Name: Rain
Gender: Doe
Mood: depressed
Crush: Aton, I guess...
Current action: sleeping near the Idol
Thoughts: "There is nobody...nobody..."

So I've decided to sum up Rain's bio, all it was before - is a bunch of creepy stories, which were probably hard to follow. Rain has been around for some time now, but I never really talked about her personality. Besides if you want to find out about Rain it will be much easier for you to read this one post than long weird stories) But just in case you can find them here:
http://endlessforest.org/community/voice-mist
http://endlessforest.org/community/voice-mist-consequences
http://endlessforest.org/community/rains-fear
http://endlessforest.org/community/truth-rains-last-vision

So here are the facts you should know about Rain:
What Rain is now - is the reincarnation of her human form that was tortured and killed by inquisition a long time ago. She was a follower of a pagan cult of Eingana - the goddess of Nature, the Great Mother. Rain was occused of causing the plague in the village she lived when really she helped to find a cure.
Most of her time in the Forest she spends near the Crying Idol, which reminds her a lot about the statue of Eingana near her own village. She tries to stay clear the Ruin, as it reminds her of a place she was tortured (the cage in particular).

Personality:
Rain stays clear other deer.

...The weather was much more springlike... The fog and the fears it covered were gone as if they never visited Endless Forest. Rain woke up in a very good mood. She streched and smiled when warm rays of the sun gently kissed her on the nose. She went down to the pond to drink some water, played with little fawns, said hellow to Deer she knew, who also came to the pond this morning... It promised to be a very good day. Rain didn't even know how special it was going to become...
...Then, while jogging through the Forest, near the Ruin she saw a Deer she never met before. They came closer to get acquainted. The Deer gave Rain a very warm look. She smiled. They ended up spending a whole day together. Casting spells, lied side by side in the grass. they danced and played tag... When they met the Deer wasn't wearing a mask, but later on when they tried different spells he kept the same mask Rain was wearing... She was really moved by that simple gesture... Every time they happened to lose sight of each other they called and called untill one finds another again... It was really a special day for Rain and she really hopes she meets that Deer again. She wasn't sure yet, as she never experienced such feelings, or at least she didn't remember experiencing them, but maybe, possibly, she had.. a crush...))) For the first time in the Forest she forgot about her fears, uncertanity and despair... She fell asleep with a smile on her face this evening...

Since it is so popular, here it is)))

Name: Rain
Gender: Doe
Appearance: dark-blue pelt with silver and light blue wide stripes, black mask, weird antlers (don't know what they are called if you know, tell me)))), dark sad blue eyes, always sparking)))
Current mood: scared by the howling
Thoughts: "What the hell is that?????"
Features: Can't remember who she was before she became a Deer.



Gothic catch, eh?)))

Rain had a Dream about walking with the Spirit of Spring. She didn't quite remember what they talked about, but she remembered the melody...

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I woke up from a chilling noise. The howling... It seemed to be everywhere... Who was that? I Stood up and streched my legs. Last night's storm passed and left a thick fog behind. I could barely see through it. Although my senses told me that there were noone exept other Deer around. But Deer don't howl! Weird.
Than I realised that something was different. Oh the Twin Gods! I fell asleep as a fawn, but I woke up as a full-grown Deer! I was so shocked by this that I forgot all about the howling and the mist. I headed towards the pond to look myself up. It was so unusual to see a reflection so different from the one I was used to see... My antlers prowdly carried my Sign, my pelt lost its spots and now was dark blue like the gloomy sky above me with some lighter wide stripes, left by the mist I guess. I also found myself wearing a black mask. I sighed. Well, Rain, you do pull off your name alright... Although I didn't want to seem too gloomy. I looked around and saw some violettes in the grass. I put my antlers down to twine flowers around them as I saw other Deer do it lots of times... Well, growing up really caught me off guard but on the other hand it made me feel confident.
Then I heard the howling again. Misty Forest was a bit creepy. The howling, bats flapping about... I think its the first time I ever saw bats in the Forest... I didn't want to be alone now, so I called with my new mighty deer voice and went to see what other Deer were doing and maybe ask them about that howling in the mist...

It was really quiet in the Forest. I came to the pond for some fresh water. The sky was gloomy. It was going to rain soon. I looked at my reflection in the steady water. I still had no idea who I was before and what I left behind... For the very first time since I was reborn as a Deer, I felt really homesick for some other life. It was weird to be sad about something you couldn't even remember. But thats what I felt... A lightning broke the sky in half. The sudden strike of thunder scared me so much.... I ran as almost death itself chased me. The fog, the rain and fear almost made me blind. I didn' t realise where I was going untill the silhouettes of the Ruin suddenly appeared in front of me. I hid myself in something that was probably a cellar or something long ago... I couldn't stop shaking. The storm that suddenly reached the Forest was very strong. It made trees mourn and bend... I was exhausted from running and I fell asleep soon. Oddly, the stone remainings were warm and quite comfy. Moss and old dry leaves made a cosy bed for a frightened little fawn. "So the Ruin isn't really dangerous" - was my last thought before I drifted away into Morpheus kingdom...

