I don't want to, but... (dramaphobs beware?)

Shiori's picture
{This is RP related? I dunno XD I guess we have to label everything now)

Ok guys…I gave it good shot >< But it’s not working. Darcy isn’t comfortable in the forest anymore. It doesn’t matter how I feel about mates, does, whatever, because the truth is Darcy is who he is, and he feels how he feels, and I can’t change it =/ The more he sees of the cause of his heartbreak…heh…the less he functions. Today all he could do was run about like a lunatic while they were about, it was the only thing he could do to keep from thinking. I’m sorry, Reetno and Kumiko, for that…-shrug-

So…I’m going to take him out of the forest for a while. I don’t know how long…I don’t actually know if he’ll be coming back, heh. I don’t see any real resolve for this situation without making someone very unhappy ><

I’ll still be around though…I have my fawn Shyla to look out for. She’s still nice and innocent…and untainted >< Hopefully that wont change. I hope you guys receive her well in the forest, even if she is just a fawn, because…she’s going to be my only outlet…
Reetno's picture

Aww... come on... can't it

Aww... come on... can't it just be as easy as a swift kick in the shin to get him back? Or maybe a life altering journey that will make him see life in it's true? That way we wouldn't lose Darcy (^^)

But it is your choice...

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...You were still avoiding

...You were still avoiding Zaz...right xD? *paranoid*
Kumiko's picture

Wait...Shlya is your fawn? I

Wait...Shlya is your fawn? I never would have guessed. XD

Anyway, I didn't mind the running. I honestly thought we were just running around for fun and taking a break from the drama-filled role play (if you want to call it that) for a night. Though I guess you have to do what you have to do...If you feel that this is what is best to protect someone's feelings, then I won't ask you to keep Darcy in the Forest.

I shall miss him though I will hope for his return...I just hope Reetno will be ok without for awhile. Sad

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Reetno's picture

Reetno has been trying to

Reetno has been trying to settle himself down and try and understand where Darcy was coming from, but Reetno is a teenage boy and yeah... I think that explains most there, lol...

He was, sure, mad at how Darcy was acting, but Darcy was also mad at Reetno when he was acting all mopy and such... and woke Reetno up abit...

Shame Darcy can't seem to wake up and see that no one hates him like that, and just leaving would hurt more then him staying... but sometimes space is just what the doctor orders.

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Scythe's picture

Aww, I honestly hope that

Aww, I honestly hope that his leaving is only a temporary fix, and that this isn't goodbye. :/ But please, if you do see any sort of resolution to this situation, go for it. I think that we would all much rather that than lose Darcy forever. If you would prefer for Wyvern to be out of the picture, that's fine. She will have to understand.

I'm retiring Wyvern for a little while regardless, but in the mean time, maybe Zilant can meet Shyla some day. Smiling
Shiori's picture

Zabrath: No…=/ That’s

Zabrath: No…=/ That’s what I’ve been trying to tell everyone >< I think he saw the best of life and then lost it, and it’s beat him up beyond repair…

Zazvat: -blink- Avoiding? Er…not that I was aware of? >< I guess he was avoiding quite a lot today though, I’m sorry if your deer got caught in the mix…but it wasn’t intentional ^^’’

Kumiko: Yes she’s mine XD Why not?!
Oh…well…I’m afraid the running was much of the opposite, heh. He did sorta hope everyone would see it as fun, since others have been yelling at him, but it was a coping thing more than anything =/ Sorry to disappoint yet again XD He didn’t want Reetno to see him still sad…-shifty eyes- And since it seems to be affecting him so much, he’s probably be better off without Darcy around.


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Kumiko's picture

XD I don't know...It just

XD I don't know...It just never crossed my mind. I had a feeling that she was someone's deer since her profile is a bit advanced for newcomers (and by that I mean the layout. Seriously, she even had an 'official color'.) I knew that she and Atiq's new fawn got along pretty well and I noticed that she stuck around me for a bit (even though I wasn't playing much since I was busying failing to make another derr) but I just never put two and two together.

Nor am I disappointed and I understand his concern for Reetno. I just hope this isn't a permanent good-bye.'

