not many probably................oh well.

hypocrites. Complain about groups in the forest and yet you stick to your own groups here................or maybe I'm just paranoid.

ANYWHO. To the point Cato, remember what you were writing about.........

ah yes. *ahem*

SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF THE INSANE ASYLUM THAT IS MY LIFE!!!

UGH I've been sooooooooooo busy with freaking school. I try to be on here, but whenever I have a free moment is the time when no one else does. So I try to be here and talk to you guys but I barely have enough time or energy to even just pull up the site. I REALLY want back n, but I'm being kept from it. I've been exhausted, I can't even catch up on sleep on weekends because there is always something I have to do. I almost blacked out and slept ON TOP OF A DRAWING I was in the middle of doing for AP Studio. If only it wasn't so dark in there.

I'm really trying to be here for you guys, I want to be here, but can't. Then there's the issues going around that I'm glad I'm missing out on, sorta, a read them but don't have time to respond. So I will now.

The one that really gets to me is the ones who feel bad about themselves, who think they aren't good enough. Get over it. You don't think I haven't felt that? Wrong. I've fallen so far down into the proverbial pit of despair that I didn't think I could go on. You should have seen me last year when I transfered to the art school. I felt so out of place an unworthy that I just crashed and burned and cried myself to sleep every night. But then I realized that that didn't get me anywhere so I just sucked it up and pushed onward. If you could see me now you would have never known how broken I was. Who cares if no one showers you with praise? Who cares if your skill is not the best? Oh well, get over it and express yourself anyways, as long as it makes you happy to hell with the others, if they don't think you're as good.........whatever. I never cared if I was popular if my stuff was liked. I know I'm not popular, anywhere, I don't give a damn. I'm lucky to get 6 comments on a picture, and maybe 3 on a journal...............doesn't effect me, I treasure every one and I'm glad that I got what I got.

And then there's the RP issue thing............maybe.......I dunno. But some people incorrectly label it as drama. NO, WE ARE ACTING OUT THE LIVES OF OUR DEER AS IT HAPPENS. Drama would be if I myself verbally attacked another user, or if I made my deer go waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy to far with an issue for too long. The episode involving Lacey/Atiq/Isis, was not particularly drama. It was a small RP about an event in the forest that mostly took place over email. But of course we post a few harmless things over here and people are all like "DRAMAAAAAAAAA!!!OMGSTOPITIT'SANNOYING!!" WELL DON"T FUCKING READ IT. DAMN IT USE YOUR COMMON SENSE. I dunno, sometimes I feel ignored, is it because you think I start drama? Well, in fact I actually try to end it, I actually tried to find a solution we could all deal with and end it. And I did it over email so that I wouldn't "annoy" you.

Or no one cares. That's fine with me, I don't really care either.

But I like RPing, I want to do it more. I hardly get to as it is.

meh..........I've just kept this bottled up too long........so ranting right now feels good. Especially when I'm stressed and tired, and I have to deal with the uber-bitch of an art teacher every day, for most of the day. I can't stand her in the slightest, some days she's awesome, other days you just want to lob porcupines at her face. She's the bad kind of insane, and she's the reason that I can't be here as often as I like. Too many assignments from her.


Sorry if you didn't like anything I said (if anyone even reads it), because I do care about everyone. I know I say I don't care a lot. I don't really care about too much, but I do care about people's well-beings. I do have a heart as surprising as that may be.

But meh, pay attention to my sig and my opinion about expressing myself will make sense. It sums it all up rather nicely.

Sleep now. *collapse*