February 14, 2009 - 6:24pm — Cata
CATA (talking to his long dead mate & himself): Here I am, my dear Peshewa, in The Endless Forest. My herd is smaller, there is just my daughter Paya and the Aura-Seer Pi'yu. That is okay, I am sick of being a leader now actually. Here are no leaders and herds, here is peace and friendship and love.
Oh, the love. The love to you is still inside of me, my deary, I just can't forget you and I never will. But the last time there came more love in my heart. I found a few new friends in this new world, and this makes me happy. I never thought I could be happy again when I lost you. But there are so cute does in this Forest. Don't be offended now, Pesh. I already promised you I'll always love you.
I... I'm just loving so many deer at the same time...
Today is Valentine's Day. It seems like everyone gives gifts to his/her mate now, has fun, has love. There are a few lonely people, too.
I don't really fit in any category. I don't really have a new mate yet. But there are lovers around me...
Sunfyra. She really seems to like me. So I do. She's such a cute little doe, so innocent and nice. I like spending time with her. But maybe she is too young. Would it be okay for her having a daughter? She and Paya could rather be sisters. But I love Sun, I really do. Age doesn't matter...
Poltergeist. But she promised herself never to fall in love. And she won't change it so fast. But when I came to her while Sunfyra was around, she ran away from me. And cried. Why can't we just be friends? Why is she so addicted to think, when you are around with a stag he would break your heart? Even if there is not the big love between you?
She explained me everything, but I still don't really understand how she acts. Everything I know is that my heart is with her. And it would cling to her for a long time if she wouldn't totally break it down.
These were the ones. I am not the most beautiful one around I fear. Which doesn't really matter to me, I am happy with the friends I can keep.
I just think I have to decide. But I have no experience with this all. In the herd the rules were strict, especially for the leader: a doe says it aloud when she loves you, and the stag chooses one of them. And Pesh, you were my one-and-only love then... Why did you have to go?
Happy Valentine's Day. My heart will beat for all of you.
PAYA: I guess I'm still a lonely doe. Maybe I am even too young for a mate. I could make some friends here, but only one stag is under them and he's taken. Will anyone ever fall in love with me? Will I ever find somebody to love?
I'm not sure...
I sometimes dream of the time in the Shawnee herd. Not after the wolves attacked, but before, when my father was the strong leader and we all were a lucky family. I see myself and my sister Pena. She is - or was - the older one. I remember that she had much lovers and enjoyed seducing them all. I always adored her for that, I thought she was such a lucky, beautiful and strong doe, even if she wasn't MUCH older than me.
But I were always the little fawn and stood in her shadow. I don't remember any boy even looking at me. I am small and not so pretty, am I?
Since I am a partymake and love to make friends, it doesn't seem like they love me. Am I too superficial? Are there even free stags in The Endless Forest who might be interested in having a mate? And it shouldn't be the next one I meet. I would love to fall in love. But for some reason, I just don't. I can't find anybody to love.
Will this always be so? Oh Twin Gods, please send somebody to love for me. I see all the lucky couples on Valentine's Day, and I feel so lonely.
PI'YU: I am too strange for having a mate. No, seriously. Who would like to love a blind stag which can always tell how you feel with seeing your aura? Who will always know if you did something wrong when he sees your aura getting darker when you are lieing? I think no beautiful doe would like that. I would never be able to give her something beautiful, since I can't see if the thing I have between my hooves is beautiful or not. I can't tell a doe how cute she is, since I will never see her appereance.
Once, in a dream, a voice told me something very weird. It said that I am not the only aura seer in the world. It told me that I am descended from a god-like doe, which was the best Aura Mystic of every time and generation. And I am one of her descendents who inherited her talent. The voice continued and told me that every Aura Mystic will find somebody he would recognize at the first sight. Stags will find a doe, does will find a stag with ... a white aura.
Nothing is more rarely than a white aura, even than golden auras. And sometimes I would find a doe with a white aura and I would know that we belong. And we would be happily ever after.
But it was just a strange voice from a dream. And I have survived many hard times and almost died a couple of times and there's still nobody on my side.
Will this doe even be in The Endless Forest? Maybe I have to go on a journey again to find her. But I am safe here and I would risk my life if I left this Forest again. And I will never leave Catahecassa and Payakootha again.
But my dream of love will continue. Will it ever be successfull?
Anyway, happy Valentine's Day for all the mates here. I am happy for you. Consider yourself lucky ones.
Sorry for my bad english again! Or better their. lol ^^
I guess I'm younger as Sunny
Why I promised myself not to love another? To see if another would be patient enough to love me anyway. I guess that's not you, and that's fine since I wouldn't even want you anymore. I can't be a second choice, even though I understand the troubles with your past mate and I have respect for that. But I'm not going to be a mother. Not now, not ever.
