March 24th, 2016
Out of forest with Dale alongside his mother and younger half-siblings.

Human form is weird, trying not to freak out x.x

March 19th, 2016
Wtf are updates?

Kinda cooled off since he found out about his mothers instigating of Damien. Kinda..torn because while he thinks his mother was WAY OUTTA FUCKING LINE, still feels that Damien could have been the bigger man, but still ultimately thinks his mother was in the wrong to begin with.

Basically keeping his eye on his mother so she doesnt do something stupid and just in case Damien wants some retaliation. Kinda also on the lookout for Voxiox (because gdi you're so freaking awesome Blue).

Loved on Italia because that what he do.

And then Mom got all uppity because of a predator near by (who apparently was chasing a young fawn named Viola earlier). After a while was asked to check the den, and did so but only after changing into his armor. JUST IN CASE these preds get aggressive. Rubbed the trees with his scent before going back to his mother. From there, Mom lead the kids back home (with italia), but was asked to stay with a small fawn (Yvaine) who had been lead over by her earlier on to the fawn pile. The fawn seemed intent on staying by a tree so stayed with AND THEN GOT NUZZLED AND OMG CHILD PLZ NOW I WANT KIDS MORE u.u

March 9th, 2016
The shit I have to deal with.

[6:18:12 PM] Bladeh: helios standing there like 8/
[6:18:30 PM] EASY BAKE HUSBAND (Soli): Helios is pissed too. His feathers all all ruffled (litterally.)
[6:18:34 PM] I Bake Males (Sen): lol
[6:19:16 PM] EASY BAKE HUSBAND (Soli): hes literally an agry cockatoo
[6:19:20 PM] I Bake Males (Sen): XDDDDD
[6:19:35 PM] I Bake Males (Sen): I HAVE A VID FOR THIS:



March 8th, 2016
Long story short, shit went down with Mom and Damien. Was pretty much only trying to keep Damien (and at the time assumed Morioch was trying to attack mom too) from hitting his mother, getting some nice gashes along his sides in the process. AFTER Damien broke away, was ready to lock tines with Moro but...the Mnemonist was actually HELPING his mother. Kinda just...turned into a broken record (Soli was even all O.O wtf RL GG HRAE). Literally couldn't believe it. Also Umay was in there somewhere I THINK ++++ for you Ooms.

Then when Adayti showed up, told her to watch his mother while he went back to his siblings (But SOli got a bit turned around which alerted a Rojan) and got in a minor scuffle with the lion, mostly consisted in Helios being all "DUDE BRO WTF MAN" >:| (But that was because Rojan thought Helios was going after Damien again so Helios and Player can't exactly blame him so it's totally cool ♥ )

Noted Akos there, still too stunned to thank the boy for RUNNING INTO THE FRAY AND SORTA WANTINg TO WRING HIS LITTLE NECK BECAUSE OMG CHILD WHY DID U DO THAT BUT I LOVE YOU KIDDO. Rajani was there as well, and did notice Halla and her son Quay near by but kinda was too distracted by a nearby Moro whom Akos approached. Kinda stared at the Mnemonist, REALLY FUCKING TORN between wanting to thank but also still REALLY INSECURE because uhm...you killed my mom in the past :/ (Player really cannot even THANKS AGAIN HRAE fliherguirhdugghdl)

And then just sorta plopped down to tend to his wounds, later on his mom and Adayti returning after the White Oryx tended to his mothers wounds.

And then later had to fetch Theo because the little monster followed Rose and her fawns to her home. And then Adayti went to collect Alina from Akos and just gdi I need rest.

(Player has to say yesterday was a huge WTF but goddamn i love these chars)

March 7th, 2016
- Got some awesome gifts from Adayti which included: a crystal pendant and a tiny sheathed sword that had anti-venom inside of it.
- Walked around the forest with siblings to Zaf who was at the playground.
- Zaf talked to Elliot (who apparently wasn't too happy with her or something? He doesn't actually know what was said, only that Dale got the conversation to stop.)
- His siblings are making him want kids more and more :<
- Mom took Colette and Thierri to play with the kids from the other day (Aly and Mehki this time)
- SLeeps.

March 4th, 2016
Since he spoke to Voxiox, hasn't been sleeping all that great. Eternally worried about this Varg who he believes to be someone who would do something so...horrible to a child. It was horrible enough to do to an adult, but to a child? Has been keeping the magic helm near by, ready to throw it on and charge into battle like the knight he thinks is.

Otherwise, has been sorta internalizing his past, recalling situations he was in, the outcomes, the emotions that came with them. Knows he had grown up alot during his few years of life. Starting to feel a bit of jealously towards his younger siblings. Not...at them, but jealous to have his own? Unfortunately has no...like....attraction towards others yet. Much too busy sitting with family to get any lady or man friends. (Even player has no idea which way he swings, although player and Dales player joke about Dalios on a near daily basis huehuehue.

Sorta can't wait for the next rut, hoping maybe he will find someone to love, and find someone to love him in return.

During the day, stood guard on the den when his mother brought his siblings over to a new litter of fawns pretty close buy. Could see the young ones playing in the distance, and was relieved that the kids could make new friends. After Icarus died, it was very hard to get the kids to play, as they still seemed shaken up at the ordeal.

The playtime didn't last too long, even from the distance could see some disturbance within the other family had happened, though he didn't question what had happened. The kids seemed a bit disturbed by whatever had happened, but judging on Coletted backwards looks in particular she seemed more interested to keep playing than to dwell on whatever had happened. Oh well, they could try again tomorrow.

Somewhere during the day, Adayti returned. She seemed a bit shy so quickly gave her some love and was like "please sit auntie :D". Happy the white oryx had returned from wherever she had gone.

And then was used as a playground by his little sister and :I darnit Colette his antlers aren't monkey bars! And then Dale was being humorous as he always is and just RELIEVED to have another male in the family like jfc.

