Those memories are not forgotten
Although the joy of remembering them
Has long since been shattered.
If I ever start to think of you and the good times we shared
It immediately becomes blocked
Your words penetrate my mind
As I turn my head away.

If only I had that protection just a few months earlier
Maybe then I could have let our past fade away
But being who I am
Apart of me wanted to make up and say it was alright
You were at the time still on my mind.
I thought of the person you were
The one I had trusted
Once upon a time

But this second time around
I found out about the monster that hides beneath the mask
That constantly evades and hides your good qualities that I thought you had in the shadows.
While your current deeds shine brightly in the twilight.

I'm glad I had the will to say no
Honestly it didn't take much
But later the words you used stung
Rebound

Rebound

I could say this words a thousand times
And still feel the anger burn inside
I told you you'll regret what you've done
For I deserve respect
And I'm sure as hell not a rebound for someone
To drift to aimlessly and use as they please.

In a relationship all I ask is these simply things
Which will gladly be given in return
Kindness whether it be with words or a small squezze of the hand
I will look to you when I need comfort
But only when necessarry
Leave the drama at the door
If you need to talk I will listen

Politeness a simple gesture is a courtesy
Whether it's opening the door or turning off that dang cell phone
We appreciate it
And you will receive my full attention
On the first outing I won't drill you to death with a thousand questions
I'm merely seeing how you are.


Respect me and my boundaries and my point of view
We don't have to agree but we can respect each others opinions
The same goes for physical affection.
Respect it or else I'll have no other choice to say
Beat it.
I'll be the first to admit I am cautious when it comes to dating
And my standards are high
But none of which will bank rupt you
I risk everything
Because I give everything I can in all my relationships

But when it comes to loving someone other than a family member
Giving someone your heart
And you expect them not to break it
But you never know
Throught out my life my own family has not been the best example
In this area

I'm afraid of falling
Afraid of letting someone in
That closeness of being a couple is foreign to me
What is love does it truly exist
Or is it a word that we simply use
I try to break this barrier down
But I can't do it on my own
I need to trust you
And understand who you are as a person.

If your out there
I'm here not necessarily waiting for you and staying in one spot.
Like a leaf in the wind you'll need to find me
Catch me quickly before I disappear
But be gentle
My past with your kind so far has not been pleasant
But I won't give up hope
This is not for Mr right or Mr Perfect
For there is no such person in this world
This is to my soul-mate my other half
That will share this world togther with me
Hand in hand
Our love that is strong
Will take us beyond the human years.