December 12, 2008 - 5:08am — Kanaf
There was another girl...
There's always another girl...
Every. Freaking. Time. I'm always too late.
I know I said I gave up on him... I thought I was over him... If it weren't for his uncle, it might not have made me a little more hopeful.
I should've known... They spent so much time together... They were so close to each other today...
Why didn't I just get on with my life?
Why does this hurt so much, when he really meant so little? I knew he didn't like me back, why did I just blind myself like I always do? I should've known by now...
I thought he was it. I thought he would be the good thing just around the corner. I thought I didn't have to wait anymore...
How many times will I have to take one step forward, then two steps back?
Oh well... At least there's still that interest... I can still give him a shot... But it'll just end up the same... I don't know why I try anymore....
Ugh... why her? That's something I wanna know. He doesn't know how awful she can be. He doesn't know pissy she gets. He doesn't know how she treats people she doesn't know... He should've gone for me... I'm much better than her...
But I said that last year with another guy I liked... My hope was still fresh back then... Now I think it's broken beyond repair...
I'm back on the ground again... Will I get up this time?... Always in time to get on my feet... Before I can finally stand, something pushes me down again... Then it's back on the ground...
... dammit... Dammit! I HATE this! Why does it have to be me?? Why can't it be someone else for once? Why does it have to be me with all the trouble? Why do all my friends have such good luck finding guys?
Why am I still alone?... If there are guys that like my friends, you'd think there would be at least one that likes me... They know me, they know what I am... What's so ugly about it?...
Guh... I'm getting all worked up over this... I'm over him, end of discussion, he's off the market, so now I pretty much have to get over him. I was over him before Thanksgiving break. I'll be fine tomorrow...
At least now I have a real answer... I just don't understand whenever I do get the real answer...
It's always no...
Well...put it this way I
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You say that the second interest will just end up the same and it will if you continue to feel this way. A friend once told me, "Never doubt, doubt is a powerful tool that leads to un-accomplishment."
I know that things look grim now and that you're heart must feel like it has sunk to the bottom of the darkest, coldest ocean, but the only way to reach the surface is to have the will to want to swim back to it. Do not doubt yourself or your heart; do not give up on your second interest so early because having a negative outlook on it will only lead to trouble.
Have hope and forget the one who forgot you. Even if it is hard, he's already proven that he's not worthy of you.
*hug* A good person will
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What Kumiko said ;_; No guys
No guys like me either. That's mostly why I don't have a crush, and why I'm not interested.
*hugs tightly*
One day, Deanna ;_; One day someone'll come.
-- Dannii <3
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*hugs you* You'll be all
And please, don't start with the self-fullfilling prophecy.. Don't give up hope!
EDIT: And Dannii, you're still very young. No guys were interested in me either at that age (atleast not irl)
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
Let me add that I've only
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Pfft at least you get
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