February 29th, 2016
Mostly just sat with family, because Helios is a lazy log. Also kinda still disheartened after finding out Icarus died. The little fawn had so much life ahead of him...
Otherwise, enjoying his relationship with his younger siblings, although inwardly kinda disheartened that he is more of a father figure to them than a brother. Starting to realize that he's young, strong, and he hasn't really been looking at ladies (or the mens because idk Helios' orientation. WTB a rut plz so I can learn him).
But those thoughts left when a Devy came around. Approached her cautiously, because didn't want her to run off but also wanted to give her love :< Let me love you Devy plz. DId manage to show and get the love. Yas. Beckoned her closer to the tree and sat down (but then the Soli was notified that Italia was there too and Soli screeched because shes blind af.)
Got up to get Italia, and gave her nuzzles but the female got up and plowed into him. YAS. Kinda just went a bit crazy with his sister with the pushing and shoving and nuzzling. Grew up with her roughness and grew to love it. Would not have it any other way. Lead her over to the tree and loved the nuzzled. YAS.

Later in the night, when his sisters had left, Dale came around. The male had a strange mask on, a bag around his neck among some other things, but also a stick of sorts sticking out of his shoulder. Was given armor, which apparently was magical. The kids were given cinnamon sticks (which Theo horded xD), and mused at Colette rolling around the furs. Talked about Dale's injury, and was told to gather some things by his mother so ran off to do so. Upon his return, took note of what his mother did before and after the Oryx removed the stick (which was actually an arrow). With Dale patched up, got into a conversation about travelling, and was sorta kinda elated that they might actually travel someday, when the kids are older. GROW UP CHILDREN HELIOS WANNA ADVENTURE.

February 24th, 2016
Chilling with his mother, and taking note of ALL THE PEOPLE NEAR BY. Apparently we are popular today. KINDA INWARDLY HYPERVENTILATING BECAUSE HE HOPES EVERYTHING STAYS CHILL.

Yvette, Isiel, Isabeau, Voxiox, Komir, Ixo, Magnhild, Icarus, Colette, Theo, Alina, and of course Dale sitting behind. Rather content though, happy that his siblings are making friends, and that its relatively calm.

January 20th, 2016
(Soli is at work)

Currently sleeping curled up around his siblings with his family.

January 19th, 2016
Den was crowded today. Unsure why suddenly their home had become so popular but didn't really MIND IT because they weren't wolves or anything. So just sorta left it be. Mom didn't like it though. UNDERSTANDS BUT PLZ MOM. probably looked like he was trying to dance/court his mother because he kept trying to get in her way and shoving his face into her own and getting shoved back because MOM WAS PIZZED.

And then a cat (Kuwaka). Sensed his mothers distress, but he wasn't able to stop her charge (to try to get Ku to leave). And then some others (Cole and nightfall pelt whos name I forget x.x) got into it, then Draven, then Sadiki. Kinda ignored the others, focusing on trying to get Ku to gtfo his moms back (And Cole was trying to help but didn't really notice because he was all MOM PLZ)

After Vox, Niki, Shard, and Ross entered the fray, the group was split, Thais bringing her group away, and Niki and Shard sticking around with Vox. Thanked the trio, appreciative for their assistance.

Then a little while later after the babies sorta calmed down, and other deer (Flaxx?). They seemed to enjoy riling his mother up, kinda just kept his mother back and sneered at the other who thought it was so hilarious. But they soon left. Grumbled. Sat with his mother and family, and grumble more.

Kinda felt bad about everything that had happened, figuring he should talk to the group that had entered the fight against the lion, at least to sort some stuff out before his mother got apprehensive again.

And then LATER, Dale appeared. Was a LITTLE apprehensive but seeing as had apparently given Zaf and the kids gifts that he had gotten over his upset a few weeks back. (KINDA DOESNT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BUT ITS OK).

Then watched in pure amusement as Dale ran off to get flowers and dump them near (and on) the kids. Busted out laughing when this continued and mom had question marks and the babies had question marks and Colette sat there with a flower on her face confused and just omg hilarity.

And then kinda dozed off, only to wake up and find that his mother and Dale peacocked him :I

STRUTTED THAT SHIT. WORKED IT. FUCKIN' FABULOUS. NNF.

And then ended up inducing playtime with his mom, Colette, Theo, Dale, and 'Joe' (I forgot your picto name but it looked like an 8, and you were a cool dude!) who had been chilling with them.

Dale also managed to get Alina to come out of the den and join the play.

And then a little bit later, the kiddo's got all tuckered out and went to curl up by the tree. Glad the events from earlier in the day didn't seem to have any adverse affects on the kids.

January 16th, 2016
Colette is sick. With a cold. All hell breaks lose. Que overprotective brother mode.

January 15th, 2016
Keeping tabs on the new family nearby (Nad and fam), though not too concerned. Will probably have to have a talk with them at some point, at least before his mother does anything e_e Definitely would rather make friends than more enemies...

January 10th, 2016
Lazy day with family, consisting of Mom, Italia, Devani, Thierri, Colette, Alina and Chael. I lub my family <3

January 9th, 2016
- Lots of children.
- Omg Adayti is my aunt
- Ouro is crazy but I feel bad for her.
- God damnit Sen plz.
- Okay removing myself from the situation, you all got it covered (Nik, Shard, Umay, Sen, Ouro, and I think some otherssss?)
- Ohai mom.


January 8th, 2016
Seems mother was well enough to bring the kids on an exploration adventure. Mostly just followed to make sure that everything was okay. GLAD HE WAS BECAUSE A GREI. 8| Glad that the kids seemed okay despite the minor confrontation. Kinda just rumbled his displeasure at the creature as it walked off.

Then Mom lead the kids back off, and while walking, a little fawn cried out. Colette and Alina answered back. it wasn't long until a little fawn (Icarus!) cam bounding over and initiated play. Relieved that his two siblings joined in, but keeping an eye on the fawns supposed father (Ram) in the distance. Sat down to make himself less imposing. DID NOT WANT A HEADACHE x_x Glad however, that they were able to play unhindered.

