Vessel misses the spooky weather. and he hates Skokey for keeping him out of it, AND WEARING HIS SET AGAIN XD

Vessel is quite protective...

anyway, ive been bored. there i said it. ive been drawing more in my sketchbook than anything else, and its all Legend of Zelda related XD i swear, LOZ has taken over my brother. first he played Four Sword Adventure, then Wind Waker, and now hes playing Ocarina of Time, and AFTER THAT he'll play Majora's Mask... man... so much Zelda.

so thats what ive been drawing. and lately ive been getting to bed too late to write anything in the comfort of my room, so thats why i havent really been writing. or drawing. ill try to get the rest of my gift arts and special self-assignments done soon. i have 7 giftarts left, give me some time plz!

and something supernatural has been happening... every time i log into the forest, i get sick to my stomach. i try to ignore it and enjoy myself, but i cant seem to shake it. its happened before, but for a while, the experience has left me. i believe it has something to do with playing deaf. a lot of the time, i play while my brother is down here, and he doesnt like it when im hanging around a huge group thats having a spell spam party. he says the spells sound like a rusty swingset XD sooo.... well, lets start another paragraph XD

i apologize in advance to those i hang around in the forest. i might not be feeling good behind the screen, so i may not want to run around and hop and stuff. ill still buttonmash though

right now, ill go into the forest as Vessel, because ive been neglecting him. and since my brother isnt here, ill turn up the sound for as long as i can. hope to see you there (and i hope you see my set this time...)

EDIT: And how do you change the size of the font? :<

Hehe. I love writing poetry, I can't help myself. I've been procrastinating recently x3 Oopseh.

This poem may or may not be understandable. I'm going to let Painted Lady speak...

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Is...
Is this me?

Coat plagued by golden blotches
Eyes blurred by blue
Yes, this is me

Sniff, and I whistle
Through this mask, abliss, anew
As fawn to doe, transform

Chisper, crisper is the forest floor
Betrodden with crunching leaves
The hiss I hear that others feel protects them
Cruel, cruel, deer

Bouncing happily in place
Anzel Ghost Deer speaks to face
With me, that we are cursed

And companion of the vanity mirror
Snickers at the fate befallen
By our kind
Whose Human is one

I shan't take it
Escape is my only option
As I leap through the doorway and run forth
Screaming to the sky, "Why, why?"

Hooves charred with dirt
I hurt
And look towards the sky
We never look to
Never see the clouds

The fogs that hide in the sky
Trying, they try
To join the fireflies
Up there, up here

The millions of eyes
That created We deer
Staring down on us, before them

My fur stands on end
As I stare up,
Up and away
Into their other world
My true home

Sweet deer no longer, my heart is Tainted
Taint me no longer, cruel being
Cruel Human

I will take it no longer
I will be free

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I'm beginning to believe that Taint represents my philosophical side. What do you think? o.o;

So much for me trying to have a sweethearted deer. Looks like growing up has changed her.

Joker finaly got her doe-day!
now she will need a set.. can someone help me, please?

(edit):
I'm on an other computer now,
so can someone help me get my pelt again? x)
It's the Secretary Bird pelt, doe antlers and deermask.

Anticipating the funeral-- hoping all will go well.

Sitting by the Crying Idol alone
Only the silent forest is heard
And the sleek waterfall ahead
Her body is close to the Earth, hugging its warm soil,
But her mind is far off.... to places uknown and... well...
who knows?

The...the internet here is amazing.
8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I FRIKKING LOVE MY GRANDPARENTS HOUSE
I still can't get into the Forest, but I can acess everything else. I'm working on more art, pondering what to draw for Lieka, and getting my new doe ready for her big debut. n.n
NOW
Now tell me again how awesome the Joker is because if he's awesome enough I'll...watch it.
IT WILL TAKE TIME BUT I CAN DO IT.
-scream-
[edit]
ITS WORKING
AH
AH
AH
AH
[editedit]
Something's wrong with my grandmother. O.O My mom and her husband are going to the hospital right now to see what they can do. I'm a little...freaked out. And understand that I laugh under stress.
D:

I'm speaking to you...



I'm lucky that I didn't know you were there until later...for this mask could not hide the redness of my face.

I stare out into the world, fog-born and ghostly, like I. Is this my realm? Is this from whence I was born? I shiver, watch a stray ray of sunlight pass through the mist, see the little dewdrops, microscopic, floating about me.

I have cladden myself in ghostly wares.

My pelt is that of a fae long passed, who chose to end her life to pursue things we deer could never dream of.

My mask is of a self I used to be, more naïve, more hopeful to be normal.

My antlers are the key to my freedom, but they have instead locked me in place.

And you...

They've locked me in this cage...so that I may never be with you...

"To crush is to be crushed,"

So the bats said.

...

I wander.

I wait.

I don't hope.

But that's a lie.

...

Best regards,
~ Anzel

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Don't mind Anzel, she felt like rambling...

Her costume change was partially to match the weather, and partially because she's always kind-of liked the Secretary Pelt, the legs, specifically. And she's wearing a hand mask, even if you can't see it.

Also, I'm kind-of stressed because my connection's very unstable right now, and I can't tell when it is or isn't connected. UGH.

*giggles* For fun, I checked how my computer was doing. About 1k download speed, normal...upload speed, 11 kbps, very slow...ping...1665. o____o; You won't be seeing me in the forest for a little while today XD; Heh. Oh well.

Rubbing against a tree multiple times; Not trying to get a spell, just got an itch or something. I often follow this up with Spar+Yes/No, to show rubbing velvet off my antlers (if I have any at the time).
I'm not attacking the tree, as a deer I was with just now thought.
(Redkora? Is that the name?)

EDIT: I'm bumping this, because people are still being confused at me, and I thhink the post got buried.

Sadness a feeling so great... I noticed while sleeping Emive in red so I ran to her and seeing her sadness while sleeping got the coat closest to the red one and slept by her with red flowers and a red lined coat as my display for ill mourn for her friend with her. For I am now a doe with antlers and coats...
But then I figured out how to change my coat to red by walking through the statue

Then Emiva dissapeared so I just sat ther waiting for her return... Then another buck came in with red and we both sat there...Then he got up and left



I was alone and another red buck came and layed down...
And then my snow fire pack friend called Fallen came and layed down as well...
-cricket-
then another buck came and a fawn...Fallen traveled to the ruins but i waited for emiva to come back...




Then I got up and headed for the ruins....

I came back and layed down by the crying waterfall still in red when a doe came up looking like Emiva and sat down looking at me and i was just siting there waiting for emiva...
Then it left and a buck came with big antlers....

I accidentally dozed off for awhile and when I woke Emiva was there i gave an honered and apologizeing bow and layed down and then she dissapeared again...



I saw her again and layed down and dozed off next to her lol when i woke she was sleeping there I really hope i make it to the endless forest funeral....




And later on that pracitally now night I was tired:





And Then I went to a Line in dance at the playground:

Hey there fellow deer,
Just wanted to comment on the massive battle going on in my head right now.
I always intended to be a fawn forever.
But...
Since my stag-day, I havn't changed back yet. >> <<

I think I'll stay a stag a while. I love the idea of being a perma-fawn, but surely it's not unreasonable to enjoy adulthood just a little longer...?

If I ever say I'm not going to revert to fawnhood, please shout at me. And quote this entry.

And now a letter:

Dear Witcher,

I would like to thank you for being a brilliant friend during all my time in the Forest. You've been like a father-figure to me, and I'd like to give you a HUGE nuzzle-letter. ..this is it.

Also, d'you mind if you're in the comic that me and Liëka are doing?

-Wolf