Spent much of the day contemplating a nearby Joriah from the corner of their eyes. Slowly but tensely eased into the idea of spending time around one of Devani's family members, helped a little more when the dijini joined them after too long.

Later, was somewhat misled into supervising one stranger (Lemon) at the urging of another (Pagan). Had a vague sense as the latter's history with Devani and also of the origins of Lemon's injuries, so wasn't completely blind in allowing the wounded doe to take a respite near them. Still, didn't anticipate the violent nature of Pagan's plans for the evening, and was left with a sunken feeling of apathy, if not spite, when she disappeared into the Birch and didn't return until long after Saturn had made a pointed visit to the doe that had been left behind.

Snaked around Devani and Joriah, and watched despondently when Pagan eventually returned to collect Lemon. Hit by a delayed urge to sink teeth into the wounded doe's heels as she was led away. Ended up making a few halfhearted snaps at the air between them, and returned for a stress nap near Joriah when Brille arrived...

July 23rd, 2017
Unhappy but happy but not happy.

April 18th, 2017
Had a somewhat tense encounter with Fay and Starless at the Ruins a few days ago. Tepid and closed in response to many of the messages Fay tried to convey, having made up their mind weeks ago to accept the Viperidae's tie to Starless, and never having expected that to be a simple feat. Quietly relished the confirmation that the minor snarls sent her direction weeks ago had clearly stayed with her, though any petty satisfactions were overshadowed by concerns, on noting her almost predatory manipulation of Starless in the process.

Deliberately spent a few more minutes with Starless afterward in a silent attempt to soothe or dismiss what insecurities they could, for him, before moving off to be alone. Along with somewhat worrisome remarks from Sky-Sight regarding the Hellhound and her actions toward her in the Rut, unsettled and conflicted over how to handle things gently enough for Starless, and properly for the family as a whole. Given the outcome of violent revenge schemes in the past, forcing themselves to strip a massive amount of worries down to the sole, most important - putting Starless's feelings over their own revulsion. Left later to check on those staying outside the Forest, where circumstances quickly grew out of hand.

Returned from a two day hunt with no sign of the marks or trauma smattering their coat as their loved ones. Seems fine in body, though eyes are notably empty.

April 12th, 2017 Doing the 'normal thing' when virtually everyone you love are spending their time in different worlds, and dedicating 90% of their free time to lounging in the Forest completely alone. Hasn't really been able to decide on whether to spend time with Devani and Nasim in the shadows, or Gia and Eve in another realm, despite the portal temporarily opened between the two, so has opted for none of the above. Visits long enough to check in and make offers to take Nasim to the Forest that usually go refuted due to the boy's (understandable) preference for spending time with Devani in relative civilization, and not sleeping 20 hours a day out in the elements with occasional breaks to scavenge around the forest with a self-loathing wolf and see if anything died.

Visits occasionally with Winter, Star, and Sky, but lets them all have their outings the same as with the others. Checks in on a few faces and locations, but shirking certain intentions that they had going in with the realization they aren't relevant anymore. Also got a little gift from Viktor a couple weeks ago, which gave them once less thing to worry about; glad for it as well the use two of their offspring got out of the presents.


(is it time to start saving past entries??)

February 23rd, 2017 Steady enough over the past few days, relishing in time spent with their offspring but easily accepting the space that frequently separates them as well. Skirted around the Playground for that reason today, and glanced over Devani and Brille before noticing the little body nestled beside a sapling. Turned to leave the family to their time together only to have Devani run up behind them and yank on their tail, hindering their escape.

Brought back to Brille and the child - Joriah - with great trepidation, owing to the tragic events that had followed after last meeting one of Zafeiri's brood. With the barest of sniffs to the fawn that was meant only to satisfy Devani, slunk a few paces away and curled up forcefully, immediately trying to forget the scent.