Smiled to himself, finding the other fawns antics hysterical with overflowing energy. But there where moments when it seemed like the little male was distressed, but knew better than to try to figure out what was wrong; that was his parents job.

When the little fawn ran off to his father, another deer came over (Filorah) and sat close. Did try to greet her, but chose to sit with his family rather than dance (even though it was tempting B] )

A little while later, Colette fell asleep and he and his mother decided to bring the kids back home. Picked up the sleeping fawn and brought her to the den before falling asleep himself.

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Later that day, was awakened to a very familiar scent...ITALIA! Totally lost his shit, charging her to just nuzzle her and love her and just omg happy happy.

Nuzzles, headbutts, all the good things. She was just as he remembered her. Even more happy that she and the little ones seemed to have taken to each other quite well. Watched them hop for a short while, before they all gathered near the tree to rest. Promptly sat on his sister because HE CAN, and further amused that Colette and Alina joined in their fluff.



January 6th, 2016
Over the past few days, moved the kids again and finally settled by his fathers grave again. Glad to be back and that his siblings seem to have taken to it. Spending his time sleeping and recovering, the times he is awake stretching his neck to eat grass around the tree because yolo.

January 3rd, 2016
Keeping himself by the den. Wondering when would be the best time to confront the wolves near the old den. At the very least, could possibly work out an agreement of sorts. Willing to put his life on the line for the wolf family if they do the same for his own. Unsure if that would fly over well at all, but it's what's on his mind.

January 2nd, 2016
Long story short because Soli is lazy:
-Went on a hunt to find a new home for the babies.
-Soet is at the Blue Bowl, so that's out.
-getting stalked by a doe (Adayti)
-Found a new tree.
-Moved the Babies.
-Snapped at Adayti
-Apologized to Adayti
-MOM IM SORRY
-Sleep

January 1st, 2016
Keeping himself still and eating near the den, hoping since he's fat he'll recover quickly. Keeping a close eye on the babies when he is conscious. Kinda just squinty at Adayti but at the same time really curious about her because she reminds him of his mother and it's all weird. wtfareyou.

December 30th, 2015
Gifs because it works.

Had a wonderful day.


But then came back home to mom being all...fekked up. And the babies. And Devy was there but being elusive as ever.


Then saw a bunch of mutts in the distance.


AND UMAY. Did she stop ANOTHER FIGHT?


Umay you're off his shit list.


BUT AS FOR THE MUTTS.


Pretty much just standing over his mother and siblings looking imposing but not as if he will run anyone off...for now. Pretty much in a 'don't fuck with me' mode. But at least he's civil.

And then a familiar face he hadn't seen in a long time, Aurik. ITS BEEN SO LONG. Kinda relaxed a bit, nodding to show that it was okay. Regardless if Aurik wanted to get closer or not, trusted the male. But then he spoke up and engaged in a conversation with him.

After the brief conversation, watched Aurik walk off a ways to settle down. Incredibly thankful for an extra hoof should the mutts return. Hoping that when his mother wakes up, Aurik would still be there. Knows it would do her some good to see her adopted son. continued to stand defensively, well aware of the little ones crying from their trauma but too distracted to really offer much comfort at the moment.

Much, much later, discovered Dale sitting there. Had a very short conversation when his mother finally roused, but Dale exploded into...well, anger. Something about his family leaving because of his mother. Mom tried to talk to him about it, but Dale was far too gone. Even Helios himself tried to get Dale to see reason. But mom told Helios to stay back with the babies so she can talk to him... but...no. When the male attacked, lunged in between to try to deflect the blows onto him instead. Wouldn't of course just take the beating, but also wouldn't purposefully hurt the other male. All attacks were made to specifically lock antlers, desperately trying to wear the other male out or get him to see sense. Helios had nothing against him, and he was sure considering what his mother said, she didn't either. Something had happened that caused Dale to snap, and Helios vowed not to hold it against him. If anything, the male needed an ear to hear his pain.

Traded blows, trying hard not to hurt Dale but sure he must have nicked him a few times and felt incredibly guilty for doing so. Got a few nice gashes on his shoulders, chest and even his muzzle. Doesn't exactly feel the pain right now because of the adrenaline and concern for his family. When Dale backed off a bit, a small, smoky like doe got in between them. Immediately backed off as well, especially when the doe shook her head at him. Wanted to apologize but couldn't think straight. Tried motioning to Dale that what he was doing wasn't right, but he wanted to talk about it. But Dale ran off, and soon after the little doe did too. Feeling really horrible.

Turned around when the duo were out of sight, hearing Dale screech in the distance, moving to check on his mother. Deflated at how abused she looked. Was about to sit but noticed...Alina was gone. Freaked the FUCK OUT. Heard her call however, and immediately located her within the tall grass. Rubbed her cheek with his nose to reassure her it was alright, then lead her back to the den. Collapsed next to the den and sighed. He needed to get poppies, as he knew how to make the medicine, but he was so fucking tired...

Forced himself to rise, giving comforting licks to his siblings. Told his mother he was going to get medicine to help the pain. Ran away like a bat out of hell, afraid Dale might return, afraid the dogs might return. AFRAID OF EVERYTHING. Gathered the poppies and blueberries, unable to carry water so doing the next best thing by rinsing off his wounds and then soaking his neck fur with water and running back to the den dripping wet.

Upon sitting down, spotted another feline creature nearby (DEVY INCOGNITO!). It seemed to keep its distance, and something about it felt vaguely familiar, but he couldn't put his hoof on what. At the moment though, couldn't deal with it, so ignored it for the most part to focus on making the healing salve. But soon after it ran off anyway.

Worked feverishly, ignoring his little siblings stares as he did so. With the blueberries mashed with the poppies mixed with some water from his fur, he began to smooth the substance on his mothers wounds. He had only really made enough to cover her wounds, but he proceeded to use some on his siblings. There wasn't enough to cover his wounds, but he rubbed what he could on his chest, ignoring the gash on his muzzle.

