cogito ergo sum|| Biography of Ysrael

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Today I dreamt that I awoke.

And all around me was a sea of blue.

I fell within

and the further I sunk into black

the less I could distinguish the stars above me

from the ones that lay behind my eyes.
























JOURNAL:

                  Day one thousand nine-hundred and fourty nine:


I am my old self today. I found others and the thoughts that
have been plaguing me are swept away on the wind.

I have come across a strange crystal. It did not seem to want
to be touched, though I did so anyways, and stayed near it
even after I felt its sharp points.

It shifts so beautifully in the light.






                  Day one thousand nine-hundred and thirty four:

                      Was I... someone...?


Did I... have purpose...?                      


Who am I?

How do I recall the number of days?



Why was I counting...?


I was... waiting for something...


...
...

... waiting...


...


?

Yes, child?


...

Was it you, who I was waiting for?

...

... it... it must have been.

Thank you.

Yes.

I will play in the forest with you.

...

...

...


This is what I am?



This is where I belong?

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@Ravus: boo I know ;n; I

@Ravus: boo I know ;n; I can't wait til when the 3.4 patch goes out of beta, since it fixes glitched pictos. Right now, only people who have the beta downloaded can see her picto correctly >__>; The vertical lines are the most important part too, bah ;;

/hurray double stalk ♥ xD And thank you ;v;


@Munkel: asdfghjkl Thank you ;w; ♥
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"Me? Changed? No, no. I've

"Me? Changed? No, no. I've changed very little since my creation. You are mistaken, is all. Your friend rests. But I don't want to talk about him. I want to talk about you... You, who burns bright in his mind, even when he and I are alone. From his memories, I expected you to glow... but you are quite dark."

Vodun grinned broadly, backing up a few steps to look down at her, as if the entire situation thoroughly entertained him. It shouldn't have. He wasn't as strong as he used to be, and every time Ysrael spoke, he could feel Gray fighting to wake up. This was dangerous.

Still... he couldn't make himself leave.

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/continues spamming her bio >>
You should make an interaction thing for Ysrael... I can't even imagine how many people must want to RP with her lovely self.

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Ysrael frowned at him now, an

Ysrael frowned at him now, an uneasiness growing within her.

"Stop speaking nonsense, Vodun. I do not understand these riddles of yours."

This was not the personality she had once known. Something else was in the body before her now. She wanted to turn, to leave him to this game of his. But something wanted to know the meaning behind the words he was speaking.

"Why do you say I am dark?"

~ ~ ~

blawg here @w@

Am I doin in rite?

Aw wow, this journal entry,

Aw wow, this journal entry, and all your journal entries, are just amazing. Yrsael is an amazing character.

"I spent my fawnhood wondering who you were, and I welcomed your company without ever knowing. Finally, today I learned what to call you. I wonder what more of my questions will be answered if I am patient enough to wait for our next meeting."

(It didn't seem right to respond to your journal on the interaction blog. xD)
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Vodun couldn't resist

Vodun couldn't resist releasing the chuckle that bubbled in his chest.

"Riddles? But I'm being quite clear, am I not?"

He wasn't even sure what made him confess to being the Red one. For others, he'd been content to sit in their minds as the Vodun they knew.. merely changed. But for this one, for Ysrael, he couldn't bear it. He wanted... needed... her to know.

Or was it Gray who needed her to understand?

The idea made his smile fade slightly. What was so special about this one, that Gray would fight so hard? That Gray would fight against him. He, who had kept him warm the darkness. It wasn't fair.

"Your dark pelt draws in the sunlight, of course," he said, his words slightly sharper than they'd been a moment before. But that wasn't all. There were many deer with black pelts. No, for her... It was much more than that. "And your eyes..."

He shivered, wishing for an instant that he hadn't breached this subject. Staring into her eyes was like staring into twin pools of deep water... Drowning. Dangerous. Everything about this was dangerous. He took a step back, tossing his head with barely-constrained anxiety.

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Omgyus! (Although the link doesn't work X3;; )
Do you want to move this over there, then? >u>

Tracking this. I really adore

Tracking this. I really adore your artwork and this music is, just, asjdfs <3
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@Ravus: "The feeling is

@Ravus:

"The feeling is mutual, dear friend... I doubt you will have to wait very long."

