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e n v y:;~

July 20, 2008 - 9:54pm — SarieBearie

Envy:;.~

I feel it much more often then I should now.

I envy the does that converse so easily with stags. I envy their bravery to simply walk up to them and greet a new stag like they were old friends. I envy the control over emotions they have; to be to control their urge to run in embarrassment away from him. Or maybe that part is just me; I never show emotion, and when I do I can never control it.

I envy their beauty.

I envy the does who attract every stag to their slender frame and warm eyes. I feel like a repellent, always shunned from a group because of how much a stag I look. My eyes are a cold slate blue, never to be warm or inviting. My pelt is a dark opaque shade, shaggy and disgusting. My mask… My mask is what defines me well. Most does are blessed with the beautiful deer mask, and oh, what an amazing sound it makes! But I have made I promise… I never wear that mask in honor of the doe Run.

My bellow is deep, not graceful and moving like most does’. My body is muscular, not slender and lithe. My walk is slow and annoying, not quick and timed. My face is partly disguised and hides the monster I will become in a few months…

I envy the does.

What am I to claim that I love him?

Hopefully this may change.

Pray that it might.

Best Regards,

Aspen;;

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July 20, 2008 - 10:42pm — Tabithaaa

Awh, Aspen. -Hugs- Tabii

Awh, Aspen. -Hugs-

Tabii came and sat with you for a while just now. But you were as still as a statue! D8 And besides, every doe is different. I mean, take Tabii. The immature spazz doe of the forest! She envies you for being so gentle and kind. And for having a decent brain between those ears! -listens to hollow knock from Tabii's head- x3 <33

July 20, 2008 - 10:47pm — phantomhelsing

Atiq : *gives Aspen surprise

Atiq : *gives Aspen surprise nudge from behind* so say hi, the worst that could happen is that you get a friendly greeting back ^-^

Cato: well if it's so easy then Mr. Atiq, go talk to some does *gives him a shove*

Atiq: O-O uhhhhhh no plz kthx

you can do it Aspen! *cheers* XD

I haven't gone insane......I've gone awesome.

July 20, 2008 - 11:27pm — SarieBearie

Well, I envy you for

Well, I envy you for actually being able to converse with stags. You were with my brother today. You're so... Open to them.

-is bumped- I'm trying. Q_Q

Emo doe is emo. -pimpslap- D:

July 20, 2008 - 11:46pm — Emiva

Emiva came and sat with you

Emiva came and sat with you too. It was nice hanging out with you. She noticed how you were so... down. Emiva thinks that Aspen is very beautiful, especially today when they were sitting together. The bird mask has a mysteriousness to it, and Emiva thinks that Aspen has a wise, graceful sort of approach to her nature. Aspen is special, and different. Emiva can go with you, if you want, to walk up with one of the stags. She's not afraid but usually stags arent interested in Emiva.

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July 21, 2008 - 12:19am — Her

I think you're beauitful,

I think you're beauitful, Aspen. It's called being unique. <3 You and I both share it, you see. Everyone does. Many does will pop up and read your thoughts here, thinking, "I'm not slender and warm-eyed, either. Poor thing!" I thought so; I did! I am certainly not as awe-striking as you. Because I'm so exhausting, I'm always dirtied and bruised, my voice gone because I've cried so often and sang too voluminous for even myself. My peacock feathers are torn and being plucked from my head so that soon I may not even have them at all; I'm down to just a few now. Sounds attractive, right? -sigh-

You know what's funny, is...is we both know you'll get him in the end. Some day. It does not have to be tomorrow. Or it may take a thousand suns, a million years. But you will get him. Should that small but largely-understanded thought not comfort you, I do not know what else I can do to shed some of my warmth with you. Shall I lie next to you as most do? I'd rather give you what you want than guess and hope for the best. Tell me, friend!

And you may say I've had Esll, but look what he did. I loved him. Yet I love him no more. What happened between the two of us will not happen with either of you, together or not; I shall be sure of it. Think, honey: in time, through ups and downs, he will be by your side, and you by his. Does this pitiful explanation from a useless friend help thou? -looks down with eyelashes covering any color in the iris- ...

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July 21, 2008 - 12:30am — Verdalas

Aspen is 1000000x more

Aspen is 1000000x more bootiful than SS anyday.

Walter would hit that.
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July 21, 2008 - 1:07am — Kanaf

Oh Aspen nuzzles I don't

Oh Aspen *nuzzles* I don't know much about stags yet, but ya know... You just gotta try. You have plenty of friends to help you out. And you know what? I think you're one of the most beautiful does I've met. The does who only attract stags because of their looks doesn't mean they're pretty on the inside.

I think that whoever you're talking about will understand (I'm not really sure what's going on right now). But there's no rush. Go ahead and take your time. I know you can do it, you just gotta be brave

*nuzzle* I know I'm not much help... But from one bird to another, I just wanted to say that I'm willing to help

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July 21, 2008 - 1:24am — SarieBearie

I thank you, Emiva. You are

I thank you, Emiva. You are brave as well...
My brother has watched you interact with stags. You show no fear...

Her, you are a beautiful doe, both in looks and personality.
You have had your heart broken, yet you manage through it...
You are certainly stronger than me.

... Thank you? -glares as Sarie gigglesnorts-

Fulu, you are young, yet you have the gentle understanding of a mother.
I greatly appreciate your enthusiasm...

July 21, 2008 - 11:07pm — 1273

i understand. i kinda feel

i understand.
i kinda feel the same...

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