Illrose; Ancient wings unfolding.

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May contain mature language/ violence.



October 20, 2022

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physical- x mental-


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I was actually going to offer

I was actually going to offer that if you needed a reason or explanation for how she comes back to life, Quad (or even Trunks) may be able to help there. Quad might be able to donate his rebirth ability temporarily (he would have to give something up in return, say...he ages a year), or Trunks could possibly guide her spirit back to her body, since that's what he does.

But if you have something planned I don't want to interfere in any way Smiling

Quad's still going to sit with her for now anyway.
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Well, I don't really need any

Well, I don't really need any explanation since the deer automatically turn back to itself, more or less, when the black deer is killed - I just don't want Illrose to wake up again immediately. But I am very grateful for the offer and for the company. :')
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Judas felt his entire insides

Judas felt his entire insides churn at the sight of his fallen friend's body. Ears pulls back hard against his skull and matted fur as he lowered his head to gently nudge her shoulder with the tip of his nose. This was unfair to him... completely and utterly unfair. This always happened to him. He'd find something to hold onto only to have it ripped from him as soon as he realized how much he wanted to keep it. "Come on, Illrose...this ain't funny anymore." He choked on his words, for once not giving a single damn if anyone saw him being anything more than a "heartless bastard".

This was his job. His duty. He dealt with dead things for centuries - but it wasn't until now he had to suffer to watch something, or in this case, someone, from within until she was taken away.

He felt sick. He wasn't supposed to feel, yet he did. The stag sighed through his nose, slowly and carefully laying his head down to rest on her motionless body. It was all finally sinking in.

[[I don't really expect much of an answer, I just needed to have him do something regarding all this. xD]]
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♥ Well, I didn't



Well, I didn't really expect much respond around her death, since it's basically just the black deer that is dead. xD I just wanted to keep her dead until I got home from my dad, where I could create some proper artwork, and play the game properly again, not just having it work on 5 frames per second.
And now I'm home, so she won't be dead much longer, lol. xD
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I didn't think you were gonna

I didn't think you were gonna keep her dead, no. He, on the other hand, doesn't know that. Sooo. xD;;
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(Been a while :3) The

(Been a while :3)

The unicorn stag knew that was Illrose there, despite the blood and gore, despite the time that had passed since he last saw her. His expression was plain, perhaps thoughtful, as he gazed upon the corpse that lay before him.

"What ill fate has fallen upon you, Dragon Queen?"

For a moment, he felt something like regret. He was disappointed that someone who had earned his respect was no longer here. He was disappointed that he did not witness whatever creature had defeated the dragon-doe.

"I certainly hope your death had more dignity than mine."

There was no dignity in life.
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Kaoori stopped by, to pay

Kaoori stopped by, to pay some respects.
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Quin; Yeah, I understand what

Quin;
Yeah, I understand what you mean. n_n

Ookami;
It have, and thank you for visiting Illrose for a while. ^^

Kimi;
Xemi's picture

"Finally.. it was a shame to

"Finally.. it was a shame to have you gone. Now you can come home."

Sorry for the lateness on this, I was gone for a while so xD; catching up.
Oh Death <3 you're a lovebug.[/]
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"I...I have been gone? And

"I...I have been gone? And what is home?"

Hm, that's alright. I hope you are feeling better. :')
Xemi's picture

Omg I hate CSS tags like you

Omg I hate CSS tags like you have no idea ASDHJSFK stoopid EF >:[

I am, thankyou~ <3 You guys all helped a lot.
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Awh, haha. xD I'm glad.

Awh, haha. xD

I'm glad. ♥
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My fat frog really liked

My fat frog really liked sitting under Illrose! Eye

Track c:
Siggy by Bu <3
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And Illrose was very fond of

And Illrose was very fond of her frog pet. ♥
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"You're alive! You do amaze

"You're alive! You do amaze me, miss Illrose. Though... It seems you do not remember me?"

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-waves- :B
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"Yes, I'm alive." She smiled,

"Yes, I'm alive." She smiled, although it was a weak smile.
"No, I'm afraid I don't remember you. Whatever happened to me caused me to lose my memory."

