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"Greetings my fine spirits.
As I'm sure many of you have discovered on your own, your spirit is not alone in its journey. Each of us is guided by more than our own spirits and angels that are constanly swimming around us. Our friends are guides in this life, they can show you and teach you who you are and what it is you is to do in this life. All you need to do, is decide what to do with the time that is given to you, my dear fawn. Some have found these spirits helpful, and few of you have found them on your own. These spirits can never hurt you, they will never lead you wrong; and maybe if you don't understand what they may be leading you into, you will soon know, for their ways are quite mysterious.
They are animal guides. Spirits that love you unconditionally, forever. They will guide your feet and your hooves to places that are sacred and good. All you need to do-- is listen."
Graim thu,
Mornië alantië,
~Mystress
Mystress has instructed me accordingly to offer her services once more to you and your deer. In her sight she has seen recently, seperate spirits following her friends, and has decided that everyone has them. But she can only see the spirits that guide her close friends, as she knows their personality.
If you wish for Mystress to find your deer (and/or your) spirit guide for you, there's one thing you'll have to do.
You'll have to fill out a survey telling in detail your personality, it's then that Mystress can pinpoint and see your animal guide!
Keep in mind, animal guides may or may not stay with you your entire life, so they may change as you grow in mind and spirit! If you feel your animal guide isn't spot-on tell Mystress and she will arrange another "look-see", as to who your animal guide may be.
1) In the forest, during a gathering of some sort, there are a lot of deer hopping and dancing around. What is your reaction to this?
a) Running around making sure I'm the center of attention, or if not I'll stomp off angrily.
b) Dancing with a few close friends.
c) Over there, away from everyone with my sweet mate.
d) Roaring as loud as I can to make all the other stags (or does) tremble!
2) A stag of massive popularity and status confronts and becons you with his large, pointy antlers in front of everyone! What do you do?
a) I tell him firmy to stop, and walk away slowly, praying he won't follow.
b) Confront him later about it, after everyone has left. You don't want to look like as much of a fool as he!
c) Scoff and ignore it, he's a looser anyway.
3) A friend of yours has been mocking you behind your back. You:
a) Confront her the next second you see him/her and tell her firmly to stop... or else! Your status may be damaged by this!
b) Shrug it off and ignore him/her when you see them next. Who needs a friend like that?
c) Try to understand why they may do such a thing and then try to forgive them.
d) Stare at them with hateful and hurt eyes, you're too afraid to do anything else.
4) Your walking in the forest, and some deer began to whoop and hollar at you mockingly. You:
a) Attack them.
b) Whoop and hollar right back at them.
c) Ignore them.
5) You're being depressed and alone at the pond, and a fawn comes bounding in playfully, and wants you to have a drink with them. You:
a) Go to get a drink with the little fawn. Then return to your medditation.
b) Tell it to go away sorrowfully, you want to help but just can't right now!
6) A good friend of yours is really really sad. You want desperatly to cheer them up some, when in bounds your mate who also is sad. You:
a) Tell your friend you'll be right back, and bound over to your mate and nuzzle them numb.
b) Tell my mate that I'll have to catch them later, as the friend is alone.
7) A stag is terrorzing everyone in the forest, how would you confront them?
a) One-on-one. It's much more pleasing that way.
b) Rally up troops and allies to protect you and so you're less-likely to be hurt.
Your deer friend has just told you a tragic love story. Do you cry?
a) YES. :'(
b) Pssht. No!
9) It's Halloween and everyone going to get dressed up in their favorite flashy pelts. What do you wear?
a) Something that's fun and flashy, and gets me noticed!
b) Whatever I have available at the moment. I'll prbably jsut spell spam the BZD to death
(no pun intended)
10) Your adopted (or blood) parents start fighting with you over something really dumb. You:
a) Yell back at them, who are they to yell at their kid?
b) Try to defuse the situation with humor.
c) I wait until their done bashing me about, and then explain firmy why I did nothing wrong.
11) You have some awesome ideas for the forest. But Michael and Auria shoot down the idea. (Muahahaa!) You:
a) Keep bugging them until they finally give in. Or you get banned. Hehe.
b) Get some friends together and make a whole diary entry as to why your idea would be really really good for the forest.
c) Build your own freaking website. Who needs TEF?
12) Your best friend just broke up with their mate. You:
a) Try to make them laugh.
b) Talk them through it, while sitting by their side quietly.
c) Cry with them and vent about how you're mad at your ex-mate too.
13) If you or your deer were famous, what would they or you most likely want to be?
a) One of the Twin Gods! (President)
b) Oprah!
c) Gangsta/punk deer!
I don't know much about
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Story Index - Lemon's Biography
Kaoori: Awesome, it's good
moonsorro: Her name, I think was: Anorthia... I don't know what it means or anything, but she was really great.
Was? any way i think all
know them so if any one would like to share i would love that.
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Im always here to listen to the bads and goods in the world
and to fix the wrongs beening done in this
dying world
Lemon: Here is a website
Here is a website all about bird guides, you can look up whever you want to find about spirit guides on google of course. Many of the sites may be touchy to some beliefs, but I'm not sure how-- or why. So I thought I would be safe with this. Basically all you have to keep in mind while searching "Animal spirit guides" is that, they are whatever you want them to be-- yet they must always be there for you to help you...
edit: Lemon, to the left of the website I gave you, there's a guide on land animals. Yeah, that too! LOL
Moonsorro: Well, I'm not sure where she went. She hasn't spoken to me in awhile, and my spirit guide has changed. You see, it's the same spirit, just in a different form. She's no longer a wolf, but some other animal forms that are around me :')
Yes, anyone want to share any animal guide experinces??
I don't think so. I call
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I'm a little wolf inside a girl.
