Bleh…not sure if I need to apologize but I’m gonna. I have been away the last 3 days thanks to non-consented late-night family outings/ power going out/ internet staying out >< The saddest thing is I’ve was so worried I was missing something and all my other sites were exactly as I left them >< Seriously depressing. There were a few pages here…and a few posts I most certainly need to and will address, but that’s all…This place isn’t the only place that’s dead, you guys. It really isn’t. I play at a lot of RP sites and creative games and they’re all pretty vacant. But anyways…AS for those posts…I hope you guys don’t mind if I try and reply to them all here? >< I just cant organize my thoughts and it’s easier for me, plus they might not get read if I post a couple pages back. I’m sure I’ll miss some things but I’ll adress the things I remember most anyways.

School HAS started for most people…and seeing as EF is kept busy by mostly young people, that is going to play a factor. A big one. That seems to be the reason most the other sites I visit are dead.
Before my three day disappearance I was on quite a bit…Id just leave the forest on and let my deer sleep, checking every few minutes for friends. If I was really bored I’d get up and look for deer in general and try to initiate friendship…which worked for a while but then they’d run off without asking me to follow or disappear from the game…and I was left to sleeping again ><

“This site has gone downhill!”
Erm…clueless Shi again v__v I admit, I came to this site late, when the ‘RP’ thing seemed to be getting on its feet, and I DID embrace it. Some people have their art, some have their story telling…I have Rping. It’s my absolute passion, I’ve been doing it for years, and I can’t escape it. For me it’s just like I have many sides to my personality, and every one has a face and a name and a will, and it’s really hard for me to ‘be myself’, because I’m really just several entities. They all come out as characters. Now, when I first got into this site…I couldn’t relate to anyone else’s deer >< I admit I was a fawn and probably ignored just for being one XD But before I found the community site I was just “Bleh, this is ok, I just wish I knew who everyone was and could relate to them somehow. Enter community. Again, when I first got here I didn’t have high hopes. I’m not really a well liked person so I cause trouble on forums sometimes, and everyone seemed pretty ‘established’ in themselves…so I was nervous and sorta just lurked around. Then I saw people making bios for their characters, the new bandwagon. YES! People here Rped! I felt so much more at ease, and I saw the bandwagon bios as a perfect opportunity to enter into the site. I did, I met great, talented people, and I felt like I was part of something…

Only now to find that, once again, I became part of some great ‘problem’ the older members detest ><

But even NOW…I don’t understand it. I don’t understand why everyone has to be ‘one way’, or why everyone has to care what everyone else is doing SO much. It sort of saddens me… I certainly don’t care if some players role play and others just play their deer as themselves. I don’t treat them any differently in game, and isn’t that where it matters, guys? I mean, I’ve HEARD of all this ‘in game’ drama but I’ve never really seen it, at least not to the point where it affects anyone outside of who seems to WANT to participate in it. And again, that creates the ‘some deer are favoring others and it’s not fair!” argument. …Boo…hoo? I dunno…I guess I don’t understand this obsession for some people to have to be friends with EVERYONE. I don’t take the word ‘friends’ lightly at all. Everyone preaches that this community is a FAMILY and we should all be BEST FRIENDS and NOT FIGHT and have NO DRAMA, blah blah blaaaah….do you LIVE in the real world? XD Sorry but if you can accomplish those things you’re either 1. Not human, or 2. Not being honest with other people, and in that case, that’s just the illusion of a conflict-free nature, not the real thing.

As for the favoritism in the comment/fan art department…eh. I admit freely I’m bad at comments. I get discouraged when I have nothing creative or new to add and sometimes I just don’t bother, especially if I have commented on that person’s art a few times before and I assume they already know I think it’s “awesome’ and I ‘love their style’ and…other…cliché comments >< Kumiko, I LOVE your story…I honestly think it’s one of the better ones written, and I’m really disappointed no body else is giving it that recognition…however, I can give a few guessed as to why >< One…some people have a lot of stories to read already. I know I get confused about which story is which and all the plot lines and bleeeh they get so hard to follow, especially when they aren’t the most creative or well put together. OR, the second and most likely….your story doesn’t involve anyone =/ It’s just Kumiko and other made up characters nobody knows. You didn’t make a list and ask people to be a part of it…and so nobody cares. That’s why I kind of hate lists >< I don’t offer my characters up anymore because I can’t bear to see them meshed into a story they wouldn’t normally be a part of or misused somehow XD And at the same time I do feel a little left out… I guess I sort of expect that if one of my deer’s friends were to write a storey including others from the forest that my deer would automatically be in it because our deers are buddies! Why not? The same thing goes for Fan art. I wouldn’t go so far as to say I ‘expect it’, but it certainly makes more sense that I’d get some from them (Not including those of you who aren’t drawers :3 -snugs Kumiko-) That’s why I felt sort of bad for doing that picture request list a while ago and stopped to focus on friends….it wasn’t MY fault my artistic muse decided to take a vacation at that time >< I know some of my friends still haven’t gotten anything from me, BUT nobody else has either, so rest assured you aren’t being skipped, I’m just incapable ><

Also….for ANYONE who has been a total champ and has managed to read to this point, I want to ask a favor. I think there’s a lot of dishonesty floating around, and that above all things makes me uncomfortable. Blackhoof’s post especially about being bothered by some people but refusing to name names…what is that? Are you TRYING to make us all paranoid? XD if you’re gonna make a statement like that, go all the way…otherwise it’s empty and confusing and doesn’t solve anything >< Anyways, I want to ask that ANYONE who has something to say to me, PLEASE say it. The dishonesty and unknowing in this game alone is enough to make me uncomfortable being here anymore, and I would feel much better about IT and myself knowing how people feel…EVEN if most of them are negative messages of some kind. I need to know honesty. You don’t have to tell me in reply to this message…PLEASE if it makes you comfortable, send me and email. I will make this promise as well. If you don’t want me to reply to the message, I wont. You are free to say whatever you want without any consequences ^^ I am that desperate XD

Anyways…final note. I love this game. I love being with my friends on it. I love role playing. I’m sorry if my passion and my flaws make some people unhappy…I guess you can’t please everyone, and I’m certainly not going to aim to try. I’m sick of people leaving this game on excuses like “Well, I’ll take a break until activity speeds up again” (sorta a paradox don’t you think? @_@) or “I can’t handle the drama that doesn’t concern me whatsoever so BYE”. Why can’t people just get along and accept what other people like? Why can’t you avoid the community site without losing passion for the game or trying to attack the people on it / the site itself? There are plenty of things people do on here I’m not personally in agreement to or understand, but it doesn’t ruin the game for me. I just don’t get it. I really want to, but at the same time, I don’t…I don’ want to feel this misery everyone else seems to be feeling ><
I have a feeling my friends on here will go…or give up on things I adore them for. Maybe when they’ve all gone, or have lost interest, which seems like a big black cloud looming just ahead, I will give up, too. Until then…GET YOUR ARSES IN THE FOREST!
:3

-scuttles off-

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