Day one (11/27/10) - my eyes fluttered open only to see I was alone. Where was mommy?
I looked around franticly, she was nowhere in sight.my heart was pounding did she forget me? i could hardly remember her though how was I to find her? No she couldn’t have she’ll be back I said to myself my heart calming down. I wondered around this strange place, it was very pretty and peaceful. I especially loved the huge purple ones I couldn’t help but rub and smell them. Too distracted by the flowers I didn’t notice the deer nearby; I watched them from a distance. I couldn’t muster the courage to approach so i just followed.one of the huge stags started fighting another, the fear hit me i didn’t understand.my fear drove me under a doe. She was very nice and reminded me of mamma so i stuck by her side. We enjoyed playing for a while. We sat near the two stags that were fighting earlier I was skeptical but I trusted her. I learned one of them was named gustiro. he wasn’t as scary as i first thought he was actually interesting and I felt safe. He got up and left me and her stayed and played awhile until she had to go, my heart sank. I was alone again….and I didn’t find mommy. I yawned lying by the pond. Today was very adventures. I think I like it here and this is where I will stay until I find mommy. goodnight momma <3.

Day two(11/28/10)- my dream was peaceful.me and mommy were sitting in a meadow relaxing after an afternoon of playing.it ended abruptly as the morning sun shined down on me. i woke blinking a few times to get the sleepiness out of my eyes. Once my eyes could focus I saw something amazing, a large group of deer. What were the called? a h-h-herd? Everyone looked the same but there was one that had huge antlers! And there were about 6 mommies!!They fought a few times…all this fighting is confusing. I-I don’t get it. Maybe they were playing? I tried it with a nearby fawn. They went along with it I couldn’t help but laugh at us trying to fight with invisible antlers. I got lost a bit trying to stick with them but it was fun.so much running I needed a nap! Once I woke up they were all gone. No one in sight……..again.my little heart broke. I ended up near the pond again it was so pretty. There I meet a doe she was nice and so playful, I just loved prancing around. We found some jumbo rocks to rest on. Friends of hers found us I recognized one of them from yesterday and we sat more until we ran off and played some more.so much playing needed so much napping so we rested until gustiro found us. I was a bit nervous I wasn’t afraid of him or ravus anymore but I didn’t want them to fight again. I stood up with mommy. “Was she mommy? I can’t remember.” I thought standing up to greet them or get between if a fight broke out. I was too tired to play anymore. I sat down near watching until I drifted off to sleep. goodnight mommy.<33

day three(11/29/10)- When I woke up I found mommy napping so I sat with her. Ravus joined us and we pranced around like crazy and it was fun! We found a tree that had mushrooms. The mushrooms tasted funny but they were magical! Magical! They gave us many different masks. hehe I cast one on her ^-^ and ravus too. I couldn’t stop my laughter. We found a doe that had such a pretty white fur we sat in my favorite patches of poppies near the ruins. She fell asleep and me and mommy met a strange do we played with her for a bit until I needed a nap. I’ve been needing those more often with all this playing. *smiles* but I don’t mind one bit! Goodnight mommy <333

day four(12/2/10)-I found mommy sitting with a large group of deer. I didn’t recognize any of them except ravus and the white doe from the day before. I cuddle up next to a sleeping sianna and drifted off to sleep. Once everyone woke up we went to a tree that had those mushrooms. They never stop amazing me. How could they do that? I laughed threw the whole mask war between me and ravus and so did he. We headed to the playground for some more playtime. I always enjoyed prancing around and around with everyone. I could do it forever. I fought the sleepiness for as long as I could, falling in and out of sleep and consciousness, my head would fall on mommy’s shoulder each time. I blinked furiously but I couldn’t fight it anymore and sleep over took me. Goodnight mommy <3333 Goodnight mushrooms ^-^ Goodnight ravus : 3

day five(forgot the date x.x)-I-i couldn’t find mommy. D-did she leave m-me? Was it because I was asleep for so long? I-I’m s-sorry! I-I’m s-sorry! I could hold back my tears and loud sniffles as I ran through the forest looking for her. The panic was making my knees shake. I could hardly run stumbling in the dirt. I finally found her asleep with a stranger next to her. I was too excited to even greet them I just plopped next to her snuggling my face into her fur. It was then I noticed her wounds. W-what happened? I look at the stranger for an answer but got none.my tears started flowing again. Don’t leave p-please. I snuggled into her body again letting my tears fall this time silent. I promised I would be here to protect her at that moment even thought I was a small little thing and couldn’t even scare the squirrels away. All the crying made me tired and I drifted off to sleep clinging to her. goodnight mommy <33333 goodnight and thank you stranger for watching mommy