Lightbringer-apprentice to Yorres
Mystress, thank you so much
As for experiences, I'm not sure if this counts, haha. But reading the description of a crow as a spirit guide really reminded me of a time last spring, when I was followed around by a crow for a few weeks. He would literally fly overhead as I rode my bike (I had a paper route), and every time I stopped, he would land nearby. I thought it was most peculiar. At the time, I didn't have any plans to move out of the house -- but shortly after I began seeing the crow, my boyfriend and I began to make plans for me to move in with him. I didn't think anything of it, until I read on that site that crows are a signal for change and movement -- which includes a physical move. After my boyfriend and I began making our plans, I stopped seeing the crow.
This one is rather morbid, but my boyfriend also had an experience with a crow -- not only was he followed around by one in a similar fashion; but he told me that a crow flew right into his window and died during the middle of the night, while he was sitting at his computer desk. It was shortly after his grandfather died; which was, in and of itself, surrounded by very strange events -- the crow was the last in a series of very peculiar events. It makes me wonder; if the appearance of a crow is supposed to signify change, what does the death of a crow signify?
I still hold to my belief that my personal spirit guide is feline. I find that cats are naturally attracted to me, and I have always been naturally drawn to them, in return. I have a thousand experiences about cats being drawn to me; specifically, the fact that wherever I go, there will be a cat. xD The worst part? My boyfriend can't stand them. xc He thinks they're cold and disconnected. ;c
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Story Index - Lemon's Biography
Interesting, probably my
I'll give it a try anyway!
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1) In the forest, during a gathering of some sort, there are a lot of deer hopping and dancing around. What is your reaction to this?
b) Dancing with a few close friends.
2) A stag of massive popularity and status confronts and becons you with his large, pointy antlers in front of everyone! What do you do?
c) Scoff and ignore it, he's a looser anyway.
3) A friend of yours has been mocking you behind your back. You:
d) Stare at them with hateful and hurt eyes, you're too afraid to do anything else.
4) Your walking in the forest, and some deer began to whoop and hollar at you mockingly. You:
c) Ignore them.
5) You're being depressed and alone at the pond, and a fawn comes bounding in playfully, and wants you to have a drink with them. You:
a) Go to get a drink with the little fawn. Then return to your medditation.
6) A good friend of yours is really really sad. You want desperatly to cheer them up some, when in bounds your mate who also is sad. You:
b) Tell my mate that I'll have to catch them later, as the friend is alone.
7) A stag is terrorzing everyone in the forest, how would you confront them?
b) Rally up troops and allies to protect you and so you're less-likely to be hurt.
a) YES. :'(
9) It's Halloween and everyone going to get dressed up in their favorite flashy pelts. What do you wear?
b) Whatever I have available at the moment. I'll prbably jsut spell spam the BZD to death
(no pun intended)
10) Your adopted (or blood) parents start fighting with you over something really dumb. You:
c) I wait until their done bashing me about, and then explain firmy why I did nothing wrong.
11) You have some awesome ideas for the forest. But Michael and Auria shoot down the idea. (Muahahaa!) You:
b) Get some friends together and make a whole diary entry as to why your idea would be really really good for the forest.
12) Your best friend just broke up with their mate. You:
b) Talk them through it, while sitting by their side quietly.
13) If you or your deer were famous, what would they or you most likely want to be?
a) One of the Twin Gods! (President)
It was hard doing this for a fawn, but I hope it still worked out XD
Hm, this is Zevi, sorry I
1) In the forest, during a gathering of some sort, there are a lot of deer hopping and dancing around. What is your reaction to this?
b) Dancing with a few close friends.
2) A stag of massive popularity and status confronts and becons you with his large, pointy antlers in front of everyone! What do you do?
c) Scoff and ignore it, he's a looser anyway. (Except maybe about the scoffing and thinking loser part)
3) A friend of yours has been mocking you behind your back. You:
c) Try to understand why they may do such a thing and then try to forgive them.
4) Your walking in the forest, and some deer began to whoop and hollar at you mockingly. You:
c) Ignore them.
5) You're being depressed and alone at the pond, and a fawn comes bounding in playfully, and wants you to have a drink with them. You:
a) Go to get a drink with the little fawn. Then return to your medditation.
6) A good friend of yours is really really sad. You want desperatly to cheer them up some, when in bounds your mate who also is sad. You:
b) Tell my mate that I'll have to catch them later, as the friend is alone.
7) A stag is terrorzing everyone in the forest, how would you confront them?
a) One-on-one. It's much more pleasing that way.
a) YES. :'(
9) It's Halloween and everyone going to get dressed up in their favorite flashy pelts. What do you wear?
b) Whatever I have available at the moment. I'll prbably jsut spell spam the BZD to death
(no pun intended)
10) Your adopted (or blood) parents start fighting with you over something really dumb. You:
c) I wait until their done bashing me about, and then explain firmy why I did nothing wrong.
11) You have some awesome ideas for the forest. But Michael and Auria shoot down the idea. (Muahahaa!) You:
b) Get some friends together and make a whole diary entry as to why your idea would be really really good for the forest.
12) Your best friend just broke up with their mate. You:
b) Talk them through it, while sitting by their side quietly.
13) If you or your deer were famous, what would they or you most likely want to be? (No Idea. Is it alright if I don't answer this one?)
a) One of the Twin Gods! (President)
b) Oprah!
c) Gangsta/punk deer!
Queze's a very spiritual
(I'm going to try as best I can to stick within the given answers, but I might have to expand on them a little...:S)
1).......b)
2).......he'd fight him to protect his honor
3).......d) but not because he's afraid, because he feels betrayed
4).......b)
5).......a)
6).......Queze doesn't have a mate, but I think he'd lean towards a)
7).......a)
9).......a) Queze loves Halloween
10)......c) Aztec culture is big on respect for parents and elders *nods*
11)......Queze would most likely just sulk and admit defeat, he isn't going to argue with the Gods
12)......b)
13)......c) I can totally picture Queze as a thug or a bouncer at a club lol
Sorry about making my own answers for some of the questions, but some of the things just didn't fit with Queze
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Queze;
~Aztec priest of The Forest~
Spangled: You're the horse,
You're the horse, but the vibes I'm getting from your personality I'm going to change a few things about it.
