22/07/22
Fear is something that many Vikings reject in their culture, but even the most ferocious Berserker can and will still fear the act of change. The Monarch herself is no stranger to this, as her upcoming decisions are far greater than any raid or dance with death, and far greater than herself as the lives of her people may be altered as well. It is not a war or some disease that threatens this change. But it is a bittersweet parting from the home she was so loyal to.
Engaged to the man she loves, she is destined to leave her kingdom and join Sigur in his world. And it is this decision that has been crippling the Monarch for some time now. To leave her family and people behind for the sake of her own happiness.
She writes letters to those still around to receive them. But the words struggle to form on the parchments. Days of writing and rewriting. Days of watching her people and pondering who could take over, if anyone at all. She had fostered her lands to be self sufficient. Given them everything they needed to earn wealth and protect their homes.
But there are grudges that still burn and acts of revenge still not carried out. And while she would always return to her family if ever they needed or simply wanted her there, she still feels as though she’s enacting some kind of betrayal.
And yet she will not leave this chosen path. If the Gods are really the ones pulling the strings, then her departure is meant to be. She must look towards the future and the life she’ll walk beside her soulmate. She can only hope her father will be proud in at least some of it.
And then she received the first challenge from the quiz show called ‘is my love real or not’ by suffering the torture of planning a wedding.
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09/01/22
During the month of Yule, was invited to Sigur’s Hall and was officially proposed to. Though she’d fantasised about this moment many times in the past, nothing prepared her for the real thing. Said yes with no hesitation while sobbing. She strived to be a strong woman that could survive in a male dominant world. But she was still a woman that yearned for a husband, a family. And that dream was now real.
However…Had she really thought it through? Absolutely fucking not. Hit with a realisation after that night of bliss. What the actual fuck does she do now. With her own kingdom to still govern and many businesses relying on her, as well as the people that dote on her. Could she really just up and leave all of that? bruh.
Meanwhile, while slewing in a pit of despair, spoke with her mother. Both exchanged their news. Runa being engaged and Canary giving birth to a new daughter. Was happy that everything went well with her mothers pregnancy, though saddened that she ultimately couldn’t partake in the custom that came along with said births. Took it as a sign that her family wasn’t upkeeping with Viking tradition, and that perhaps it wouldn’t be such a loss if she were to leave since things were also changing elsewhere.
Was apprehensive to meet her new sibling until it finally happened. Realised soon after seeing the child that she was indifferent. While she is happy for her mother and hopes that happiness continues, the girl isn’t Viking, at least in Runa’s eyes. She is not a daughter of Varg. One less thing for Runa to worry about. One less reason for her to stay in Riki.
Maybe it would be for the best. Her upbringing was centred around the traditions that her father strictly kept. Traditions that are now difficult to break lest she angers the Gods. Though now with her father gone, and no one maintaining that order, things are slowly changing or fizzling out. So perhaps it would be better for her own mental health to uproot herself and move elsewhere, to a land with her lover where they can both maintain the traditions they cherish.
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29/11/21
Found herself reeling from the news that her mother is pregnant. And while she desperately wants to be happy for her mother, is struggling to come to terms with it, with the weight of previous events overshadowing it. Feels bitterness, and equally feels shame for feeling the bitterness. Its complicated. Perhaps she believed her mother would never find someone else after Varg, or at least not this quickly. And at the very very least, that her mother wouldn't get pregnant again. But Canary is entitled to finding happiness, even if it means with a man that hasn't married her, and a man that isn't going to take the crown in Vargheim. Never thought she would have a bastard sibling on her mother's side of the family. She had always lowkey scorned her father's inability to keep his manhood to himself and siring numerous children outside of wedlock. And now her mother has done the same thing, albeit not as severe. Can only hope that the man she's chosen is worth it.
This news also brought up negative feelings towards Meiri. More specifically, the lack of plans to get revenge on the country that murdered Varg. Suppose moving on with a new family is more important than taking revenge. That would be the most responsible thing to do, and the Monarch has been considering this a lot recently. Follow her mother's example and move on. Maybe even move out of this world entirely and move in with Sigur. But the Viking in her is making that choice more difficult. Revenge and raiding is what it means to be 'Viking'. If she were to lose that, she fears losing more connections to her father.
Fearful that things are changing. Fearful to take a different step forward in life after being on the same path for so long.
