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"IN A DREAM YOU SAW A WAY TO SURVIVE AND YOU WERE FULL OF JOY"
unwell. does it ever get easier?

always open to connect ♥
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(dont use discord much)
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just gonna boop dis cuz I

just gonna boop dis cuz I updated a shetton.
also sorry for the hugeass rant gdi. I swear I'll try not to do it again lol.
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Can I just? Sits down and

Can I just?


Sits down and sips tea. Track of interest.
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o dat was fast hallo! *waves

o dat was fast hallo! *waves
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Helloo. Not sure if Brent has

Helloo. Not sure if Brent has ever ran into any of your wonderful characters, but I'll keep an eye out.
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!!!

!!! <3

*sticks a track here*

*sticks a track here*
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-quietly walks in-

-quietly walks in-
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i like the simpleness of the

i like the simpleness of the code Smiling
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HALLO ALL. @Tree- OMG thank

HALLO ALL.
@Tree- OMG thank you i try ;;
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HOW HAVE I NOT TRACKED THIS

HOW HAVE I NOT TRACKED THIS YET I'M SORRY
-plants self here- ;w;
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Hello there

Hello there
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OMG YES I SAW THIS LATE LAST

OMG YES I SAW THIS LATE LAST NIGHT ITS GR8
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hellohellohello there awesome

hellohellohello there awesome person
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HAYYYY OTHER AWESOME PERSON


HAYYYY OTHER AWESOME PERSON
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*distant screaming

*distant screaming

I think you may like the band

I think you may like the band HAIM!

*scurries back to work
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;D FEESh. And OOOOOOO SHOW

;D FEESh.
And OOOOOOO SHOW MEH
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Happy belated birthday!! And

Happy belated birthday!! And congrats on the pierced nippy-noos!

That's so good to hear

That's so good to hear everything worked out with sorority! I would've been so nervous, but it's awesome things are pretty chill. College stuff in general freaks me out LOL
Good luck with the rest of the academic stuff ;w; I'm sure there seems to be a lot on your plate rn so just focus on doing you! TEFc/skype/etc will still be here after everything settles down c:
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Ahh thank you boo!!

Ahh thank you boo!! <333
Yeah the rushing process was nerve-wracking at times, but in general it was an interesting experience! Aha college can sure be scary but I've learned to embrace it and just say "fuck it" if I find myself in an umcomf/anxious spot. Yolo, right? xD

Yas, when I have a moment to breathe I will for sure be on skype/TEF! I hope we can still do the Bayleen-baby thing ;; I apologize if my business slows the plot/process.
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Gahhh I could only imagine

Gahhh I could only imagine how stressful that must be. I hope everything works out for you though, just take one step at a time!! Focusing on the bigger picture always seems overwhelming, but you just gotta take it in stride. And there ain't nothing wrong with a few self-days where you just regain your energy!
I BELIEVE IN YOU ♥
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thought i was already

thought i was already tracking this! O: oops
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Discord: Gulonine#4267
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@Singa- Ahhh bae &hearts;!!!

@Singa- Ahhh bae ♥!!! Thank you so much for your encouragement. It means so much that I have friends here that have my back ;u; I'll try to not overwhelm myself.

Aquilo- hayy welcome! ^^
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BUMPING THIS WITH SOMETHING I

BUMPING THIS WITH SOMETHING I FOUND ON FACEBOOK



This message is nice and all, but why does it end with "GOOD MORNING" and why is there a pigeon does the pigeon make us strong, is the pigeon saying these nice things
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LMAOo i mean if a pigeon

LMAOo i mean if a pigeon wants to give me inspirational messages and daily greetings, I sure as hell won't stop him :'D
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pardon my French, but what

pardon my French, but what the frickle frack dickle dack
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my fukn bf showed it to me

my fukn bf showed it to me and now he quotes it all the time LMAO
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That's when you know you have

That's when you know you have a keeper

swingdances in

swingdances in
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o hallo and welcome &hearts;

o hallo and welcome ♥
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Ahhh I've considered getting

Ahhh I've considered getting a tattoo of Dehy's picto for SO LONG. I've always wanted too, but to describe to anyone what it means to me would be very hard, as no one I know has any clue about this place. But then I think, who cares right? Maybe I'll travel somewhere and just by chance I'll meet a fellow TEF'er just because of my seemingly random tattoo..
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day4- I definitely understand

day4- I definitely understand how you feel. I think if I did get questions about it I would just say something like "It's my name in a symbol" or something along those lines- because that is the deeper reason why I love it so much, TEF aside. It'd just be too deep to even begin to scratch the surface; like you said, very few people know of this place which leaves a lot of explaining than I have energy for ^^; So on account of laziness, I would simplify. In the end, it's really no one's business anyway.
And you know what, I didn't even think of how I could possibly meet some TEF peoples from the tattoo... But you're so right, I think it's something that can very well happen!! All the more incentive for me to get it ;D
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I would love to be somewhere

I would love to be somewhere random and see a TEF symbol on someone!!! I would probably freak and then scare them away :'D
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I had friends like that too

I had friends like that too for a long time. We just weren't suited to each other- they were shallow and different. I was much younger though, but still. you'll always meet people. I have friends now that I can speak to about anything and be understood by in incredible ways, that appreciate me as much as I appreciate them. Don't feel too down. Poeple always come- and always start conversations with them, because it could be the start of something lovely. c:

ALSO try putting a hella amount of <*br*/> (without the stars/spaces) at the very end of your css. Add a lot at first and then remove them as you see fit. It's not a perfect fix but it'll work I think.

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ignore this comment |D

ignore this comment |D
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sorry for late reply

sorry for late reply ;;
^^Evern; Thank you for that hopeful advice. I certainly agree with you and I believe I will find people that I can speak to about anything with eventually. I guess for now it's just difficult because I am very alone.

And HALLELUJAH I will try that ;D
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July Skies is one of my

July Skies is one of my favorite ethereal shoegaze bands, but this song is my favorite of theirs as it always makes me feel better.
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I love ethereal music! This

I love ethereal music!
This is a lovely song ahhh ♥ thank you my friend.
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Happy 8th year!

Happy 8th year!

I've never heard of EMDR so I

I've never heard of EMDR so I had to look it up. It seems interesting. I hope it works for you.
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^ Thank you, lovely!!

^ Thank you, lovely!! ♥ I hope it works too.
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did you know that you can

did you know that you can legally marry a dead person in france

sneaks in here

sneaks in here

did I request thee, maker,

did I request thee, maker, from my clay
to mould me man, did I solicit thee
from darkness to promote me?
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^ ah! from Frankenstein, or

^ ah! from Frankenstein, or rather, the quote at the beginning of Frankenstein from John Milton’s Paradise Lost. reminds me of the bzou, actually.

“I had all the characteristics of a human being—flesh, blood, skin, hair—but my depersonalization was so intense, had gone so deep, that my normal ability to feel compassion had been eradicated, the victim of a slow, purposeful erasure. I was simply imitating reality, a rough resemblance of a human being, with only a dim corner of my mind functioning”
- Bret Easton Ellis, American Psycho
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Added you on discord.

Added you on discord. <3