According to shamanistic wisdom, the horse is first and foremost a free spirit, despite being enslaved by humans for thousands of years. Horse people enjoy having friends close to them, and whatever friends they do have, their bonds are tightly knit. Regardless of how beaten down horse people feel by things going on in their lives, their independent spirit is hard to break. They surround themselves with people they admire, and enjoy having a guardian friend around as much as possible.
Meadow:
You're the wild grey fox!
Often mistaken for the coyote, grey fox people are a bit reserved but aren't afraid to have a good time. Grey fox people are patient and kind, and sometimes quite soft! They don't get overly excited about a lot of stuff, but when they do, you better watch out! They tend to not be into showiness of any kind. They are practical, and don't believe in a lot of violence. Grey fox people can get themselves out of trouble in a flash, and they respect authority when they can. Their only-what-you-need attitude carries over into how they treat the environment; they are careful to conserve earth's resources as well as their own. Grey fox people are usually super-chilled out and make reliable, steady friends.
Tera:
Your result was almost the same as the lion, but seeing as you altered the answers a bit, which is good! I found that your spirit guide is in the same family...
Jaguar
Jaguar people have strong intuitive abilities. They know when and how to react the second something good or bad happens, and they usually take charge of the situation right there and then. According to shamanistic wisdom, Jaguar people-- like the lion people-- are courageous, confident and patient. Lion people tend to want to band together, while Jaguar people would rather go at something that involves them-- one-on-one. They're very agust, and are quite high on the "respect list." Yet they reflect the respect they receive, and pour it out either among their friends or those who may be higher or older than they. They are strong spirited, and strong minded.They are hardly ever afraid to speak their minds--and are sometimes so patient it can be irritating.
Lemon: I'm so glad you love the site! I too have a strong connection with crows... that's for sure...
I was driving alongside a private dirt road we have behind our house, around the middle of fall. and a small crow was sitting on the grass to the side of the road. I thought nothing of it, expecting it to fly off when I drove by. I had my little cousin Tyler, up from New Mexico, who is about-- six. But he's very smart. We kept diving, and the crow still hadn't flown away! I parked the car (golf cart), and got out. I told Tyler to stay, because I didn't want him to be hurt if something went wrong.
Now I know I'm going to be flamed for doing what I didn't but keep in mind, I live in upstate New York, practically in the middle of nowhere, in the outskirts of a tiny town of about 2,000 people-- and I have been told one hundred fold never to touch anything wild. My heart was breaking as when I got closer I saw it was very young, and this bird had the most beautiful blue eyes... "we have foxes lurking around just up the hill, I even know where their burrow is... and if a fox doesn't get him something else will. Either the fox or one of our cats (our cats have brought in flying squirrels to birds, you name it.) will end up killing this poor fellow."
So, I did what I had to do... I got closer and stuck my hand out, afraid he was going to bite me with the sharp beak of his, but he didn't! I could feel his heart beating beneath his glossy black feathers, and I could feel the warm heat coming from his body. I tried to get him to step up onto my wrist but he wouldn't do it. Tyler is creeping closer and I let him touch him, seeing as the bird was just as calm as could be. The crow wouldn't step up, and it kind of, awkwardly hopped onto a low hanging branch, but he didn't use his wings. He just kind of flopped them around like they were bricks. I touched his wings, and they weren't broken, and I was both thankful and sorrowful. Thankful that he wasn't hurt, but sorrowful that I knew I wouldn't be able to get legal permission to keep him, if only for awhile... so I whispered gently to it: "stay there..." and we drove off, knowing I should probably get dad's help with this.
In then end we put him in a canvas bag for the trip through the wooded trails, home. We put him under a large laundry basket with moderate oval size holes in it so he could see me and I could see him. Gosh I must have sat there for hours reading him various books from my room. And when I picked up one of my Edgar Allen Poe books, I decided to name him "Poe", after "The Raven"... I know he's a crow, but "Poe the Crow" had way too much of a ring to it to let it go... Wow that whole sentence rhymed. ANYWAY.
The very same day, we had been out fishing and we had half a jar of worms left, and I wanted to feed him. I dangled the worm in front of his beak and he opened it really wide! A bit afraid and astonished, I set the wriggling worm in his mouth, and it just fell out... I actually had to pack it down his throat like his mother would...! He was very gentle and I wasn't afraid putting my fingers in his mouth. It was so strange. Later on I fed him some corn, and after he had eaten he attempted many times to escape. He had energy and it was then that we let him go.
Dad took him in his hand, tossed him gently into the air, and he flew! And it all took place within two days. I miss him. :'(
That's a wonderful story, it seems you may have more than one animal watching over you Lemon! What counts is that you recognized and heard them speak to you! Good work, keep your ears and eyes open, there are signs all around you!
That's so cool! A Jaguar
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Queze;
~Aztec priest of The Forest~
Ooh goodness, I'm glad I got
OOoo, sorry about that! You could try to find more on google. I know for a fact they like shiny things, but that's about it... LOL!