Proceeded to have a conversation with his mother that started with her trying to tend to the injury to his face. Reminded his mother not to attack first, to let the others be aggressive first, because the forest seemed to favor those who attack when they are attacked. And then Greitei came. And then the panther. And then Soet. How has Helios NOT had a heart attack today?

Grei started trying to eat babies. Soet made Alina run off. Grei ran after Alina. No Zaf. No helios. OMG.

Shitstorm of chasing Grei, babies getting chased, and then stood over Alina when she finally settled. Heard his mother and sister calling from a distance, unsure what was going on, but nervous as all hell because his mother was still injured.

LOTS OF RUNNING AROUND. Exhausted like hell. Colette was no where in the den. Freaking out majorly, but doesn't think Grei got her. Hoping she was just hiding, considering he could hear her scream every so often.

Omg just so much. I can't even. HELIOS CAN"T EVEN

BIRTHCONTROL.

SOLI IS TIRED.

I can update again because I can awake.

Colette was taken by a black jaguar (Devy) through the middle of it, which was understood when she was returned by said jaguar. TRIED TO THANK BUT IT RAN AWAY. Soet was there too. Didn't put the pieces together because Helios is smert.

Kinda just finally was able to slump against his beaten mother, his siblings completely batshit terrified. Sorta REALLY praying to the gods they get some peace.

December 28th, 2015
Suddenly siblings everywhere. Thierri, Colette, Chael and Alina. Happy tears. Much big brother puffing.

And then Haakon and mom duke jfc.



Then Umay. Haakon left with his munchins (where were really cute but Haakon plz). THANK YOU PURDY LIONESS!

December 24th, 2015
Returned to the forest with his mother as per her wishes. Happy to be home.

Sometime in Late May, 2014

(Note: This took place during a time when Italia had gone back to the Forest)
Almost a month had past since Helios left the forest. There, the calf looked for Thorir, but it proved to be a challenge he could not complete, even with his sister there. His fur was even thickening to compensate for being in the tundra. While Italia sometimes went back to the portal to return home to check up on things, the feathered child was not yet ready to return. Thanks to the medicine Thorir had given him, Helios recovered his physical wounds, but the mental scars were still sore from his loss, and there was no way he could go back to see the den without his mother perched outside.
He had, after a couple of weeks, given up trying to find his father. Instead, some other stags had caught his attention. He followed the group closely, learning their mannerisms as they trudged through the snow. They knew he was there and wasn't a threat, but they ignored him as they had business to attend to and caring for children was the females job, and that didn't really bother the small caribou. During the time of watching, Helios learned a bit about himself. He was a coward. There were many a time where he turned tail and fled...until before his mother died. He remembered the rage and anger pounding every inch of his body as he turned on the two quillbacks, ignoring their painful blows and fighting with every intention to do harm unto them and protect his mother. Ultimately, he failed.
But he realized that he was no longer a coward.
He watched the group of stags often turn on each other suddenly, slamming their giant antlers in a thunderous clatter as they honed their skills. The boy could see their muscles rippling under their fur, ferocity burning in their eyes. Though they seemed intent on doing real harm, he could hear their deep chuckles, praising and encouraging each other. They had to keep strong for their duties, so Helios overheard. He wanted so much to be like them. He could not protect his mother, but perhaps he could learn to protect his siblings just as Italia had done, just like his mother protected him. His own antlers were growing rapidly, their constant itch coupled with the even more irritating constant itch of his remaining feathers getting on his nerves; they were curlier than ever.
Days passed, and it wasn't until a very alarmed bellow coming from the stag herd that Helio's knew something was wrong. The stags turned towards the trees, ears alert and vigilant. Unbeknownst to him, this group of stags were merely a patrol for Thorir's kingdom, and this was exactly what they had been watching out for. The wolves that silently slipped around thick tree trunks were huge, almost as tall as each of those mighty stags themselves, and could tower over Helios himself. Helios had seen wolf-like creatures like these in the forest, but these seemed so much different. They didn't give off the air that they could be potentially friendly, and they radiated with intent to kill. Without warning, both parties launched at each other.
Hunkering down in the snow, covered in the large wolf pelt left by his father, Helios watched wide-eyed. Jaws and claws tore into stags. Antlers and hooves tore into wolves. Blood quickly soaked the ground, though Helios couldn't tell if it was from the wolves, stags, or both. The small battle was terrifying, but exciting at the same time. If only he had this must strength that they had, then he could have possibly defeated the quillback duo...
His daydream was cut short when a wolf and stag got a bit too close. Helios could easily smell the metallic tang of blood, and to his horror he realized the stag was losing. The male had taken a very awful bite to the leg and couldn't put pressure on it, and the wolf was using this disability to his advantage. Helios looked to the others, but they were still fighting their own wolves, and it looked like the wolves down below were losing. One wolf had been driven away, bleeding heavily from a gash in his side. The stag that had driven his quarry away turned to help one of the other stags nearby. No one seemed to have noticed the stag near Helios. The boy stayed put, they were a few yards away and he could see the stag faltering more and more. His giant antlers did well to shield himself from the wolf’s attacks, but he was wearing out. And suddenly, the wolf lunged and knocked the stag down, his leg giving way. The wolf let out a triumphant howl before positioning himself behind the stag. A quick bite to the neck would be all he would need to do to end the battle with the stag. But just before he could even open his jaws, something small and hard rocketed into his side.
The wolf staggered to the side, turning with a ferocious growl. Before him was...a small wolf. He paused, for he used his eyes before his nose. That pause was enough time for the wolf to be scooped up in passive antlers and slammed down only to be crushed to death. The small wolf stepped back when the grey stag turned to him. The sound of hooves clamored up behind the other stag who turned to look at them as they helped up their fallen brother.
“Do you wish yourself dead, child.” The tall stag asked in his rumbling voice. The small wolf shook his head, flinging back the wolf head skin.
“No.” He said, tensing up. “Had to help because you were all busy.”
“Insolence-” The lead stag growled, but a white and black stag moved over.
“Agnar, this child gave you enough time to save Ingvar.” The male said calmly, turning his head to look back at the black male who had fallen. “Surely that means something.”
“Means nothing. Suckling calves should be home with their mothers.” Helios tensed up, and it took everything he had not to burst into tears.
“I am not a suckling calf and my mother was murdered!” He shouted, puffing up his chest and pulling back his ears.
“He’s emotional.” Agnar turned away and went to inspect the dead wolf. There were two more dead wolves down below. “We can use them.” He said, turning back to the others, then looking to Helios.
“Go back where you belong. You don’t belong here.” He then looked to a black and grey male. “Ragnar, bring this wolf to the next lookout,” then looked to a pair of white and grey males, “Aemond and Gudrik, get the two down below and we’ll move off.” The other stags were moving, a black and a white helping Ingvar along. Agnar turned to look at Helios as he began to follow. “Are you blind and deaf too?”
“I want to learn how to be a big stag like you. Like my father.”
“You are not one of us. And as such, you will not be like us.” Agnar turned and started to walk away. Helios crept after him.
“I don’t care. At least I will try.”
“Go home child.”
“No.” At the very forceful no, the stag paused, slamming a forehoof into the ground. Without warning, he whirled around and charged at the small caribou. He skidded to a halt with his antlers lowered in front of the boy, huffing out air from his nose that shot out on a cloud before him. And suddenly, he felt his left antler being pressed upon. Raising his head slightly, he saw Helios pushing against the stag with his nubs with all his might. Though there were tears in the boys eyes, he pushed and huffed fearlessly. Pushing the boy away, Agnar rose to shake himself and turned away again. Helios stood there, watching.
“Well if you’re going to come, boy, hurry up.” The stag said as he trotted down the hill. His eyes lighting up, Helios ran after him.

