done this before, for centuries. He could do this again for the sake of them both. Or die trying.

"That is all I ask of you, thank you."

Without another word, Dismay turned and spread his wings, flying off into the canopy high above. He needed time to think again, to try and regain his calm and to allow Crucio the time he needed, it seemed. Hopefully this was a step in the right direction.
Please call me Lyssa or Kir. n.n

Art by Anjali. ♥

YES. NEW SONG = LOVE


YES.
NEW SONG = LOVE <3
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:'D

:'D <3
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Omg his updates xD

Omg his updates xD

By Leuvr
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WHATISTHISIDONTEVEN ROFLAIERW

WHATISTHISIDONTEVEN
ROFLAIERWFNQERWF
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Lucy would fall in love with

Lucy would fall in love with a potato Oo

Updates made me say WTF about

Updates made me say WTF about a million times lol.
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I'm shocked his updates are

I'm shocked his updates are the things you're wtfing at guys. LOL.

OH I SEE WHY YOU WROTE THOSE

OH I SEE WHY YOU WROTE THOSE UPDATES NOW LOL.

Poor Tandem. And Crucio. I feel so bad for them both n'awwww. TnT
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EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ *squeez

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

*squeezes fat, potatofied Crucio*

He needs a hamster wheel, uguu~ cB

GOD xDD Can I have a plushie

GOD xDD

Can I have a plushie of him??? 8D *makes puppy eyes* >.<
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Ryff: ... I think you're

Ryff: ... I think you're missing the point. LOL.

Colby: /SNORT Yep. Yes he does.

Wiana: No you may not. 8C ♥

LOOLOL I think his music


LOOLOL
I think his music suits him..A LOT ;D

I HAVE FATBOY. YOU MUST MEET

I HAVE FATBOY. YOU MUST MEET HIM.
FATBOOOOOOYYY~
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EFF YEW CRU SEX AND THE CITY

EFF YEW CRU SEX AND THE CITY IS AWESOME ROFLFLFLF

...I think you're right. DOES

...I think you're right. DOES NOT UNDERSTAND DURRH. -drools stupidly-

It's a stupid-fest for me today. XDDD
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I think his music suits him

I think his music suits him well too. ♥

Crucio: "THAT SHOW CAN KISS THE LOWEST PART OF MY ASS. *shoots a fatfart at*

"C-Crucio... Is that... Is


"C-Crucio... Is that... Is that you? I couldn't tell behind the wall of chest hair and toilet paper... Brother?
...What.. What is that? That better not be what I think it is, you disgusting fatass. C'mon, get up. I'm
going to teach you what a 'shower' is.
...
What was that?
If you don't get up right now, I will not allow you to watch my collection of the Lost seasons.
NOW MOVE IT OR I WILL FORCEFULLY REMOVE YOU, SIR."
-hauls off to teach the meaning of cleanliness-
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"You're right, Levi. I've


"You're right, Levi. I've been aspiring to become a fat slob my entire life but I need to get off my ginormous ass and do something.
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ROFLLLLL

ROFLLLLL
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Aw lol he looks so fluffy and

Aw lol he looks so fluffy and fat =D

Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D

rofl! That fighter's chart

rofl! That fighter's chart x'D *dies*
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LOOLL. ... I should probably

LOOLL.
... I should probably put him back to normal. |D

I'm not sure if it's just me,

I'm not sure if it's just me, but the first and third chart overlap, I can barely read anything in those two areas.
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People have been saying

People have been saying that.. ugh. x___x Heaven forbid someone uses a different browser and all the coding goes haywire.

Guess I'm redoing his bio for the thousandth time.

I'm seeing that too. I

I'm seeing that too.
I thought it was because I was on the cellphone but now I'm in the laptop and it looks the same ._.

You don't have to redo it,

You don't have to redo it, I'm not telling you to, I'm just notifying you.
&I'm using Google Chrome that is usually the best with CSS. Bc

That sucks.

I hope it's alright that

I hope it's alright that Tullus wasn't responding to Crucio's efforts, haha. He was focused on Kody, so he disregarded everyone else and just avoided them.

Also...:c
Your coding looks like this on my browser. I use Google Chrome too. XD

Solip, that is exactly how it

Solip, that is exactly how it looks for me too. Exactly.

{e}That looks perfect. Thank you, Han.
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It just bugs me that my

It just bugs me that my efforts were for nothing. It was a pain to get this coding to work and now anyone who uses google chrome can't see it right. It's just frustrating. No wonder people end up redoing their bios all the time.

And yeah I do have to redo it. I can't have a screwy bio that no one can read.

As far as things go with Tullus, that's fine, but if it's gonna be ignored in terms of damage taken too I'm gonna bump Cru's back up to normal. Just let me know if that's the case.
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I'm gonna kill my internet

I'm gonna kill my internet next.

Feel free to put his health

Feel free to put his health how it was, since Tullus was avoiding him. Tullus, on the other hand, will have taken damage from him, because he did get in physical contact with Crucio. I base how much damage any of my deer will take on how many times they appear to be touched in game.

As for your coding, it wasn't like it was before. I visited this bio not too long ago and the boxes weren't overlapping...but I cant really remember how the layout was so...Yeah. :/
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Eh.. I'll bump it up a little

Eh.. I'll bump it up a little then since I guess he'd be getting little more than a scratch or a bump here and there.

I changed it temporarily while I rewrite it so that it can be read. It's readable now, but I'm not gonna keep it like this, don't like it. :|

I could help ya if you'd


I could help ya if you'd like. I'm pretty decent with coding. What do you have in mind as to how you want the bio to look? :B
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No.. thanks. I'm.. nevermind.

No.. thanks. I'm.. nevermind. I'm done with this crap. /: I hate CSS.
EDIT: okay.. it's presentable for now, I think.. back to normal updates.
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trying to get back into



trying to get back into chibis again.. sorry he's so bad. -_-;
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.. KAGFKJAEGGSE OHMYGOD

.. KAGFKJAEGGSE
OHMYGOD JDGHJD, HE'S SO CUTE, AAAH THANK YOU SO MUCH ;___________; <333
I so didn't see this coming, I've kinda had a crappy night, but this made he smile a lot. ;u; <3
Thank you so much. <3 Mmmh! It's gonna go in his art right now! Thankyouthankyouthankyou ♥ :'D
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I'm glad you like him. It

I'm glad you like him. Smiling It makes me happy too, because I've been really down on my art.
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Fffff I just want Pho to give

Fffff I just want Pho to give him a big hug.Though he's not here he'll send....Thought hugs....Idk <3


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Kaoori: Awww. ;u; I love him

Kaoori: Awww. ;u; I love him Kaoori, he's adorable. ♥ And I've seen some of your other chibis too, they're so sweet. <3 It's nice of you to do this for everyone. Don't be so down on yourself; your style is one of the cutest things I've ever seen. ^^ ♥

WD: Hehe.. yeah.. he's pretty bad off, I'm not sure if he'll even recognize Phobos and Honey right away /: btw, when can we expect Phoby back in-forest? <3

GIMMEGIMMEGIMMEEE~

GIMMEGIMMEGIMMEEE~
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