Wow, Mystress, what a truly
But I have to say, I've always been really mixed up, spiritually. As a child, I was in constant connection with animals, and had many "invisible animal friends". But they weren't imaginary; to me, they were absolutely real. To this day, I can't shake the memory of feeling that I was accompanied by actual, unseen animals. Unfortunately, I don't remember what sort of animals accompanied me, though they were most likely canine. My first word was 'woof' -- and that's no lie. Before I could even speak to humans, I was barking like a dog. My mother especially likes to recount a specific incident when I was three, and we were at a gas station. I hung my head out of the open window and barked and growled at everyone who passed by. x3
But I was raised in an extremely strict christian family -- the type which shuns anything unknown, and whose followers all seem to be perpetually stuck in the 18th century. I had to tell my teachers, on hundreds of occasions, that I needed a different assignment than the other children, because I wasn't allowed to learn about many things -- a specific example was the greek mythology assignment we had in 6th grade that I wasn't allowed to do. I rented a book on Buddhism one time, and I might as well have come home pregnant. x____x My parents sat me down and basically told me that if I wanted to learn about such things, I would need to find somewhere else to live (and guess what? I DID! That's why I'm moving in June.)
Over the years, my "animal friends" naturally disappeared, both as a result of discouragement from my parents (they thought I was psychotic), and I suppose also just as a simple result of growing up. As I got older, I began attempting to practice the art of reading animal minds. Mostly just my dog's. xD Eventually, I realized that even if such a thing was possible, I simply wasn't able to do it.
Growing even older, I lost my interest in dogs after my mother forced me to give away my best friend, a small black mixed breed, named Leila. I became a 'cat person', discovering that I could bring home as many as I wanted, and my mother would let them stay. She's a big fan of cats, and birds. I do connect very well to cats, and I've always felt like they are drawn to me as well.
I want to share what I've been trying to do for the past couple of days, but I don't know how people would think of me, for doing so. xD I'm really paranoid about people thinking I'm crazy, since I've been to more than my share of psychiatrists for anxiety, and most people don't understand that the therapy is just for nervousness around people, not because I'm psychotic. x_____x
Oh well; since when do I care what people think of me? And I really want to share this with you, I think you might find it a little interesting. For the past two days or so, I've been trying to summon my animal spirit guide via meditation. At first, it was quite difficult; I have a vivid imagination, and I became quite frustrated, trying to keep it under control. But no matter what, my mind would always come up with it's own ideas -- I mostly saw deer, which I attribute to the fact that I play waaay too much TEF. And I knew that the deer appearing in my mind were simply my imagination trying to keep itself entertained.
About an hour ago, I sat down to try once more. This time, I kept my mind focused until it was absolutely blank, before attempting to summon anything. I still don't know if it's simply my imagination being clever, or if this meditation session truly did work. But this session was much different. I felt different; like I was more relaxed, but less in control. I sat myself down in my imagined field of yellow flowers, and made my usual inquiry. This time, a large Black Jaguar (Panther) appeared and slowly moved toward me (my imagination usually causes animals to appear hazy and undefined, and causes them to move very quickly), and I could actually hear it's breath, I could see the gleaming in it's eyes, and as it approached me, rubbing its head against mine in affectionate way, I could actually feel the warmth of his skin against mine. It was amazing.
I asked the Jaguar if he was my animal spirit guide, and he said no. He said that there were many animals guiding me through portions of my life temporarily, but that obviously I had already figured that much out. I asked for him to point me in the right direction, to find the animal who accompanies me throughout my life, and a little fox appeared beside me. It was a crab-eating fox (black/grey fox), with large ears. The fox hopped into my lap, and again, I could feel the slight roughness of his fur, and the daintiness of his paws on my leg. It was unlike anything I'd ever felt, before -- I've never had a dream where I could feel things, like that! I asked if the fox was my spirit guide, but he didn't answer me. I heard myself worry about not feeling drawn toward foxes, and the Jaguar pointed out that I often pretended to be a fox, when I was young. I also draw foxes quite often, and I am naturally drawn to small (especially fluffy) dogs. He also pointed out that I am quite fox-like in personality -- not in the conventional, clever and beguiling way, but in the way that I am not easily noticed, that I am able to sink into the background, that I'm nurturing and family-oriented, and understand the importance of the home.
I did not get to speak to the fox, he did not have a voice as far as I could tell. But I said goodbye, and asked if he might stay near me after I broke my concentration. The fox agreed, and I lifted myself out of my meditation. For several minutes after that, I had the strongest feeling that the fox was laying beside me, still. With his paws on my lap. Some might laugh and say, 'oh, it's just your imagination'. But honestly... it was unlike anything I'd ever felt. It felt so real! It has been a very long time, since I've felt that odd sensation, of being accompanied by an "invisible animal". It makes me feel that I lost my connection as a child, and have only now rediscovered it.
I still don't know if the fox is my guide, or if I simply need to learn something from him, to find my guide. I still can't shake the feeling that my guide would be feline. But now that I think about my past, I realize that my love for cats has only been relatively recent. I never pretended to be a cat as a child, as far as I can remember. But I don't know. I think more meditation (or medication, who knows!) is in order. ;3
edit: Nope, not a crab-eating fox. It was small, silvery, with a small amount of tan and quite a bit of black, with very light eyes. It looked similar to a Grey fox, but darker and with lighter eyes, and larger ears...
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Story Index - Lemon's Biography
Lemon, that's amazing! And
Let me share something with you all too. I also, was messed up spiritually as a kid. My parents were not atheists, and they weren't pagans... they just-- didn't really have any sort of spiritual thing going on...
I was different. I had an amazing attraction to spirituality and belief, and wanted to learn all I could... about three summers ago I decided I really wanted to learn more about religion. I was sick of not being able to believe in anything, and my parents never shunned me for trying to find anything, they just didn't really "care" (for lack of a better word) about that aspect of my life. And my parents are amazing, truly! they've always been there for me supporting anything I do...
Even today I have an amazing attraction to trees and nature. To animals and spirits. And I found that I was really not interested in a "God"... a Male deity. And so later on I hooked up with Wicca... which is nothing more than an earth-based belief system, and way of life, which "worships" a female deity. And where I live that was not going to fly...