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07/09/21
It's been a minute.
Thriving in more ways than one. Feeling as though she's finally living again after the loss of her father. With the efficiency of her ruling, feels nearly untouchable when it comes to her kingdom, even with threats from overseas trying to creep their way into Viking territory.
Has spent more time in Sigur's kingdom as well. Fully opened up to her lover and exposed the most fragile parts of herself to him, sharing nights together as though it would be their last. Ventured to a wedding that was probably the most terrifying and enthralling marriage she'd ever attended. People died, but the
right people died and that's what made it good. Felt as though she was part of something life changing for so many people, which, after the failed raid 2 years ago, was something she really needed to experience.
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24/11/20
A year with no raids. A year without her father. Though subtle to those around her, there has been a shift in her ruling. A year at home has allowed her to fully see what her kingdom deals with through every season. And while other places may suffer from no raiding, the Monarch's still flourishes. It can sustain itself. Though the land is no longer as welcoming as it used to be. With winter closing in, more Wildlings try to test Kljúfa's defences, and each time the Monarch becomes less forgiving. Only genuine refugees may win her over, but any attack is returned with equal violence. Perhaps a sign of her lingering hatred towards Meiri. That defeat still haunted her, and though the passing of time eases the ache in her heart for her fathers death, it does not quell the seething animosity she carries towards Meiri and its people, its King. One day she will return to that land, and one day she will sail away with the Meirian King's head on the bow of her ship.
Finding great comfort and support in Sigur. His presence keeping her grounded and sane. Feeling as though she can almost escape her dark thoughts when he's around. Became aware of some activity in his lands. A threat to Sigur that had found its way to the forest. Almost too eager to aid him, making it clear she'd be by his side should anything happen. Kinda ready to hurt someone to make herself feel better Runa pls.
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03/09/20
Doing better than ever all things considered, and didn't really realize this until she had a conversation with Kol recently. Lowkey hinted to her brother about Sigur, which weirdly, made her feel even more strongly towards the man she was smitten with. As for her brothers well-being though... is more than lowkey worried. His weight loss and scruffy appearance suggests that he's having more than just a bad time recently, and the loss of his arm seems to be a key factor in that. Tried her best to keep things positive, even relating his situation to the God Týr, and how he'd lost his hand to Fenrir and still didn't let that slow him down as a mighty God. Not sure if the story helped though. Couldn't really relate to his situation but was adamant that things would improve with time. Walk before you can run.
Also realizing she's starting to coddle siblings whenever she gets the chance to see them. With meetings so few and far between, takes advantage of their times together, cramming as much doting as possible into only a few hours.
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07/07/20
On a trip with Sigur to the horse markets in his homelands.
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24/06/20
The conversation she'd had with Sigur on the ship still lingered in her mind. Tried to resign certain thoughts after interpreting his words a certain way. Whoever he'd eventually get with, they'd be the luckiest woman on earth. Thought that was that, and they'd simply continue as normal. Close friends, getting drunk, having a laugh. Because of this, was completely caught off guard by Sigur's words after a night of drinking. So much so that the Monarch instantly blamed it on the mead. But it wasn't the mead.
Felt herself lean into him as they both shared suppressed feelings for each other. This whole time she had felt as though she'd never be good enough, and he had been scared of ruining what they already had. The God's truly had been toying with them this whole time. Felt fluttery, shy and awkward. But overall felt the happiest she had been in a long time. She lost part of herself when her father died. Perhaps now she was finally getting it back. Left the forest with Sigur.
And then realised the God's really do hate them because the next day in the forest they had company the whole time. Except jokes on you God's because Runa needs friends SO HA. In that awkward fluttery embarrassed girly phase but is doing her best to try and hide it. Learnt the names of the two they'd been sharing company with, Liabrin and Renhaal. Spoke a little about the forest and its violence. And queue a massive fight that provided an excellent example of what Runa had been talking about. Saw the two females get involved and decided that she would just leave. On too much of a high with Sigur to ruin it by getting involved in something that has nothing to do with her.
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09/06/20
Doing what she does best. Drowning her feelings in mead? No the other thing. Drowning her feelings in work? Yes that. Didn't think she would have to deal with such trivial and outright stupid things as a Queen but here we are. The incident with the whale resulted in an island wide search for a witch, as the fishermen were convinced the explosion was some form of witch craft. I think we need to start capping mead because the people are losing it. Except don't because that will cause a riot and not by the people but by Runa. Because of this hunt however, things nearly got messy as they dragged out a woman whom they were convinced was the culprit. SO...faked an execution to appease the people and allowed the poor woman and her family to flee on a boat to seek refuge in the Monarch's mainland Kingdom. The perks of owning multiple lands...