day six(12/21/10)- i found mommy and she took me to ravus she sat next to her and so did i.as soon as i did she got up and walked away.did i do something wrong? ravus sat next to me snuggling i enjoyed her warmth and drifted off to sleep.i just wonder whats wrong with mommy.....i hope she's ok.....
i got separated from ravus i was sad but it left me to do what i wanted....follow mommy...i found her near the pond i don't think she saw me.small and sneaky i could be a good stalker hehe
ravus went up to them along with two other deer and i joined pretending i just caught up. i decided to stay with ravus and the others instead of continuing my new professional stalking career.

day seven-I jumped around with Mr. Bunny for a while. I think he didn’t think I could hop! So I had to show him I could! Hehe around and around in circles. boy I got dizzy.no one could hop like Mr. Bunny could I bet.i sat with ravus and some others I had seen before they were so calm and relaxed I couldn’t just sit there anymore I ran off hoping to look for mommy. She was with a boy. Boys are yucky so I just stayed away but in the area with the other deer ^-^. I later found illrose and a group of fawn and we hoped everywhere it was so fun ^-^ and then two other deer joined us and one of them turned her into a bunny!!!! We chased her around and played hide and seek. I got to tired and went to rest with mommy him there or not. I saw the group of deer come to the playground as well I wanted to join them again and play some more but I was tired so I just snuggled more into mommy. The stranger just stared off he didn’t acknowledge me so In return I didn’t even give a curious sniff.it didn’t matter though stags always come and go with mommy anyway. I didn’t see a difference in him. I loved my ravus and his presence but in a way I was glad he wasn’t there. She couldn’t pawn me off to him I was stuck to her side where I should be no stag was going to push me out of the picture I couldn’t lose my mommy. Once I wasn’t upset anymore and accepted the stag thought nothing had been exchanged still but then a stag almost sat on me!!big butted thing trying to squish me!!Then everyone got riled up suddenly and attacked the stranger. The stag had protected mommy and I owe him. I actually joined him and learned better how to fight ^-^ he wasn’t a bad stag I was just jealous before. The two really got into a fight and I coward under mommy. Ugh I can’t protect her I was useless yes? But I joined the scuffle quickly when he got too close to mommy and got hit a few times. This stag didn’t seem to be able to take a hint. Finally he left me and the stag had succeeded. We pranced joyfully from our victory. I ignored the pain in my leg I wasn’t going to be rude to this deer, no I couldn’t he protected us. Mommy then got up and we had a nuzzle fest. I pressed my face deep in his fur holding back tears I wanted to show him how grateful I was even if it wasn’t much to him or others.i found ravus and snuggled into him for warmth, i always felt safe with him and thats what i needed right now.i trust that stag with mommy and if i'm needed i will go but right now i can't fight again.they frolicked and spelled each other i loved magic and it saddened me that i couldn't but their faces were so happy it was contagious i laughed at their games.

day eight- This morning I found mommy in the birch. And Mikhail was a fawn!!!! B-but he’s a grown up…..I didn’t have time to think about that it was time to play! >:3 we ran around in circles. I just love going in circles ^-^. I danced with mommy. she’s got some moves. I fell asleep but when I woke up I found mommy ravus and Mikhail in a mushroom circle. Mommy was asleep and when she woke up she turned ravus into a frog!!! Hehe some other deer were there and we chased her around it was so fun!!! And then Mikhail got turned into a crow and bunny!! I love magic it’s so awesome!!! Then mommy left and Mikhail took me to her and there were tons of deer!!All running and playing!! Hehe I loved the sound of the hooves hitting the ground. Illrose was there that made me happy I was hoping I would see her again ^-^. I ended up flying!! And Mikhail was all like “whoa!” hehe. Me and mamma started walking and dancing on the water. I saw the fishies…they were pretty ^-^. I joined ravus and Illrose again they had the doe antlers on…..ravus almost looked feminine….i thought on it for a minute but the thought flew out the window when we started frolicking. I stopped and looked up. I wanted to get up there, to look over the pond and other deer. I tried climbing it but stupid tree wouldn’t let me and neither would these hooves. I decided to do the same trick as before and somehow managed to get up there and ravus joined along with a mini hehe I fell asleep in the tree but I was afraid to fall out.
(i really dislike this journal well how i wrote it >:I might come back and redo it one day)

