March.21.2010
Today I traveled with Ravyn. She was lying down with another fawn beside her - I admit that I would've preferred it if Esll was there. What's that? Who's Esll? The stag with the skull, butterfly pelt, and poppies antlers. Don't you remember...?
They stood and Ravyn noticed me. I think she remembered me. My stalking following behavior is not performed by most other fawns, so perhaps it wouldn't be too difficult to know which one was me. I hid in the tree, similar of what I did yesterday. But she rubbed the tree and it made a most frightening noise, so I instantly jumped out. The fawn came thisclosetome. I felt claustrophobic.
We traveled a couple yards, but then I saw something THAT SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN THERE SHOULDNEVERBETHERE
She asked me questions, again, like always. She asked me if I was Friiha andlikeeveryothertime I said YES. Why? Doesn't she know it's me by now?
Did I know I was me?
I don't know how Ravyn knew, but she did. She knew that the hallucination was there. How do I know it's a hallucination? Because - usually - no one else notices. They look at me funny. Like I'm crazy. Like there's something wrong butthereis
But Ravyn knew, and she came forward. She couldn't see the hallucination, but she knew the general area. She saw where I was staring. She blocked my vision, came between me and the apparition, before IT could get v i o l e n t and taunted at it. When she moved away, the image was gone. I was spared.
Thank you, Ravyn.
That fawn was oblivious, running around a tree and rubbing it even though nothing fell. No pine cones for antler spells. Didn't it understand? Rubbing the tree wasn't doing ANYTHING...
The thing is, I don't like fawns other fawns.
I think I already said that.
This one wasn't as obnoxious as most are, but still...
I didn't have much to worry about though, because it died disappeared soon enough.
Ravyn and I filled the time with hopping around mostly. She took a sudden turn and looked over her shoulder, wanting me to follow. I did. I wondered where we were going. Where she was taking me. Fear and excitement filled me, and I didn't know which one to lean on, so I just let my hooves move me after the doe.
We came upon him, Saosin. He was lying down, wearing candlers instead of his usual giant white ones. And something struck me as odd.
He was... sitting up, mhm, but he didn't seem totally there.
I don't know how else to explain it.
I stopped a yard away, watching Ravyn trot the rest of the way to her mate. She beckoned me over though, so I came to her. And she wanted me to lie down. I obeyed the one who isn't like the rest of them. She lied down between Saosin and me and we sat there for a while. It was very relaxing. I felt protected beside them. In this thick fog where everything could be your enemy, I felt safe.
Eventually Ravyn stood, and looked around. She began to trot off, but I stayed where I was beside Saosin. Being alone with him made me feel frightened and safe. He didn't do anything. He was still... e m p t y...
So I left. I sensed Virgil's pictogram.
He was running.
I had to know why.
So I shot through the thick mist, faster than any bullet, darting around the trees split seconds before I could crash into them.
Not that it mattered.
I can go through trees, you know.
Finally, Virgil was within sight through the fog. I made sure not to get too close, I made sure not to let him know I was there. I hid behind a tree, watching.
I was waiting.
I still don't know why.
Virgil stopped, and my heart froze with him. I dared not move, let alone breathe. Did he see me? Through the mist, did he see my shadow watching him from behind the tree?
Did he?
Did he?
DIDHESEEMETHERE
If he did, he didn't show it.
He resumed his running.
I resumed my following.
He kept going, I made sure not to reveal my presence. But I calculated one turn wrong, and the mist was too thick to see, and I nearly crashed into him. I exploded away, and not even Satan could've caught me if he tried.
I ran and ran until I came upon a small gathering of deer. They weren't in a specific group, just scattered around close by. I spied Bylah sitting by himself and wondered.
Did he ever feel sad?
That deer only view him as a threat?
Does he have any real friends?
Or does he even care?
I don't think he does.
But I wouldn't know unless I asked him.
...I'm not going to ask him that.
I hid in the tree across from him, not too close but not too far away either. I watched through the tree - I can go through trees, you know - for a while. Usually I'd get bored by half the time I stood there watching Bylah but he's just so interesting without even doing anything. I could see the slight orange of flames that burned inside him.
More questions.
Does the fire hurt?
Of course not. Or at least he doesn't seem to act like it does.
If I was on fire...
like when I was 'spelled' yesterday...
I would be very upset.
But he's just sitting there. He's always sitting there.
Maybe he's in so much pain he can't even move.
Because if I didn't know better I'd think he was a statue.
That's how still he is.
Eventually I left.
Eventually I left everywhere.
Because I went to sleep.
Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow.
No comments? This is
Aaaah! Stalker! I love the
I love the way her words combine when she's distressed! o_o
@Tally: Yeah, there weren't
So thank you soso much, Tally~!! <33
And maybe you wouldn't have seen it because I put the break at the very top and thus make it easy to pass by~
I'm glad 8D
@Lottie: LOL yus, Friiha is quite the stalker.
v.v;
xD
Don't be surprised if you see her pictogram suspiciously near - she's curious about Virgil and his "counterpart" {the OOC deer that shares his picto} and wants to find out more about both of them x3
Haha, I try to write in such a way that you can feel her emotions through it. I think jumbling the words together gives it a faster pace and a sense of urgency~
By Leuvr ♥
Ahaha... Vir's "counterpart"
I think you've succeeded in making that feel just perfectly!
Sorry this comment is late. I
I actually read all of this earlier (like right hwne it was posted) but then I got distracted and forgot to save it in Circadian and comment it. ):
Lovely work, as always. Your writing is so odd... but I like it a lot.
Like, for example, when I read this I imagined yelling, but it zoning in and out and echoing.
Kind of like this... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOXodnh-Cvs
Is that strange? (:
@Lottie: That'll be all the
<333 Thank you, I'm really glad I've accomplished that~!! :3
@Ravyn: Fff no problem at all, I'm just glad you got to do both of those now <333
8D Thank you so much! Others have told me the same, but not all of them have liked it >.> xD
Ooohhh... yeah I can imagine that *-* Friiha's voice is rather soft and echoing, so that matches her very well.
And no it's not strange {well not to me xD} - I always love hearing what you have to say. It's always different from the usual and that's a lot of the reason why I love your comments to much <3
By Leuvr ♥
Friiha sounds ghostly,
I like it, and I like your comments, too... <3
...Wouldn't it be interesting
No wonder she can "go through trees," as she constantly reminds us.
:}
/ponder
<333
By Leuvr ♥