I will not look at you \\Aleumdaun Misang// I will not reach for you
June 9, 2010 - 4:39am — Pretzil
Beautiful Doe, the rain hits your face. Why do you smile in this sadness?
"Because I have... Him."
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MOVED: HEEREREREREHSDDBGSHJDSHJDS
IMPORTANT NOTE: Misang's daughter, Zari, has recently died. She is very slowly regaining mental health.
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Alemdaun Misang's Letters
11/7/10:
S-stop! I did nothing to you! S-stags... In gazelle p-pelts with... w-with hu-huge ant-antlers... They a-attacked me and E-Emdeaur... S-stop pl-please! E-Emdaur... He... he p-protected me. I... g-got away... I... Left h--him be-behind. I'm... so s-sorry... My d-dear f-friend...
♥, Misang
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10/27/10:
Hm... Well, I realy am quite scared by so many deer in the forest after Velocity. I fear for my family. Well, I was able to teach Caden to jump. But... Where is Zari?
Where...
Has my angel gone?
♥, Misang
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10/4/10:
Ah, it's been a while. Jax, Caden, Zari, and myself met today in the Blue Bowl. It's was lovely. When I tried to move us, a stag came along, and I told the fawns to hide amoung the tall grass. I was scared, but I managed to help Jax defend us. Then he tried to nuzzle me, and I ran, taking the fawns away from him. After a while of waiting and pensive scouting, Jax slowly trudged up to us. He was covered in scratches and I could tell he was hurt and exhausted. I led him to where we had been laying and I tended to his wounds with careful grooming. Jax, you need to be careful. We don't want to lose you... Ever.
♥, Misang
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9/30/10:
How long has it been...?
Since I've written...
I have a mate and two precious fawns now.
Quite a while, then..
I was attacked today by a skull-masked deer.
Many tried to protect me, yet he kept coming back.
A sudden surge of overwhelming fury came over me, and my fears turned into streingth. I reared, bringing my hooves down on his skull, and the others joined and me and my fawns ran while he was distracted. We are sfe now... Jax is protecting us and we are hiding.
But my hooves hurt. I never knew I had that much power in me.
But now I feel even more untrusting of others...
No more. I have fawns to protect! I will defend them with my life.
Mecause I am a mother.
And mothers care.
For ever.
... And ever ♥
6/12/10:
I am not sure whom I can trust... Not even Jax... Because I have seen and gone trough things that others have not. It's frustrating. And I am very stressed at the moment. Doubt is flooding my body right now, and I don't know where to go. I don't want help, and I don't need it. But, I can't live with myself in this state. I see others that run around without any doubt. And then I begin to feel like I'm an outcast all over again. And I just want everyone to go away... Leave me alone... But, they wont. And, I want to run away...
6/11/10:
It was snowing... How can that be? It's summer! And large flowers were in the forest. It was so odd. But I met up with Jax, and momentarily saw Rain. I led Jax away from the place he was resting after a zombie-pelted male jumped much too close for my liking. We rested at the edge of the birch forest. It's warm, yet the snow falls. How can that be? Later, a fawn chased me! And Jax tried to protect me, but it did not get the idea! We were half fighing, half running. Oh, what a way to ruin our date... Wait, it's a date, right? <3 Misang~
6/10/10:
Oh, dear... Today was so chaotic. While I was waiting for Jax to arrive, a deer decided to make me his 'deal of the day'. He chased me around like I was in heat, joined by another doe dressed in the peacock set. I was able to escape, but I once again found myself in the face of another deer. This one was dull in the head, as he didn't seem to understand that I wished for him to leave. After a while, he finally left. I left the area, feeling uneasy. Unfortunately, two fawns decided that I was their mother and began to follow me. I lost them after a short while. I hardly got to see Jax at all today... I'm sorry... Please, let's get back together soon. <3 Misang~
6/9/10:
It was raining when I awoke. I was rather cold, so I was quick to get my legs moving. Well, I met Jax the stag for a short while, but I think he disliked the rain and he left suddenly. I was happy just to meet you, though, Jax. I do hope you will come keep me warm soon. I miss you when you are not here. <3 Misang~
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Name: Aleumdaun Misang
Title: Beautiful Doe
Picto: o
Alias: Misang, Mimi, Alla, Aleu, Daun or even Dawn
Gender: Female
Family:
-Mate: Jax
-Mother: Unknown/Deceased
-Father: She prefers not to remember
-Siblings: Emdeaur is her adopted brother-in-law
-Spawn: Zari† and Caden
Health:
-Physical: 98%
-Mental: 25%
Status:
-In heat: No
-Pregnant: Not anymore 8D
Species: Some sort of deer xD
Set: Beluga pelt, real deer mask and Noh stubs
Noticable features: Dark navy blue eyes, thin legs, has a small scar on her left foreleg
Personality: Shy, caring, trustworthy but trusts few, graceful, quick to flee, will always remember you if you are a good friend.