day nine - Most everyone was sleeping today such lazies. geesh I was bored I found a sleeping der and tried to peacock him but some random naked deer came and ruined my plans I was so close too!>:I. I was thinking of trying to do it to a sleeping mommy but that wouldn’t have ended well. So I went off to find someone else. I was determined to peacock them. Mikhail came up and quickly picked up on what I was trying to do and tried helping me but well it just wasn’t going to happen so we just left them all mismatched and went to find mommy. Besides the set wasn’t THAT bad I’m sure they’ll like the makeover. We found her resting in the birch alone so I sat with her and Mikhail followed. We all napped together. I think if any stag this was the nicest I’d seen mommy with so far. If she were to ever pick just one I would hope it to be him. and if not I could always pick him up ;] lol no, no I’m too young for that but the doe that ends up with him would be happy and that’s why I want mommy with him. She deserved it. Today is very slow and uninteresting I can’t wait till I grow up. When I woke up later mommy and Mikhail was gone T^T but I found a group of deer eating mushrooms!! >:3 we started spelling like crazy it was fun. Mommy found me by the twin god statues and a little mini was following her. We started jumping and running around. I’ve been doing that a lot lately but it’s so fun ^-^.mommy was sitting down and I wanted to sit on her back but I chickened out. I didn’t want her to get mad and leave me. So I just sat next to her and the mini. once we got up mommy took me to some stranger and we all cuddled and sued each other as pillows.im always glued to mommy when I get the chance. I hope I don’t annoy her…..it’s just i-I never really get to be with her much. I was napping next to the stranger and a fawn and when I woke up mommy was gone. I started panicking did she really leave me? Was she coming back? I felt alone so I snuggled into the two strangers. I wasn’t use to this. Who were they that I could trust them? I didn’t trust them not one bit but it was better than being completely alone. She will come back. She will come back. I was fine just sting with them until the awn started messing with me it didn’t want me there and I understood. I went to my poppy patch and just thought. I wish I was a flower maybe then people would like me better and wouldn’t mind just sitting with me even just for a moment. I curled up with the tree he wouldn’t leave. I kept and ear out for mommy she didn’t like it when I didn’t respond. I couldn’t sit there anymore I went to look for her. I found mommy with ravus and a bunch of others they were dancing I dancing with them it made me happy again but I got tired so I sat with ravus ^-^.i enjoyed watching them frolic . ravus was mini!!! and so was everyone else hehe made me fill bigger. Illrose came I had seen her earlier has a huge raven but now I was determined to turn her into a mini.>:3 and we succeeded!!! Mommy was a mini and I couldn’t help but sit on her back eeek.i wanted to get Illrose too >:3 but then ravus and a stag got in my way T^T

day ten-I didn’t go to sleep last night I was too excited! I experienced my first mini abio!!There were rainbow!!!Goldfish!!Stars!!A disco ball!!!! It was so awesome mommy was asleep I tried to wake her up but she just wouldn’t budge. I was playing with ravus and my new buddy mace before it got all dark and scary I cowered under ravus who seemed excited. We ended up at the twin go statues where I saw all the cool stuff with raves the geisha and mace. Soon thought Mikhail arrived he danced with us and I got him to dance in the air. We went crazy doing all kinds of crazy moves. He always followed me around and played with me. ravus turned me into a mini and Mikhail made me look like I was ravus’ and geisha’s fawn xD. I needed to sleep I stayed up all night! So I snuggled into Mikhail and drifted off. I love him just as much as mommy he’s so nice to me. When I woke up I headed to the twin gods a large group was there along with mommy. She never really moos so I mood to show her the bubbles hehe. I found Mikhail again resting alone I sat with him it was cold I didn’t want him getting sick. I then went to mommy again and sat down Mikhail didn’t come he sat at a distance next to a tree. I didn’t understand…why didn’t her sit with us?was it that stupid stags fault? He left and he still didn’t come so a stayed with mommy and she spelled me lol. I was just wondering around when I saw Mikhail attacking something. It was a stagi had seen with mommy before I think his name was tieff. I jumped in quickly along with another mini fawn and a doe. Finally we separated them I nuzzled Mikhail I was happy he was fine but then the stubborn stag came back but I scared him off. Big wussy of a bully scared of a little mini fawn like me. or I’m just that tough. I go with me being tough >:3 I can scare the biggest stags you bet!!i danced with mace again he was becoming my best friend like Mikhail they were so fun. I tried to start a mini fawn dance totem pole thingy but failed >.<. I wondered off to the twin statues yet again and they followed me. and omg!!! There was a huge dance line. hehehe I joined in I saw mommy in the distance but she didn’t want to dance I guess :I after everybody stopped I sat down and Mikhail stood over me and mace sat next to me I had a little warm house but it kind of fell in on me when they fell asleep xD but I didn’t mind it was warm and comfy. pffft I swear I saw a naked lich king dancing.O.o they both sat up and I was squished between them ahhh it was warm but a bit snug. >.> fluffy butts. Fluffy butts I loved the heck out of ^-^.at the end of the last day of the year I tried to spend some more time with mommy and I did for a bit until she left like usually. I spotted tief and sat with him. I didn’t like what he did earlier but as long as he behaved I wouldn’t mind spend some time with him. Momma joined us and that made me happy. We all curled up together moments like these could make me like tief. We jumped around on the pond and across the river. They both sat down away from each other. Of course I sat with mommy……….and she got up and left me to sit next to him maybe it wasn’t intentional but it hurt. She was going to put them first :I i-I just have to get over it. she was mommy and I loved her just like I loved ravus, Mikhail ,mace and Illrose.in a light nap I felt her presence over me and it warmed my heart she was standing over me. Today was amazing despite a few bumps here and there ^-^ heh my first abio ever and I loved it.things started getting really fun after a slow point but today was just to exciting and adventurous I drifted off to sleep

