Hello everyone,

Since I haven't been gone for ages it's mostly likely I haven't been forgotten about yet. Once again I have been too curious and wanted to take a look at the new and improved community site. I must say, it looks lovely! I still have a few problems with getting my text in the right color and size, but overall it's fine. I love the categories, I'm a category person.

I would call this a comeback, but I won't. I actually removed every blog entry I wrote aside from my stories and poems. Meaning that I will mainly use the community site for my creativity in writing. Blogs like these will be rare, however it's also a way of writing I'm fond of.

I left this site mainly for personal reasons. At one point I was completely fed up with this community and just got tired of it. It irritated me and that doesn't really help me. However, I think that irritation has grown from the major addiction this site caused. I kept checking the site every ten minutes for updates and it honestly sucked the life out of me. I was an addict and I don't want to be an addict. I liked it, but at the same time hated it. Very frustrating and unhealthy. On top of that, my ex-boyfriend broke up our almost three year lasting relationship, which made me lose the will to do anything anymore. But luckily that's over. For two months he was all I could think about, we had some kind of 'friendship' thing going on but it only made it worse. We fought often and I still got blamed for everything bad that happened.

So I decided to clean up a bit, throwing away some of the now meaningless stuff he had given to me. I still keep some memories, but well hidden. For the future, to show my kids or something. But as I cleaned up, I started to accept reality. ''He dumped you, get over it girl. He wasn't worth your attention after all. Everything you have to give, you can give to someone better.'' Yes, I realized the attention that I gave him after the break-up was merely an ego-boost for him. Because I fell in love with someone else and he couldn't take it. So he dumped me again, as a friend this time.

But to sum a big story up: I got over him and fell in love again. I'm happy to say that he likes me too. I'm meeting him next weekend, so we'll see.

Furthermore, I'm quite busy with school and soon I'll be starting my internship and working full days without payment. They also expect me to make money at my job, finish projects for after my internship and of course to make a rapport of the internship. Busy, busy, busy. No social life please.

So I come back to the point why I'm not gonna be as active as you are used from me. This will mainly be a place to dump my stories and poems, of course related to TEF, as they are more read than stories I place on dA. I'll also be in Forest, as I sometimes play it when I'm bored or need to calm down. I've rediscovered the purpose of the game and I'd like to have it stay that way.
For now I'll only play Fenqua and Amara. Fenqua because she is my first deer and actually my alter ego. Amara because she's somehow special and dear to me and I can't get rid of her. I have something in mind for the two of them. I recently also booted Silvery in, but I'm not sure about bringing her back. She was way too involved in drama.

Their memories have been erased so to say, their personalities are mainly the same but they have gone back to where they're less human and more deer. They're young and they're pure, ready for a new beginning. Probably they won't have much social contact, but that's not my main goal in the game. I apologize for that, I simply can't keep up with everything that happens in their friends lives so I would fall behind anyway.

I'm currently deciding on a winter coat for Amara. I'll probably ask someone to spell spam her in-Forest sooner or later. See you all around.

Love,

Avani