Ishizu's Diary, page 8
March 12, 2011 - 9:37am — OkamiLugia
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March 11 -- Hmm, I had almost forgotten. I have been... distracted lately, and will only continue to be preoccupied for some time to come. Ryuu knows and has known, the nitwit, but I think he is the only one. I can only hope he keeps quiet while I come to terms with it, myself. Also, I don't need Marik finding out before Seto. In fact, I think it would be in everyone's best interest if my brother were the last to know. No need to work him up if things take a turn for the worse, after all. In fact, maybe I'll keep this between Ryuu and myself until things become more certain.
March 14 -- I can't decide how I feel. One minute I'll be happy and cheerful, the next I'll be gloomy and moody. I'll feel like I can handle things on my own and then suddenly I can't function without someone to lean on. And those on whom I wish to lean either are preoccupied or are... Not even there. I haven't let myself think about him much, but I'm beginning to miss him to the point where I'm terrified of him never coming back. I... Have to accept that this may happen. I have to stay strong. But it hurts...
Either way, I still have you. I'm not alone. It's strange... I already feel so attached. I can't wait to see you.
March 18 -- I've purposely been avoiding anything too eventful. I've often found myself seeking out Marik alone, and I nearly had another emotional breakdown on him. I'm not sure if he knows how much I depend on him, how much my life revolves around him. In the end, he's all I have. I met Heth again a day or so ago. He's strangely affectionate for a god. I hope I didn't seem too uncomfortable... He insists on me treating him as any other. Someone he called his nephew seemed to be observing me, and he squeezed himself between Heth and myself. I thought I might have been intruding, but he seemed tolerant enough after Heth left. There was a fawn with them too. She was very cute... Argh, it's hard not to, well, fawn over these fawns. I felt somewhat nauseous today... I hope it doesn't get any worse than this, lest Ryou and Marik begin to suspect.
March 20 -- So much for keeping this secret... What's wrong with me? I've hardly ever been so... Weak-willed, but I ended up spilling everything to Ryou. But why did I feel a little better initially after telling him? Am I really in such dire need of others' support? Now it's just a matter of not letting my brother catch wind of anything suspicious...
I can't let myself think about him. It's simply not going to do me any good.
March 26 -- I can't possibly describe this.
April 1 -- It's just not fair. Things can't go well for long before something like this happens. But he's here...
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WOOO! *flails* And yes, it
And yes, it would be a good idea that Marik be kept in the dark for the time being |D;; I still don't know how he'll react...
Indeed |D He might not know
*knows at least part of how
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ROFL JEALOUS lawl well I'm
lawl well I'm assuming neither of them is as oblivious as Marik so maybe they'll eventually be able to guess before he can |D
Too late for that. |D Ryou's
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Ffffff I don't know whether
I don't know whether to laugh evilly or be concerned |D