day eleven - I woke up today and the forest looked slightly boring compared to yesterday. I found mommy and gustiro and some other stag I saw him yesterday. They were running around fighting I was so confused!!! i-I didn’t know whether to join or not. I tried following mommy during the fight but then she was stubbornly following gustiro trying to fight him. I got lost but I heard mommy Illrose and gustiro roaring I knew that she had jumped in.my intentions were to fight gustiro but it changed when she got involved my main concern was just stopping it at that point but if I had to I would fight Illrose. And hopefully she would understand that. I was panicking has I raced to mommy. But everything had calmed down and she was with some stag. I sat on the other side of the tree. A fawn came near me I remember seeing him before but I didn’t know his name. we played around and I sat on his head and danced and showed him a favorite trick the spinning. All of the awesomeness from yesterday caught up with me and I was sleepy quickly.
(>.< very short day today arrrggg)

day twelve- It was snowing when I woke up.im going to get sick with all of this snow we’ve been having recently. My candles didn’t even light .misha found me in the poppy patch I made him a crow hehe. I wanted to make him a mini >:3 I sat in a mushroom patch nearby and he stood over me. He was too nice to me he didn’t have to. i decided to do it some other time I felt bad that he was just standing over me shielding me from the falling snow. we played around but the cold didn’t help much it always made me sleepy time or a nap. i snuggled up to misha.i woke up alon and it was still snowing I smelled mommy ravus and stinky ol tief.i ran in jumping and happy and I tried sitting on tief’s head but the red stag was siting on him and tief noticed and got up >:Omy plans foiled yet again!! The stag kept bothering teif I didn’t care until teif started taunting the stag because mommy was in between them not even paying attention so I stared down tief daring him to try something. i got angry at tief. Be aggressive away from her! Be a man!!! Don’t use her as a shield!!! He left and she followed him!!! Well let her choose him if she wants be he isn’t much of a stag to me. Me, tief mommy ravus and the red stag tried jumping on the crying idol I was determined to make it and I did and while trying I ran into mace!!! I missed him so much!!!!eeeeek!!!! we danced on top of the idol oh it was fun. We got tired and got off and ran around spelling each other. I’ve been getting tired easier lately I thing it’s all this snow >.<.i want the sunshine back!!! Ahhhhh! So I went to sleep under the watch of mace. I trusted him. Besides mommy was off somewhere.

day thirteen - I saw misha in the distance but whenever he is with strangers I don’t like going up to him. This time it was a deer I had saw has a fawn at the abio. bahahahahha it was the mini fawn I had accidentally air humped. i was so embarrassed I didn’t know if they recognized me so I didn’t want to bring it up or anything. We ran around jumping and playing but she had to go. i smelled mommy nearby and ran to her I expected Mikhail to follow but he didn’t. he never came near mommy anymore. i wonder what’s wrong….
Mommy turned me into a crow. heh I loved this magic a lot it was so funny. I think she tried sitting on me. but I was so small she would squish me! I fell asleep under her. I woke up and the forest was peaceful I went to find mommy but she was playing with some stranger I didn’t want to bother her so I went and laid next to ravus. I felt i could always count on her she was asleep next to someone and I just joined in for a nap. I got tired of just sitting there and went to the pond for a drink. I sat in my other favorite spot on the Lilly pad next to the pink flower. Today was so boring none of my friends were awake. I saw a stranger looking over the pond and joined him slowly moving closer. I rested my head over their back.i woke up and found mommy this squirrel came and i chased it around. it turned into a stage with huge antlers. me and the stag went into a spell war . i ran into exen xD we started tree bum dancing and started sitting on the deer around us i rode cavadeer and some naked deer.