:'D
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"Oh Illrose...I'm so happy to

"Oh Illrose...I'm so happy to see you. I was so worried when you...", Quad begins to say, but tilts his head when she doesn't seem to recognize him, "Do you...remember me?"

He nuzzles her, hoping she may remember anything at all about Quad.
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Illrose tilted her head at

Illrose tilted her head at the blackbuck. Sure, she understood that they were supposed to know each other by his behavior, but that didn't change the fact that she had forgotten everything. She smiled sadly, then shook her head.
"No I don't, I'm afraid. What..what is your name?" She returns the nuzzle, but only because she understood they were friends.
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He nods, somewhat sadly. It

He nods, somewhat sadly. It pained him to see her in this way. "My name is Quad.", he speaks, "I'm here to protect you while you're recovering from this...umm...forgetting of things?"

He didn't have the best way with words sometimes, especially when he seemed nervous.
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For some reason, the mere

For some reason, the mere presence of this stag lifted her mood, and she smiled.
"That is very thoughtful of you Quad, but I can assure you I don't need any protection." Illrose paused for a moment, looking at the large, macabre wounds that cowered her body.
"These may look bad, but they don't hurt, weirdly enough." With a shrug, she turned her attention toward Quad again.
"Can't you tell me something about yourself? Or something we have done together in the past?" She then suggested, as always looking for a word that could trigger her memory.
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He tilts his head for a

He tilts his head for a moment. "Umm....hmm...well...", his mind has gone blank as to what he and Illrose have done. "Well you might know about this...", he says, stepping back and letting his wings expand from his back. "The Twin Gods gave me this gift, remember? I'm the Grand Talux, and have been fighting a dark creature named Iugulare for quite a while. When I saw you covered in black fur, I thought she had infected you, but it turned out to be something else that looked similar...", as he says this, his body radiates a little, his fur turning pure white for just a moment. When it subsides, he lets the wings return within him, and then says, "You really scared me when you were laying there. I tried to heal you but you didn't seem to be affected. I vaguely remember seeing Smiling Jack walking off when I found you dead...", he didn't know if he was helping at all.
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Illrose didn't say anything

Illrose didn't say anything as Quad spoke. Her looked at him, at the wings that for a moment expanded from his back. Even after he was done speaking she remained silent. It felt like his words - she didn't know which - had triggered a memory, but it was just out of reach. But then she remembered. Darkness and the smell of blood, then a voice and a warm feeling.
"You." She said.
"I remember your voice now. Or...I don't know if it's really a memory. But yes, I do know now that you tried to heal me. And I think it worked, I think you helped bringing me back." A smile appeared on her lips, before she began to think again.
"Iugulare...infection...I...I heard talk about those skeleton wolves. That was because of her, wasn't it? And you saw Jack? How long was I dead? Why haven't I seen him after I woke up again?" Yes, a talk with the doe Kahlan had made Illrose remember her friend Jack, and Illrose still wondered why she hadn't seen him.
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Quad's face lit up. He was

Quad's face lit up. He was actually helping her remember. "That was a few days ago when I found you. You were laying underneath a tree near the Ruins, and I saw Jack leaving, he seemed distraught. And you're right, those skeleton wolves were called rock hounds, there are still a few roaming around but for the most part they've all been killed off..."

He smiles again, "If my light can help you heal, please let me try again. I want to do everything I can to help you get better.", his wings grew out again, and he began to glow once more, concentrating his light on the open wounds in her side.

Please work...please work..., he thinks over and over.
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He nodded as well "Then I

He nodded as well "Then I suppose I shall reintroduce myself." He gave a polite bow. "I may be called Akira." When he regained his posture, his expression became curious. "Do you not remember who you are?"
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Quad; Illrose remembered very

Quad;
Illrose remembered very well the tree she had woke up by, lying in a dried pool of her own blood. She had sometimes returned to that very place in hope that she would remember something, but it hadn't worked. She frowned by what the blackbuck said. If Jack had been there, why had he left her all alone? She tried to shake away the confusing thoughts and smiled at Quad.
"You can try, but don't feel bad if it's not working." She replied.
"These wounds are a bit...strange. As I said, they don't hurt, but they don't seem to heal up either." The doe quickly silenced as his wings erupted from his back again, and she turned her head and watched what he did with curiosity.