I mentioned earlier that I live in the outskirts of a TINY town. I mean seriously. It's SMALL. and in this small town there are four churches. I kid you not. Catholic, Methodist, Baptist, Presbyterian. And the catholics that live here would've probably had me burned on main street, and thrown into the lake with an anchor tied to my feet, had they found out that I was interested in anything even remotely different than Christianity. I'm not bashing anyone's religion here, if there are any Catholics out there--- the Catholics that are here are really stuck up. I know you're not all like that... anyway!
During this metamorphosis I was going through spiritually, my mother took this crap called Chantex to get off smoking. I don't even know if I spelled the damn thing right but I don't give a hoot.
My mother became dillusional over the course of a year, and it was the worst summer of my life. She was absolutely convinced that the FBI or the government was after us. She wouldn't go to the bank-- take a walk outside, and she couldn't trust anyone. Not even my sister and I... she was terrified of cops, and soon enough she began to see cameras in the newspaper. It was absolutly terrifying. She would speak very quietly, because she was sure someone was listening to us. I took her by the arms on numerous occasions and just screamed:
"Why? Why would they be listening to us, we have nothing to hide! We're not in the witness protection program, and hardly anyone in our family has been in the service, there is no reason!!" she never had an answer...
Stuff got complicated, fast. And in the end she found a simple little stump outback that was covered in candles. She had found my "shrine". She took me outback, and showed me that it was tipped over and broken. I was un-consolable, and she was lucky I didn't get angrier than I did. I just sat on the ground and cried forever. A few weeks before, even though I knew it would do no good, I asked if I could go to church. We tried going once, and the doors weren't open when they said they would be for the Methodist church... and then we stopped trying, for a while.
I had a Catholic friend when I was little, and behind our house in the woods we would have adventures and play. We would make up swords of wood, and put on costumes occasionally, and either pretend we were sorceresses or knights, or anything really! I hung a picture of a dragon on a tree that we called the "Sacred Tree" (Gosh I almost forgot its name it's been so long!) and we would kneel before it and have a quick prayer (which was more like a wish than a prayer) to the dragon (Griffin his name was) and start our game... One day she said she can't play with me anymore, and when I asked why she said it was breaking a commandment to play with me. As we were "praying" to an "idol"... I was heartbroken.
I don't know what it was, my attraction to a church. I think I was just sick of being alone. I didn't want to be any different than I already was. I didn't want to be shunned for my beliefs, and something inside me was curious. I wanted to have a group to have at least one thing in common with me. My mom said later on if we lived in a big city, and I had other Wiccans around me she would've let me go, because I wouldn't have been alone. But in a small town when EVERYONE is strictly Christian, it was dangerous to everyones reputation in my family if word ever got around...To understand why I didn't want to be alone in my beliefs as well as everything else I did, you really should have seen me in school. I had two good friends, who were sisters, and who were always picked on. For no reason at all! And in real life I was a "lightbringer"... I protected them, and told off those who picked on them, and so we became really close friends. I was always the outcast until I found them... later on, their mom went a little whacked and shut off all communications with my family (this was after my mom went nuts)... and we found out later she was a compulsive lier, and I haven't seen Ashley and Paige since... then I was alone once more...
It was a Sunday in the beginning of September when I finally went to church. Mom got over whatever it was that possessed her, and I had found my place. I found that I loved God, and that December I sang a solo for Christmas Eve, and became very involved in the church. And today, and this second I am writing a book for the church I go to... I can't stop loving everyone there.
Yet the one thing I think that really clicked for me was that the minister was a woman. And that's not something you see everyday! She was very welcoming, and I decided that's where I'd stay. She later became my godmother, and I was baptized last year August. And this year I have decided to go into the ministry when I go to college. It changed my life.
Lemon, let me firstly apologize. I am sorry about your parents and how they're not seeing the way God works. God is accepting, and he would love for you to learn about other religions, and explore the world around you! He would want you to know that not everyone believes in the same things, and thats OK! You are loved for who you are, and what you do. I'm sorry your parent's haven't learned the simplest of Gods words, to accept and love, and forgive....
And another thing. You are not hurting anyone by wanting to learn about the spirits around you! A part of me is still attached to Wicca, and how it works with the earth, but I found in my journey that I can tie mother nature and the spirits, and fairies, and elves, and anything else right with God. You make your own religion, within reason. My godmother (the minister) has traveled all over the world, to India and Russia, and Sri Lanka and taught English there... She's studied Neurology, and was being attacked by camp leaders in college and said that it was the "devils work", she rolled her eyes and laughed.
Religion should never be used for oppression. Only for empowerment. To lift people up about themselves, never to put them down!!
And another thing. What ever anyone believes here, never think I'm ever trying to "convert" you. I found God on my own, and I'll let you too. I believe in angels. I belive in animal spirits, and guardians. I belive there are many ways to believe many things!! I believe trees have people and spirits inside them, and no one can stand here and call me non-Christian. I love it. And that's all that matters at the end of the day.
I wish you the best of luck Lemon, in moving out! And if you're drawing Walter and your parents are blind enough to see it's the devil you should just laugh... If everyone here were uptight Christians they wouldn't be on this site! I mean come on TWIN GODS? :') Sounds good to me...
Lemon, there is nothing wrong with your meditation, and I could tell you many stories of encounters I have had, and yet you are at the top of your class for feeling everything so vividly the first time! It's amazing! And I thank you for sharing it, and having the guts to too! I know I was afraid to tell everyone what I believe but it's out now... WHEW!
Lemon, whatever you feel in your meditations, you know when its your imagination and its real. You can not feel with your imagination. You can only feel whats real, and meditate all you can!! It sounds like that panther is there to help you out, listen to it! And know that it can only be real! Live by it.
:')
I'll open up a bit here
Anyway, ever since I was a very young girl, I've felt a huge connection with canines. My Dad has let me watch nature shows even when I was young, so I was allowed to see the wild world. There were many animals I loved, but I've always come back to the wolf.