On the topic of whales though. Ventured on a whaling trip with Sigur. Wanted to show him what she'd achieved with her fishing fleet and share what she's learnt. Had a somewhat deep conversation during the trip that made the Monarch reflect on a few things. Her sisters often seemed more depressed after having kids. But at least they're having kids while Runa stays a single pringle. Still determined to find Mr right and do things properly. Real love, no bastard children. However, starting to wonder if its some joke the Gods are playing on both Runa and Sigur and they'll actually never find lovers ever again, as player slowly turns to look into the camera with 'are you serious?'.
Torfastr its been 84 years where the f have you been.
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20/04/20
Hi I'm a mildly unstable Viking with feelings.
Lysa lets get some bears. You got mauled by one once they clearly like you.
Given a necklace made by Sigur and probably had the girliest internal monologue she's ever had in her life.
Spent some quiet time with Melrakki in the forest. Glad and content that he's still kicking, though its a sad reminder of all the family she hasn't seen in a long time.
Wait whales can explode?
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03/04/20
Spending most of her time with Sigur when not taking care of her Kingdom(s). Was invited to an execution by the King, and while the Monarch usually didn't get excited over such events, this one in particular held her attention the entire time. Execution via kelpie. Had never heard of the creatures before, and found it a little ironic after spending days sitting in a downpour within the forest. Now she was able to watch a horse drown its prey. Good stuff.
Yesterday caught wind of a scent she hadn't smelt for a while, Finding Hraustr at their old den with Porunnr. Immediately settled next to her brother to enjoy the nostalgic feeling. Was then hit with a bombshell that Por had a child. Might have flipped shit if it wasn't for her sisters shame over the whole thing. So took a different approach, ignoring who the father might be and who the Monarch potentially wants to murder. Asked instead if Por regretted having a child, focusing instead on the boy at her side. Was content with the answer. The boy was all that mattered. We'll just ignore that he's a bastard okay.
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11/03/20
Ventured to Sigur's Hall and marvelled at the bison meat and high quality mead during a mighty feast. Was invited to journey to a horse market while the pair were gradually getting more and more wasted. Said yes without much thought, but when asked if she was sure, actually sat back and thought things through a little. The benefit of ruling an island is that it was difficult to attack. Her people were very experienced with fending for themselves when the Monarch was away raiding, and she put a lot of trust into the women of her kingdom. She knew they would fight to defend what was theirs. With that being said, it might be worth getting more bears before she leaves. Bears are better guard dogs than dogs...apparently.
Aside from that, the Monarch has been training. Focusing on lifting weights to strengthen her arms for a slightly different type of weapon to try. Why use normal axes when you can duel wield long handled axes hehEHHEH. Swing those bastards around and no one will get near her. Might be a little too eager for a new adventure. Another reason why she wants to travel with Sigur. Not that she wants anything to go wrong, but she wants to prove she still has what it takes as a warrior after the defeat in Meiri. Though she wouldn't admit it, she needs to rebuild some confidence on the battlefield.
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05/03/20
Has been trying to make some very serious meaningful decisions within her kingdom that are incredibly important. We need...a male bear. No shut up hear me out. Breeding horses is great and all, but we need guard dogs, not dogs but bears. No i'm not drunk shut up.
Since the arrival of Margaret, this idea had been stuck in her head for some time. If she could hand-rear bear cubs, she could change the very identity of her kingdom. Being an island, it was one of the most vulnerable parts of Riki. The previous King had issues with raiders and Runa herself had experienced it a few times. Though as of yet no one has made it past the beach. Even so, she wanted more security, and if the island became known as beAR island, wildling's would hopefully become a bit more reluctant to try and camp in the forest. Therefore, someone get her a male bear.
Is otherwise spending a lot of time with Sigur. Growing less mindful of his personal space and more comfortable with his fur and warmth..
Coming to terms with a sad truth that the forest was an easier place to meet with family members than within their own kingdoms. Glad at least that her mother seems to be doing okay all things considered.