Okami;
Illrose gave a nod in return.
"Very nice to meet you, Akira." She responded with a polite smile. Illrose then shook her head at his question.
"Well, I have been told my name is Illrose. That's pretty much all I know."
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A soft, concerned nuzzle was

A soft, concerned nuzzle was offered, then the small doe was off again, not wanting to disturb Pretty fur too much.

Juliet has been worried. She's glad to see Illrose again at least walking about instead of being..uhh..dead. >_>;
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Not recognizing the young doe

Not recognizing the young doe made Illrose a tad confused by her actions. But she was polite enough to return the nuzzle, even though the other one ran away before she got the chance to talk to her.

( Haha, it was very sweet of her. ♥ )
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Quad's light concentrated on

Quad's light concentrated on the wounds. They are not at all infected like he has dealt with before, but his light has a slight healing property. It would take quite a while for him to be able to fully heal her wounds, and would require hours of concentration.

After a few moments, he lets the light subside and backs away. "I'm sorry...it's not much but I hope I was able to help it heal up.", he speaks, with a disappointed tone in his voice.
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Argh I would love to shoot

Argh I would love to shoot you a post but you have so many rps going on with Illrose right now, I don't want you to be overwhelmed. |D;
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Quad; She stood completely

Quad;
She stood completely silent, like a statue while the blackbuck used his light to heal her wounds. As she suspected, the largest wounds, the 'weird' ones remained as before, but the healing at least made her feel much better.
"I'm sure you did. I do feel way better now." She casted the stag a thankful smile.

Xemi;
Oh, I don't mind another rp, Illrose need her relations to help her remember. :')
But I warn you though, my posts will probably be very short. xD
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[ Aww it's okay~ I'll keep

[ Aww it's okay~ I'll keep mine short too then? Or mostly dialogue. <3 -idled for dinner, back- ]

"You.. you're so.. different, but still so much the same." After a long bout of silence, Crucio had spoken up impulsively, having rested with the doe for quite some time now. His voice was reserved, quiet, more withdrawn than she would have ever heard it before. If only she could remember 'before.'

"I know you don't remember me, Illrose," he murmured, sounding distant once again.

"But I remember you. My name is Crucio; we.. were good friends. Perhaps not as close as some others, but still close. I fought alongside you many times, and against you once or twice, I admit. You were my mate's sister, but I was never sure if we knew each other well enough to call you mine as well." The stag trailed off into little more than a whisper, gazing off into nowhere.

"You.. know my ex-sister, Umay, and very well my subordinate, Judas. You two seem.. close, now?"
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( Oh, you can write as long

( Oh, you can write as long as you want, perhaps it inspires me to write longer too. xD But I can't promise anything. And alright. n__n )

Illrose enjoyed the silence with this stag. She did feel bad for not being by Umay's side, but she was sure Lume took good care of her. They didn't need Illrose to hang around. She was so deep in thought it almost startled her when the stag suddenly spoke, even though his voice were low. She lifted her gaze and looked at him as he spoke. When she heard the word 'fought' she frowned, but she didn't doubt the stag's words.
"Hm. I begin to understand how I've changed. It sounds like I've fought a lot in the past." She commented. Crucio was not the first to tell her she had fought someone. It was hard to believe, but still...it had to be true. Illrose then frowned again, confused this time.
"Your mate is my sister What...what is her name?" The only sister she knew of was Umay, and Crucio had just called her a ex-sister, so it couldn't be her.
"Umay is my sister...but why your ex-sister, did something happen between you? And I've been told Judas is a friend, that's how I feel about him as well. Nothing more."
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"You did, but always for what

"You did, but always for what you believed in or felt was right. You fought to protect your morals, and your loved ones, never out of spite or anarchy," he reassured, as calmly as he was able.