(hahaha it is no problem. xD)


@Shaku: noooooo my linkkkkk
Hahahaha I replied over there. XD


@Kaitlyn: Thank you! ;_; ♥
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This is a really pretty

This is a really pretty biography for a very curious deer. Gonna have to track this. Laughing out loud

I really love the music, but is it okay if you could have the music player showing so people with limited bandwidth could have the option to turn it off? Thanks!
What's the song called..?

Keepiru's picture

Ecco Dotf soundtrack

Ecco Dotf soundtrack <3333333 (me love it? XD) "Shrine of controversy" right? <3

This bio looks so dreamy and magical ♥
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I edited the pic once more

I edited the pic once more lol, here's the url for it ;D

http://i54.tinypic.com/zunl2w.png &hearts
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@Verycrazygirl: Of

@Verycrazygirl: Of course~♥ The song is 'Shrine of Controversy' from a game called Ecco the Dolphin: Defender of the Future.
And thank you so much for the track!

@Keepiru: Yesssss Ecco was my childhood obsession ~~ ;w; And still is, for the most part hehe ;;
Thank you !

@Munkel: ;u; ♥ Updated the link in the artworks place~~
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Awh I always love Ecco

Awh I always love Ecco <3 one of the best game ever created.

sry I edit: dear Ecco lover do you know this one? x (ok it's a fanmade but isanincrediblegorgeousawesomesong <3)
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Track (:

Track (:

Avatar by Awentia, signature by Wildflowerdeer
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I'm glad I saw her in game

I'm glad I saw her in game for once &hearts
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@Keepiru: AH late reply is

@Keepiru: AH
late reply is late ;___;
But yes, ohmy that music is definitely wonderful. <333

@Solaya: Thank you! ♥

@Munkel: awww ;w; Too bad CB looked like he wanted to be alone so Ysrael did not bother him ~ She did stop and stare for a time, of course.
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Aw yes quite like this lately

Aw yes quite like this lately ;;

Though I hope they'll meet again when he's... better maybe <3
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I hope so, too. ;n;

I hope so, too. ;n;
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Hooray for official stalkage!

Hooray for official stalkage! x3
Btw this bio is probably my favorite on all this site. o_o It's so... pretty. And mystifying, and soothing somehow! It makes me want to speak in a really hushed voice, and stop using all these exclamation marks!! x3 Haha.

Seriously though, this character and her story is amazing. No, it's the best! Probably the most touching and heartwrenching story in the forest, in my opinion. I think I cried the first time I read.. something on here. Heh~ You're amazingggg! Please keep writing this stuff, ahahaaa I'm so hooked on it you have no idea. x'3 Even though it makes me sad. ;_;
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lol y-you ;____; WHAT DO I DO

lol y-you ;____; WHAT DO I DO WITH ALL THESE COMPLIMENTS gfhsdgfhgskajj;; ♥

Ahh, cried, really?! ;__; Boo I'm sorry for the sadness, hope it doesn't get too sad for you ;A; (at least not anytime soon so yeah c: )
But at any rate I'm glad you like her story~ And don't worry, I won't be stopping it any time soon! :'D

This is for you &hearts;

This is for you ♥

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o-omg I love it a lot. ;_;

o-omg I love it a lot. ;_; The round cute face... her expression... just shgglsdg ♥
Thank you ;w;
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&hearts; she's so nice

♥ she's so nice sitting with them :'3
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&hearts;



#4b5160
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you guys ;___; &hearts;

you guys ;___; ♥
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Pardon the length... A

Pardon the length...

A circle of mushrooms seems a fitting place to end a day.
but not
before...
Turning a friend into a frog.


That's too funny...
I love the way children think to add on these sorts of things to life.

It is dark...
Have I finally found the night?


It concerns me.
Why do I think that when she finds the night, she might wake up and be gone from here forever?

My dreams are all of dying.


How... Profound...

Sister has returned,
sister has returned!
I cannot contain my joy


Oh how I smiled... ♥

Now she is small as I am.


I love that she did not say "big," despite having grown.

It is only night when sister is not present


I see. Maybe my worry was unwarranted. > >

Dancing.
It seems I am not quite invisible,
yet.


Thank goodness. The beginning of this, day 61, really had me worried.

Sister?
Stripped of all her colors.
Bare brown, white, gray eyes.
She does not greet me.
Magic does not stick to her...


And 68 has me worried as well...

My heart regains the steady beat of the forest.
And I find a curiosity within a stranger
who retreats upon my approach.
I will remember your face.


