Illrose; Ancient wings unfolding.

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May contain mature language/ violence.



October 20, 2022

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physical- x mental-


Aaand added TH, will probably keep updates on there for now :')










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Btw. Five millionth

Btw. Five millionth Twenty-eighth page is mine ~
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Xemi; We also think it was a

Xemi;
We also think it was a good thing you was on Crucio, Illrose was glad to see him. :'D
And I really can relate to that. I get new ideas and designs for characters almost all the time, and sometimes I just have to try out that new idea, even though I know for sure I will return to Illrose in the end because I can't handle many characters. xD

Faustt;
:'D ♥

Quin;
Lol. x) Awh, that's good. n__n

Edit;
Xemi, you twenty-eight page thief. D:
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HURRHUR~ I have nine right

HURRHUR~

I have nine right now. I really need to stop. hfsgej
Because I love my idiots too much to kill anyone off ;;
I need to decide who's gonna go inactive..
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Well, I don't see any problem

Well, I don't see any problem in having many characters. You at least have the ability to be active with them unlike me that's not able to focus on more than one character. xD
Right now I have two, though. I feel like I have to keep Cal since she is Illrose's daughter.
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Ah yeah but it's tough

Ah yeah but it's tough because some of my deer are mated, so.. I'll see two of their lovers in the forest and have to decide between them from time to time ;; since I still want their mates to be active. Ahwell.
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Ah, yeah, I understand that

Ah, yeah, I understand that can be a tough decision. >.>
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"...I know I shouldn't, but,

"...I know I shouldn't, but, I find myself really enjoying these visits I pay to you."
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Illrose rested her head

Illrose rested her head against his body. It was nice, the feeling of soft fur against her naked cheek now that she did not wear her skull mask. Her ears moved slowly as the stag spoke, and a slight smile crept across Illrose's lips.
"I really enjoy them as well." She truthfully spoke. She had gotten used to having Judas around, and she did appreciate it.
"Who says you shouldn't, anyway?"
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The stag breathed through his

The stag breathed through his nose but once - turning his head to nuzzle his nose against her side before resting his chin on her back. How he wished he could smile just once, but he hoped that she would understand the sentiment regardless. "Hmn. That's good." His "eyes" wandered elsewhere, hoping no one else could hear his secret conversation.
"My duties, perhaps. Who and what I am..." He sighed, "Why wouldn't I have met you before I died."
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Illrose's eyes followed the

Illrose's eyes followed the dragonflies that flew quickly just above the water surface. They were so nimble in their movements her eyes barely managed to follow. At the same time she listened as Judas spoke, her ears pointed in his direction to catch the words.
"You should be glad you've met me here and now. If we met elsewhere I probably would have eaten you." She suddenly pulled herself a bit away from him. What was she doing? Illrose had promised herself not to let anyone too close again - she didn't want the episode with Gustiro to happen all over again, just with an other stag.
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His laugh was hollow, but

His laugh was hollow, but full of sincerity - that was until her felt her pull away. Almost upon instinct he'd do the same while his head turned to stare into the distance in front of him. His voice was monotone now, as if he were retreating away emotionally to protect himself.

"Eat me, huh? I guess I can see that. Tch." The stag lowered his head to rest on his front legs, red irises looking behind him to watch her.
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Don't ask what Quad's doing.

Don't ask what Quad's doing. I don't even know what he's doing XD

Quad: "What? I'm entertaining my friends! Geez!"
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A part of her did regret when

A part of her did regret when she pulled away - they were just friends, right? She could sit next to him like this then? But she then figured it was safest to keep her distance, just in case. Although she did doubt she could get the same feelings for anyone else than Gustiro. With that in mind, Illrose relaxed again, but did not allow herself to lean toward Judas once more.
"I bet you do." She answered with a slight grin.

Edit -
Ninja'd. xD
Haha, of course he is entertaining them, everyone can see that! Shake it, Quad!
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All the stag could do for the

All the stag could do for the moment was stare forward, waiting for some sort of sign it was his time to speak. How could he been so foolish - letting someone like her in. When he first met her in the forest he was completely content running of. There weren't plenty of other does in the forest. But no - he had to fall for her. Her retreat from him was his answer. It could never be.

He knew she still loved him. That Gustiro. And as much as he wished it weren't true, he could never deny Illrose of what she truly wanted. "Well, look at you." He finally spoke with a half-assed chuckle. "You could eat anything if you really wanted to."

[[Quad: It amused Judas, believe it or not. XD;; He's just kinda distracted.]]

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XD!!! I can just imagine

XD!!! I can just imagine it.