A few years back, I went to a wolf sanctuary and got a chance to meet wolves nearly face to face. It was one of the most thrilling experiences for me. I howled with the wolves, something I've always wanted to do since I was a little girl. What was the most thrilling thing was that even though I was in a group of people, in the end it was just me and the alpha of the pack howling together- I felt like I connected and was accepted by a real wolf, and me feeling a connection with wolves finally felt validated. I will never in my life forget that.
Also last year I got to swim with dolphins, who are another of my most favorite animals.. and that was another amazing thing. I was in a small group of 4 people and the two dolphins were supposed to split up between us, the dolphins kept coming back to me. I was also the only one who would actually "swim" with them.. and not tread water. Swimming underwater with them, and staring back at them, was just.. I can't even describe it.
Anyway, I rambled. I have strong ties to nature. I was raised Catholic, but now my parents and I just believe in our own ways, and find God in every day things. I find God in nature, and incorporate all sorts of religions into my life. I'm also part Cherokee(25%?) so I'm wondering if any of that blood has anything to do with my loving nature.
Okay, done blabbing here.
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I'm a little wolf inside a girl.
Lightbringer-apprentice to Yorres
I also firmly believe that
I am also part indian-- Passamoquaddy?... (Spelling much?) but that was like my great grandmother. Most of my blood comes from England and such, in that area. But I really have a bond with indian things. I have an indian flute that I'm learning to get farely good on.
Tie close to your ancestors also, because they too are guiding you! Learn all you can about where you have come from. You have many places to call "home"! Whether it's the sea or with a wolf pack! :') I also have swam with dolphins. It was really, magical. :')
Thank you for opening up! It's always good to let stuff out when you know you're safe with people who wouldn't do anything to hurt you. That's why I like this community so much... We're all so safe! :')
Mystress, thank you so much
You know, I actually think that the whole idea of God being "male" (along with the whole, 'wives are servants to their husbands' idea), is partially what turns me off about Christianity the most. That, and the fact that the Christians I have been raised around are the opposite of what Christianity stands for. Through the years, people have forgotten that according to Christianity, God is loving and forgiving, and wants people to make their own choices! Christianity should not be forced on non-believers. And I have an EXTREMELY difficult time assuming that every single person who doesn't agree with my specific beliefs and ideas, will burn in hell for eternity, or be killed at Armageddon, or what have you. That just seems... extremely wrong. Thinking about that really hurt me -- to think that all these people were praying to the "wrong" Gods, and would be killed for living lives which they honestly thought were holy and good. People who were kind, generous, and honest -- but not Christian. People like Gandhi would burn in hell, because he wasn't a Christian. How is that right, on any level?
But I don't mean to go off ranting about religion. x_____x It's a sore spot, with me. I don't like the hate of Christianity; I've lived 17 years of watching my parents turn away from beggars in the street and act disgusted at my homosexual friends. I've watched my sisters be shot down for asking questions, especially regarding the existence of God. And the breaking point came when I started researching cults, for my cult-leader roleplay character, Devlin. I started reading all of these "symptoms" of a cult, and... it was stunning, how many similarities there were between "my" religion, and a doomsday cult! In fact, I've become convinced that that is exactly what it is.
Yet, I know exactly what you mean about wanting to believe in something, for once. I never believed in what I was taught at church -- I went along with it because it made my parents happy. When I didn't want to go to church, it would cause an argument. So I went, I tried to sit still, and I took as many bathroom breaks as I humanly could. xD I want to believe in something because I believe in it! I want to feel passionate about my beliefs! I don't want to just drudge through life like a clone, doing exactly what I'm told, just because I'm supposed to. I want to act in a way that feels right.
I don't know what my beliefs are, yet. I'm only 17, and I'm outgrowing an extremely sheltered life -- so I think it's okay for be to be confused. But what I do know, is that I gave up these animism-like beliefs as a child, and I want to come back to them, now. The only thing that really bothers me, is the human soul. If I believe in animal spirits, I suppose I ought to believe in human spirits, too. But honestly, I can't. I've become so fed up with the human race, over the years, that I can no longer really imagine that humans would be worthy of living past their allotted 80-or-so years. I know there are tons of good people in the world, but.. But I don't know. x______x
Anyway, I've done a lot of rambling. x3 Mystress, thank you so much for your kind words. <3 I will certainly be meditating as much as I can; especially since I've found that it has worked for my anxiety better than any medication has, in the past.
And Kaoori, I know exactly what you mean about being shy on the internet! I even had trouble in the actual game of TEF, feeling very shy and nervous. Of course, I'm doing better, now -- hence the reason Lemon has seemed much more social, lately. I think what has helped the most, is knowing that the people here are so loving and understanding. <3 I've never been convinced of that, before -- people have always seemed dangerous and frightening, to me. But here, it's easy to see that the community is full of good hearts. :')
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Story Index - Lemon's Biography
I don't know who said it,
Seriously - what sin could any mortal creature commit that could possibly warrant eternal punishment?
(my 2 cents)
"Fragments fall and reflect the Light. Dust slowly covers my thoughts." - Yorres, Lightbringer
Lemon, I'm a year behind you
I'm a year behind you in age and I can already see how mature you are, and its great to share something in common!
Kiri, the minister, is an absolute amazing person, and she would welcome you in whatever your beliefs were. Christian or non-Christian! My beliefs are that it's not for us to judge who goes to heaven and hell. It's not for us to judge if gays are "wrong" in what they do! Love them like anyone else!! You're playing God, and that's why you're wrong when you judge someone. You're supposed to leave that to God.
I recently went to a Presbytery Meeting, in Albany and took a very long car ride with her. She said most of the meetings are really long and boring, but she invited me to go as I'm interested in the ministry and such. And it's a great honor to go. If you can sit for four hours... Lol. But it was on homosexuality and what the Presbyterian Church's views on it were. It was really argumentative, and exiting. I have a few homosexual friends myself, and there's even a lesbian couple in our church, and everyone treats them just like anyone else! And that's the way it should be....