The Seventh of May, 2014

Days.
Days went by, and the small buck fell deeper and deeper into sadness.
His mother was gone.
His father was gone.
His sisters were here and there, but it wasn't the same. Life just wasn't the same without the familiar warmth of his parents.
What was a little buck to do all alone, curled up against a grave?
He had seen Thorir's gifts, and he had plans for them. Plans for his sisters and brother. He had stashed away a few chains, feathers and rings in his wolf pelt Thorir had given him months ago, when he was smaller. But he was getting bigger, and the pelt was no good for a coat. So he used it as a sort of bag to store these treasures. He even put his crumpled flower in there that he received a year ago.
But these small moments of reminiscing and hope were broken by the overwhelming sense of sadness and loneliness. He had no playful intentions, prefering to cling to the den. But this wasn't a life. A life alone when there was still so much growing to do. He couldn't even bring himself to go to Herla or Neela and explain what had happened; he felt he failed them too.
When it all seemed bleak, the small caribou got a wild and crazy idea. Maybe the icy wasteland wasn't that bad after all. He had made some friends there. The forest was, at the moment, too cruel, too unforgiving. He could go there, be with his father. He could come back when he grew up a little, when his antlers were bigger. Yes, then he could protect his sisters and brother. He'd get big and strong!
With a renewed sense of vigor, Helios stood and started gathering the necessary belongings. It wasn't much.
He made sure to somehow wedge one of his mothers feathers into his tail fur, giving it a few good flicks to ensure it was secured. Then he grabbed one of the large pelts left by his father, a warm black wolf pelt. This one would last him a while, it was quite large. He turned away from the den, casting it one last glance. He saw where Thorir's portal had been, and faintly remembered it when they had gone through the first time. He would have told his sisters, but they would probably insist on coming too or something.
Though that sorta failed. Just as he went to leave, Italia came trotting up behind him. Forced to explain what he was doing, surprised to find that she insisted on going with him. Tried to tell her that he had to go by himself so that he can learn how to be a big stag. Got headbutted. Agreed, and while irritated, thankful that he would have someone to help him find their father.
Took the last few steps before disappearing through the portal, along with his sister.

The Fifth of May, 2014

Lazy, depressing day. Lay next to his mother and fathers grave, moping. Even though he was free to go eat, drink and bath, couldn't bring himself to do so. Can't bring himself to move from the graves.

Did move, however, when he heard Asya's call in the distance. May have ignored it if it wasn't couples with other calls. He felt like he was doused in ice. Got up and charged in her direction to find her locked in battle with an unknown deer. There were others there, Shahla, her fawns, Lilu, Shfits and Nikhil. Tried to call her out of it. Did not want to lose anymore family.

After the fight, was lead to his birthplace. Ate some berries there and laid there for a bit until the deer came back. Asya was off again. Got up and yelled for her, then placed himself closer to Shahla. Kinda wanted to see the babies in the midst of the fight. But she soon came back.

Told her his feelings about the fighting, assured she was alright. Was told to rest, said he was hungry. Pretty much collapsed where he was and started eating the grass.

Had a discussion regarding his needs, which led into the discovery that his sister was pregnant. Couldn't believe it, but knew she was magicked older. From there was lead to the crying idol to bath, eat and drink.

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Somewhere, in the midst of all this, was approached by Thorir. Told he would be leaving. Was apologized to. For everything. Couldn't really come to grips with what was happening at first, but soon realized that it was better for Thorir to go back to his homeworld anyway. Helios remembered the snowy place and he still had the small wolf fur that Thorir had given him for the journey. It was a cruel world, a world while beautiful and mysterious, was not for a creature such as himself. He wanted to tell Thorir he would go with him, but he couldn't bring himself to leave his mother. He accepted the stags words. They said their final goodbyes, giving his stepfather an embrace that could rival all father son relationships...

"Goodbye, father."
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The Fourth of May, 2014

(Note: Subject to change. Still need to complete RP with Galene.)