(Gah! Everyone has new fawns. I feel left out. XD)

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Shiori's picture

XD Yeah, I pretty much

XD Yeah, I pretty much copied Darcy’s profile layout and used it for hers. I never meant to keep it secret, not that I COULD if I’d wanted to…so many loud mouths around here XD So far Wyvern’s the only doe she’s found that seems to like her…Atiq’s fawn and both of Rowans. She’s a skittish thing.
I dunno about Zilant >< Hate to say it but even I’m a little mad at him -squeak- Sorry. I think you can guess at the only resolution >< But…yeah, I’m not going to ask for it, or expect it. But I think we all know Darcy isn’t who he was when you guys befriended him. I hope time off with help too, I’m just not sure how.

Aww Kumi...did you try what I suggested yet?! XD I know, im getting annoying, I'd just be excited if it worked for you too...Like you I got really frustrated for a long time with it @_@

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Kanaf's picture

:[ why is there a chance

:[

why is there a chance Darcy won't be coming back? That would be terrible... I can understand why he should take a little break, but not coming back? that would make me sad...

well, at least there will be Shyla <3 im sure she and my secret deer would have fun 8D
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Kumiko's picture

No, I haven't gotten around

No, I haven't gotten around to it yet.

I'm working like 5-6 days in a row this week so whenever I get home, I'm typically too tired and already stressed to want to mess with it. XD

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Scythe's picture

You know what, Darcy, if it

You know what, Darcy, if it would honestly make you and Skokey happy, I can take a break from both Zilant and Wyvern and let you have things the way that they were. The siblings can start anew somehow and we can forget that this whole thing ever happened. I really would hate for Darcy to leave, and if that is what it would take, that's fine with me.
Kanaf's picture

you know, i dont think that

you know, i dont think that would be the best idea ever either...

it pains me to say it, but Fulu doesnt really love Darcy that way anymore. it would kill her to lose Zilant, because she wouldnt want to go back to Darcy. im so sorry i had to say that... it would break Fulu's heart again, and that would end up hurting Darcy even more, which i dont think he wants...

at least thats how i see it
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Shiori's picture

-Siiiiggggghhhhhhh- There ya

-Siiiiggggghhhhhhh-
There ya go, the truth is out v_v
Not that I would have liked the idea anyways…I know you wouldn’t be fine with that Scythe, no matter what you say XD And I couldn’t be fine with it either. It’s all very irreversible now.
And why he might not come back, Skokey, is because he might not ever be better? That’s all...

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Scythe's picture

I'm just trying to think of

I'm just trying to think of how we can work this out, so that everyone is happy. :/ And Darcy, I knew that is what you were thinking all along. I was just hoping that somehow we could work something out for both of our characters' sake. Wyvern is as important to me as Darcy is to you, and right now she's miserable herself. She feels like second best, if you can even call her that.
Kanaf's picture

i know i know... im

i know i know... im terrible... im just a terrible person... but i had to say it sooner or later... did you read the reply i sent you? that partially explains why she feels that way...
:[ that would make a huge impact on everyone, wouldnt it? its making me choke up again, anyway...

and Scythe.. sorry to say, but Fulu is not happy. i think shes far from happy. shes just trying not to get Zilant depressed with her. but that would make her a liar, which would probably make Zilant not like her anymore. she just kinda wants to reverse all of this and start again. maybe next time not falling inlove with Darcy. but we all know that cant happen... shes still quite depressed because of the choices shes made.
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Scythe's picture

I edited my reply, probably

I edited my reply, probably before you had a chance to see it, because I realize that Fulu is not happy either. :/ You know what, ever since I came back from my cruise, I've only felt bad for everyone. I enjoyed playing as Wyvern beforehand, but now it's just awkward and uncomfortable. It makes me unhappy. Maybe I really should just take a break and let Wyvern and Zilant start anew. Maybe everyone could be happy again then.
Kanaf's picture

like i said, that would hurt

like i said, that would hurt Fulu AND Darcy even more. just coming back and saying "I dont know you" after all thats happened? its making me unhappy too. i thought playing Fulu would be nice and sweet and a good way to play as a girl. now its just kinda ripping apart. i dont think i would be happy if Wyvern and Zilant started anew. not at all...
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Shiori's picture

Darcy has made everyone

Darcy has made everyone miserable @__@ Lets just go with that and run with it, because that’s what it is.

I know I’m a total schmuck Scythe >< I really don’t know how Wyvern feels…she’s always so agreeable and forgiving, or maybe that’s just you…I don’t know, but neither me or D get it to be perfectly honest >< He would really LOVE to be friends with her, but there’s just too much pressure for that now, isn’t there? Lots and lots of pressure…

;__; Please don’t cry Skokey -whine- Not that I’m not XD But that doesn’t count because I’ve been crying for three days straight. I spilled water on the counter today and cried -giggle- I guess it would be stupid of me to tell Fulu to just forget about him, but his happiness isn’t in her hands…hooves…-_o He’s sorry he ruined her life so, but…he cant admit to wanting to reverse it.

