i know the creators come on sometime but if i dont see there pitcogram how will i know witch of the creators is on??

I want this month to go by quickly so Aimery can be an Adult. The Fawns are cute and all, but we all look the same and the only thing setting us apart is our tiny floating pictograms. I wish they kept antlers, masks, and pelt colors longer than a minute or two...

I really never wanted to post anything like this on this site, but I feel like I don't have many people to talk to. Not because they don't care, but because it's all a burden. No one has to read this, if you are then I am grateful, its mostly so that I feel like I've talked to someone about what I feel.

I feel lonely I guess. I've been dating a guy for about 11 months now, he's my first real boyfriend. And I spend more time on here than I see him in a week. I sort of feel like he doesn't want to try for this relationship. But then I stop and think to myself; 22 years, and someone finally gave a monster like you a chance. No one else will ever try to love you. To understand that I guess you'd have to know a little about me. I'm not fishing for pity or anything like that, I'll admit, I have some emotional problems. Mainly from how I was treated for most of my life. When I was younger I hated everyone. Humans in general were a waste and were nothing but cruel. For a long time I was filled with that rage and hate; which is why I call myself a monster. I go to church, and I know that it's not my place but I feel that I cannot redeem myself for all the hatred I felt growing up. I wanted them to all disappear, save for my grandparents

Sorry, I started to ramble there. And I probably will here too.

Emotions like love are almost heartbreaking for me sometimes. I get too attached and expect too much. I wait for people for more than an hour on a regular basis, I've been backstabbed I don't know how many times, but I keep trying. There are times where I wish I had never been born. Many times, I haven't affected anyone so much as that I will be sorely missed. I think in those times, I'm tired of fighting. Not necessarily in a physical state, but an emotional and mental one. My youth consisted of verbal and emotional abuse, I've had to fight for what little respect I have. Then I feel that most just throw it in my face and mock me.

Ok so I have been trying for like the past 3 hours to login TEF
my firewalls are deactivated and there is an exception on my antivirus for TEF
and it does login like, it shows my character
and only my character, and it is not marked to not show other players
sometimes I can see lots of repeated pictograms of my deer being sucked into my picto instead of spreading
and now when I login it is not showing my antlers?? They were those halloween event antlers that are small hands and
I am just pissed
I feel like quitting TEF seriously it has been the same thing for months with TEF not letting me see other players and I install and reinstall it and the same thing happens again
And now it deleted my favourite antlers. B(

So yeah if anyone knows why TEF is blocking me and deleting parts of my deer I would be thankful
I run it on a windows 7, I am brazilian idk if that matters maybe there is a countryblock
It used to work perfectly months ago btw