Very aware of Kettu curled around him. Honestly not sure where this attention came from. Cannot for the life of him remember playing with her all that much. Perhaps she's like Neela. He recently got closer to the little blue doe as well. Not that he is complaining of course, quite the contrary. Kettu's persistence presence is nothing short of comforting. At least someone else cares. Shahla, Galene, Kettu...three who had shown they remotely cared. If only others had as well.

Joined by Thorir.

Rested for a while. Aware that Umay and a fawn that had come around him a few times was with her. Kept an eye on them, his amethyst eyes slits. Truly dislikes the feline, and somewhat pleased she was limping past. Rose when she got too close. When she was out of range, promptly spat at her. Sat back down and curled back up next to Kettu.

But suddenly noticed that someone was close by. Practically on top of him. Got up immediately. Remembered the doe was not fond of him at all when he was younger, but couldn't remember exactly why. Bristled and on the defensive from these internal red flags, but relaxed when he saw that she brought flowers. Purple ones, red ones, yellow ones. He recognized all three scattered about the forest. Maybe these deer really weren't bad after all. He had never really had any issues with the grey doe since he was tiny. She kept her distance for the most part, though she didn't help when his mother was being murdered either. Mixed emotions. Still, couldn't find it in his heart to ignore this. Acknowledgement was acknowledgement. Flowers were a sign that she regretted the loss, at least that was how it appeared to Helios. Her sympathies were welcome to his ears. Someone else cared. What surprised him was when she turned to go, but instead came to give him a small nuzzle on the cheek. He would have returned the nuzzle, thankful for the motherly comfort, but she was gone. He remembered that she herself had her own fawns. Thanked her retreating form. Sat back down with Kettu. Mental noted to put Halla on the radar as a more positive light. Perhaps things could be mended, whatever had been broken before.

Dozed off for a short period of time, then a familiar scent hit his nose. Turned to see Devasha sitting close by. Holy crap! Hasn't seen his younger sister in a while, got up and limped over to sniff her to see how she was. Then sat next to her.

Later that night, it was decided they would bury his mother. Joined his sisters and father to dig the grave for Zafeiri. Italia placed a flower inside and Devasha gave a crown a poppies. Pulled out one of his own feathers and placed it inside, telling her that it would be how he would be with her there as well.

Now that her body had been moved, and Asya taking her jewelry, went and picked up all the feathers that had fallen from his mothers crest. Went and stored them in the den. Plopped himself outside the den, feeling sick. Hunger and thirst was starting to become obvious. He would need nourishment, but at the moment didn't think he could stomach anything. Stayed by the den.

The Third of May, 2014 - Afternoon

Had become aware of Kettu's presence, which was why he initially awakened. Didn't have the heart to let her know he was somewhat awake. Wanted to sort of cherish her closeness and not shoo her away from whimpering over his injuries. Had fallen back to sleep, only to wake up and realize she was gone, her scent still lingering. A twitch of the ears signified she was indeed still there, but by the other tree (tulip). Grateful for her presence. Made a mental note to give her something for being the only outsider who truly seemed to care recently. Also made a note to go tell Neela, Herla and Gehirn what happened. They had a right to know after all they had done to help his family. Still feeling indebted to them. Unsure how he would ever pay them back for their troubles.

Unsure about anything, other than keeping close to his mothers body. Knows very well they will have to bury her today. Cried himself back to sleep at the thought.

Awakened to movement. Saw his father Thorir. Didn't move from Zaf's body, but gave his father a sad, guilty look. He couldn't protect his mother. He couldn't protect her long enough to give his father time to get the medicine and help from his world. Why was this forest filled with such horrid creatures? He nuzzled into his mothers fur, keeping close to her, and feeling safe with the giant stag nearby.

(I really should have kept this updated throughout the day. I can't remember CRAP ;; )

Sleep and stuff.

Approached by Shahla. First the tigress paid respects to Zaf by bringing flowers. Even gave him and his sister Asya a nuzzle. Was a little apprehensive at first, but seeing the tiger doe cry made him realize that whatever the past entailed no longer mattered. She was here for his mother. She obviously cared. Was thankful, but sat back down and curled back up to his mother.

But she came back, with little leaf bundles of medicine. Knew then and there that his mother would have appreciated it. The past...it was just the past. Things should be forgotten. Not was the time to move on. Was given the medicine by his older sister with a little fuss. Shahla went to leave, but asked her name. She seemed nervous, though finally got it. Thanked her. Tried to assure her that he wouldn't hold anything against her that may have been from the past. Told her that his mother would have wanted to see her fawns, having smelt the familiar scent of milk on her. After she left, decided she was someone else he would be indebted to. Curled back up against his mother with his sister near, and fell asleep.

(RP in progress with Galene. Will update when it is finished.)

The Third of May, 2014 - Early Morning

Approached by Asya. Had a short chat with her. Felt uneasy. Knew her, but didn't know her.
Found out that the quillbacks not only murdered their biological mother, but also attacked Asya's secondary one; the one who took her in long ago. Took sadistic comfort that Asya had injured the stags, or at least told she did, with the hopes that they would die.
They deserved it.
Spoke with her about how she got big. Deals. Osias. Over the head it went. Though the temptation was still there. Very much so.

During all of this, Erlantz showed up and started licking Helios' ears. It was comforting, the attention and that his brother was there while he felt distance with his older sister.

The three formed a familial bond as well, though Helios still felt a little odd and shy in Asya's presence. Perhaps even jealousy.

Suggested they bury his mother with his biological father...(or rather, his and Asya's biological father. Erl your daddy Hyperion is cray cray mmk? <3) Despite his sisters warnings not to, tried anyway with the support of Erl. Though eventually succumbed to fatigue and pain. Erl began to groom him while Asya took watch. Fell asleep curled up against his mother, brother Erl, and with sister Asya close by.

