Disgrace

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((Skip ahead to about 00:50 for the music to start, it has a long silent part at the beginning))

Why?

Why can't I talk to him?

Why can't I even look at him?

Why does he keep fighting?

It really hurts to see his antlers locking into those of another.

Because...

I refuse to fight...

I refuse to take a side, even when he's fighting a friend of mine.

Why does he not love me?

Why do I run when he comes near?

Why do I cower when I can see him?

Why can't I see him as my father anymore?

Why do I feel like...



...a disgrace?
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Walter wasn't fighting! He

Walter wasn't fighting! Sad

He was actually getting frisky with some other males, but anyway~

It pained him to see his son turn and run like that and he was torn between following or not. Quad is never a disgrace to his father and Walty-bum is very very proud to see him grown up so well. Walter is the one who should feel ashamed for letting his favourite son down by getting into so many fights.

My apologies. ;_;
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(that was all in character by

(that was all in character by the way. I'm not upset with you in real life Eye )

When Quad saw Walter chase after Vipin was when he thought he was fighting again. He still thinks Walter is dead, by the way (and he still blames himself for Walter's death because he felt like he was a coward and didn't intervene in that fight until the last little bit). [I still need to know how Walter came back to life too]

It's just an ongoing struggle he is facing, because he's so much different than Walter yet he still looks up to him. Quad's afraid of judgement - he has great big antlers but he hates fighting, so he feels like Walter is ashamed of him.
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"No! Enough

"No!

Enough already!

Enough!

No more tears.

No more sadness.

He needs me.

And I need him..."


Quad takes a deep breath here, calming his nerves, and he picks up on Walter's scent. He wanders off alone, not telling Kaoori, Toukan, and the others where he is going.

And he finally found Walter, who stood upon his arrival. "Father...I...", Quad begins to say, but Walter nuzzles him.

I was mistaken! He does love me! He is alive!

Quad's heart bounds. He had things all wrong, and he felt his spirit soar in those tender moments.

Then Walter lowered his antlers at his son. Quad, on instinct, cowered, but then he lowered his head. "No. No more of that.", he said.

And Walter showed him how to fight. Quad became much more confident, knowing that Walter was teaching him the very same techniques that kept him alive for so long.

After the lesson, Walter sat, and Quad sat beside him. No more fear. No more suffering. I was the one who was mistaken, and I have much to learn from my father., Quad thought.

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<3 Walty is proud to be able to provide his son with more confidence. Quad should never fight if that isn't in his heart, but he should be prepared to defend those he cares for. Walter would never stand by and let his son get hurt.
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With greater confidence, Quad

With greater confidence, Quad followed Walter to the Pond, where the two of them had a much needed drink of the cool water. As Quad drank, Walter wandered off. He never saw his father leave, and raising his head, he looked around for him.

Quad then decided to walk back to his friends at the Ruins. They were still there, and as he began to approach, he saw Walter in the distance. Two of the deer from the group Quad had sat with before walked toward his father, it seemed that they were there protecting the others.

And the moment felt tense. Quad was completely torn, watching as Walter stared down the other two stags. How could he choose a side? How could he be pitted once again into his father against his friends?

He then saw Walter turn and walk away. "Dammit...", Quad said under his breath, and chased after his father, who sat by a tree. The stag sat next to him.

There is still so much to learn..., Quad thought...

But why does it have to be so hard to decide who to stand by?
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Quad awoke and sat up. He

Quad awoke and sat up. He was in the same spot that he had sat down by, but looking at the tree, Walter was long gone.

How could I fall asleep? How could I abandon him?, Quad's mind raced.

He sat up and saw Tails there, who had been watching over him the whole time. Quad was glad to find a friendly face in this matter.

The two of them walked back to the Ruins, where Toukan, Kaoori, and the others were. Quad stopped before approaching them. Would they accept him? Did he offend them for going and sitting with his father? Would he be rejected?

Toukan approached and bowed to him. He bowed back. A good start.

Things weren't so bad as he thought. But...how could he ever explain to them his thoughts? How could he ever explain to them why he would go and be with his father, even after all the violence and bloodshed he's brought to the Forest?

Quad may have gained more confidence from his father, but from Toukan and the others....he isn't so sure he can be accepted by them anymore.
trigger_mortis's picture

Tails was happy to be there

Tails was happy to be there to support Quad. Whatever else happens, he wants him to be happy.

I will stand by you as a friend in all decisions....Even if that decision calls for silly antlers!
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Quad, I cannot forgive your

Quad, I cannot forgive your father. As I am sure you cannot forgive some things that may have happened. But I understand your side, and I still welcome you as a friend.