Likes: The rain, the night, Jax, To be near others but is fearful, the Blue Bowl, her fawns, the Great Oak
Dislikes: Others that she is not fond with, aggressive behavior towards her, fawns continuously mooing, running away from someone for a long period of time
Fears: Many things...Everything; being abused, others, stags, stags, stags, open areas, being alone, being surrounded, strange noises, the sound of a doe in distress, the big zombie antlers, being followed, being attacked
Relationships:
Jax: Mate
Emdeaur: Friend
History:
-Birth: The birth was complicated, as the mother had a lame leg. At first, Misang seemed to be lifeless; a non-living creature, demonized and void of a soul. But, she was alive. Barely. Miraculously, she survived.
-Childhood: She had been malnourished of the essential fawnhood elements: care, love, and a strong family foundation. Her father was abusive to her mother. And the fawn was forced to watch as the stag abused her mother daily. If she looked away or closed her eyes, she would be abused.
-Now: Despite her hideous and corrupt fawnhood, she was able to maintain a stable mental view. She was able to get away from her abusive father and wound up in this forest and has stayed ever since.
-The memories: They... will never fade. She has nightmares about her past. The images replay with no fragments removed. It was like a movie. She hates sleeping, because she knows what happens when her eyes close and when her mind detaches from this world. She doe's not trust anyone, especially stags. But, she has, amazingly, befriended a certain male. She thought she could never love or trust another soul, but, he is slowly opening up her shell, revealing the Beautiful Doe inside.
-The scars: She does not trust others, so please, do not approach without making it clear that you are not a threat. She will run away, if you chase her, she will run until you give up.
Thoughts:
"NOOOOOOOOOOO!! ZARIII!"
Currently: In an emotional meltdown. Her daughter, Zari, has been killed.
Talks in:
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dont worry jax doesnt know =P
anyways my bio for him is done xD
*stalks*
your past is so sad ='( but
but im glad Jax is opening her shell and bringing out her beautiful side =D
Thanks. =) I wanted her to
Oh, and Im coming on if you want to meet up
Ya same with mine lol, btw
do you have an e-mail?
i really want to send the
Sorry I didnt reply xD i
its fine xD
for you i hope you like xD
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http://img267.imageshack.us/img267/1209/jaxandmisang.jpg
Lyke... OMFG I DO LUVZ LYKE
im glad you love it xD
Bump
I can log Mimi on if you
lol srry for late reply i was
Sure! I need some Jaxness to
Jax is so happy to see his
Sorry, I dont have msn ): But
That's why she wasn't freaking out and why she was dancing.
♥
Happy belated wedding
=OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
and aww if you had msn we could roleplay Dx
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I love roleplaying!! 8D
And Kitty- Thanks!
well if you have hotmail (i
I have gmail...
hmm it might work have you
my msn and e-mail is
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Why hello~ Seems that Euyru
Seems that Euyru has taken an interest to your family
<3 Track
Ahhh so that's you. Mimi's
Mimi's just makin' sure your not a threat, but is fine with the distance that he's ssitting at.
♥
:3 cool, he wont hurt
>.< sorry about that fight, I didn't want you to think I was attacking you...
:B and I left early, well, I had to go to bed... so... x3 night
I epic fail, I've read this
Forget Your Perfect Offering.
There Is A Crack In Everything.
That's How The Light Gets In.
(A part of the lyrics of Leonard Cohen's Song "Anthem")
8DDD
Jesus that one person was SO ANNOYING! D8<
Yeah, like I said I'm glad I
Forget Your Perfect Offering.
There Is A Crack In Everything.
That's How The Light Gets In.
(A part of the lyrics of Leonard Cohen's Song "Anthem")
xD
Truckie
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This bio is looking great,
For more information about why and how to do this, please see this important blog from the Tale of Tales team.
Thanks!
"Don't apologize, sister.
As long as you are safe, all is well.
....I heard about your daughter.
I...I don't know how to tell you how sorry I am.
I regret not even meeting my niece before.
I am here for you, Misang."
"E-Emdaur? ...Is t-that you?
SHE'S GONE! SHE IS DEAD BECUASE I WASN'T ABLE TO PROTECT HER!!" Tears began to stream down her eyes.
"Yes, yes it's me. Shhh,
Shhh, love.
You can't do anything about it now.
And you couldn't have prevented her from death.
Do not worry yourself about it.
You will never stop feeling sad or ever stop missing her,
but the hurt will go.
Eventually.
I will be here for you."
The stag nuzzles his sister softly and envelops her in his side, letting her cry into his fur.
He silently watches for danger in the distance beyond the cover of the tall grass and gently grooms her back.
"I'll always be here for you."
The doe dug her forehead into
Emdeaur stood over his
He was wordless, but still trying to be comforting.
Yet he was crying on the inside.
All he could think was, 'nothing good is forever'.
But instead, he sat down gently next to the blue doe, his head resting on her back; silently watching, listening, comforting, healing, and protecting.
After all, it was his duty.
A brother is forever.
Yes, yes.
Forever.