Theme & Feeling: Mask of Time is resonating. The History seems to repeat itself...

Again we have not met...

Current Feeling:
Current Theme:

Sergey Lazarev: The Eye of the Storm

Do not read this, please. I wish not to harm you with rant-like posts. I believe that you can live without my presence. But thanks to everyone who will read this, I really appreciate that...

This is not a rant, this is like last breath... kinda...

*sigh out* ...But why do you wish so badly to crack my Mask, that only thing which keeps me from oblivion. Just give yourself an answer for the questions: "What do you want?" & "What harmed you?" Can't you see what make the tears keep the colour of blood? It is true... *soft sigh*... There's no such a thing... maybe in whole Universe. However, I possess it. I wonder if all of them is dying from the crack of their masks. Noone of those who can, didn't call my name. They call upon wind, trees, someone else... What do you mean - nobody? In the end even World may be destroyed, to complete the cycle. It doesn't mean that you can't feel happiness today. Where is the edge of game and beginning of the reality? I can live only by memories, because I already know who my friends are, I know who cares about me. In Future your friends may becomes your enemies. To remember that they were your friends once, is the greatest gift. In my honest opinion, of course. I know what love is... sorta... selfish eternal trust... At last I have this guidance, another lesson of Fate. I wish not to fight the Destiny who give me such gifts. But what is the token of trust?

TEH DRAMA. My interest in such game experience is fading out, with each bloody tear I crying out. I'm stress because I'm in "read only" mode. I'm stress from my educational problems. I'm obliged by law, and soon may leave my town for a year, or more (we have strange laws). I feel pain. Pain is the mark. It show that you're alive, show the depth of your heart, sometimes. Though my pain is not sweet. I know it's my fault.

Current feeling (Theme of leaving)

It is true then. There's no such a thing in the World. There's no such a thing in whole Galaxy *sigh* No...no...no... Each animal need a special food, I suppose. Indeed it is my true name then. As I predicted, they finally gave it to me. Indeed I haven't got such experience. Indeed nobody hears me. Well... now I have one reason less to coming back...

But now I'm the one who have a question. Is it all vain? All that you're writing there? When you're dying from loneliness, but nobody cares. I was waiting long enough... ... ... Can you truly have a link with them? Can you truly finish them off? Or is it another foolish trick to make a threat to someone who cares? What do you feel then, if I say that if he die, I may stop too... Suppose I know the answer... Why you saved him at first time then, if you saw he haven't got anything yet? Tell me what I feeling... Selfishness? Truly this is not fear of... extinction. No, you can't see these tears...

I am tired of fighting. I have no wish to fight a person who feels something positive towards someone. Must fight only to protect. And I do not want to bring harm into someone's open heart. Besides I know that I cannot play much now. I thought, if I'm kept away, the correct choice will be made. So this is it. Please be... I can only hope you can't receive the same mask as myself. Nothing lives forever, you say? So, I never ask of friendship. I've been around this life a while.

And I never thought such a thing. So they means nothing now. This is the point: the true opinion. But really. This is only me, who have no choices.
I never do nothing to fill this hole the mask protects from. I can't care about both my bodies at same time. Only another creature can cast... bla...bla...bla... Each engine have some glitches... is it? What can I say: I will always care.

I'm sorry... I passed all my exams, but still can't play TEF. I thought I can both play and study, but I can't. My science work must be done during this month. This is final stage of my university-level education course.
+ Have problems on my job now. This is just madness.

The Cure - A Forest

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAr_4Fxe6WI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYAEbR6LUW8

Some interesting facts (Sorry Guys it's just my damn imagination):

1). Name Mic-ha-El means "Who is like El?" ("Who is like God?")
2). The Book of Enoch tell us, that some angels falls in love with mortal women.
3). They had children. A race of hybrids known as the Nephilim.
4). Nephilim sometimes referred to as nefalim and means "fallen ones."
5). Abraham ibn Ezra proposes that they were called fallen ones because of their strange appearance.
6). Shadal understands nephilim as deriving from the Hebrew word "Pele" which means "wondrous".
7). The term might not refer to any specific race or group of people but is a label similar to "hero," a legendary figure, or "great man." The Bible itself describes the Nephilim as "Those were the mighty men who were of old, men of renown." In this view, the Bible tells us that Nephilim is a legendary or heroic figure, a mighty warrior, already renowned in legend by the time Genesis was written. Using the Bible to define itself, Nephilim means a man of legend, one recounted in Legendary Tales.
8 ). They are not historical figures and are ancient imagery with questionable meaning.


Or some facts about Angels:

1). By their nature Angels haven't got bodies. But sometimes they use bodies which we can see or touch. The Bible not tell from where they take those bodies, or where those bodies gone.

2). Angels are genderless. Or have one gender (Male).

3). Angels never dies.

4). Angels are invisible.

5). Angels have feelings.

6). Some Angels looks like animals.