“Who are you?” You may ask, a taunting smile stretching your face, a certain expectation shimmering in your eyes.
“Come to me; do as I say.”
Many times have I asked myself the same; who am I? Often times, I have purged my own wants, my own desires, in order to satiate the will of another. Happiness eluded me, misery jeered at me. And I always found myself asking that damned question, over and over, in the hopes that I could form my own answer without being forced to recant it.
Far too many times has my heart been torn to shreds, only to be patched up then torn again. Far too many times have I chased the uncatchable, reaching, only to barely touch it before it vanished before my eyes. Far too many times have I done something with the wretched fear that I will lose something precious to me in the process. Far too many times have I questioned the love and friendships of those who have surrounded me.
I have had plenty of time to think; plenty of time to do as I please – plenty of time to see who I have wanted to see, play with whomever I wished to.
What I am about to say are words that have danced around my brain, screaming for release. Sure, as I proclaim them, my heart shall ricochet within the confines of its cage that are my ribs; fear will constrict me, as it has done so many times. But my mind will be stoic, and my words will be strong and true.
I am a weak heart, who foolishly seeks the love and approval of others. I am an individual, who walks the line between Fantasy and Reality; often times blurring the boundaries. I am a manifestation of worlds gone by, lives lived and died. I am a contradiction, doomed to struggles both inside and out. I am a neutral ground, who will support both sides. I am a thinker; sometimes I dig too deeply, while other times, I barely scratch the surface. I am a loner, who secretly longs for one whom I can love and trust to eternity. I am a blazing fire, who incinerates the world with my wrath. I am a steady river, who nourishes those who want it with my love.
I will walk the ground I choose to walk on; no matter who owns it. I will speak to whomever I wish to speak to; no matter what side they are on. I will interact with whomever I wish to do so with; no matter what side they are on. I will accept your “punishments” towards me with understanding; that is how I will be fair. I will be kind to you; so long as you are kind to me. I will listen to your words; whether I heed them or not will be up to me, and me alone. I will seize any and all opportunities; from a prank to the day itself.
I will not hide from anyone; I will never have a reason to. I will not mold my will to satiate someone else’s; I am not one to be saddled nor bridled. I will not be chained by the past; what’s done is done. I will not bear a mask; everything I say and do shall be entirely honest.
This is my decree. Run home to your Lords and Ladies; tell them, with a quivering voice, quaking heart, and bloodied feet:
Silvasemper - And your words are beautiful as well. I can see the imagery so clearly...
Hraeth - Different, yet the same - it's such a contradiction, and yet it's nothing more than truth. People question how such a thing is possible, when most of them tell others "Anything is possible."
Lovee! ♥
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Wonderful, turly poetic and
Je suis un chrétien fier
Anima Wolf
Spirtus tempestatis
We're alike in so many
Not all, but many. I understand your differences, though, and respect you for them.
Lacie, Lacie~.
♥
Silvasemper - And your words
Hraeth - Different, yet the same - it's such a contradiction, and yet it's nothing more than truth. People question how such a thing is possible, when most of them tell others "Anything is possible."
And same here; my respect has no boundaries.
Hraeth, Hraeth ~
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