But this and Ravus made it better.

And day 94 could just break my heart...


All of your art of her is gorgeous, by the way...
She looks so mature in the last, all grown up.
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And pardon me for not knowing

And pardon me for not knowing how to properly quote things...

"That's too funny...
I love the way children think to add on these sorts of things to life."

As do I. ♥ I envy their innocence and ability to live in the moment.


"It concerns me.
Why do I think that when she finds the night, she might wake up and be gone from here forever?"

Perhaps she will... and perhaps not... Only time will tell.


"How... Profound..."

Ha. (: Thank you? I ran out of ideas for her dreams, though... So she's stopped having them for the moment.


"Oh how I smiled... ?"

(: ♥


"I love that she did not say "big," despite having grown."

She was also still a mini, then~ But I got frustrated with having to glitch the pelt each time, admittedly. I would have had to age her eventually, though ~


"I see. Maybe my worry was unwarranted. > >"

Perhaps... (: /continues being mysterious


"Thank goodness. The beginning of this, day 61, really had me worried.
And 68 has me worried as well...
But this and Ravus made it better."

♥ ♥
The thing I love about the forest is how I can still use lapses in activity to my advantage, because even though Ysrael is not in-forest, the account still ages and time still passes for her in my mind.


"And day 94 could just break my heart..."

Well I sincerely hope it doesn't ♥;


Thank you, but number 7 on the art list wasn't drawn by me~ It was given to my by the wonderful JD/animalbones, player of Mateo/Geisha... and whichever other deer she has, if any;; I've been so grateful for, and humbled by, all the art and kind words I've received here in this community. I can honestly say I've never experienced such a welcoming place in my life, on the internet or otherwise. ♥


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< blockquote>< /blockquote>

< blockquote>< /blockquote> If you ever wanted to know. c:

Children are... Despite their bad points, I'm glad they are, as there is so much to learn from them.

I appreciate mystery, and know she is in good hands.

Dreams are difficult and confusing things. Chances are, you ran out of ideas for a very good reason. Things have a way or working out.

Yes, but even then, the wording is odd since she still grew, and I love it for that. >u>



Yes, I agree.
I love how things... Work out.

It did not, but I have hopes. ♥

Ah, that would explain the inexplicable change in style. o_o Still, somewhat similar in essence, perhaps Miss JD tuned into it for dear Ysrael? I do not know.
I appreciate her... I have, from a distance, for a long while.

I'm glad you found it, then. ♥
People such as yourself deserve kindness.
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THE ART. I love itttt.

THE ART. I love itttt.

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Oh. I agree with Shaku... I

Oh.
I agree with Shaku...
I worried that, when it changed, something might fly away with it.
I should trust you completely, you've only brought something more.
She's beautiful.
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Thank you both. &hearts; You

Thank you both. ♥

You worry too much, Serenai (: It troubles me that my story is the cause of such worry, but I am also glad that it has grasped you so firmly, for lack of a better term haha;
At any rate,
I smile every time I get a comment from you. : D It brightens my day.
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Ah, perhaps my words are more

Ah, perhaps my words are more intense in my feelings. I have great interest in all these things, and truly I love their existence and lament their loss, but I move on quickly and know that all is well in whatever happens. Even my most cherished stories could not bring me to my knees in despair when I turned from their momentary grasp. It's like going to a movie: you laugh, you cry, you live through it, but when you walk outside, you know it was a movie and all is well.

c:

I'm glad for that.
The same is the case with you, Ysrael.
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I love your writing. (Every

I love your writing.
(Every comment on this page HAS to start that way.)
I get ridiculously happy whenever I see you've updated.

Poor Ysrael, and the frame of mind she was in last night.

"I flew from them
the shadows

who wanted to keep me."

You know, until I read further down I totally thought this was referring to Ravus and Geisha. xD

God... poor Ysrael (again). Good thing JD and I are such inherent creepers and didn't let our characters give up in stalking following her when she went and hid from them; I can only hope Ysrael knows she's welcome with them (well, with Ravus anyway xD no one here wants to guess at what the Geisha thinks).

"The numbers won't divide equally.
..."

...Aw. D: No comment for the rest, it just stands on its own, except that I want to say while Ravus kept dozing off, that was pretty much me falling asleep as well. xD I was trying to get back on a "normal" sleeping schedule last night, so that's why Ravus was less confrontational than she'd have normally been.