day one - Today was my first day as a grown doe. i wondered the forest I knew so well. Everything was the same but different. The birds sang a different song, the falling leaves danced to a new beat. I was no longer equinox the fawn but the doe. There was a strange beauty to the sorrow that brought. I could still frolic without care but it wasn’t the same. i could snuggle with ravus, stand under mother , sadly those would never be the same either.in sorrow happiness could always be found. There were new memories and friends to be made things to discover. I looked forward with these new eyes and saw bright promises.
Everything still frightening though and I sought the comfort of my ravus. But I found misha and the familiar red deer. We played and danced as we did when I was little. Mikhail sat behind us and watched. For a young stag you act like and old man. Haha. I felt that things weren’t the same between us now that I grew up and I needed to find ravus I needed the comfort she brought. I was my old self dancing on her head with xentri. Snuggles I love them and no one can do them like they could but what I wanted was my mother. I played with xen he was always a lot of fun and brought back loving memories. I went for a drink. I looked across the pond and saw none other than Mikhail. i don’t know why it felt weird between us now maybe it was just me. He came up to me later while still playing and I sat under him showing him I was still his friend and me after trying to get him to play and failing miserably. Perhaps I lack the charms I had as a fawn. I got tired of sitting and just stood close to him cuddling. He asked me to sit and I listened. He left while I was asleep.it brought back the few painful memories of my “real” mother and how I woke up without her.it caused my heart a terrible ache. I let the thought slip from my mind which was harder to do these days but xentri helped. I was spending more and more time with him. I wait for the day he grows up there is much fun to be had. Let someone try to harm him and they will get a swift bite to the neck and hoof to the face.

day three - I haven’t been able to bring myself to write in this for a while. The absence of ravus’ presence as almost crippled me. i knew her so little but loved her a lot. I miss playing and being silly but I mostly miss just sitting in her warmth and cuddling.my mother as left me as well.my heart is feels all the more empty. And I have only been sitting in my little places not responding to anyone. What was the point? What would keep them with me? Nothing. I left my spot at the pond when too many pestering fawn came around. I normally had a soft spot for them and wouldn’t mind playing but not today, May be not for a while. Once they left I returned to my spot. I stared at the log ravus sat on. Despite myself I searched for someone for comfort. No one was around so yet again I sat on the pond. A little fawn came and sat with me I didn’t mind they were warm and quite but left as quickly as they came. I saw misha and ran to him a familiar face I loved.we played he could always get me to. I wanted to just sit with him and cuddle to feel his warm soft fur against mine.
I woke up alone. misha had gone but I was calm he promised he wouldn’t leave me and I trusted him.at the twin statues a strange deer approached and I bolted. I stopped running when I saw a fawn all alone. Reminded me of myself. I sat next to the poor thing and watched over it as it slept. I decided to lay my head but I was still alert. the sounds of the forest made me jump. I wasn’t sure if I trusted it anymore. I would keep up the bravado to protect my remaining friends but truthfully most of that bravery as walked right out the door. A stranger sat near us and I froze and played deed well sleep. They didn’t leave or show any aggression. I slowly relaxed and besides he may be able to protect me if the moment comes up. I turned him mini in his sleep and wondered off I made my way back and he was gone. I relaxed and cuddled back up with the sleeping fawn I didn’t notice teif’s smell in the forest until he roared. That fact bothered me and made my neck hairs bristle. If he came near me alone or not I would try and rip him apart. He has attacked my Mikhail too many times and mother was no longer around to lay claim on him. A little fawn came out of nowhere and taunted me I didn’t do anything to it I just sniffed it curiously. I wasn’t in the mood to bother with it I decided to sit in my flowers. I found another doe amongst them.it never bothered me to find strangers there flowers were lovely and it was a big space. I fell asleep in them just taking in the smells.