This is why leaving is a good idea, guys ><

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Kanaf's picture

well... i still think that

well... i still think that maybe... somehow, when Darcy leaves, he'll come to some sort of realization... lets just hope thats what happens. i dont think another Skokey-esque depression is needed >_< (bleh, this is why i know im terrible. i refer everything to myself...)

im on the verge DX im waaaaaay too empathic to ignore the feeling. Fulu will never forget Darcy, even if he does never come back. she'll still have those days where she just feels sad because he left. and theres nothing anyone could do to cheer her up. thats how i get sometimes with my lost friends... does Dar know that she accepted his apology waay back when this all started? i dont know about him, but that would make me feel a heck of a lot better...

Fulu honestly doesnt care what choice Dar makes, she'll agree with it and still support him. she still wants to be his friend, but thats his choice too... like i said in the email... if only she knew what he wanted...
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Scythe's picture

I'll speak for Wyvern here

I'll speak for Wyvern here in saying that she's miserable and confused. She never had many friends and was always a bit of an outcast, even in her fawnhood, but Darcy made her feel otherwise. She sincerely grew to love him, more than just a puppy love to her, at least. When she came back, she soon felt as if she had been replaced, her heart torn in two. She felt lost and alone again, despite having the other friends that she had made. Now, I guess that she just wishes that everything could go back to the way it was. If only it were that easy. .__.

Fine, fine, I will not start over with Wyvern and Zilant. But come on, guys, there has to be some sort of feasible solution here. One that does not involve "anyone" leaving. Please, the three of us can work something out. We obviously all care very much for our characters. XD
Kanaf's picture

well... i honestly cant

well... i honestly cant think of anything. you might a few days or a week or a month >_<
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Scythe's picture

But, if Fulu and Darcy were

But, if Fulu and Darcy were both sincerely happy with one another, couldn't they give it a second shot? They don't have to forget about Wyvern and Zilant, fine, but right now I can't think of any other resolution. And honestly, I feel terrible in having two characters that are both only second best to another. Wyvern is aware of it, she is Darcy's age and is old enough to know, but Zilant is youthfully unaware. :/
Shiori's picture

Ugh...I dont even know if I

Ugh...I dont even know if I can say anything else guys. I totally feel like I've ruined everyone's good time here, and that's a lot of crap to bear >____<

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Kanaf's picture

... i feel like im arguing

... i feel like im arguing now...

but ill say this. if Fulu leaves Zilant, she'll be doing what basically happened to her in the first place. He'll get a taste of love, and then be shot down for another. She doesn't want him to feel like he was just being used.

thats all i have to say... i dont want to argue anymore...
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Scythe's picture

Please don't take this as

Please don't take this as arguing. That's not what I meant for at all. .__. I'd like to think that we are just discussing possible outcomes as creative people. Please. :/

Anyway, after reading some of the posts in the other blog, it seems as if Fulu and Darcy were meant for each other. Maybe they really should just have a second shot at things, and Wyvern and Zilant can comfort each other as siblings.
Kanaf's picture

*sigh* i still dont think

*sigh* i still dont think that would work. like i said, Fulu doesnt love him like that anymore. it would be rather one-sided, which isnt ideal. i really dont like the pressure of all this hanging on what Fulu decides >_< im sure Zilant would understand if Fulu did get back together with him, but i just cant see Fulu being with Darcy anymore...

im sorry i took it as an argument... i have a headache... and i know it is completely untrue, but i feel like nobody's listening to me. thats just how i am, dont take that too seriously. i know im being listened to.
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Shiori's picture

I agree with Scythe. It's

I agree with Scythe. It's just a discussion...a troubling one, a heaten one, but...a discussion non the less Sticking out tongue

Could we just...please...not jump to conclusions though? I think thats how most of this happened to begin with. Misunderstandings, hurrying things that had no business being hurried...people, or deer XD, do strange things when they're desperate -sigh- D and Fulu werent meant for eachother. She doesn't like him anymore, she liked Zilant, so let that be that. Darcy will have to get over it or disapear. Maybe thats enough of an incentive. He loves Atiq, Reetno, Kumiko and Wyvern a lot, and if that isn't enough for him to snap out of this eventually then he doesn't de serve to be here as far as I'm concerned ><

