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I woke knowing this day would... not be a good day...
I wandered, hither about...
...so alone...




I found Miss Cirrus, laying in a bright patch of goldenrod... Slumbering so peacefully, warmed by the sun...



I wondered if I could approach her, a friend... but... I was afraid... Why?... Afraid of a friend?...
...ridiculous...it hadn't been like this before... before I saw the- nevermind...
Yes, I was alone.

I ran about madly, trying to shake off this good-for-nothing feeling, but alas...



...tears ran down my face...



Good-for-nothing. Yes, I.

See how I am alone. See how no familiar faces greet me, warm me, comfort me... make me smile, make me laugh...

Smiling, laughing?... It all seems so far away, now... All that's left are dusty memories...

Memories... Memories! Smiles, nuzzles! Dancing and leaping, frolicking in the grass! Bright lights, happy sounds, soft voices, gentle touches!...
...fading...



I wandered aimlessly... no destination, no purpose...
...a hermit... a waif, a flicker of mist...
There was no Riptail today, sitting by his tree...



I found a sleeping stag, laden with candles, in the long grass...



Seeking something, anything, I approached. Perhaps I could lay quietly beside the stag, and have what warmth he could give...
He shuddered and woke. I fled.

Ellah's doe-day! I'm not sure exactly when it'll happen but it's almost here!

She will be wearing the set Lacey gave her when she left. The brown pelt with gold stipes, real deer mask, and noh antlers.

Yay! xD

EDIT 8th August: Okay, editing this because I don't want to overflow my blog.
There I am again. I was having a stressing time the last weeks so I just didn't have the chance to tell anyone.
But seems I'm kinda back now. My birthday was on the 14th July. I don't think anyone noticed. I already got that wonderful sketch by Misako and she says she's working on the coloring, so much thanks to her! <33
So, I missed you guys and I hope I will be able to handle things well so I can finally make my new deersie (who has to be a grown-up now as far as I know!) "official" and stuff.
See you around!

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...God, I'm making too many "Sorry for my abscence" posts. >8/ Sorry guys.
Anyway, there's a lot of things happening to me IRL... Which is making me not being able to be on a PC very often. My family is going through a hard phase at the moment... It's very personal but... Ah no worries, let's just say it doesn't let me come often. I'm so sorry!

But hey, I've decided to join the game Impressive Title too. :3 I've seen many of you who are against this game, but also some who like it and even came from there! But I swear I'd never leave or even be less online in TEF because of that. x]
Just the next time will be very stressing for me, but I apologize...

But today looks good for me, I'll be on later in TEF and IT.
And yes, I'm still having big plans for the story for my Shawnee deer. ;D

See you around!

De(a)r CJ, you are now a fawn.
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I woke up again today and was ready to play in the forest. I began by running to the two mystic rocks. I gave them my respect, and began to glow. I still don't understand life and this place yet, but these special rocks are always there for me. I feel safe there, like I'm doing something right.

I then started to run. Aside from the rocks, running is another thing I know I am doing right. At least, I think it's right. It feels good to run, and the faster the scenery around me changes, the happier I feel. To me, this is becoming even more fun than dancing, and dancing was the first thing I truely enjoyed.

I met some other fawn by the pond today. I greeted them carefully. The deer I met the other day did nothing, I felt so wrong. I hoped this group would interact with me. I quietly sniffed each one, and gave them a bow of respect. They only stood still and looked at me with quiet blinking eyes.

Perhaps I was being too careful today? I made a noise to call to them, but still there was no reply. I even danced in front of them, hoping they would join in. Still nothing.

I noticed that some of the fawn were laying down to nap. If it was a quiet time, I would join them. I found a nearby spot in the sun to rest. But even after sleep, they still had no response. I felt unwelcome, so I left them to their... standing.

I started to run again, but was distracted by a circle of mushrooms in a ray of sunshine. It seemed almost like a stage. I felt called to dance there, and so I did. I danced until I noticed a squirrel with a halo similar to mine.

I sniffed the squirrel. I looked curiously at it, hoping for an explination, but it was as unresponsive as the fawn. I suddenly found the situation silly, and rolled on the forest floor in laughter.

And got my game working again. =3
So yus, I live. |D

If anyone has read Darkweaver's blog, "Tale of War", you basically know how my new character "Laghodessa" died.

I want to make a GMV reinactment of that. <3 BUT this needs huge participation from others and specific weathers (so this may take a long time to complete.)

