Krym's Journal, 2-11-10

Shy deer are awful. Oh, sure, they think they're so vulnerable or whatever, but really...all they are is mean. Take today, for example...

I was playing with Virgil, trying to get my spells in order. And the deer wakes up. and she just starts backing away like I've done something wrong. AGAIN. This is the third time this week! What, do I smell bad? Did someone go around saying I'm a jerk?! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME, HUH?

And I do the nice thing, I really try. Really. I try to approach her slowly, and I try to keep my distance. All the nice things you're supposed to do for shy deer despite the fact that it's not you who has the problem with them, you know? I didn't mind -- I wanted to make a new friend. I don't really feel like I have enough friends. Virgil's a great pal, and all, but he and Vala and my parents are all there is in my life, you know? And that won't do -- I wanna be friends with everyone! Nothing less will do, ha-ha!

...where was I? Oh, yeah. And after a while, I started getting frustrated, so I decided to wait a ways off until she and Virgil were done. I could take a hint, see where I wasn't wanted, all that. If it made them happy, I...well, OK, I pretended I was happy with that, but I just started getting more and more frustrated. I hadn't done anything wrong, and I was the one being left out in the cold. I decided that I wasn't going to take no for an answer -- she was going to get over her fear of me, whether she was ready to or not! ...Or something like that. I wasn't really thinking, I was just sort of feeling whatever came my way. And it was just really angry and frustrated -- I wanted to be her friend, that was all! Why couldn't she accept that!? Anyway, so I started going right up to her,to get her to meet me face-to-face. And, to my shock, she started running. I started pounding after her too, and I think Virgil started running after me. It was kind of fun, in places, tearing through the birch forest with the tall grasses whipping at my sides...I ought to go running there again sometime! Anyway, eventually I almost got close enough to...I dunno what. Nuzzle her, or bow again, or give her a sniff or a nod to show her, once and for all, that I was OK and she didn't have to run from me (like I said...not thinking much.)

But that didn't work -- and why would it? So I went to my safe place for a while. I wasn't mad at Virgil, but I was pretty mad. Until this nameless came up. He wasn't like other namelesses. He seemed to mostly know what he was doing and what I was saying: I was pretty impressed. Maybe he was about ready to become a fawn, or maybe he was a named deer undercover. Either way, he was really nice. We played for a while, and I felt a lot better, so I went to bed.

...OK, maybe shy deer don't suck. I goofed up, I know. I'd like to make it up to her, though. Yeah, that'll be my mission! I'll make it up to you, Kiyoko, no matter what!

((In the end, did he learn something?...It's kind of hard to tell.))