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Kanaf's picture

i know i know... im just

i know i know... im just making this discussion worse...

misunderstanding is my middle name >_< im sorry, i have such a fricking engineering mind. i have a habit of thinking out all possible scenarios and make them known before doing anything. im sorry, i jump to conclusions way too much. as horrible as it sounds, i agree with you Shi. if Darcy cant get over it then... i dunno what the point of him staying is... i just hope very much that he does snap out of it.

wait, why wasnt Skokey in that list? LOL jk
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Scythe's picture

You're in good company,

You're in good company, Skokey. ^^; I always map out all of the possibilities as well. And jumping to conclusions is what I do best sometimes. Good fun. *is shot*

Anyway, I am also going to have to agree with you, Shi. If Darcy cannot get over it, then maybe he really does just need some time alone, away from the forest. I will keep my fingers crossed for the best, though.

Wyvern is going to get the same treatment from me, unfortunately. If the situation resolves itself or if Wyvern is able to come to some grand realization, great. If not, it's probably better off that she doesn't drag any other deer down with her. Especially others like little Shyla. That little fawn is probably one of the few reasons that Wyvern is still here anyway. I guess she can just relate to her, or has some maternal instinct to protect her or something.
Shiori's picture

I map out stuff too...but I

I map out stuff too...but I try not to assume anything before asking something directly. I guess I did that with poor Wyvern though ;_; (stabs Darcy Voodoo doll)

Aww ;_; Shyla loves Wyvern. Only big deer she has to look up to right now. I in no way planned for that, brw. I actually wanted a new character to be completely seperate from all this...by Wyevern was the only one who paid attention. She's young though...many friends to make and relationships to explore, so don't worry too much ^^

Anyways guys...I'm going to bed. I was thinking of taking D on one last time to say bye to whoever is on but...yeah...a clean break would be best. Plus I took a sleeping pill and it's starting to kick in now @_@ -room spins- WEEEEE.

Thank you all for the support and I'll see you tomarrow with Shyla!
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Scythe's picture

Hey Shi, a silly question

Hey Shi, a silly question for you. XD I am not stirring up drama, but I was just wondering: is there still any chance whatsoever for Darcy and Wyvern? I'm only asking, because someone else is seemingly interested in my little orca friend and I'm not entirely sure how she is going to respond to them. :/ If there is any bit of hope for Darcy and Wyvern, she will respond one way; but, if the butterfly and the orca are definitely only friends now, she may respond somewhat differently. Just let me know when you have the chance. Thanks! XD

And for the record, I love the relationship that Wyvern and little Shyla have. ^^ Wyvern regards her almost as a daughter and truly appreciates her friendship. I'm glad that they were able to meet each other. Smiling
Shiori's picture

-longheavysigh- .....hm. It's

-longheavysigh-
.....hm.
It's not a silly question. I was wondering about it when I saw Blackhoof's confession. I didn't think you'd actually ask though, which is nice...but...unfortunately I still havent figured it out.
GO ME! XD Slow, slow me.
But love shouldn't be taken quickly, if you ask me...like these other peeps jumping from lover to lover. It's starting to annoy me a little @__@
ANYWAYS.
I can't say there isn't a chance. He still doesn't know much about her, and she's been acting a bit weird lately...understandable I guess, but he doesn't know how to react to it. He IS over Fulu, 99.9%. But his heart is a bit numb now if anything, but most certainly free and ready to explore new possibilities.
But why hold her back on a scarce chance? That isn't fair, and after what he's done to her, she needn't feel she has to wait around.
I'm sorry I haven't had him say anything....he's selfish in wanting things to continue as thought none of it ever happened, but how silly, yes? I just can't seem to get anything out of him. probably not helpful >< I'm never helpful XD

Go with what she feels is best for her? Please? If she can move on and be with Blackhoof and be happy...that would be really great.

Oh! And Shyla loved Wyvern as well. It's weird, she was like the first adult she met up with, and the first that stuck ^^ She's so protective and thoughtful with her...it's really sweet ^^


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Scythe's picture

I think I am just as

I think I am just as confused as Wyvern is right now. XD But after her last blog entry, I'm not sure how she can even respond to Blackhoof's words. :/ Like she said, she's not even sure if she could surrender her heart again, and I still think that she hasn't gotten over Darcy. She still loves him, you know, even if all that is left between them is a friendship. Gah, I have no idea what to do. I'm so terribly indecisive, as are my characters. ^^; A little help, someone? Anyone? XD;
Shiori's picture

I don't think I'm in any

I don't think I'm in any position to give advice XD Buuuut...hhmm. Like I said, take it slow, and tell him the truth? The truth will set you freeee. No need to jump to anything. If he really cares about her, he should be willing to wait, but then it also depends on how she feels about him. I wasnt aware there was anything at all so I don't know, just don't let her give to the pressure and have her follow her heart. Love should never 'settle' for anyone.