The First of May into the Second and Third of May, 2014

(Note: Sorry for the delay on updating. I had to sort out a few things before I made a post here. Please remember this is all IC. Helios is irrational -- his mother was just murdered -- so any 'shaming' is purely Helios' perspective on things. If you really have a problem, please just email me... But none of this should be taken as OOC jabs. My wee baby is going through alot )

Day started like any other.

Found his mother and father at De Drinkplaats. Refused to go in. Does not really like the magic in the area. Stayed by a tree nearby. Had overheard Thorir tell his mother that he was returning to his world to get medicine from the healers there.

No sooner had he left, and a strange wolf (Asylin?) and small fawn(Sloane) entered. Wasn't sure what they were there for, just watched.

But even sooner, Thane and Morioch were there. Bristled from the tree. Considered just trying to hide, but that didn't last long. Charged by both. Darted into the magical barrier of De Drinkplaats. Stayed by his mother, though paced around her as he watched the two. Heart pounded.

Felt safe for a short while, but Thane came out of no where and barreled into him. Had the breath knocked out of him but gathered to his hooves and ran. Ran and screamed all over the forest only to have absolutely no aid.

Lungs burned, hindquarters slashed. Jumped into the deep end of the pond in the end. Knew from past experiences with his brother Erl that they can turn into frogs. Found this to be a safe haven, though had to cling to a lilypad to keep from drowning. Then they left...only to go after his mother who had been calling him.

Ran out and jumped into the fray. Xylona came around and joined too. Did not want her there. Did not want her to see this. But too caught up in getting his ass kicked by Morioch.

And still no help. Had two voyeurs (Umay and Pandora). Couldn't fathom why they just stood there watching his mother get attacked. Ran up to them and screamed in their faces for help despite knowing they weren't helpful towards his mother anyway. only to have Fletcher come by. Helios felt he was being absolutely no help either. Couldn't understand why the giant stag would not help his mother and try to keep him out of it. "Just go away then!"

But in the end failed to protect himself, his sister, and especially his mother. Zafeiri collapsed outside of the den (which the gods turned into giant flowers). Screamed. Cried. Wanted to hurt everyone around him but instead went to his mothers side and collapsed next to her. Was at least thankfully glad the crowd that had appeared seemed to keep the two stags who had attacked his mother at bay.

Pretty injured at this point. Spoke to his mother as she quite literally died besides him. At least got to hear her last words... Felt a piece of him die with her...

Kettu had joined him at some points. Couldn't bring himself to even thank the fox for being welcome comfort. Probably the only comfort he had.

Italia stopped by and curled around them both. And even Erl stopped by. Still didn't move. Can't move. Finds himself wanting to go to wherever his mother went.

Kettu has kept a close distance almost the whole time. Still doesn't know her that well, but the very fact she has offered comfort at all is enough to tell the broken caribou calf that there are those who do care...no matter how few and far between they may be.

Not sure what he is going to do. Unable to really move to go get Herla and Neela's help. Unlikely to for a time...does not want to piss Gehirn off. (scurrydeerwithgiantantlersaahhhhh)

Has not moved from her side. Injures are still severe but have stopped bleeding, thankfully due to how healthy he is. But injuries are still susceptible to becoming infected.

The Last Few of Days of April, 2014

Had gone to get Neela and Herla to help his mother. The first night had both does help, and learned quite a few things about medicine. Was up all night with the medicine doe. Felt forever indebted to. Thankful at least someone cares his mother had been beaten and collapsed in the Oak.
Gehirn came the second day. Scared the bloody daylights out of Helios too. Scared of, but fully respected. DO NOT PISS OFF MODE -- ENGAGED.

Indebted to all three. Will make it up to them, someday.

At some point, met Lueur, the daughter of Thane. Spoke about what happened and learned she wasn't like the others. In no way considers her an ally just yet, but certainly does not consider her an enemy.

The 25th of April, 2014

Night was restless. Stayed curled up next to his injured mother, fearing the worst.
Got up to go fix his pelt, but on the way back was approached by a tiny fawn. At first did not want to bother with playing, feeling too sad, but warmed up to the young one and obliged in some play. After a while settled down to rest, and fell asleep. This happened a few times. Had his pelt fixed by the fawn. Soon enough he sensed he needed to see his mother. The fawn followed. Began to groom Mama.

The 24th of April, 2014

Woke up curled up next to a fox creature (Kettu). Thanked the sleeping creature and gave a few nuzzles. Went to fix his pelt, then immediately went to find Mama. Was gathered up by her with italia and went off.
Ended up by some logs. The metallic tang of blood was in the air. Italia stayed by a further off Log, and Mama sat by a tree. Went to inspect what was making the smell. Recognized the antlered doe from the other day. She looked really, really hurt. Completely freaked out. Darted off before going to sit next to Mama again.
Fell asleep.
Awoke to his mothers moving. Sensed others, and saw that two deer he barely recognized where watching them. Too close. Got very nervous, especially when Mama told him to walk to the Oak slowly. At first refused because she and Italia were there, but obeyed.
Was followed immediately. Tried to take it easy until panic set in. Ran into the oak, and a fight broke loose between the 4 older deer.
Lots of being chased and running and hiding occurred. And no help to be seen.
At one point, fear turned to anger. Charged into the fray to try and land attacks, however unlikely. Ended up getting scuffed up himself. Barely noticed the onlookers. Lots of panting and wheezing. A few times it seemed like Moro was trying to get him to follow him. Yelled "no" at him. More running.
Finally crashed in the blue bowl. Did not care he was injured nor did he care he had unintentionally done his favorite thing; crush blueberries. Laid on his side trying to catch his breath.
Moro came back. After being herded a short time, darted off and was left alone. Went back to the blue bowl until it seemed like Moro and Thane would not come back.
Walked all the way to the big rocks to find Italia on her side. Sobbed into her fur and tried to groom her best he could. But then got up to leave her alone and find Mama. Mama was in a bad state too. Did the same to her until she passed out.
Went back to Italia and curled up against her.

