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I have had some bizzare ideas cross my mind the past few days. Probally because I haven't been in the forest for a week or so. D| But! I have some random as butt ideas! The first is what would you guys and gals think about have a weekly poll off some sort? Asking a few basic and random questions just to maybe bring our community together? Find what we have in common? I don't know |D
Second is who would like to have a role-play? This would be for anyone who is involved in Aegle's current plot. I just think it is the only way for me to communicate things since the forest does not work...
I guess this is a somewhat pointless entry. I'm just so BORED.

It is as if I was a fawn again. I could now clearly see the darkness around me once more.
Was this supposed to happen? Was I supposed to look into death's face?
It does not matter anymore for I have decided it is not my choice to make. But deaths alone.
I will free him of his insanity. I will break his bondange. I will kill him. He will kill me.
I will free him of my love. I will no longer hold him back.
I will free him of the shame of my actions. I will not fail you again.
I will free her of the pain I have caused.
I will free him of love I have shown but ripped back.
I will free him of the fights he has witnessed.
I will free her of the burden of myself.
I will free them of the motherly love I have shown but regret.
I will free her of the pain, the fear, and my own selfish desires.
I will free myself... of myself...
I will not hurt any of you again.........

[BUMP'D FOR ANYONE WHO WANTED TO READ]
The leaves continue to change. I can only feel it coming closer. It beckons me, why should I not follow its call?
It has been calling me since fawnhood, its voice grows louder. Clearer.
Do I follow you? Do I walk into the dark?
Or do I stay here, what pain would it bring those I care for?
I am lost, I will not be found...
Following you could save me, but kill them...
I care for them more than myself...
But all I want to do is leave....
I know you will come one day. You will look into my lost eyes. And I will have to make my decision.
To be selfish... or selfless....

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[=10] I could feel the autumn air slowly approaching, the rut approaching. The leaves are slowly beginning to change to their sunset shades of orange, yellow, and red. This was my favorite time of the year.
Walking by the Great Oak I noticed a large orange lump laying inside of it. I had never seen such beautiful colors of orange before, not even the autumn leaves could match. I then noticed that it was a large stag his antlers stretched outwards, scraping the ground beneath them. Why was his chest not moving? After a few moments it registered in my head... He was dead? I ran as fast as my injuries would let me and stood beside the massive body.
" S-Sir! Wa-Wake up! P-Please!"
The stags body quivered softly and his his dark blue eyes opened and squinted as they inspected me.
" A-Are you a-al-allright?"
He grunted softly and whispered in his husky voice "Y-Your more beautiful than I i-imagined"
I was astoined. What had he just said to me? Did I know this creature?
My eyes widened and fear rushed through my veins.
"E-Excuse me... W-Who are you? A-And you didn't an-answer my question..."
His eyes were so beautiful, they reminded me of the pond. So blue, such a crisp blue...
" I'm.. well my name does not matter anymore my dear... but you must be Aegle..."A small grin appeared on his face. "I've been waiting for you... but it s-seems I will h-have to wait again... "
His breathing slowed more. It was now that I noticed a large mound near him. He had surrounded it in flowers. My eyes surveyed the grave and I could feel him watching me.
" I-I'm not sure I understand."
In his last breathes of air he muttered out " You wouldn't but A-Aegle... I am your-your...
I could finish the words myself. He was my father...
"I l-love you"

VIOLENCE WARNING


My body quivered I lay there surveying the expanse of forest covered in pure white. It was so calm, perhaps to calm. I knew what was to come soon. I noticed Masque watching me from not to far away. I urged him to come over and lay beside me. He to knew what was going to take place here.

We lay there for what seemed to be eternity. The snow had gathered across my back, I was so cold. As if that was something new. Masque continually shook the snow off his own back and looked at me surprisingly when I did not, I was to lost in thought to care. I was not fearful, why would I be? I was doing this for someone I cared about, someone I loved. I was scared to make a mockery of him. They would taunt him saying, “Can’t fight your own battles, can you? So you send in a doe to do the dirty work?”. I guess in some aspects I was doing this for myself. That self conceited creature, who does he think he is calling not only me, but all does an abomination! I knew I could not win against him. I was merely a doe with small antlers and a frail body. He was a large stag; his jagged antlers sprawled out in several directions.

Suddenly the time had come. I got to my feet and looked over to Masque. He told me he would be there for me, if I wanted it to stop. I shook my head violently and muttered out “I-I-I would fight to the death.”. I ran off until I was in front of that foul monster. He was to honorable to make the first move. Ha! Honorable to what, your own selfish desires? I took no time in ripping a chunk of his flesh off. He seemed stunned by the force but suddenly I was thrown back. I realized what I had just gotten myself into.

Basically my game or rather my computer is a epic fail. I have been having no connection as of the past few weeks. Until last night. I am connected and on my end everything is running smoothly however I am not sure it is the same on the other peoples. So if people could please go up to Aegle and see if she is lagging, not responding, etc. This will help me know what the hell is up with everything. c: Thank you

I will never forget that day. The day that I was brought here…I awoke near a large ominous oak. The tree twisted high into the air, where it intermingled with the small helpless trees. Those loud cries, Oh the fear… I stood. I looked down at my small legs. Who was I? Aegle. The name swirled around my head. Aegle. That was me. A small light above me head, like a halo. I was no angel, that much I knew. This light contained my symbol. I walked around. My hoofs made small imprints in the loamy soil beneath my feet. I smelled the air... so crisp... so clean... A figure. A beautiful figure was on the other side of the pond. It lay there, staring at the small fish. I heard it whispering to them. The fish swirled about the beautiful figure happily. I became fearful. What was this... The face was so bright yet, so lost. Its eyes almost eerie…. And the colors of this being...brilliant golds, blues... Suddenly its ears perked up. It noticed me. I tried to scramble behind a tree. It gently pawed the ground. Its eyes full of compassion, so peaceful, I approached. And this was the day that I had met her. The day I met Shyla.

Shyla was my best friend. She taught me all that I know. I dreamed to be like her. This doe, which was once a stranger whom I had feared, taught me love. She also was not fond of strangers...She protected me... watched over me... Every time I feel asleep near her, I felt safe.... I loved her... She was my best friend, my mother...

Unlovable... a word that will forever ring in my ears... I have now proven to myself that is what I am. I can no longer hide it. I am... unlovable. I always hoped it was not true, maybe that I only thought low of myself. I would continue to flip over stones until one would uncover somone who loved me. I have not flipped many stones. I do not want to any longer. My need my desire is gone. I can not be hurt anymore. I-I will not! I am... unlovable... and I will accept that. I deserve this. I only trusted few. And I surely will not any longer. Do not come to me looking for trust. You fools, I am unlovable. Stop wasting your time! Do you not know you will never love me? Do you not realize I will only get in your way. I will forever be a obstacle in your path! I will never be happy. So stop. Just stop. Leave me be.


There you guys go. Aegle is a depressed mess, yet again! Do not be offended personally but, she will barely let anyone near. She is fearful of everyone as of now. EVERYONE. To much hurt. :c