March 12, 2010 - 5:25am — Seed
I sit in this patch of flowers I found in that time, the butterflies clinging to my sides, examining their reflections in my eyes. I had a neighbor, sitting in a nearby patch of flowers. Sometimes, I'd glance at him. He got up and listened as I did, searching for something familiar, something that wasn't there. I'm not even sure what I was thinking about -- the falling of a leaf, the motions of my neighbor -- but my heart kept moving towards the great mass of deer that I'm missing, and they're so close. I wonder if they think about me in simmilar terms, wondering if I miss them -- or if I'm just thinking one-sidedly, feeling the distance less as emotional distance as mischance, as a series of little holes in the pattern of my days.
After a while, I was joined by Ravyn. She'd come close and dart away, sit with me and then join friends. I followed her, once, to one of the smaller groups she dashed to, but after a little she returned and waited for me at the flower patch. I think she knew I was feeling kind of lonely, but didn't understand that I didn't mind it -- much. I'm sorry if I concerned her, actually: she seemed very concerned. But... I'm glad she did.
I collapsed for a bit, and awoke, and accidentally fell into the river before returning to the flower patch. I seemed to have a hard time staying concious, though, because I again found my vision darkening, and then clearing where I stood on the riverbank, not far from my home. I returned there, and found a Saosin-fawn. I couldn't help but laugh, which I think hurt his pride. He ran off, heading who knows where. I seem to have very little luck being on friendly terms with him. I wouldn't say I dislike him, though -- but he's shown some distaste for me, I think for reasons that were more relational than personal, in the past. He's not hostile more often than he is, so I can't think ill of him. But when he dashed off, I was not surprised. Ravyn settled back in with me. Then she dashed off to help me recover my set, an easy enough task
We turned to frolicking around the ruins, and turning to dancing. Ravyn is very busy, very airy, very much like the butterflies whose markings she wears on her body -- fluttering, full of energy, never staying stilll an instant. It kind of caught me off-guard... But in doing that, it did manage to distract me from my mood. We went back to the flower patch and sat a while. When she left, I decided that rather than wandered to the next acquaintance in the mostly-empty forest, I myself would take a rest for the night.
((My resolution: at least one diary a week. Scold me if I fail.))
Ravyn had a lot of fun with
She isn't usually so hyper.
She just had a lot on her mind and interacting with others helps her keep her mind off of certain things.
I really enjoyed your diary.
Thank you for the company. (:
I think it's a great idea to
I know I'd be reading them!