Also, at one point both Geisha and Ravus had their heads through the wall, rummaging around for a Ysrael. Ravus located her with a few sniffs and nuzzles, and Geisha did something to her too (but she was too far in for me to tell what it was xDD). Ravus even considered obnoxiously spellspamming Ysrael to flush her, but she didn't.
Because it was Ysrael.

And then it started to remind me of that girl who fell into the wall and I wanted to be able to sleep that night without worry about falling into the fourth dimension, so we seemed to call it a truce.

For the time being, anyway.

...In conclusion, poor Ysrael. Ravus would have made sure she felt more welcome at almost any other time.
shaku's picture

This latest entry was so

This latest entry was so sweet and sad ;n; Poor Ysrael! So selfless, but... DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF. /crai

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Nnn. I believe that was my

Nnn.

I believe that was my favorite dream yet, sad as it was...
I can sympathize with her.
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@Ravus: ;wwww; &hearts; I was

@Ravus: ;wwww;
I was trying to get back into a normal sleeping schedule, as well haha. Didn't work as planned >__>;

And when I saw them poking around in there with their deer butts sticking out it was hilarious. XD; She would have ran if they actually touched her to light up her 'friend circle', but I have no idea where she would have gone.

and
LOL
I love The Twilight Zone. ♥

we shall see how this plays ouutt;;;



@Shaku: /crais too SHE JUST WANTS EVERYONE TO BE HAAPEEEE;;



@Serenai: I can sympathize with her as well. They say to write what you know.

And on your movie anthology from earlier, it's only if the movie is really good if it can get me to do any of those things, so I do take that as a huge compliment. ♥
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THEN GIVE US HER.

THEN GIVE US HER. *grabbyhands*

AGREED.

AGREED.

this character is really

this character is really beautiful... there's something mystical about her.
Serenai's picture

So odd that we all know so

So odd that we all know so well.
Well... That is true. You caught that, even as I did not. -u- I compared to reality under the assumption that all things correlated, without even properly understanding some of these assumptions... I inadvertently complimented you in yet another way. That is fine with me. As you can tell, my unconscious self knew you were at that level. ♥
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This Biography is

This Biography is outstanding!
HB's picture

What a cutie we have here,

What a cutie we have here, tracking ~
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Thank you both &hearts;

Thank you both ♥
shaku's picture

I love her diaries so much

I love her diaries so much *__* Poetic, yet still very understandable. She's so sweet ;;
"The Geisha appears to defend me. I am shocked, if not grateful."
Rofl.

shaku's picture

I lovelovelove this most

I lovelovelove this most recent entry. The black room... dark and beautiful.

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The most interesting part

The most interesting part about it is that it was taken almost completely from a real dream I had.
I think it was the... third? endless forest dream I've had so far. In this dream there were two new areas and both were barred by large wooden, iron-bound gates surrounded by stone.

I was looking through the eyes of my deer, running with a herd of others, when some of them broke off and approached one of the gates. It opened on its own and had the room inside. What happened afterwards is the rest of the diary entry, except in the dream the room transformed into a completely normal bedroom instead of sprouting book pages everywhere. But I didn't know how to convey all those human words into deer vocabulary, so I left that bit out.
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I'm so jealous DD: I've only

I'm so jealous DD: I've only had one TEF dream I can remember, and even that one is really fuzzy. I wish we could control dreams, in that respect. I'd love to go racing around as one of my deer. I always thought it would be awesome to have four legs. Humans got gypped :I

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Ysrael is such a unique char

Ysrael is such a unique char !
I just love the artwork =]
&& the writing!
Stitchez S. Frozen
!Get the F*ck outta here!
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Ah, just now seeing your

Ah, just now seeing your comment, sorry for late reply;;

But thank you so much. ;w; You are very kind.

1. Day 368?! HAPPY

1. Day 368?! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BELATED ffff.
2. I used to wonder what kind of genius you were for being able to keep track of how long you've been on here. I know you probably use your profile thing to help, but still, I really like how it's set up all log-like, about each individual day.
3. This is really beautiful, I'm so happy to have you back. Just having Ysrael in the forest is enough but it's so nice to see this updated with your poem-entries, too.
4. Sorry about our leaving that night! Computer crashed. Probably traumatized my own deer, especially after you kept having to reload the game. xD