"You may not understand this but sometimes fighting is necessary. Sometimes it's the only way to.. set things right, so to speak?" The stag sounded unsure of his own words. There were so many things for himself and for his loved ones that fighting had only made worse and worse.

"Umay, her name's Umay. Both her and Kody were my.. ex-sister and ex-brother, they renounced the family titles for their own reasons and of course I respected that once I understand why they chose to do it. However, yesterday I lost much more than a title. I lost them as my dear friends, for my own flaws. I'm not mad. I'm not frustrated with them. I'm disappointed in myself for thinking of nothing but myself, it was my own fault and I can only pray they might forgive me some day, even if not entirely." A brief pause, and then he switched onto the topic of Judas.

"Hmm.. friends. Yes, you were friends. He always spoke very.. fondly of you," The stag muttered, smirking gently as the thoughts ran through his mind.

"I know he and his methods may seem questionable at times but I assure you, doubts aside, he would protect you with his life, Illrose."
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"Hm, perhaps. I obviously

"Hm, perhaps. I obviously don't remember." She smiled, although it was a rather forced smile. No, she did not remember why she had been fighting in the past, expect for that one time, when she had fought Jergens for killing Jack. That was a forgotten memory that had been strong enough to be remembered. A strong, but sad memory. But Jack had somehow managed to return. The question was, where was he now? Illrose shook her head, and looked at Crucio again as he continued talking. She decided not to ask anymore about what had happened between Umay and him - he would probably tell her if he wanted to.
"I wasn't asking about Umay though, I know who Umay is." She then said.
"But you said your mate were my sister...so, who is your mate, that were my sister?" She asked, trying to make her question more clear this time, although not sure if she succeeded. What he said next made her frown again, though.
"I..I hope he don't spoke more fondly of me than he would any other friend of his?" Illrose really didn't want Judas to believe anything could happen between them, if that was what he was thinking.
"Hm, I guess I should be appreciate for that."

Edit; ( Thank you for having Crucio being rather skittish atm, it puts Illrose in a 'protective-fighting-mood', and she really need that now. xD )
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The unicorn gave an amused

The unicorn gave an amused chuckle, then back tossed his long mane. "You are much more than a name, Dragon Queen. At least, you told me as much when we first met. I do hope you recover your memory soon. It would be disappointing to see someone... Take advantage of your condition." His words were calm, his voice smooth as silk.

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Sorry for the lateness xD
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His words made her smile, but

His words made her smile, but a second after the smile was replaced by a frown.
"Dragon Queen...is that a nickname?" She asked. It was a weird nickname if it was. Dragon Queen...She then got a rather worried look on her face.
"Yes, I hope too. And...do you know anyone that would take advantage of my condition?"
The thought made her rather nervous. She had swallowed everything she had been told the last couple of days, because...she had lost her memory, why should she doubt what they said? But someone could lie to her, someone could tell her something that was not true. The mere thought of this made her shift restlessly, wondering if she could really believe what she had already been told.

( It's alright. n_n )
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( AHH sorry for replying

( AHH sorry for replying slow, very active in-forest tonight. xD; Such a bad day for him. ;; And yesss it's okay. <3 I'm so happy to see Illy acting more.. Illy-ish. <3! )

"O-oh, I'm sorry.. I'm.. I-I'm a bit... I'm feeling odd today, my mind's a scattered mess," Crucio apologized quickly, giving a low, formal bow of his head in regret.

"Lev.. Leviathann," He muttered, clearing his throat, now oddly dry, after.

"She and you disowned each other over Gustiro. You were choosing him over her, and Umay, because you loved him, in spite of the fact he continued to hurt and reject your friends and elected family. Eventually, you recanted and went to your sisters, and had been on very good terms until.. well. Until you know what happened."

However, his gaze shot back up to her at the mention of Judas. After a few long moments of silence, he swallowed nervously, unable to look at her as he spoke. Instead, he glanced aside shamefully, hiding the side of his face nearest to her behind those long black bangs.

