Maybe It's Me...

Graveyard's picture
But lately I've been feeling like I'm the shittiest person to RP with in the world. I love roleplaying with everyone, I'm like anyone else but lately I've just felt like I cannot compare to those that I have come to love and know. I feel like I'm just a third wheel, and extra baggage at times with the friends I RP with now. I have had plenty of good RPs in the past, and maybe it's just me being depressed that's getting to me but who knows.

I just feel like I'm not up to par with others that I have RP'd with or want to RP with. I feel like I'm just not in the game and all that. I want to RP, I really do... I want a nice, big plot filled juicy RP but I just don't want to ruin it with my depressing thoughts or well everything else. I would love to do something with Nightmare, but again... I just don't feel right DOING anything with him. I have something coming up with him with someone (They know who they are) but that's probably about it with what I'll do with him.

I just don't know what to do anymore, again I want to RP but I'm just so unsure of myself. Maybe I should just move on and forget the idea of it and just spend and invest my time into Stories.
ickydog's picture

I think everyone goes through

I think everyone goes through that. I know I have. I don't think I RPd for several months, and then only did it sporatically.
If you need a short break from it, take it! Sometimes it helps.
/has nothing terribly useful to say
Kobal Snuff
Graveyard's picture

The thing is I've been taking

The thing is I've been taking a break from RPing for a couple months now, or at the very least I haven't been doing it as often as I have before. I think I know what one source of the problem is. I'm on a forum (A mature forum) in which I have several RPs going on. Out of all of them, I have one that while it IS good it has now gotten to the point of "Oh my god can we get something else in this RP?"

You see, I love heavy plot filled RP, this one (Which I started some odd months ago) has basically been 18 pages of sex, sex and more sex with a little RP on the side. Now, I love Smut and all that raunchy stuff in RPs but it needs backbone to it |D Yes I will not lie and say that I haven't tampered into more mature RPing worlds (In fact that is how I STARTED RPing heavily, I used to do some fantasy RP back when I was 13... 11 years ago <_< but that wasn't as heavy as it was when I hit the mature forums) and have done my fair share of naughteh stuff but there's more to smut than just WEEE SEX XD

And I've probably said waaaaaaaaaay too much haha

"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
ickydog's picture

Mmmmmm, smut. Oh yeah!

Mmmmmm, smut.
Oh yeah! Replying!
What is it about the mature RP that you like and don't like? Is something that you like with it, something that you don't get here, with Nightmare? With what you don't like, what can you change?
Kobal Snuff
Graveyard's picture

Oh gods no! It's nothing here

Oh gods no! It's nothing here that I'm not getting with Nightmare. It's just the general RP from that forum that might be getting me down, all it is in general is "Sex, Sex, Sex, more Sex..." no plot, nothing driving it. I'm always looking for new and exciting RPs, things that have massive amounts of plot and story to them! Which I'm sure I can get here, I know a lot of people would prefer those types of RPs.

And really, as much as I would LOVE to have a large story RP with Nightmare and have him actually finding someone to share his life and love with I just don't see that happening. After all... his appearance and size are just very off putting (And while I don't mind sizeplay that is certainly one thing that might throw A LOT of people off XD)

"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
thelittleraven's picture

LUCI WOULDA BEEN ALL OVER

LUCI WOULDA BEEN ALL OVER NIGHT IF DINA HADN'T BEAT HIM TO IT /shot a million times

I'd still love to be in a plot with you. 8D

(for my part... I never mind

(for my part... I never mind if anyone spontaneusly jumps at me with an rp, be it on any bio or at MSN...

... my only problem is at the moment that I simply have no time and mind for long lasting superplots.... soo... if you ever want some medium-term character interaction feel free to do so ...if it helps in any way...

*feels not helpful, though*)
Graveyard's picture

Thank you everyone for the

Thank you everyone for the help in lifting my mood. Just right now at the moment I don't think I'll be up for anything TEF RP related at least not until I get my depression more settled (I've been feeling depressed a lot the past couple of days, though maybe that's because I have such a sporadic sleeping habit now... I swear it's so annoying)

Anyone is welcome to bounce me ideas. If they involve Nightmare and the like (or Aeron, etc.) I'll give them some thought but for the most part I think if it involves Nightmare it might have to WOW me in order to truly get involved. Like I said, I do have one other RP with him that is taking sometime getting setup (Due to MSN issues and the like) which might take the majority of my focus but it's welcome to see ideas brought my way for him.

I'm... kinda at a lose of what to do with him now to be honest.

"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"