There were mostly pastors in the room, and some would take up the mike and flip straight to Leviticus, and say that "man was not mean to sleep with man, nor woman with woman". My take on the Bible is, most of it is written by men , and the rest is written by divine guidance... God didn't pick up a quill pen and write this stuff down, but he guided men to write what he wanted them to. And other men got their egos up and started bashing woman and saying how they should be "quiet in church". And most of all, NEVER preach the Holy Word... X___x Because everyone listens to Paul don't they??
If that was true, I wouldn't be a Christian Lemon. I am a girl, and I'm proud of it! I even sing in the choir, and no one can stand up and tell me to "sit down and shut-up" because I am what God made me. I'm listening to his voice, and sometimes as a human you don't want to hear it, and thats okay! He speaks to us all in different ways, and you have a choice! I said the second I learned I was in a church that had a woman minister:
"Try to tell her to shut up, idiots."
God can't mess with one thing. Free will. He gave it to you, and you can do with it whatever you want to.
I was also taking a trip with my dad later on (sorry for going on so long, I just love talking....lol) and he was raised in Catholic school where he lived, not because his parents were religious, but because Public school was so bad. One day he asked, "why there were no dinosaurs in the Garden of Eden."... the nun's eyes got wide and she took him to the priest at the school, and dad was beaten with a paddle. That shut him down and he became an atheist. And his worst fear came when I went to church, he let me and he didn't stop me from going at all, and I was terrified to tell him what I wanted to go to college for. The ministry. And he said "Just as long as your happy with what you do, go for it!"... I think he's starting to understand. Kiri has become very close with our family, and calls me up if she ever needs help with anything because I'd be there in a heartbeat... and I think dad finally sees who God really is through her. Her body is like an amplifier of the Holy Spirit, I swear. If there was ever to be another saint, it would be her. But anyway! We got talking about Heaven and how he wasn't sure if he was going there. I can't say my dad has been a saint all his life, but he is surely generous and loving, and if I could ever picture a dad to represent God, it would be him... even if he doesn't "pray" like everyone else. I told him God has a place for everyone, and he would never be in the same place as murderers and thieves and all that jazz. I told him: "You're going wherever I'm going, and by God I'm not going to Hell." I've been having dreams, that if my reward was great in Heaven, I could bring whatever person I chose to come with me to Heaven, if they weren't there already. And if dad wasn't, I'd bring him...
Oh, DUH! The ruling for the Presbytery over the homosexuality thing (mind you this is only one vote for the rest of the country) was to re-word a few of the passages that were taken too literally about being gay. So then it was up for debate in your own mind about what they said, so no one could flip to a certain page and say "See thats what it says right there!!", as it was up for question really, for what it was about... and I think they were right for doing so.
As for human beings having souls. I would like to believe everyone has one. As I speak with you now Lemon, I can already tell you have bright and intelligent spirit that's been around the world and back for a long long time... souls like your parents, are just-- new to the whole concept of love, and acceptance. They haven't been around as long as our souls, they haven't "seen" what hate like that can do to other people... Like the Crusades, killing people for not believing the same way someone else might... And that goes for anyone who is really corrupt, or just plain mean. I also believe human beings have a choice to listen to their spirit, and they do have a mind of their own! They can make it appear as if they have no soul at all! It's because they're not listening to it. Inside their souls are just screaming for them to listen, but they're too deaf to hear it. And that's why we have the Holy Spirit around us, as much as animal spirits, and ancestral spirits. The human mind can be very hurtful, and people who deal with the flesh and are afraid in what they belive, and are terrified of the people around them, and what others belive. They are listening to their "flesh". And not their spirits.
My mom said when I was very small, "You have a lil 'ol soul Em." and I believe it deeply.
The Celtic cross has a ring behind it, do you know what it stands for?
Your spirit, and how it goes around and around and around the earth. Taking up other bodies when you go, and however your mind listened to it, and you've done more good than bad, depends on whether you go "up or down". I know I say that it's not for us to judge, but Lemon-- It truly belive that whatever you believe in, whether it Nirvana or Heaven or-- whatever! Either one has a place for everyone. However good you've been (not in what you belive) but in your words and actions, will reflect in what you get after this life. If you fear "Satan"... and you fear this word called: "Homosexuality", then your worst fear will come to haunt you. You're taught never to fear anything if you believe in God, spiritually and physically (whithin reason, you're human... Only a loony would laugh at a guy with a gun.) and if you fear things like "Satan", (or your kid drawing "Satan") it's going to come back and bite you in the end!!
You have nothing to fear, ever Lemon. It doesn't matter how many times those wicked priests who molest kids say a Hail Mary-- they will never be forgiven wholly for what they've done, you cannot erase the past, you can only move on and hope you can do better next time. Whether you belive in Jesus, or Mary, or God, or that weird guy named Joseph-- there is a "Heaven" for everyone, and it is what you've done in this life and how you've treated others. And I can tell you one thing, from the bottom of my heart. You got nothing' to fear. And neither does Ghandi.
I also belive this dude named "Satan", is the absence of God. And if you fear the "Absence of God", then your beliefs aren't strong enough to keep you away from that... just a thought...
And Lemon, if you ever find a church you fall in love with, and are wondering if you're doing something bad by meditating-- the Bible encourages you to meditate. :') Thought I may just throw that in there.
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Yorres: I think the Bible says at one time: "What sin is so deadly it couldn't be pardoned by the death of Christ?" Hmmm, that's easy.
~Mystress
I love you guys.
Oh my, Mystress. That reply
Especially knowing that... there's still hope in this world. I don't want to think that all religions are just the product of some man's ego. I don't want to shun all versions of Christianity, simply because I was brought up in a strain which shows only the worst aspects of the religion. I don't want to be forced to think of animals as little machines, because "the bible says" (my family's version of it, anyway) that animals can't reason. Your words really showed me that I don't have to feel that way...
