It is 1:49 to be exact...a stary night outside of my window. My back against the wall;; hazel eyes stared before me. My bed;; with the red blanket scattered so akcwardly & the many pictures of me & my friends....the white pillow hung over looking as it was about to fall. The faint noise of my fathers snores;;...no trace of my mother as she was sound asleep with no sound. I;; wasn't sleepy at all....pale hands wrapped around my knees as I was wearing short black shorts. My scars visible in the faint light that came out of my lamp sitting on the small table beside my bed. Books scattered on the ground;; followed by sketches of sceneries. Pink lining on my pupil made everything have a thick pink border around it;; I was weird. I was weird. Hot tears streamed down my cheeks;; following mascara as it driped onto my white loose t-shirt. I sniffed;; Why was I so weird? Black splotches stained my carpet;; aswell as red liquid...my blood. "Why am I so weird..?" I spoke to myself;; my words echoed in my dark room. My skull teady bear across the room;; where I had thrown it many nights ago. My black cat curled upon my bed;; it's purrs lighting my heart. I felt so alone in this world....like my room was the only place I should be. I stood up;; almost tripping- but I regained my balance ackwardly. I plummated down onto my bed;; rocking the bed a little...enough to wake up Teagen. It's green eyes opened;; but soon turned to slights right away & he went on purring again. "I'm just a freak." I repeated over & over again;; throwing the many things that lay on my bed. I stared at the ceiling;; wrapping myself in my blanket...tears still coming out of my eyes. And that night;; I cried myself to sleep In my room.