".. No. Of course not. He is very loyal, always has been," he lied, internally debating on whether or not he should have told her the truth.

Judas' affections for Illrose, however, were not his business to become involved in.
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Sorry if Pho's relentless

Sorry if Pho's relentless chasing was a bit to..Persistent.He is that after all.


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Sorry if Pho's relentless

Sorry if Pho's relentless chasing was a bit to..Persistent.He that after all.


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Xemi; ( Haha, it's alright.

Xemi;
( Haha, it's alright. Poor Crucio. :') Lol, it's good to play her more Illy-ish again too. xD )

"You don't have to excuse yourself. I understand you've had a rough time." While she spoke, she casted a glance up to his missing antlers.
"Leviathann." She then said, thoughtfully. That was a name she couldn't remember either, and she was pretty sure she hadn't met this Leviathann after she..came back. Surely her sister would have told her who she was then, right? Illrose perked her ears when Crucio spoke again.
"Oh, I've heard a lot about the thing between me and Gustiro, but I still don't fully understand it all. I understand why I in the end was forced to choose a side, but I still don't get why they hate each other so much." Even though she had promised to stay away from the red stag, she couldn't forget that he was among the first that showed the slightest interest in her after she came back. But of course, back then she didn't remember who he was. Illrose was rather caught up in her own things, and she didn't notice that Crucio acted a bit weird as he answered her question, so she just smiled.
"Good." The last thing she needed was the same drama all over again, just with another stag.


Wingeddeer;
Lol, I don't mind. Illrose was too busy keeping up with Crucio to notice him much anyway. xD
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( It's definitely good to see

( It's definitely good to see her a little more like her old self, yes ♥ )

"Hmm.. they hate each other because Gustiro would not allow you to be around your own family. It's undeniable how possessive and pushy he is, even if it is out of love for those he cares for. He was.. too controlling, I believe, and you weren't - aren't - some prize to be dragged and ordered around. He wished it to be only you two, and to banish everyone else from your lives." He paused, frowning, offering her a more thoughtful look.

".. That's what I take from it, anyhow, between what I've seen, and what I've heard, from both you and others. But I believe the main reason was that he did indeed want you entirely to himself, and would not permit your other loved ones to be be near you. When you were with him, very few, sometimes none would even be able to approach without becoming attacked by him. I was kept from my nephew because of him, whenever he was near Gustiro."
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Illrose didn't say anything

Illrose didn't say anything immediately. Mostly because what Crucio told her was what she had heard before. But the Gustiro they described was nothing like the Gustiro she had met these last days. And if he had wanted the two of them to be alone, why was he always surrounded by deer when she saw him?
"It can't be just his fault, can it?" She still remembered the day she had seen Umay and Jade double-team on Gustiro. It had been a horrible sight, so cowardly and unfair.
"I have been thinking...that perhaps I should talk to him." Meaning Gustiro of course.
"I know that is probably a very bad idea, since I'm supposed to stay away from him and all, but...I feel bad when I'm listing to only one side of this story, even if it is what my friends and family tells me. I feel like I should give him a chance to explain his point of view too." Illrose hadn't dared to tell this to someone else, not until now.
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Crucio simply shrugged in

Crucio simply shrugged in response.

"I hate him. I'm probably biased. It likely isn't all of his fault, but what isn't, I couldn't tell you. Illrose.. I know you're not weak, but if you do approach him, will you.. at least ensure another that you trust is nearby, for your own sake? He's incredibly powerful. Slow, but strong. If he were to attack you, as he had intended.. I don't know. Too many of us view him as a.. mindless animal, I'm sorry to say, because we have no evidence to the contrary. But I think this is fair, to see his side of it. Just.. please? Have someone nearby? Not right with you, but close, within earshot at least of a cry if something were to go wrong?" He spoke out of honest concern. He wasn't as close to Illrose as some had been, but that didn't mean he wasn't afraid for her wellbeing.
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"Well, then I have obviously

