happy 8 years to me (and Riza)

OkamiLugia's picture
uh a random ramble of reflections that really have no coherent or connection flow but yea

it's been awesome, even if I've spent most of the past 5 years lurking rather than playing :eyes:

fun fact Ryuu will also be turning 8 this year and I find that hysterical.

it's weird because Riza was my first, but Ryuu became my main. I made Ryuu in an attempt to make him both like and unlike his parents (his design was the most artistically inspired I have ever been in my life, and it's honestly only subtly changed over time, thanks to artists doing things on commissions I didn't expect but loved enough to make "canon" hah). I also wanted him to be different from me. I'm really not sure if it was intentional or not, but I ended up seeing more of myself in him as time went on. I certainly sometimes I wish I were more like him. Friendlier, kinder, more energetic. Not to say that I don't value the strengths of my more reserved and cynical nature. I have, pretty literally, crippling social anxiety (probably entirely a result of autism). It's SO HARD for that not to project onto my characters.

That said, I tend to be extremely open and frank with people online, confessing disabilities n' all. But the social structures and etiquette rules are so completely different. I definitely still struggle to start a conversation, but I usually hide that under dank memes ;P Ryuu is also 100% a supporter, but that's a role I struggle to fill comfortably. Though, no one has ever described me as intimidating except in real life where people can see how uncomfortable I am always or my anxiety comes down enough for me to feel comfortable enough to offend someone LOL

I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THIS BRAIN VOMIT IS GOING

Sometimes I remember things I did/said during my time here and wonder. Some of it I super regret... A lot of it I stand by proudly ;D I feel like here's something weird that happens when you hit 25 where you start to really learn to let things go and you're just chill with yourself.

I've had a decent amount of characters have a run through here. Some probably won't ever be back in any meaningful way, but that's okay. I may never be as active as I once was. The first couple years of college, when I first joined TEF, afforded me so much time lol. But I'm working at my fourth job post-graduation. We'll see if it outlasts the others. It's certainly one of the more relevant ones.

uuuhhh not sure what else to say here except I still can't believe Ryuu is going on 8 years without ever being a dad. What is this blasphemy?? -smacked-

Happy 8! I've always admired

Happy 8! I've always admired Ryuu and his design ^^
OkamiLugia's picture

ahhh thank you ♥ I've

ahhh thank you ♥ I've loved your artwork

BEN!!! thank you for sticking

BEN!!! thank you for sticking around as long as you have! Ryuu is one of the Good Boys that I always look forward to seeing in-Forest (even if I for some weird reason can never remember his picto and I'm always like "wow that deer is cute and nice" and then later I find out it was him lmfao) and I always get happy seeing you online here no matter what you're up to. be it simple browsing or commenting or posting, you brighten our community!

HAPPY EIGHT YEARS
OkamiLugia's picture

Fish ilu so much that means a

Fish ilu so much that means a lot to me ;o;

I speak only the truth c:

I speak only the truth c: <3
Flyleaf's picture

Happy 8 tef anniversary

Happy 8 tef anniversary !
Hope there will be a lot more Smiling
Fly is heading to his 8 years soon ...
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Bouncing Fly by Mary13
Vala 's picture

Happy 8 TEF ...Another "oldie

Happy 8 TEF ...Another "oldie " !!
" ~ Lady in Red ~ "

♥ ♥

OkamiLugia's picture

I remember when Flyleaf

I remember when Flyleaf started showing up! Feels both recent and long ago. I'm glad you've stayed.

Vala: I remember when I considered myself a newbie. It felt like I was a "freshman" FOREVER xP I joined right after gen 2 pictos went live. I so appreciate your bright presence in the community ♥
Evern's picture

Happy eight years Okami,

Happy eight years Okami, wouldnt be the same without you and Ryuu, been looking up to you since I joined <3

OkamiLugia's picture

omg that's so flattering ;;

omg that's so flattering ;; I've definitely admired your bbys from afar.