August 4, 2009 - 6:32am — Aegle
Unlovable... a word that will forever ring in my ears... I have now proven to myself that is what I am. I can no longer hide it. I am... unlovable. I always hoped it was not true, maybe that I only thought low of myself. I would continue to flip over stones until one would uncover somone who loved me. I have not flipped many stones. I do not want to any longer. My need my desire is gone. I can not be hurt anymore. I-I will not! I am... unlovable... and I will accept that. I deserve this. I only trusted few. And I surely will not any longer. Do not come to me looking for trust. You fools, I am unlovable. Stop wasting your time! Do you not know you will never love me? Do you not realize I will only get in your way. I will forever be a obstacle in your path! I will never be happy. So stop. Just stop. Leave me be.
There you guys go. Aegle is a depressed mess, yet again! Do not be offended personally but, she will barely let anyone near. She is fearful of everyone as of now. EVERYONE. To much hurt. :c
;_; Poor dear. Would you
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Of course not. c:
AWWWWGOD I feel so bad for
-gives her a hug and a switchblade-
Go stab that fricking drunk blond moron in the face because I know it's his fault.
Aegle, I know you're shy and
WHEW. that was odd. :U
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HAHAHAHA. cx I don't think
'-quick glance- I-I-I don't
Did Tuna just make a serious speech? -gasp- I feel honored!
Tsk tsk, perhaps I'll have
I'd have him reply but Tuna basically summed it up/I'm too tired/too much dramallama for one day/I'm sure she doesn't want to hear a single word out of him anyway. Plus he's busy being woodchipper'd.
(btw that link may/maynot be suitable for the youngins. 8D Hint: Fargo.)
You need someone's help. No
LOL you shouldn't. That made me giggle. cx SRS FISH IS SRS, YES. oh and also I'm rather sure if Masque said anything right now Tuna would shoot a hole through his tongue. c:
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OH NO. Masque is
OH NO. Masque is woodchopped! That was funny. I just imagine that guy saying " Damn foot! Go in the woodchopper! NOW!". Yes, much dramallama. c:
' I'll think about what you have said.'
And she ruined it cx She used the words "hippo's assload". HAHA.
Aegle... Oh, you silly
Oh, you silly dear... A-Aegle... *tears well up*...
Aegle, you, unlovable? A-Aegle... N-no! Aegle! Do you know many love you? How many that support you... I, Aegle, love you. Yes, I do! And s-so many more do! Aegle, please, you are not this weak. You are strong! You must be strong in life; life is much too short, too precious, for one to be dragged down to the ground. You, you will not be dragged down! You, out of everyone! You, who were always stronger than me, you who stood before me and shielded me when I was afraid... You will not be burdened... Y-you... A-Aegle...
... *stamps hoof*
Don't fade away, Aegle... Already you are wandering away from who you were... A-Aegle, you are not low! You are beautiful! You are a beautiful doe, so bright; be proud of yourself! Hold your head high, stick out your chest and scream in defiance when your mind threatens to fall!
P-please...
...Life... is something... full of hurt, Aegle... B-believe me... I know... I know hurt. I know hurt far too much... This... This simply is a part of life, Aegle... And you... you can win against it...
P-Please... for m-me... for M-Masque... for Sh-Shyla... f-for everyone...
A.. A-Aegl-le... g... *closes eyes and falls silent, tears running down her face*
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Alright that was amazing.
Alright that was amazing. <3 Made me teary because it was that amazing. c: (did i cry... nooo c;)
' Do you love me Clavier? Or did you love me. Y-You loved me when I hadn't completely lost myself. I shielded you Clavier because I loved you and I always will. Y-You became almost a daughter to me. I only pretended to be strong to comfort y-you. B-But I could not stand the fact that I always brought you down with my sadness. Don't believe me? I-I am doing it now. I w-will only continue to bring you down my dear. And I would rather bring myself down than you. Y-Your a precious flower... and I...I am the tangling weeds. Clavier... I need you to realize something...-tears- You have found love. You know what it is like to be loved. Y-You are happy. I may have been the one that was stronger b-but, I have fallen. I d-don't want to fade away... B-But it seems I have... Clavier I am so d-done being hurt... I c-can't take it anymore...And I am done hurting others! I am a hypocrite! I-If I had anything left to fight with I w-would... Y-You know I would... I lost Shyla's trust to far back... I lost it because I defended somone who I loved... O-Oh that stupid love... A-And that love was M-Masque... I have lost him to... And I would rather lose it all then keep hurting everyone... -cries-
Yes, I love you. Y-you are
Y-yes... Yes, you bring me down w-with your sadness... But it only makes me want to save you, help you, make you laugh only more... It makes me strive harder to m-make you... a happy doe...
...
A mate is not everything, Aegle...
...
I kn-know love. A-and I know I am l-loved. And truly... I love him... I love him so much... But really... if I had only him, and no others, no friends, no one else, I would not be completely happy. You have not yet faded completely, A-Aegle. Let us s-save you... Oh Gods, if you fall completely... I will cry my heart out...
You know... I always wished... inside my heart... that things could work out perfectly... That you and Masque could love each other, and that Shyla and Paavo could love each other... Then... Then this would never have happened. But th-things can't work out that way, c-can they? *sad smile* Fickle fate...
Awww... <333 Thank you.
'I-I don't want to be a
I w-will never let you
Never.
... *curls lip, stamps*
Im-magine how much p-pain you are causing M-masque right n-now. Just imagine! Even if he d-does not love you the w-way you love him... he l-loves you... you are d-dear to him...
Just think...
How much... he w-would ruin himself...
How m-much he would b-blame himself...
...Are you sure, Aegle, th-that you want to c-cause that?...
...
Regret n-never... comes beforehand... Only a-afterwards...
*whispers*...And by then... it's... t-too late...
... *sniffs, nuzzles gently*... *turns and moves to stumble away*
-blank stare-