Met a new High King from another land. Hrodvitir. Respectable, kinda likes. Met someone else (Vikal) :eyes:
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11/02/20
Visited Torfastr's kingdom, catching up and sharing their experiences while hunting and drinking. See's a lot of potential in his world, though it seems somewhat behind compared to Riki. Less populated, more wilderness. Kinda likes it but see's the struggles in the eyes of the people, their thin bodies and aching bellies. They need more food.
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31/12/19
With many voices from her Kingdom against her in regards to her fishing expedition, she left the shores of her lands with mixed feelings. Didn't doubt her own ideals, but was left angered by her peoples seeming distrust in her. Its not like this was a suicide mission or anything right? She doesn't look like she's going crazy or anything right? Right?! Well...
Clear skies promised smooth sailing, until a storm rolled in. If there was one regret she might have had, it was bringing Ingolfr with her. He might be older than her by some weird ageing in different lands, but to her he was still her young nephew and she didn't want to lose anymore family members. His sea sickness hit her with guilt, but the storm did more damage as her men were thrown overboard, never to be seen again. Desperate to hang onto the ship and delirious from lack of sleep, some would even scream that they saw the mighty Jormungandr beneath the waves, and that this was revenge upon Runa for embarking on this crazy venture in the middle of winter. One of those men disappeared overboard at one point, and it wasn't the storm that pushed him.
By the time the storm subsided, the fleet had drifted off coarse and away from each other. It would takes hours for everyone to reunite and even then one ship remained missing. It was a big hit to Runa's pride, but she wouldn't let that show. They would not turn back now, especially empty handed lest she face humiliation.
Her men were angry with her, she could see it in their eyes. Even as they started to fish and fill their barrels, they needed something more to make it all worth it. That chance finally came with the sighting of orca, and the Monarch knew they were onto something. Ulfrun was no longer with her, but she'd learnt enough to know when orca were hunting, and it was exactly what Runa and her crew had been waiting for.
Throwing a spear towards Ingolfr, the fleet would pursue, surround and kill the whale. It was a long and drawn out process. Many spears missed, and many that hit were not deep enough. But eventually, with the surrounding water stained dark red, the whale succumbed to its fate. The hunt was a success. This whale alone could feed the Kingdom. Now they had to get it back home.
A sudden alert from a watchmen stops everyone from celebrating however. Foreign ships were approaching. Men aboard Runa's fleet rush towards their spears and axes. No one was going to take their prize away from them. They were ready for war over a whale. Upon closer inspection however, the foreign ships looked old, battered, weak and barely held together in some places. Measly fishing boats. But the people looked anything but weak.
There was a standoff, threatening stares and passive aggressive postures. If it weren't for Ingolfr standing behind her, the Monarch wasn't sure she'd win. There was no fighting in the end. Simply staring and standing ones ground was sometimes more successful in times like these. And she would learn of the foreigners homeland. Frossen. A new land, at least for Runa. In return for the information, she offered a barrel of fish. They seemed more desperate for food than anything else so they took it and left.
A success. Despite her people's worries, she had succeeded in bringing food back home for the winter. It might not seem like a big deal to some people, but for the Monarch it was a massive step forward, moving on from the loss of her father and the defeat they'd endured in Meiri. She proved to herself that she was capable without holding her fathers hand. As Varg's daughter, she was determined to live and make him proud.
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12/12/19
In higher spirits, or so it would seem to an outsider. Going through the motions of grieving, drinking and abusing herself, she now seems clearer, healthier. But is there anything healthy about going on a fishing venture in the middle of winter when sea storms and icebergs threaten to kill the entire fleet? NO BUT WE'RE DOING IT ANYWAY.
On the Meiri raid months ago, she had been clear of mind when she'd asked Ingolfr to join her. But then her father died and everything had been delayed. Of course it was stupid to go out there. The waves crashing against the cliffs had been evidence enough to put anyone off. And yet here she was with her nephew, venturing out with a not so sane mindset. The kingdom needed more food to get them through the winter. She could ask her siblings for aid, or ration the new area she'd inherited from her late father. But no. Too stubborn for that. Or perhaps this was still part of the grieving process. To put oneself into a life threatening situation to feel alive again.
On a positive note, it was good to see Sigur again after a long absence. His presence helped to ground her a little after everything that happened. At least she got to see one friend before potentially sailing herself and her crew to their deaths. Got to think of the positives.
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