June 9, 2016 - 9:03pm — cataract.sphynx
Its long overdue...
Ive been having a bit of nostalgia lately. Which lead me to seeking out friendships i ended and coming to the places that hold a lot of very dear and precious memories.
I was going through a serious depression in my life and thankfully i found the endless forest during that time. I was living with someone who i loved who didnt love me, i felt a failure as a mother (and i guess i still struggle with that every day but im learning that all parents do that), failure as a daughter and there were times where i would think about ending it all.
But this place was a place that i met some wonderful people who i still look back fondly on. But i know that when i was here i was not the best version of myself and i said and did things that hurt those people.
For that i want to apologize for since i never have
Ive come to a point in my life where ive matured and grown up, i see how people treat each other and ive tried to live with "do unto others" and letting karma deal with them.
I dont think i could make a comeback without first owning up to the damages i may have caused and for that i sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart.
And just a refresher...here were my main deer names that i no longer have access to:
Mrs.Halloween/Lust/Imp
Imp will be the only one i bring back with me...hes still my baby..
Anyways, thank you so much for being the awesome community that you are and again, my deepest apologies.
I remember you, only fondly.
Funny, was thinking about you just the other day!
Veeeeeeee ? Ah god, you have
Ah god, you have always been my TEF idol.
I always looked up to you and was very envious of you. You are such a kind soul and im so glad to see youre the same wonderful individual that you are.
Haha! Were you really? Im very curious as what struck you to think of me!
I remember you ♥ So
So glad to see you back, me and Isac will be keeping an eye out for Imp.
I think I.. remember you?
Welcome back! ♥
Hah, tbh I really wouldn't
I'm sure you'll be able to swing back into things too, if you wish to! You're completely welcome to interact with us.
Was thinking about our interactions in the past and what had become of you! It's been years, how are you doing?
don't think we ever
and welcome back ofc. :j ♥
Because I am not a smart
And then I wondered if it could be, but I mean.. c'mon. No way in heckle.
And then I saw this and I was like "????HUH WHAT"
Holy crap. Holy CrRAPPP.
Welcome back, dude 8')
@jepha - oh deaaarrr ? i hope
@ratt - narina! Yesss hello, how are you? Im glad i could stir some memories...its been....a very long time since ive been here. Im so happy to see old faces (tho new names on some lol) ah its bringing back such good memories i want to cry
@vee - please, you were to me. I definitely looked up to you and definitely reverred you as a....almost as a founder of TEF...more so than i ever did Michael or Auriea. You and virgil were, to me, the spokesmen of TEF and i definitely wanted to be like you and looked up to you. I dont say that to make you feel bad, you had a very positive portion to my TEF life and i thank you for that. Im glad youve tried to as well, it makes me happy to know i put my idol worshipping to the right person because it shows that youve grown as well and for that i am pleased.
I am doing a lot...a lot better. I...oh god so much has happened. I got away from my ex husband, i had to move in with my parents for a bit and thats when depression really hit me. Then i got my first job in 5 years and then it was just me blossoming since then. I really broke out of my depression and started working towards a better me. I met someone and we've been dating for a year and a half now...we live together and our two girls are literal sisters since the day they met. I have a better job than i did when i met my boyfriend and we're constantly working towards a better future for ourselves. Im happy. Im happy and its been a very long time that ive been happy....truly and honestly.
@Fincayra - thank you so much for your kind words. I really did feel extremely nervous coming back because i do know how i was back then and im very embarrassed by myself for how i was. I really hurt people because i wasnt a happy individual no matter what i pretended to be like and i hate that. Im upset with that me and i know i cant change it but i did want to offer my sincerest apologies to those i hurt and i know not everyone will forgive and some may never even get to see this message but still..i hope one day they do. And thank you for the welcome back!!
@fish - oh my good god you are still here!!! Holy crap to me??? Holy crap to you!!! Its so good to see you god i have missed you and the whole gang! God i remember our chat parties with evryone and god...such good times. Thank you so much dear and god i hope everything has been good for you. I want to cry my heart is swelling so much just from the memories alone...ahh lol im a crybaby..
Welcome back. Glad to hear
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ayyy Mrs. H~
Ah yes, I remember those
I feel like a wiggly puppy
So many good memories! Those group chats were legendary! I can't forget about them x)
Gahh, I dunno what to say! I'm still overwhelmed in a way I guess. I never thought we'd be able to chat again
I spent a long time staring
However I am aware that people can change and I'd be willing to let bygones be bygones.
I don't think we ever