The silence felt like it pressed toward her, strangling her, and Illrose could feel her heart racing. She almost wished he would protest, that he would refuse to let her go like she wished to refuse to let him go. But she had to, for the sake of her friends, and for the sake of her and Gustiro. For in the long run, they only brought pain to each other and others around them. Therefore, she nodded when he spoke again.
"Yes, this is my final decision." Illrose tried to have a calm voice, to hide the trembling, to hide how much it hurt to do this. Her ears flopped down when she noticed the change in the stag's eyes. She remembered this stare from the 'old days', from back when they had been enemies. It was so long ago she almost forgot they had ever been. Until now.
"I will stay away from you. I promise. But then you have to promise to stay away from me as well." Her voice was cold now, she had lowered her guard while speaking to him, but she now raised it back up, hiding the sorrow behind an emotionless mask.

( Haha thanks. I'll stick with the old one though. :b )

She lowered her head when he turned away from her and began to walk away. She stared down into the ground in front of her, when she realized he was looking back at her. Illrose's own eyes softened when she met his gaze this last time.
"Bye." She hurried to take in the sight of him this last time, before she forced herself to turn around and walk away. With empty eyes, she headed for the background. She wanted to hide among the large rocks, and allow herself to cry, only this once.

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^ Gah, noticed a mistake in my text. She was heading for the playground, not the background, omg. xD

moonsoverwater;
When she heard the steps of someone approaching, she was ready to snarl at them, to chase them away. But it was only a fawn. She couldn't chase away a fawn.
"Hello there, Tien." She greeted him, trying to keep her voice casual. She was glad she had her skull mask on, so no one would see her tears.
"I hide because I really wanted to be alone for a while. But you can sit here if you want to, I don't mind."

The way the fawn spoke made her look at him curiously. She had never heard a fawn talk like this before - like an adult. Oh well, she already knew many things in this forest were not as they seemed.
"Than you for your offer, Tien, I really appreciate it." She gave a nod, and a faint smile, although it was not visible behind her mask.
"But I don't want you to feel obligated to sit here. Feel free to run off whenever you get bored, I will understand."

She gave a single nod to the smaller deer.
"Thank you." There really wasn't more to say than that. As long as he stayed because he wanted to, not because he felt like he had to. She sighed, but her tears had seemed to dry out a bit. It also felt wrong to cry when so many deer suddenly sat around her, even though most of them were close friends and family.

Thanks! n_n

Oh, that drawing up on the top there and in my signature is made by Eyestrain. :')

*Purrs and cuddle closer.*

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Thankies. ♥

Thanks! n__n

Indeed. ♥

Haha, I've figured Illrose is much more playful and tolerantly when she's a mini. Quite fun, actually. :')

Oh, thanks for telling me. I'll go get her added straight away. n_n

Oh, you did? Well, I'm glad you liked it then, and thank you! :') ♥

Thank youu! :'D ♥

Sianna would take a place atop the dragon doe, who seemed unmoved by this so she'd stay. "Illrose... can I ask you something?", she says with a faint shake to throw off collected drops of pond water from fur and feather alike. "I know I've done a lot of bad things in the past, but I want to change, for you", she pauses a moment, thinking, pondering whether or not to actually ask. In the end she would. "I want to ask... if you ever even felt a slight bit of love for me? At any given time? I... have always really liked you, I could say my feelings for you translate to love. I don't want to lose you again". She speaks as if they once had a real relationship going.

The phoenix does mind was consumed by Illrose ever since she accepted her back. Cautious at first, but now she felt she could freely speak to the dragon... no matter how soon and foolish it may have been.

"Do you remember when I talked to you about Gustiro.. and how... I could give you everything he couldn't? That still stands, and I want to... I want to see you happy, Illrose, with me...". Sianna felt confident for some reason. Perhaps however, subconsciously she did know that Illrose would not share the same affections, and in the end be shot down. She could not live without love, or without heartache. A battle which could never be won.

Dropped her head, frowning. She would slowly remove herself from the the other, now standing a distance from her and a familiar stag she had met some time ago. 'Never', she repeats that word several times in her head... no one could ever love her like she wanted to be loved, that ship had sailed a long time ago... and now, her heart was an empty hole which could never been completely filled.

"I see", she says, pulling her head up but did not dare to make eye contact. She felt like she was sinking. Her entire life was rubbish, pointless. She could not even have a friend, let alone deer she'd known for a quite some time without falling in love, only to be rejected. Over and over. Traumatizing. - It was her own fault, she knew this, but changing completely, that could never be accomplished, not for a doe like Sianna.