What I need is as many people as possable to play stag characters wearing devout pelts. Antlers and masks don't matter. I need Devout pelts.
I also need a group of ah... 10 or less dotd pelted stags and does. I'll also need about 5 or so fawns. =3 (numbers can vary. This is an estimate.)

Once we have another foggy day, I can record from the DotD pelted deer's perspectives, an approaching mass of Devout pelts. The dotd pelted stags will remain, where I figure will be somewhere in the Birch Forest, and the DotD does will run off for the ruins. (This may take many tries, because I intend to film from multiple perspectives. I think I will also require 'player identification' turned off.)

The DotD stags will only START to fight the devouts when they arrive, but no more than a few taunts or antlering. We don't need a real fight. =3 I just need the 'intro' of sort to a sort of war. No 'combat' footage really needed. ^^


(Note, for that portion I'll be playing Darkweaver, and will be needing someone else to play Laghodessa... but I'll switch to using Laghodessa part way, and need someone else to take over as a temporary Darkweaver. Please bare with me. ^^ This is partially why it will take a few takes. It's nessessary for filming. Yay stunt doubles.)


Laghodessa will lead the does off toward the ruins, and try to have them avoid running into any of the numerous devouts. They'll reach the ruins intact, but once there, they'll be faced with a few devout pelted stags.

-At this point we'd have to stop until we have a rainy day-

Again, only hint at combat. As few aggressive blows as possable between dotd does and devouts. It's just a movie, and not focused on combat. <3

WARNING SMALL RANT-ISH THING AHEAD

I am slightly confused by what is going on. Many people are now making a big deal about this whole violence deal and how the forest has 'changed' yet again. Before everyone was upset about the lack of community. I just don't understand. I feel as if these plots have brought many of us together, I have met several deer I may have never met! I agree, the deer who have been attacking the fawns, does, etc, WITHOUT PERMISSION is wrong. But these plots, eh I see nothing wrong. Honestly it seems like no one will ever be happy with how this place is. If you feel un-involved then get involved! I mean it will never be perfect, but can't we all just be happy? I probably don't know as much as you all since I am newish, but this is just how I feel.

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Picture love by Snail <3


Would you love a monsterman?
Could you understand the beauty of the beast?


Ankoku no Mikoto

Fire at will, will, will,
Fire at will.
Yeah I would kill,
I would freeze all hell over just to get a chill.
Yeah I would slay, yeah I would maim.
Yeah I would vanish in thin air and reappear again.

Original Name: Ankoku
Meaning: Darkness
Common-Names: Demon, Youkai, etc
Nickname:Anko
Prefered-name: Ankoku or Anko
Pronunciation: Awn-Ko
Title: Mikoto
Meaning: 1. Prince - 2. Words of a ruler - 3. Lord

Be right in the squares and I will be sincere.
Yeah I would lie, yeah I would lie.
Yeah I would be there waking up the dead to get a thrill.
I say "yeah", what say you?



Pictures: BODY CONCEPT BEING REDONE.
Screen shots: Click here.
Gender:[i] Stag
Human-Age: 25-28 years
Deer-Age: Adult - 7-8 Years[/b]
Species:[i] Demon-deer / Youkai
Physical Health: Perfect except for being blind in one eye and a sensitivity to sunlight.
Mental Health: 85%; because he didn't exactly 'grow up' normally.
Pictogram: Click here
Theme Song:[i] [url=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Jf_izV8LiM]Would you love a monsterman?

Hello and yes you are reading the bio of Misako’s newest deer. Although I have many allready, I have and will always love to see the progress of a character in progress. My deer develop themselves, and this newest doe is a fine example of that. She has been going around for a bit, gaining on friends while they didn’t know it was me. Apparantly this makes it easier for people to befriend my deer.

Nooit is the result of my frustration. It all started with the creation of a new fawn for myself, Altijd. Altijd was always wandering around the same log, apparantly waiting for his mother to come back and pick him up. I grew to love him and his strange picto quite easily, and I hoped a mother for him would come along once. Altijd never got that chance, because he in fact “died”. His account got lost in the server switch, and couldn’t be restored. After trying to find his now free picto again for hours, I gave up on hope and made a new deer: Nooit. Altijd actually means forever, while Nooit means never.

Nooit was not meant to become a secret deer, she was developing, so I wouldn’t give out her identity on the forums yet. Some people I have on msn knew about her, but that was it. I think this made it easier for her to develop, and tell me what she is like.