Fat blackbuck antelope dancing in a tree while Illrose and Judas are like o_O''''

Hehe!
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Quin; The air between them

Quin;
The air between them suddenly felt constrained, and Illrose shifted, trying to find a better position to sit in. Her eyes wandered, but in the end they landed on Judas again. When he spoke, she had to laugh, and the air suddenly felt easier - or at least she could pretend it did.
"What is that supposed to mean, do I have a large mouth?" She asked, jokingly.
"Or do you think I'm fat?" She put on a huffy face as she glared toward Judas, but the spark in her eyes told she was still joking.

Quad;
Lol. xD

Sorry, random! Don't mean to

Sorry, random! Don't mean to bother you!
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Moose' massive shape appeared infront of the dragondoe. He knew she had left the forest earlier, he had thought this impossible but if she had...maybe he could get back to his herd..?

"Greetings Illrose." Moose' voice rang out. "I'm sorry to bother you, but I hear you had left the forest?" He asked, putting a questionable expression on his face. "Is it really so there is a way out of this Forest?"
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Illrose's ears perked as the

Illrose's ears perked as the familiar voice greeted her, and she raised her head, noticing the bull moose approaching.
"Hello Moose." She answered, before she nodded.
"That is correct, I do leave the forest now and then. And yes, there is really a way out. Actually, there is many ways - the trouble can be to find the right one." Illrose smiled at the bull, while she tilted her head curiously. Did Moose wish to leave the forest?
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"Oh yeah, that's totally what

"Oh yeah, that's totally what I meant. Even though I probably eat more than you little lady." His reply would mimic the same joking tone she had used on him, a muttered chuckle soon following. The air wasn't as tense now - at least to him - but he still felt a tinge of anxiety that he'd do his best to hide. Who could blame him?

He's never once felt this conflicted before.

Moose couldn't really believe

Moose couldn't really believe it, there was actually a way out of this forest! That seemed impossibly to him since he never could find one during the death of Cinch and the betrayal of his herd. All that doesn't matter right now, he thought to himself, I have to know the way out now.

"Multiple ways?" He heard his voice come out. "Do you thinnk it would be possible to show me one of those ways?" He asked, raising his head a bit in interest and question.
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Quin; Illrose couldn't help

Quin;
Illrose couldn't help but chuckle at his tone.
"Hm, perhaps you do here, but I doubt you would have if we had been outside the Forest." She answered, looking over at Judas. Illrose still wished she had never pulled herself away from him, the tone between them had been so easy and unstrained. Now something still felt 'forced' between them, despite the jokingly tone.

Pepper;
She gave a nod.
"Of course I can show you. It's in the Birch forest, so we have to go there." She answered, and immediately began to walk in the direction that eventually would lead to the way out of the forest. She then looked over at Moose.
"Do you plan on leaving forever?" She then asked. That had been her plan, until she figured she could visit the Forest now and then, like she did now.

Moose smiled greatfully and

Moose smiled greatfully and followed after her. The Birch Forest? No wonder he had never found it, rarely did he ever visit that side of the forest.

Moose looked up at Illrose as she began to speak again. "Yes, hopefully not forever, just till I visit my homeland and figure things out." he said in the calmest voice possible. Thinking of the past events upsetted him, but he attempted his best not to show it.
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Illrose simply nodded her

Illrose simply nodded her head to his reply. She knew how that was. It was for similar reasons she had left the Forest as well. That, and because she wanted to get her dragon form back, instead of remaining a deer forever. It didn't take long before she quickened her pace, first into a trot, and then a full gallop - at least as fast as she could run without tiering herself completely.

Moose, feeling greatful for

Moose, feeling greatful for the silence that used to haunt him, also quickened his pace to keep up with the dragon doe. It would hopefully not be long till they found the exit and he could return to his home and find out whether or not he was still accepted as one of the herd.
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She kept a steady pace,

She kept a steady pace, enjoying the powerful sound of their hooves' rhythmical beat against the ground. It was a thunderous sound. But in the end they reached the wall of large trees, deep in the Birch forest. At first glance it seemed impossible to get past this wall but when one got close enough, gaps could be visible between some of the trees. Illrose came to a halt, turning toward Moose.
"Here it is." She announced.
"Every opening between those trees is a way out of the Forest. Now you have to find the way that takes you back to your place - if there is any."

"Why did you turn into a

"Why did you turn into a midget?"

(couldn't help myself lawl)
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"Because some dumbass decided

"Because some dumbass decided to turn me into one. And it's a damn sticky spell, I can't sneeze it off!"

( Haha, I actually laughed out loud when she suddenly was a mini. xD )

Moose halted beside Illrose

Moose halted beside Illrose and looked at the treeline. He took a few hesitant steps toward the trees, the small gaps clearly visible to him now. He turned his head slightly to Illrose before taking a few more steps closer.