day four - the forest was lonely and cold.absent of sianna and ravus even Mikhail.why was i even trying...i don't know b-but i could give up.the smell of my fawn caught my attention. she was awake and i didn't want to approach her so i just watched at a distance protecting her. something drew me to this fawn maybe it was my depression....i ran into xentrie i was overjoyed to see him. we jumped around in our happiness. my sorrow forgotten at that moment.i would try and be happy for him.i fought the sleepiness we had so little time together but i drifted to sleep in that happiness next to him despite my efforts.

day five - I froze in my place when I smelled her I wanted to run to her to jump and dance. But every one of those ideas and happiness crashed and burned when I smelled that thing with her. Maybe it was harsh to call it a thing but he deserved it. Misha was mine and he would not harm him not while I was around and even then I will go after him with a vengeance if he is injured in my absence by the hooves of that beast. I was a bit more than upset at her but when she came to me I did not reject her. I cringed at the lingering smell of him when we cuddled. I flinched internally when I realized she was leading me to Illrose. I hadn’t seen her since I was a fawn I doubt she recognized me. Mother asked me to sit like she did the first time she left me with ravus…….ravus……I shook my head at the thought of her I can do this to myself. I refused to sit I was no child and she would not leave me with this stranger and doe that didn’t remember me. She sat and I followed i half expected her to run off. I almost wanted to ask her isn’t it time to take your leave. I was being a bitch and I knew it but I didn’t care my state of mind wasn’t right.one of the reasons I really didn’t want TIEF near me. He was my only enemy a perfect person to take my anger out on and start unnecessary fights and drama. Then again life could use a little spice a little flare here and there to get my mind off of things. hahaha listen to me I sound like my mother. Well Like mother like daughter they always say. I rested my head down on the floor in the soft grass. cadaver was there and mommy greeted him. Mommy… I miss saying that. Little fawn started pestering her it still bothered me to see fawns all over her. I fell asleep next to the doe Illrose and momm- mother.

Day thirty five - I was resting hidden in my patch of flowers, no one could find me. There is where I sat alone for so long trying to accept the facts.my mouth was dry, I wanted, I needed water. I attempted to stand with a struggle falling several times it had been so long since I had walked much less stood I wanted not to be seen then. Much of my muscle had disappeared they weren’t used and my eating wasn’t exactly healthy. I stumbled with each step; it was like learning to walk for the first time. I finally made it to the edge of the pond and sat in the little brush that surrounded it.my body shivered but not from the cold but the memories it brought. I meet my mom here, spent many hours besides it with ravus, stared into it and played by it with misha. I loved this pond. My mask had become embedded into my skin I fought to remove it leaving blood around my face. I lapped gently at the crisp water drinking to quench my thirst. The wind carried a familiar scent to me….i-it was misha. Misha……I left him alone. How could I face him? I walked slowly to his spot. I couldn’t bring myself to approach him so I sat a distance away just staring. I loved him but yet I hurt him. He made me a promise once its time I did the same if I could forgive myself, if he could forgive me. h-he was hurt….i wasn’t there to protect him….i wanted to go to him to comfort him, to run my muzzle through his fur but fear froze me in place. I couldn’t stand to see him up close would I see hate in his eyes, disappointment? Or much worse hurt? So I just sat and watched, watched from behind the twin gods statue as he rested with a stranger. The last piece of my life seemed to be slipping through my hooves and I won’t stop it. I wasn’t going to for him. I am a mess and he doesn’t need that. I won’t taint the one I love. Rest well Mikhail.life will bring me joys soon enough after all i did meet a nice doe today.
( its been WHILE well i've been super busy and well i plan on being back and have another character coming soon to help motivate me lol well this entry seems kind of sadish but i think she'll live and get better.)

day thirty six- the day was boring the forest was basically empty i aimlessly wondered my feet taking my where my heart wanted to his spot in the playground. i was more social today than i had been for i while.i played with a fawn that seemed to have lost its mother.... just like me but i saw who its mother was and eventually got them back together(something that wouldn' happen for me.) and we all ran and spelled each other this was more like the old days. i rested for a bit this was more movement than my body was use to. i awoke to the smell of.....ravus? i ran blinded by tears in search of her. i finally reached her and we hugged and cuddled i missed her i missed her more than i missed everyone else i could make it if i had just one person like her.i didn't want to let her go but all good things must come to and end my relentless crying and running had made me tired i needed rest.i prayed to the gods i would see her again and she wasn't just a dream or a hallucination. good night ravus,little fawn and misha. <3