The Lone Wolf of Deer

April 30, 2012 - 5:40am — TwilightFirefly

I’ve got something I’ve been worrying about for a while, and rather than just running away, I thought I’d share it with the ones I’m worried about. ^_^”

I really like the Forest and everyone’s been so nice and welcoming, but I feel kind of… shy and out of place in the community. I’m the kind who will stalk a page but not shout “Track!” if I don’t know the person. Everyone on here seems so open and comfortable with each other. Even people who are just as new as me are so outgoing and I’m, well, not.

I’m friendly and not shy at all when I’m in the Forest with my fawn, but I think that may be because I don’t need to speak at all. I don’t branch out too much once I get here. The whole community feels kind of daunting; like I have to be a certain personality or have a great talent to be a part of it.

And there’s so much more about the community that meeting the deer you were running around with! Which is all I’ve been doing…

Of course, when I’m on the forums and talking to the people here, I don’t sound nervous or shy at all. It’s when I log off that I get the butterflies in my belly.

So like the title says, I feel like a lone wolf trying to awkwardly shove her way through a herd of deer. I guess it’s unfortunate that my real life personality seeped through online, huh? I feel like I should be trying to stand out, not blend in.

I’ve thought about just quitting the forums and not coming on anymore, but I’ve already made friends and want to get to know them and their deer, and it felt wrong to just turn away so quickly. So I’ve built up my courage and choose to get it out in the open. Nothing will be solved if I keep quiet, right?

I’m so afraid I’ll post this and get no response, so please if you have any thoughts that might help me, please share them. I’d hate to be a night creature running from the light.

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April 30, 2012 - 5:50am — Kaoori

I think we all feel this way

I think we all feel this way at one time or another, to be honest. But we also all started out like this; at least I know I did. I knew no one when I first started here, no one introduced me to this place, no friend or such. I was completely alone. I had to, like you say, barge in and speak my piece.
But it's how you shape yourself here. There's nothing wrong with reaching out to others. It's how you find who you can stick to, who you mesh with and who you don't, and there's nothing wrong with that.

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April 30, 2012 - 10:19am — ocean

What Kaoori said. A lot of

What Kaoori said. A lot of people are very friendly here, so don't worry about saying hello. c:
Feel free to come say hello to any of my deer. ouo If I don't respond, I'm probably looking away from TEF. xD
Welcome to the community, by the way!

May 1, 2012 - 1:19pm — TwilightFirefly

Thanks. That makes me feel

Thanks. That makes me feel more confident already. :3 I'll take your guy's advice.

X3 Now I feel silly.

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May 1, 2012 - 3:15pm — wingeddeer

Heh,I was like this when I

Heh,I was like this when I joined at first too.In fact I still feel like this a little.
Kao and Ocean explained it quite well already,you don't need to feel silly about this,since I think almost all of us can relate.<3
And if you want too,feel free to interact with my or any of my three deer anytime.

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May 1, 2012 - 8:05pm — TwilightFirefly

Thanks Winged.

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May 1, 2012 - 8:20pm — Shadouu

It's the opposite for me. I

It's the opposite for me. I have no qualms posting here on the community, and at the very least attempt to speak with people. It's in-Forest interactions that are almost impossible. Largely, it's due to Shadou's unwillingness to socialize "properly" and he has a tendency to get fed up with rambunctious deer - and this is mostly how I am in real life. I refuse to go out of my way to socialize with anyone, and I just don't mesh well with people who are energetic and overly social.

The only thing I can suggest is just to simply keep posting and striking up conversation. Even if it ends up not going anywhere, it is a start.

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May 2, 2012 - 8:48am — TwilightFirefly

Hehe, thanks Shadouu. That

Hehe, thanks Shadouu. That really helps.

You and your deer both sound like they have interesting personalities. I'll make sure Firefly doesn't come off as overly energetic if we ever meet you in the forest. :3

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