"You're positive", she says but not in question, it was repeating, acknowledging the rejection. "I Suppose... I'll just go sit with Caen". She would go to white mini across the way, droopy and miserable without another word.

Sianna;
Her shoulders dropped as she watched the phoenix deer move over to sit with Caen. By Sianna's posture it could look like she had really hurt her feelings. Illrose sighed, before she placed her feet underneath her body before she rose from the water - slow and painfully. Every move was slow, to avoid any of the wounds would start to bleed again. Soon she sat down next to Sianna.
"We are still friends, right?" She asked. It would be a shame if this newly regained friendship would be thrown away so quickly.

moon;
Illrose gave a nod. It was a good thing this was painless, but pain was really one of the last things she feared. Oh well. She watched with interest as the dove disappeared inside the sand as it created the doe. This golden deer's powers were truly fascinating. Illrose closed her eyes when Phion begun her healing, she could feel how every touch, every 'kiss' made her skin tingle and grow warm, before the wound, bruise or pain went away. It was truly a relief, and she took a deep breath when Phion was finished. She felt like a whole new deer, healthy and strong. She opened her eyes again, watching the dove as it flied high in the skies, before it came back down to her. A small smile appeared on her lips, behind her mask.
"I shall not thank you then, but I want you to know you are welcome to sit with me anytime you want. You are welcomed near me."

You are very welcome. n_n

Rofl that was HF in her dragon form, Bouncy xD Thought I'd say it again here since she actually has two pictos, and it might be confusing...just clarifying ^^

Lol it's ok! It's understandable <3

((I hope it's okay that I post this here? If not kindly just say and I'll yoink it down. I had fun running into the 'monster' today! XD I feel like I met a forest celebrity, of sorts.))

Celtis was terrified at the sight of Illrose at first, and ran away. But then he felt badly about not even giving her a chance, and came back to apologize. "...Forgive me for being so rude, madame. You just...well...your skull, I mean face..." He stumbled over the words, trying not to insult the towering black deer with his explanation. Flustered, he mumbled. "It's a very nice skull. You're..not mad...right?" He flicked an ear. She...almost hadn't seemed to have heard him. Feeling terribly awkward, but too polite to just leave, he shuffled in place.

((Haha, well maybe once the war's done they'll meet again, hmm?))

His ears flicked forward. Had he finally won her attention? She leaned in, that strange skull drawing one deep whuff of breath in through its bony nostrils. He held perfectly still. And then pranced backwards as she stomped about. Apparently she hadn't liked his scent, or else was angry with him. She was giant, and for a moment he thought to run again. She could easily crush him with a kick or thrust of her massive horns... But she didn't quite seem angry. After a long moment he edged forward again. "Madame...Are you...alright? Can you speak? ...Can I help?" He looked down at the ground, at her (huge, razor-edged) hooves. If he looked into those red pits that were where her eyes should be, he knew he'd bolt. He probably should know better, should run...a life in the forest had made him too trusting, perhaps. He thought he could help. Thought he should help.

((Poor Celtis. Too chivalrous and well-mannered for his own good.))

'Not him'...The realization that the doe was looking for someone in particular was muddled in his brain as he backed up, barely dodging that same sharp hoof he'd just been eying. Now she definitely was mad. And possibly at him, even. He tried to offer again to help--maybe after she found whomever she was after, she'd be calmer?--but ended up springing away in a cloud of dust and kicked up foliage. The ground had shook under him at her second threat, and the doe was only a speck through the trees when he finally slowed to a trot.

((He probably wouldn't recognize her. Haha, she's got quite the crowd watching her in-game!))

That was a fun scuffle there ^^
By the way,would Illrose have bitten Pho? I don't mind if he gets infectected,just curious.

(Edit - Sorry I didn't see this until just now)

The blackbuck sits by her, watching Illrose lay motionless. Quad's eyes are filled with tears, as he now sees her up close...seeing how much her body has changed...how corrupted and diseased she has become.

"I'm here, Illrose. Please don't be afraid.", Quad says, his Grand Talux wings growing out. He only wants to help, but he can tell this darkness that covers her is not Iugulare's infection.

His body glows just slightly, the light enough to shine upon her body. He has to be absolutely sure that the light burst would help cleanse her. If this darkness is too intertwined with the real Illrose, then Quad may be too late to help.

"Please...please come back to us, Illrose..."