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Scythe's picture

Well, right now, there isn't

Well, right now, there isn't much of a truth to be told. XD Blackhoof was Wyvern's first friend in the forest and I don't think that she ever knew that he felt that way about her. He was just always there when she needed him. She cares for him a lot, but not necessarily in the same way that she confessed to Darcy. I'm not sure if she could or not. Gah. ^^;

And while I don't want to rush her into anything, (I feel bad for poor Atiq in the other blog ^^; ), I am going to have to rely primarily on writing from now on. I'm moving back into my college dorm tomorrow for the new semester, which means a lot less Endless Forest time. :/ That's why I'm trying to figure out things, to some degree, now and over the course of the next couple of days. But, at least I'll be able to finally scan my sketches. There are a few cutesy ones of Darcy and Wyvern from way back when. XD
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But you're telling me the

But you're telling me the truth now, arent you? XD That's the truth to be told. She isn't sure, she doesn't feel for Blackhoof that way right now, and she isn't ready to make anymore commitments? Thats sort of the exact spot D seems to be in now, too, so I kinda understand it...
XD I feel bad for Atiq too...I really hope he doesn't rush into anything =/ Isis doesn't seem to know what she wants, she's jumping all over the place, heh.
Aww...I'll miss seeing you there =/ Shyla especially, though Atiq's been taking good care of her too ^^'' She seriously needs friends outside Darcy's loop XD

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Scythe's picture

I guess I did share the

I guess I did share the truth then, didn't I? XD Anyway, I'll still try to sign on here and there; I'll probably just be restricted to the occasional odd hour and weekends. Wyvern will make sure of that, though, nagging me until she can see her friends again, especially little Shyla. XD And Zilant needs some friends period. (Please don't be mad at him. ^^; ) He would probably like to formally meet Darcy one day, too; Wyvern has said good things about him and explained the situation to the best of her ability, as to not instill an unnecessary hatred in her sibling. He really isn't a bad guy, and he honestly cares for Fulu. He never meant to hurt/anger Darcy. :/

But still, I apologize for bombarding you for help in this manner. I just don't know who else to talk to about it, before addressing Blackhoof. I appreciate your advice, too. Thanks. ^^ From here on out, though, if Darcy would like to address Wyvern, I think it might be best if they do so via the community site, (it doesn't rely on people being online at the same exact time). If it weren't already obvious, I like role playing my characters anyway. And if Darcy suddenly does release some secret information/advice(/confession *is shot*), please let me know. Wyvern and I need all the help we can get. XD
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>_< I'm sorry about

>_< I'm sorry about that...it wasn't nice to blame Zilant. For a while I kinda...well...wondered if you'd had Zilant interfere with Fulu so Wyvern could get to Darcy >__< I don't know, it might be true, but I don't think you'd do that, I was just a little angry over the whole thing. Now that I know how Fulu really feels though, there's no reason to be angry at him. We're both tired of being angry, we just want it all to go away somehow -sigh- Wishful thinking.

Psh, you don't need to apologize. I like taking like this, actually...Nobody outside the game really gets it so whatever chance I have to talk about in game things informaly is good ^^
I wish Darcy would address Wyvern...or Reetno...or Kumiko...-headdesk- Like I said, he isn't budging. I think BOTH of us are a bit scared of ticking more people off by opening our mouths, heh. Seems to happen a lot ><

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Scythe's picture

I thought that you may have

I thought that you may have thought that, but I assure you that those weren't my intentions. Not at all. I'm just paranoid. XD I actually created Zilant a few days before I left for the research cruise, so that he would be an adult by the time I got back. It wasn't my fault that he was watching from afar and that he fell for Fulu. And for the record, Wyvern and Zilant aren't schemers anyway. If anything, they're both too gullible for their own good.

And bah, if and when you and Darcy are ready to speak, I say just open your mouths and go for it. Really, some people simply get ticked off too easily anyway, and they don't have to read something if they know that it might annoy them. Heck, we have those nifty little "dramaphobe advisories" now anyway.

Wyvern: *has one taped to her mask* H-hey! That's not fair... -__-;