I don't really know what to say, other than to thank you again for being such a wonderful person. <3 I feel so much better about myself, now -- whereas before, I was still feeling stressed out over the fact that my parents are devout Christians, and I am a "freak", in that I don't agree with the beliefs that everyone else in my family seems to accept without question. And talking to you, I've actually learned a lot about my beliefs and how I feel about things. It helps to talk things out; but the only person I really have, to talk about religion, is my boyfriend -- and he's the type of atheist who has shunned all types of spirituality from his personal life (while still remaining tolerant of other people's beliefs), so it's never much of a conversation, with him. x3 Of course, there's reason for his giving up on religion -- he suffers (and I do mean 'suffer'; sometimes it seems that he has the body of an 80-year-old man, he gets so weak and sickly) from a condition which will ultimately shorten his lifespan significantly. Not only that, but he gets to watch his father, who suffers from the same illness, fade away right before his eyes -- a glimpse of what's in store for him, in the future. Suffering like that will hurt a person's spirituality... He said the last straw arrived while he worked at a hospital, taking sickly people to church every Sunday. He said he watched an elderly man pass away right before his eyes, and the last thing the old man said, was a prayer to God. Somehow, that broke him. I can't exactly understand why, but it really affected him, deeply.
Anyway, thank you again for your amazing words and experiences. Words can't express my gratitude. :') <333
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Story Index - Lemon's Biography
I'm crying too Lemon,
I'm so sorry about your boyfriend Lemon. He sounds like an amazing person, and I apologize deeply about his condition, that must be absolutly horrible for both of you. I'm so sorry.
It might take you some time, to get adjusted to whatever it is you want to belive in. But I can tell you right now for a fact, there are some pretty damn poor examples for Christains in the world, and I am ashamed someone with so much love and kindess as you has to be surrounded by them, day in and day out...
I pray my words have helped you out, and if you ever need to talk or have any questions, you know the human Mystress is here for you as the deer Mystress is there for Lemon.
I will keep both you and your beloved in my prayers.
You have a very strong spirit Lemon, and I know you'll never let it go to waste. Use it any way you can, and let it never be broken by those around you...
<333
Words cannot express how happy I am that I have helped you in any way, Lemon.
Thank you
~Mystress
I love May It Be. <3 I think
Aethere:
1. C (except not with his sweet mate)
2. C
3. B
4. A
5. A
6. B
7. B (though he's more liable to just not care)
8. B
9. B
10. A? (He'd be more liable to just say, 'forget it, it's alright'.)
11. C
12. B
13. C
This was fun and helped me think some more about his character. :3
Holy cow, it's been a long
Swan:
According to shamanistic wisdom, the swan is a hopeless romantic. Swans give themselves completely to their mates, and if a partner dies, they go through a very public mourning period before finding a new one. When swan people fall, they fall head over heels in love and often shut out everyone else while in the relationship. They also tend to take break ups harder than most, but are the best, most caring partners in the world while a relationship lasts.
I'll probably have to find a new quiz to do this one with as it's out of date. Feel free to take a re-quiz when i get the new one up! <3
xD Hi! xD He's pretty far
xD He's pretty far from that. He doesn't care at ALL about mates. *pokes Mystress*
Would you like to read him again?
Or I can wait for the new quiz. x3
*pats Athere*
...Maybe he's secretly very romantic. ^_~
Athere: No.
LMAO! Well, XDDD I will read
Well, XDDD I will read him again, I need to find a new quiz for it though, I had a strange feeling this one wouldn't work *kicks quiz*. Might be awhile, I have a lot on my hands XDDD but feel free to when it's up!
x3 Alright, I'll find it
Alright, I'll find it when you put it up. xD
*is left wondering if he has a romantic side somewhere* ;3
Ooo, this sounds
1) In the forest, during a gathering of some sort, there are a lot of deer hopping and dancing around. What is your reaction to this?
b) Dancing with a few close friends.
2) A stag of massive popularity and status confronts and becons you with his large, pointy antlers in front of everyone! What do you do?
a) I tell him firmy to stop, and walk away slowly, praying he won't follow.
3) A friend of yours has been mocking you behind your back. You:
b) Shrug it off and ignore him/her when you see them next. Who needs a friend like that? /
d) Stare at them with hateful and hurt eyes, you're too afraid to do anything else.
Uh... probably something mixed of these two?
4) Your walking in the forest, and some deer began to whoop and hollar at you mockingly. You:
c) Ignore them.
5) You're being depressed and alone at the pond, and a fawn comes bounding in playfully, and wants you to have a drink with them. You:
a) Go to get a drink with the little fawn. Then return to your meditation.
6) A good friend of yours is really really sad. You want desperately to cheer them up some, when in bounds your mate who also is sad. You:
b) Tell my mate that I'll have to catch them later, as the friend is alone.
7) A stag is terrorizing everyone in the forest, how would you confront them?
b) Rally up troops and allies to protect you and so you're less-likely to be hurt.
a) YES. :'(
9) It's Halloween and everyone going to get dressed up in their favorite flashy pelts. What do you wear?
b) Whatever I have available at the moment. I'll prbably jsut spell spam the BZD to death
(no pun intended)
10) Your adopted (or blood) parents start fighting with you over something really dumb. You:
b) Try to defuse the situation with humor.
11) You have some awesome ideas for the forest. But Michael and Auria shoot down the idea. (Muahahaa!) You:
d) would probably give up after refused. =P
12) Your best friend just broke up with their mate. You:
b) Talk them through it, while sitting by their side quietly.
13) If you or your deer were famous, what would they or you most likely want to be?
d) none of these, probably... Maybe epic artist-deer. =)