Whew, you were raised with picking like they're toys? You're no different from the others here, then.
*Sweatdrop*
I think she had to get that out XD Don't worry, she's not really all that angry.
Aw P-P-Paya, don't worry t-too much a-about g-getting a mate. T-that's not important! I-important it is to have fun, a-anyway. I m-m-miss my mate a l-l-lot, my deer S-S-Saan. I can barely s-s-see her. P-polt is r-right about l-l-love being h-h-hurtfull in many w-w-ways! I e-e-ven had troubles b-b-back then. J-j-just understand that y-y-ou should l-l-live for yourself!
Aw Seele D8 Dork. Also, I don't think your english is bad! XD I feel lazy for not doing anything for Valentines.
--Stays a lonely Seele
I do love you, Polt, didn't
But when Pesh died, when I had to flee and I lost them all, I suddenly got my own problems. During the journey to get here, I had just me and Paya. I tried to care for my daughter as good as I could, but I were just sad about everything I lost. I got... more self-pity. It was the first time I ever had this feeling so I didn't know what to do with it. I fear I didn't act well with it. It confuses me so much.
I have changed, and I am so sorry for this. When I came into The Endless Forest, I tried to act as a leader again, but I recognized this wasn't loved to see. Everyone cares for himself here - this is nothing bad I realized. They're contented. So I tried to fit in - what didn't became really difficult since I kinda unlearned how to be a leader. But when I got new friends I learned again how to care for some others. I would endure everything for you, Polt, don't think I couldn't live with your promise!
And the thing you said with the "toys". If you lived in a Shawnee herd, you would have understood. It's different there. We had different gods, different traditions and different ways of living. It was hard for me for trying to fit in here. In the Shawnee herd... welll... it's hard to describe. We had a hard life, enemies were all around and if the stags wouldn't just choose a doe but struggle for love and fight with dramas and all the stuff, we wouldn't have survived. The does knew that. Please, do not think we acted like they were toys. Does are always kinda holy deer to be loved. ^^ And everyone of them is unique. And you are, too, Polt. I love you, if it's even just like a very good friend. I understand that you wouldn't like to have a daughter. Paya is just two years younger than you. It would be weird.
And Seele... I know that. It just made me a little sad seeing all the mates and lovers and couples here. *sighs*
It's okay! And thanks! And everything! And Happy Valentine's! =D <333 *gives many mushrooms and superbig tackleglomps*
Cata & Paya & Pi'yu
Cata & Paya & Pi'yu
<3 Cata I...I know what you
I...I know what you live through...i respect it, you know.
first i didn't know, what you will do (because of Pesha), when i'm going to show you my feelings...age dosen't matter
and...i love you too, Cata *kiss*
paya...i really like her!<3
~Paya
paya...you will be beloved! just wait for the right one^^
it's okay,paya...*nuzzles*
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<3 Sun
I really appreciate how much
Oh Sunfyra, you know, I also love you. *kisses back*
Thank you, Joy! *hugs* Your words are really making me happy!
And Sunfyra: I wouldn't worry about having you as my new mum! I always wanted to have one. A living one, I mean. If... everything would turn out like that. If... you know what I mean.
Well... things are happening, huh, Sunfyra...?
Who will ask it aloud? ;D
You don't have to hurry so much, Shaw!
*kicks his butt* *whispers something in his ear* *biggrins*
I... I am still in a decision!
*whispers* Polt is too young and she already told you she wouldn't like to have a daughter. What are you waiting for?
Uh... uhkay.
*turns to Sunfyra*
*knees down into a bow*
My dear beloved Sunfyra.
We have waited for this moment so long now.
I hope that you understand me well. I hope that everyone will accept our love.
But so far, let's make the decision. Let's just look forward, into a future ... together.
Just answer my question. Please.
Would you like to be my mate?
AW. YOU DID IT.
<3333333333333333333333
Cata & Paya & Pi'yu
Cata & Paya & Pi'yu
<3 *look in his beatiful
*look in his beatiful eyes*
i'll follow you to the world's end
*kiss*
*whisper* ...i will...my love<3
D'awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
<333
and paya, i love you too my little girl...<3
-HUGS- <3 (that's soo cuuuuuute!! S&C...)
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~Sunfyra<33
+*Sunfyra's Biography*+
YEHAAAW. *celebrates* *gives
*celebrates*
*gives pinecones & mushrooms for everyone*
THAT'S SO CUTE.
Ohh yooou, I love you my dear Sunny! *kisses*
I will walk with you through every single thing in our life... and the death.
And I will follow! Sunfyra! *nuzzles in joy*
I will tell everyone now! I'm too happy! xD *dances* Okay...?
Cata & Paya & Pi'yu
Cata & Paya & Pi'yu