SQUEE!! IT CAME ALREADY!!



I got my rock hammer/pick axe today, which is the tool a geologist uses. So not only can people identify me as a geologist if they see me walking around, I can also bust some skulls!

(Not really of course, but I could if I wanted to!)

((yes, this is my first entry in a long while))

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Guess what?

...ZELLY'S MEDS ARE WORKING!!!

My GOD, I feel wonderful right now.

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My depression has lifted entirely. My mind is calm and content. My insomnia is gone, my mood is NORMAL, I have WILLPOWER, and best of all...

...the anxiety that has ALWAYS been there in my chest...is gone. It's gone. IT'S GONE. It has been replaced with what I can only describe as a smooth feeling. It feels smooth, soft, cool, relaxed, chill, calm, it feels gentle. I have no anxiety. It feels like I'm missing something, and I am, but I'm not. I'm missing something that's not supposed to be there.

I'm coming out of my shell. I'm wearing make-up. I'm dressing up. I'm talking more and sulking less. I. LOVE. LIFE. I feel real and alive and like I can do what I want to do.

Prozac is a miracle drug <3

ZELLY IS A CURE-IED DEEER ~<3

Hehe...just felt like announcing that right there and now ^^; Everyone is noticing an improvement in my personality, a change in how I am. So yeah. <3 Life is wonderful.

So, if any of you, perhaps, have anything to say to me about how much you loathe me or are irritated by me, feel free to tell me now. I promise you I won't cry :3 I can finally say that for certain...and I love it!

BTW, everyone who I owe poetry: I will start it very soon. I have a break coming up in a week :3

Just going to post a few Sketches of random deer :}




my Favorite set in the forest

But she's not Mio anymore! she's Phoebe from now on xD
And she's a normal doe now, not that weird one.
Idea's for a new pelt?

Edit: k, then, I'll try find out myself :0

Hi! M'kay so my wolfie character (that I adore) is Pyro, if anyones wondering. And I love to write stories about her so there'll be lots soon. ^-^

I also listen to MANY types of music, and if anyones searching for something good to listen to just tell me and I promise I'll find something to satisfy you. I'll also make a blog with a list on music as well.....

So I'm wondering, does anyone on here play Wolf Quest? Because I love that game and it's some what simalur to this.....

Lol, so I guess thats all I have to say..... G'bye.

hewo everyone:)

Guys I'm sorry for the artdump I just posted, but I was a little troubled that the drawings only had a few comments among them. I realized that you guys probably didn't know that I was posting under "Zephyr" rather than Quad, so you may not have known who that was.

So I reposted them under this account and removed them from Zephyr's account. I'll use her account for something else, but as of right now the Leafbook will be posted by Quad.

I'm sorry about all the trouble.

The Leafbook is here

I've been finding myself to be a little bored during an hour break between classes at school, so I decided to buy a sketchbook and some drawing pencils to pass the time. I got a sketchbook made from Nepalese paper and some graphite pencils, and went to work drawing.



Hence the name Leafbook.

While this little project is just for me to pass time with, I may consider doing requests, but I haven't decided what my rules will be yet - how many I will accept at a time; restrictions on what is requested; ect. So for right now I want to draw a few more sketches before I make this open to those. Also you'll see that the subject matter may not necessarily be TEF deer - I plan to do a few drawings related to my Divine stories. I may also do non-TEF art, such as a drawing of Brandy (my dachshund), and any of my older characters like QuadRaptor the cyborg or Victor the Goat, They won't always have that extra writing on it like the first drawing, but I will do that when I feel that there is something that needs to be said about the subject.

So here's the first sketch in the book. I wanted to draw someone from TEF, but it was hard to pick one particular deer to draw. So I thought about who I felt deserved a sketch, and decided to draw...



Ephra. Just because she is such an awesome person, and an amazing artist herself.

I went with an old tradition my brother used where whenever he started a sketchbook (or in some cases, a story), he would invoke a muse. I asked him if it mattered whether the muse was male or female, and he said it wasn't a big deal, so I decided to invoke a muse fitting for my drawings and interest.

[=9]I got the idea from back when Lemon was a fawn. She kind of inspired me to start up Peppa's blog, a place where Peppa can tell of her forest adventures. Peppa is a very young and completely deaf fawn; and since she cannot hear to pronounce words, has a rough time talking. Peppa is incredibly shy, and her disability makes her vulnerable and thus always scared. You'll notice she's with Seth and Lemon a lot; she has stuffed herself into thier lives. Of course Peppa doesn't want to be a bother, and always be there, she knows when enough is enough. Also, please don't be offended if Peppa will not approach your deer. It takes a huge amount of effort to totally gain her trust, so if you're willing, she could always use more friends. C: Oh, and she refers to herself as 'Peppa'. she can usually read lips but the word for 'I' is so simple, she's yet to understand that she refers to herself as "I".

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Firss, Peppa met up wiff Seff.
Peppa was so happy!
Seff always teashes Peppa how to do stuff.
Seff and Peppa went off to pway in seh forests.
( First, I met up with Seth.
I was so happy!
Seth always teaches me how to do stuff.
Seth and I went off to play in the forest.)



Then we met tis' doe.
Her name wuss Effra.
Effra was awot older but she was nice Peppa thinks.
( Then we met this doe!
Her name was Ephra.
Ephra was a lot older but was nice, I think. )



Seff and Peppa take a nap...



Later Peppa met Seff's mate, Lemon, again.
Peppa doesn't know what to fink of Lemon.
Peppa thinks soon, Peppa and Lemon will be fwiends.

Bleh. I'm really starting to hate Lemon. .____.

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I awoke determined to make today a better day. Yesterday had been a mess, and the day before had been even worse. How could one innocent little thing cause such a mess? Something that was always true all along; but was merely finalized, officiated? How could this be happening; everything had been going so well. And now, everything that had once been important to me, was failing me.

I found myself beneath one of the playground rocks -- the place I'd fallen asleep the night before, hiding from the wolves and from gently-spoken friends with pity in their voices. There were birds clustered all around me, hundreds of them, their shrill little voices singing merrily away. I wanted to be angry at them, for having such simple and cheery lives. But, remembering my determination to be happier, today, I merely ignored the birds altogether.

I emerged from my fickle hiding place, only to find myself face-to-face with a little fawn. We bowed to each other at the same time, which struck both of us as funny, for some reason. I started to introduce myself, but was interrupted by the arrival of three grown deer. I only recognized one of the deer, a doe named Flyra. Not sure if I'd be able to handle so much social interaction quite yet, I tried to let them know that I wasn't feeling entirely sociable. They seemed to understand, but that didn't inhibit the awkward silence which inevitable followed our introductions. I find that sociable deer are often quite ill at ease around shy deer. The seconds ticked by, and I eventually said a curt goodbye, and trotted off.