I entered the pond today
Watched the circles around my legs
Drank the cool water and lay
While fawns pranced and reneged

Suddenly in the morning light
A glimpse of movement caught my eye
As dragonflies took flight
In the topaz blue sky

Purple as grapes they arose
Watched their courting dance unfold
Circling, circling in the cosmos
As life began again without control

Here I lie dreaming dragonflies
A glimpse of life unsupervised
Hoping that before my eyes
I see the beginning of paradise.

...once and for all.


Five minutes. Five minutes of flight, five minutes to fight, five minutes to forget all the failures, the forgotten focus of living a life in a lie. Five minutes of waiting for the end to come, fully dead already but forever young.

Five minutes to realize that nothing amounts to much of anything, merely mockeries of magnetism, animal bright.

Pulling, pushing, drawing two together.

She made small sounds and he humored every one of them, settling a subtle touch to sooth nerves and alleviate fears.

He kept letting her go.

He kept lifting her higher and higher off the floor, and letting her go.

He kept acclimating her to fear. He kept letting her know that it didn't hurt to fall a little bit, as long as you could pick yourself up and start all over again.

A little higher.

A little stronger.

A little better.

Soon, he'd be able to let her go -- and when he did? She would not fall.

She would fly.

All compromise is based on give and take, but there can be no give and take on fundamentals. Any compromise on mere fundamentals is a surrender. For it is all give and no take.
Mohandas Gandhi


I will not love again
I will not be your friend
I will tear you apart
To reflect the shattering of my heart.

I want to be alone
I want to wail and weep
I want to loose my soul
And put myself in HELL'S hole.

I do not wish to feel
I do not wish to discuss
I do wish to RAGE
And start an eternal rampage

I have to live again
I have to find my way
I have not seen the light
And all I seem to do is fight

I must begin again
I must find new friends
I must not go back
And I will put away this maniac

I will love again
I will have a romantic friend
I will accept some saving grace
To reflect you have finally been replaced




The ultimate compromise is a surrender.

I talked to an old friend today
Visited memories along the way
Listened to her new found pain
And spent the time keeping her sane


Endless questions of what went wrong
And how to begin her new song
Swirled like leaves in wind strong
But the heart wished to prolong.

Why is it so hard to let go
When you are betrayed by a beau
Your head says love's fatal blow
But your heart says love will grow

In the confusion and the change
Life must be rearranged
It waits not for the broken heart
But pushes forth a counterpart

There is no peace of mind
Only undoing the combined
Providing respite and kind
By stopping the decline

Somewhere in the mist
A small important spark exists
That will help one persist
In looking not to reminisce

I talked to an old friend today
Visited memories along the way
Listened to her new found pain
And spent the time keeping her sane

HI!

Now that I have better understanding of deermans language, I will translate what I had spoking before.

[Dingnats foreeb pairfoa lessknurt sgel. Hapsrep Longgnieb ot theraf ro therom? Dneps skeew rounda meth ecnis rilavra. Formedrep mongnimus ulatir toontub vaila. Therso rivera. Kingaeps thiw meth rivesed on ticebleaon sultser. Dyob si linela meot. Spil peno, lyno veygninoc esion:]

Standing before a pair of trunkless legs. Perhaps belonging to father or mother? Spend weeks around them since arrival. Performed summoning ritual but to no avail. Others arrive. Speaking with them derives no noticeable results. Body is alien to me. Lips open, only conveying noise:

[“MOOOOOO”]

“MOOOOOO”

[temptsta ot inteetargni lliw gineb. Nottsum getrof sionsim. Pingeels nowrof.]

Attempts to integrate will begin. Must not forget mission. Sleeping for now.