Small breezes floated out of the gaps, and he passed by the first few gaps inhaling the mixed scents. They were all so different to him, he had never smelt these places before, they all seemed odd to him. He contined to pass the gaps until he halted by one and his fur rose on his back. He knew this scent. he quickly raised his head and turned his head towards Illrose, she was some distance away now. He trotted back to her and nodded. "I found it," he said turnng his head towards where he had once stood, "thank you so much." he said turning his head back to Illrose, his eyes gleaming.

"Being a midget isn't a bad

"Being a midget isn't a bad thing. You're adorable like this." *stuffs Illrose into her fluff and snuggles her*
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Pepper; She remained where

Pepper;
She remained where she was while the bull walked closer, seemingly studying the gaps between the trees. A smile crept across her face when he told her he found the right one, and Illrose gave a nod.
"You are welcome. And good luck." She said, before she took a few steps back, ready to go back. She wasn't ready to leave the Forest herself, yet. The opening back to her own world was quite easy to recognize - it was one of the largest gaps, large enough for her to go through without having to break her antlers off as she had done the first time she passed through. The remains of her old antlers did still lay in the grass, right before the gap.

jala;
"Shut up, I'm not adorable!" She hissed, trying to stomp the ground with her tiny hooves in a temper tantrum. But when she was pulled into the fur of the other doe, she simply resigned with a sigh. If it had been anyone else than Joro doing this, she probably would have exploded.
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Hey I apologize if I seemed

Hey I apologize if I seemed rude just now for not really reacting to Illrose, but I have a good reason why. My TEF is acting really strange, where sometimes deer appear to be sitsliding rather than walking, ect. On my screen Illrose sitslided toward me, and when it does that, it does not show any actions, so I couldn't tell if you were greeting me or trying to tell me to go away (only reason why I would think the second is because I am playing as Quad Wolf at the moment, some people don't like him because of his appearance).

Anyway I don't know how to fix this. I'd assume it has to do with my fps, I get on average between 3-6 fps, and simply have no idea how to raise it. I've already reduced nature detail, removed shadows, reduced character detail, ect and it still stays at 3-6 fps.
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Oh, that explains the lack of

Oh, that explains the lack of response, I thought you perhaps was multitasking and didn't see her actions. :')

But we didn't want you guys to go away, Illrose sniffed him a couple of times and got pretty sure it was Quad, and then invited him over to sit with her and the others. :'D
It was interesting to meet wolf Quad in-game. n_n

Don't know how to help fix your problem though, but hope you figure something out.

Hi c: Alligator met your

Hi c: Alligator met your Illrose today!

Her bio is in my signature. <3
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Oh, I was curious about who

Oh, I was curious about who that could bee. :')
It was nice to meet her. ♥
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beautiful biography , I like

beautiful biography , I like his storytelling and appearance as described =,D


(Gift)
is that I am very good at taking pictures
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Thank you so much! :'D And

Thank you so much! :'D

And that is a beautiful picture, have you taken it? (:
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it is my hobby n.n and one

it is my hobby n.n and one flower to another flower

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Thanks for your company

Thanks for your company yesterday <3 even if we were both rather inactive :'D
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Likewise. I think Illrose

Likewise. I think Illrose really needed that silent moment. :') ♥
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Hello there! Federweber was

Hello there!
Federweber was lying next to Illrose on that wall at the ruins today Smiling Thanks for your company!
When Illrose stood up Feder ran to her and bowed: She wanted to say goodbye^^ Just had to explain that because you seemed quite confused Laughing out loud

And btw, I love your manip of Illrose 8 -o
byButterbrot
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Hello you, and thanks for the

Hello you, and thanks for the company today! n__n
I'm sorry if Illrose seemed confused, I was multitasking and didn't really pay attention to the TEF-window. ^^'

And thank you. :')

"Hi Illrose!" Alligator sat

"Hi Illrose!" Alligator sat down contently.
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"Hm, hello you." Illrose

"Hm, hello you." Illrose tilted her head curiously at the smaller deer, remembering she had seen her once or twice before.

Alligator's ears twitched

Alligator's ears twitched softly, and chilly breeze blowing through her skull-face and sending shivers down her spine. The small deer needed a little comfort right now and said, "I would like to sit next to you, Illrose. I'm cold, but I still kind of figured that you wanted some company. So may I?" A gentle smile appeared very slowly, an almost unoticable smile that made her seem fragile.
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A little smile appeared on

A little smile appeared on her lips, her head still tilted slightly.
"I would enjoy your company. Come, sit close and get warmer." She nodded to her own side, gesturing for the smaller deer to sit down. A lot had happened lately, and Illrose really needed some quiet time right now. But Alligator's company was alright, she was just glad she wasn't completely alone.
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The red bull did not get too

