Apology

cataract.sphynx's picture
Its long overdue...

Ive been having a bit of nostalgia lately. Which lead me to seeking out friendships i ended and coming to the places that hold a lot of very dear and precious memories.

I was going through a serious depression in my life and thankfully i found the endless forest during that time. I was living with someone who i loved who didnt love me, i felt a failure as a mother (and i guess i still struggle with that every day but im learning that all parents do that), failure as a daughter and there were times where i would think about ending it all.

But this place was a place that i met some wonderful people who i still look back fondly on. But i know that when i was here i was not the best version of myself and i said and did things that hurt those people.

For that i want to apologize for since i never have
Ive come to a point in my life where ive matured and grown up, i see how people treat each other and ive tried to live with "do unto others" and letting karma deal with them.

I dont think i could make a comeback without first owning up to the damages i may have caused and for that i sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart.

And just a refresher...here were my main deer names that i no longer have access to:
Mrs.Halloween/Lust/Imp

Imp will be the only one i bring back with me...hes still my baby..

Anyways, thank you so much for being the awesome community that you are and again, my deepest apologies.
WayfarerHart's picture

I remember you, only fondly.

I remember you, only fondly. I hope that, if you stay, this time will be better. ♥
Funny, was thinking about you just the other day!

cataract.sphynx's picture

Veeeeeeee ? Ah god, you have

Veeeeeeee ?
Ah god, you have always been my TEF idol.
I always looked up to you and was very envious of you. You are such a kind soul and im so glad to see youre the same wonderful individual that you are.

Haha! Were you really? Im very curious as what struck you to think of me!
Jepha's picture

I remember you ♥ So

I remember you ♥
So glad to see you back, me and Isac will be keeping an eye out for Imp.
ratt's picture

I think I.. remember you?

I think I.. remember you? Mrs.Halloween and Lust sound really familiar, and I really remember Imp at least! Hahah I was wondering why the design felt so familiar when I saw the pictures you posted. I was Narina back in the days if it stirs anything!

Welcome back! ♥
WayfarerHart's picture

Hah, tbh I really wouldn't

Hah, tbh I really wouldn't like to think of myself as anything... idol-worthy. I was a terribly unpleasant person back then, too. Have been making apologies in the last couple of years, like you now. I think it's good, whether people forgive or not, one can only do their best to learn and better themselves.
I'm sure you'll be able to swing back into things too, if you wish to! You're completely welcome to interact with us.

Was thinking about our interactions in the past and what had become of you! It's been years, how are you doing?

Fincayra's picture

don't think we ever

don't think we ever interacted much, but i remember you! glad to see you back around. hope you won't worry too much about your past- we've all done and said crappy things and have had to own up to it, move on. i'm definitely guilty of a lot. this community can be especially gracious, though. y'should be fine.

and welcome back ofc. :j ♥

Because I am not a smart

Because I am not a smart person, my first thought was "Why is this random person drawing Imp?"
And then I wondered if it could be, but I mean.. c'mon. No way in heckle.

And then I saw this and I was like "????HUH WHAT"



Holy crap. Holy CrRAPPP.
Welcome back, dude 8')
cataract.sphynx's picture

@jepha - oh deaaarrr ? i hope

@jepha - oh deaaarrr ? i hope to see you and isac in forest some time. I have to get my computer over to my boyfriends soon ;^;

@ratt - narina! Yesss hello, how are you? Im glad i could stir some memories...its been....a very long time since ive been here. Im so happy to see old faces (tho new names on some lol) ah its bringing back such good memories i want to cry

@vee - please, you were to me. I definitely looked up to you and definitely reverred you as a....almost as a founder of TEF...more so than i ever did Michael or Auriea. You and virgil were, to me, the spokesmen of TEF and i definitely wanted to be like you and looked up to you. I dont say that to make you feel bad, you had a very positive portion to my TEF life and i thank you for that. Im glad youve tried to as well, it makes me happy to know i put my idol worshipping to the right person because it shows that youve grown as well and for that i am pleased.

I am doing a lot...a lot better. I...oh god so much has happened. I got away from my ex husband, i had to move in with my parents for a bit and thats when depression really hit me. Then i got my first job in 5 years and then it was just me blossoming since then. I really broke out of my depression and started working towards a better me. I met someone and we've been dating for a year and a half now...we live together and our two girls are literal sisters since the day they met. I have a better job than i did when i met my boyfriend and we're constantly working towards a better future for ourselves. Im happy. Im happy and its been a very long time that ive been happy....truly and honestly.

@Fincayra - thank you so much for your kind words. I really did feel extremely nervous coming back because i do know how i was back then and im very embarrassed by myself for how i was. I really hurt people because i wasnt a happy individual no matter what i pretended to be like and i hate that. Im upset with that me and i know i cant change it but i did want to offer my sincerest apologies to those i hurt and i know not everyone will forgive and some may never even get to see this message but still..i hope one day they do. And thank you for the welcome back!!

@fish - oh my good god you are still here!!! Holy crap to me??? Holy crap to you!!! Its so good to see you god i have missed you and the whole gang! God i remember our chat parties with evryone and god...such good times. Thank you so much dear and god i hope everything has been good for you. I want to cry my heart is swelling so much just from the memories alone...ahh lol im a crybaby..
Unplugged's picture

Welcome back. Glad to hear

Welcome back. Glad to hear you've been doing better and recovering.
Kaoori's picture

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Smiling

ayyy Mrs. H~

ayyy Mrs. H~

Ah yes, I remember those

Ah yes, I remember those names, always did love your characters. I've recently returned myself after a few years' absence.

I feel like a wiggly puppy

I feel like a wiggly puppy lol Dude, I'm so glad you that and things have gotten so much better for you!
So many good memories! Those group chats were legendary! I can't forget about them x)

Gahh, I dunno what to say! I'm still overwhelmed in a way I guess. I never thought we'd be able to chat again
Draak's picture

I spent a long time staring

I spent a long time staring at this post, and I still don't know what to say.

However I am aware that people can change and I'd be willing to let bygones be bygones.

Snowsauria's picture

I don't think we ever

I don't think we ever interacted much but I definitely remember Lust and Imp. Welcome back! c':