The 21st-22nd of April, 2014

Awoke at some point after sensing footsteps walking away. Saw that it was his mother. Got up and darted after her. The scent of blood was thick in the air. Found himself unnerved. There was an obvious fight in the distance, unable to tell who was there, but sure he saw the pig. Stayed close to his mother, especially when she went after a wounded black doe (Galene) and a antlered doe (Lee). Seemed like the two does were part of the fight, though did not get a look at their injuries. Followed them to a tree where they stood. Sniffed both, tried to greet them too. Italia charged over as well, looking defensive. Anxiety grew.
Lots of confusion for a bit, then went to collect a hiding Neela who was wedged between two rocks not too far from the fight. Coaxed the younger fawn to follow him to his mother. There was some peace for a moment, until Thane charged out of no where. Went into panic mode and ran around the area for a bit. He was after Galene. Was told to bring Neela to the den. Told her to follow, and heard Xylona calling. Tried to get both younger fawns to hide in the den, but Xy didn't want to get too close. Unsure why. With Neela stowed inside, went to sit by Xy.
Mama came back, and ended up dozing with the two fawns for a while. Xy left.
Awoke to see a newcomer, Ciel, with Neela. Greeted and sat by Mama. Slept more.
Woke up again and went to see Italia who was injured. Groomed her to get the blood off and to maybe calm her down. She seemed a bit riled up.
Lay there for a long time before falling asleep on her, only to wake up again and find he was turned into a dove (by Erlantz). Flew around amazed for a bit, entertaining Neela. Eventually settled down with her for yet another nap. Was joined by Erl later on, and then Mama after that.

The 20th of April, 2014

How he sleep through what occurred he did not know.
But it reeked.
It reeked of demon and feline, and something he would not yet understand to be lingering hatred. He knew for sure it was not Italia or Erlantz, or even Devasha. His siblings smelt appealing, but what he smelt and saw when he awakened...unnerved him. The home around him was trashed by something large, and obviously angry beast. He knew the smell, though faint he remembered the strange red creature that was often with the pig and tall stag who had once given him a poppy.
He was too young to completely understand their hatred for his mother, but he had seen how they acted towards her. A subtle tilt of the head, the narrowing of their eyes, the tone they used while speaking. He wasn't automatically an idiot because he was a child. Perhaps slow to grow and learn, but he wasn't stupid. Been told to stay away from them the night before after the tall brown stag spoke to his mother harshly. Why? That he also did not know, for he only slightly paid attention to the conversation. But he trusted his mother more than anyone, and if they were bad, they were bad. It's not like he was missing anything out of his life without them anyway. He would have to ask his mother what was going on, and what 'barren' meant. There was acid on the stags tongue, and that did not settle well with the young calf. That stag was dangerous, he was sure of it.
He rose to his hooves and fled to where his family rested in the birch. Luyu was there, sleeping. Rested between his mother and sister, before Xylona joined them.

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June 30, 2013

Day 3:

Woke up alone. Well, almost alone. Tea was lying near by. She curled up around him. It felt nice to have someone where, but where was his mother? Was really scared, so just lay against the ground next to Tea. Lilith came over, but didn't really know who she was so clung to Tea.

(Player afked alot, chores :<)

Mama came! Nursed hungrily, even bleating while trying to nurse. Wanted the feeling in his belly to go away! Sister Italia was near by with Lilith Fawn. Tea lead them to Italia, and they all sat together.

Got up having noticed the grass with tufts on their ends. Looked..fuzzy. Wanted them. Tried to get them, but was too wobbly. Jacob got up and reared back at him playfully. Did not see it like that. Cowered. But soon realized that the taller fawn was not trying to hurt. Curious. Sniffed. Was he another sibling? Sniffed more. Nod? Nod nod nod! Nodded at everything. Mama, Grass, sister, Jacob, Tea, Jacob again, Lilith, and once more Jacob. Got a kick out of nodding, until it made him dizzy. Fell against Lilith and cuddled into her under Mama.

Stuck to Mama like glue, only straying a few feet here and there. Eventually followed Mama to sister, curling up with her and falling asleep for a nap.

After the nap, got up to see his sister had changed color. Didn't know why. Smelt weird too. But didn't know any better. Has no idea about Erlantz.

Stayed with mom, but wandered a bit, trying to get blueberries until he was herded back over to the tall grass. Stayed there. Sister was white again. Ahhh weird. Wandered from Mom again, and finally got some blueberries. Flung them around. They went squish against his cheeks and some fell on the ground. Found this hilarious. Kept doing it, uncaring he was covered in sticky blueberry juices. Chewed on them too. Kind of likes the sweet taste.

Sat around a bit. The Italia changed again. Why is this? Didn't understand but sat there anyway. Slept slightly, but woke to find mama gone. Called out frantically. Where was Mama? Needed Mama! Felt his Dark Sister nuzzling him. Trying to calm him down. Felt a little better, but...but mama! Called for her more, and finally she came running. Settled down under her with Dark Sister, content even as the other started licking the blueberry juice from his face.

Got up after some time and tried to climb on Mama. Eventually succeeded...sprawled across her hindquarters. Then Dark Italia had to show him up. Was amazed at how easily Dark Sister did it. Then Dark Sister came down and stood close by. Started rubbing his face into her back. Fuzzy. Likes! Giggling as he rubbed his face into her side.

Walked around, and then tried to climb a tree. Mooed at it. Wondered if it was some weird deer like him. And it mooed back! (It was actually Pig but he doesn't know any better!) Giggled and tried to climb it again, and then Pig came over himself. Darted under mama. Wasn't too keen on the giant boar. Huge!
When he left stayed put, until Devy moved off. Followed her. Seemed to cuddle for a moment. Then noticed Devy moved off again and Mama was trying to move her. Felt that feeling in his belly. Time to make it go away.

Ate his fill, then settled down next to Devasha, curling up to her as she to him.

Day 2:

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