The red bull did not get too close but watched the dragon doe with hard, pained eyes from a reasonable distance. His body seemed to sag heavily. The fresh wounds he bore, mainly along his head and down his legs and stomach, seemed not the only thing wearing him down.
"Is like lure with hook," he murmured. The tone of his voice low in defeat. "Is give in to you. Many a time give in. When is you do wrong I go away but is lure again. Once do as told, is stay away like for asked. Then is you come back. Then is told come near others know is no safe. Still is no good for, yes? When is they turn, when is they do wrong, is you choice again against me."
He suddenly stood tall and slammed a hoof into the dirt his voice jumping in desperation. "Why against me?! Why choice all time not me?!" He shook his head violently though it may have seemed painful the way his heavy antlers wrenched at his neck. "Even know is be my wrong against family is has chose you many time!" He took a single step forward though did not move an inch more. "Is this time choose me! Choose me!"
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Illrose's fur bristled

Illrose's fur bristled immediately when she noticed the red stag, and her ears were pinned to her ears. The anger was just a mask though, to hide the painful sting in her heart, and the tears that threatened to flood her eyes if she let her guard drop an inch too much. She stomped the ground, ready to chase the red stag off again. But one ear perked up again as he spoke, she was not prepared for this. She clenched her teeth, trying to keep the guard up. She could not give in again, not this time! She did not say a single word while Gustiro spoke, but the painful sting in her heart got worse. She then shook her head slowly.
"No, I can't choose you. Not now, not ever." She said, her voice filled with sadness.
"And you are right. I have lured you, I have tricked you, I have confused you and I am so sorry! I didn't do it on purpose, I simply couldn't stay away from you. Something always pulls me back to you, and I try to convince myself we can make it work this time. But then something bad always happen and I realize it will never work." Her words was desperate, regretful and sad.
"And I know I have chosen against you even if it wasn't your fault. I have been unfair to you, and it feels terrible, but...it's simply not working, you have to see that as well? It will never work, no matter how much we try." It was tempting to just walk over to him, to bury her face into his fur, as she had done so many times earlier. But she stood still.
"Go back to your family, Gustiro. Never choose me before them again, you deserve someone much better than me." She was serious this time. It did hurt - like hell - but this time she really was trying to let go off him, to put behind her the feelings she had for him. And he did truly deserve someone better than her, someone that didn't lure him over and over again.
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Gustiro's ears laid tightly

Gustiro's ears laid tightly against his skull, they may have even appear to be trying to block out the unfavorable words she spoke. His throat constricted and strained as if having difficulty swallowing. The first word in response was forced, barely escaping his lungs.
"Why," his voice became more clear as he continued though hushed and pleading. "Why can't?" He shook his head again though this time not so harshly. "Is always other. Is why, yes? Then be two instead... why not two, yes? Just two..."
He realized what he was proposing. Something that went against his very nature. Against everything he was taught, everything he lived for. But he had never felt such a pain as this before. Of all the physical abuse he had put himself through. Of all the mental and emotional strains he had suffered in this life and lives passed. He never knew such a horrid sting such as this. One that was renewed and grew more intense every time he and Illrose tore apart from each other. Never had he felt such an unyielding longing which had dragged him back to her side. His words perhaps were merely out of desperation to sooth this pain.
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A sad smile almost appeared

A sad smile almost appeared on her lips by his naive suggestion. And a part of her found this very tempting. Just forget about everything and everyone else and be with the stag she had fallen in love with. But she slowly shook her head again.
"Just the two of us? But what then if a friend of mine or a friend of yours wanted to come and be with us? What then?" She paused for a moment, glad she was wearing the skull so Gustiro did not see her trembling lips, and how she fought to hold back the tears. This was ridiculous, she had almost never cried before, and she did not want to start now!
"It's impossible. I need my friends, just as you need your family. Something will always come between." She had to turn her head away quickly and close her eyes when reality hit her. She was going to lose him this time, she was about to push him away, to cut off the invisible strings that always pulled her back to him.
"Please, don't make this harder than it already is." Her voice could barely be heard as she turned to face Gustiro again.

( Pfft, tried a new speech color, but figured I liked the old one better. xD )
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There was a long pause before

There was a long pause before the red bull finally spoke again. Though the desperation seemed to have melted from his voice leaving but a level, droning tone. His eyes that were pleading along with him now faded to an empty, glassy stare.
"Then... is final decide?"
He paused again, a stretch of silence. When his voice returned to him once more his eyes again took a drastic turn. He looked at her with the same hard stare he fixed with his enemies, a look he had given her when she was still his original nemesis in the forest. Though somehow there was a subtle difference. A pain, a longing drowned in old resentments forced to the surface. If it must be then he would harden his heart to her. There was no other way, no other way to keep from drifting back to her. He would keep her and this pain away in the only way he knew how, with violence.
"If this is choice... then... stay away. Always, yes? Come near... even little... Will attack... Understand?"
This warning the last he would show that he wished not to harm her.

(Both work well. X3 )