"Well, then I have obviously seen something in him that the rest of you haven't seen, because I would never have fallen in love with a mindless animal." Her voice was calm, just as her eyes as they rested on Crucio - sadly, the sight on her left eye was still blurry, she wondered if that would ever go away.
"And who do you suggest I bring with me if everybody I know are his enemy? I can't think of anyone who would let me close to him without interfering." She then said in a dry voice. It was still rather unbelievable that she had managed to fall in love with a stag that was hated by her friends and family. Shouldn't she have hated him too, if everybody else did? It was like a piece was missing in a puzzle, to make the picture complete.
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Crucio simply nodded in

Crucio simply nodded in response, expression going blank, unreadable. What exactly was going on in his mind was impossible to determine; it was a fine mixture of thought, consideration, and hesitance brought together.

".. I'd offer myself. With my.. antlers gone I'm hardly a threat to him. Yes, I do hate him, but I also respect your wishes to gain his side of the story as well. No one can make you do anything; you can refuse, and I'll accept that too graciously. This is merely a request you may disregard, it's just.." the stag trailed off, his features becoming soft and sullen;

"We.. already lost you once. We don't want to lose you again."

( Sorry, there was so much chasing that it was hard to get a reply in. Aah, I feel bad for Illy getting pushed aside like that. ;; Crucio's just so easy to push around right now, he didn't know what to do. I hope she doesn't feel ditched by him.. he'll seek her out in the future. )
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When Crucio offered himself

When Crucio offered himself Illrose gave him a surprised, but thankful smile.
"Thank you, Crucio. It mean a lot to me that you want to do this for me when you don't even like him." She stopped for a moment, suddenly deep in thought.
"Oh, you won't lose me again. Even though it is hard to tell who really 'have' me right now. I mean, if a deer comes over and say they are my friend then I have to believe them, but that doesn't automatically makes me feel like they are. It's like I have to get to know them all over again." Illrose didn't know where this sudden stream of words came from, but it felt good to talk about it, and Crucio was surprisingly easy to talk with.

( Haha, yeah, I know, lol. xD And no, as I wrote in the other post, Illrose don't blame Crucio. :') )
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Crucio simply nodded again in

Crucio simply nodded again in return, in understanding for her gratitude. If it would help Illrose find herself again, he was more than willing to go out of his way to help.

"Well.. you did and do have many that honestly were and still are, or call themselves, 'friend'. You were very well liked, it's not surprising. But I can understand why you might feel that way. It must be difficult, meeting so many at once. I hope I've not contributed to that burden." A weak smile tugged at his lips as he finished speaking.

"It may sound odd coming from me, who's now a stranger to you, but I did miss you. I knew you'd come back, though, that your death wasn't 'Death' at all. I guess I should though, hm? It's my job."
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Illrose gave a nod to what

Illrose gave a nod to what Crucio said. Yes, it was hard. Many names she had to learn all over again, relations she had no idea who were until they told her. But Illrose still had to smile at what Crucio said.
"Not at all, Crucio. It have been very nice to talk with you, so thanks for that." But she then tilted her head, curious at what he had just said.
"What do you mean? What is your job?"
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The stag smiled at her

The stag smiled at her gratefully, a much more timid smirk than most would have ever seen on him. But he tipped his head off to the side, eyeing her thoughtfully a few long moments.

".. Death is my job," he responded hesitantly, frowning. It was no mystery why learning this would put many deer off of him.

"I'm a.. collector of souls, a psychopomp. It was the duty charged to me by my fathers, Mephisto, and Lucifer. Devils they were, and a devil they made. Outside of this forest it was expected that I would claim and banish souls unworthy of heaven into hell when they left the world of the living. But that was there, this place is.. so different, different Gods, different beliefs. Many are reborn, given a chance at a new life. The world I come from is so very, very different than this one. I suppose it's no longer my job anymore, then," He concluded, gazing off through the ground in front of him, as if there was something buried shallow beneath them.

".. But Death still exists here, even in a place like this. I'm living proof of that.. if you can call this living."
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