Endless Forest is a remarkable place. It is quet and peacefull. No preditors, no danger. At least no visible danger. Maybe its just me, but I have this feeling of something heavy in the atmosphere... maybe its the weight of history... Who knows what was this place before the Forest appeared? There is this strange place - the ruin... I always feel uncomfortable there. It looks like the remains of some old monastery or chirch... Anyway it feels like to be in a haunted house during the day. Shivery... And sometimes this feeling of someone watching me... I can't get rid of it. Even if I'm all alone, I just sense someone in high grass or among the trees.. I guess I'm paranoid, but I try to stick to other deer, I can't take it on my own for a long time... Not just yet, I'm not ready.
Aside from my fears, everything is lovely. The weather is wonderfull, lots of fresh grass to eat, tasty cones fall from the trees, fresh water from the stream and nice and warm place to aleep under the cover of the Old Oak...
Another strange thing I noticed...or maybe its just me again - some paths I walk, sometimes bring me to different places than they used to...and sometimes I find the pond or the Oak in different places than they were before...It is hard to explain... Everything seems normal but sometimes I KNOW that the Forest changed in some way...

The Deer of Endless Forest are unique. Even does carry their own, wonderfull set of antlers. It is a weird turn of mythological evolution. Thet need these antlers to carry their Signs, their Names. Anyhow, it is hard to differ does from male deer, because we are not ordinary deer, we are spirits. To be honest, I think we have no gender. The Deer himself cho?ses what to be. Many of us think that we are reborn spirits of some other creatures, maybe even humans, and the fact that once we were divided into two genders probably influences on our behavior now.
I know that such almost scientific thoughts are not likely to any normal deer. Instead I could have been jogging through birch trees and scratch my back against the pines... But self-determination is kind of important. When you are trying to fit in a whole new system you are not used to, such things may really bother you. When important decisions that are usually made by nature are on your shoulders it is bad enough, but when you are the one who will face the consequences of such decisions later it is even scary. Being a spirit sure comes in handy.
Anyway I get this feeling, that a long time ago I was a female of some kind. I think I'll be comfortable with the thought that at least one thing will stay the same...

It was really overwhelming to suddenly find yourself in such a place like Endless Forest. And it really took a while before I could enjoy myself. It seemed like my deer body didn't belong to me. Thats not how a normal deer must feel, is it? And its not if it was hard to be a deer, but on the contrary, it felt so much simplier than... than something else... than someone else I must have been... It drove me crazy at first. But soon I grew to like it.


I had lots of questions to ask. But the Shaman was not that easy to find. I spent lots of time near the Twin Gods Hill but The Shaman was not there. I guess it ment that mostly I should discover the Forest's secrets on my own. I won't say I dislike secrets, as long as they are not scary, but it really freaked me out when the scilent statues of the Gods made my skin glow... Only later did I found out it was a kind of a blessing and came to get it on purpose...


I have to say that its really unsetteling to find yourself in a place like this with lots of strangers... I was really scared of other Deer at first. Partly because some of them had very unusual and frightening looks... But despite my fears, the Deer of the Forest were those who made my acclimatization easer.


I met lots of Deer and fawns like myself. They showed me around and taught me to handle the Magic of the Forest. But as funny as it is, even they, who lived here much longer, had the same questions as I did, and were in search of answers. Some of the Deer were sad and tortured by the uncertainty and felt insecure, some of them were happy and had this amazing spirit, that made all the fears stay far behind when you're galoping through the Forest.

...The Deer of Endless Forest don't know where they come from. They don't know how they ended up here. Thats what a Great White Shaman that lives near the Twin God's Hill told me. Deer are born from light. They begin their journey in the forest as fawns, learn to use their magic and ... And what happens next depends on the Deer himself. Some stay in the Forest, exploring its quiet grounds, others, somehow, find their way into the outlands. The Shaman says that Deer are spirits of nature. Ancient as the Universe itself. Deer are guardians of all living things. Spirits of The Endless Forest... When The Deer is born, he is given a Name. A Sign to carry proudly in his antlers. Deers don't know how to pronounce their own names, but they have no problem memorising them visualy to discern each other... Nobody knows how the Sign is chosen by The Twin Gods. Some think it depends on the circumstances of their birth...

... I think my name has something to do with Water. I opened my eyes near some kind of stream at dawn of a gloomy day. It began to rain soon after I appeared in the Forest. And, maybe its just me, but I feel that my magic is stronger by the water... So there I was, a little, helpless fawn in a great big forest, filled with strange noises and smells. My feet were shaking.. Who am I? Where am I? What should I do? I opened my mouth and tried to call someone, to see if someone was around... My voice was so loud that it scared me. Who was I to ruin the stillness and calmness of this place? It was getting dark. First drops of rain fell on the grass. With my legs still shaking I made a few steps. Suddenly, I saw something white and glowing among the trees. I moved towards the glow... In a while I stepped on the Hill with two stone figures. From the first sight you could tell that they obtained some gigantic Power. Near them stood a wonderfully white Deer...Thats how I saw The Twin Gods for the first time and met The Shaman...