In response to this.
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I knew it.
I knew he would never accept whatever apology I might offer. That is why it took me so long. That, and, though I am loathe to admit it...he makes me nervous...
It was a waste of time, of course...
But I had to do it, my respect for him demanded this. Or, perhaps it was really more for myself... I did not expect him to accept. Though, somehow, that did little to make the rejection easier to face... Perhaps it was simply the effect of facing him, the power, the essence of him. And remembering why...why it was I wanted his acceptance, his recognition.
Death surrounds him, and I am a servant of death.
I had been foolish. To think that he would care, what others thought, what I thought, what others do as long as they do not disturb him.
And in caring what he thought. In caring... "...taking someone elses opinion of you to heart," he said. These words, this revelation, came as a surprise. Never had I bothered myself with what others thought of me...so long as they did nothing to bother me. Perhaps it should not be a surprise, however, that Bylah would be the exception. Though perhaps he is no longer the only one...
And he is right. Caring what others think of oneself is a mistake. What does it matter?
I know why it mattered then... No more. I will not make the same mistakes again.
bump...
I still think Melinoe is an
Woah, very nice. &hearts
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