The bitter cold pierced through my fur. Every breath chilled and dried my mouth. The freezing pond water did very little to help my body when I drank it.
Why does the winter punish me like the deer do?
I've tried to walk among them, to be one of them. But they stare at me, turning their heads away to mock and laugh. I have been shown rejection by this forest so many times, and walking away, I hear their words.
Ugly
Repulsive
Unlovable
Monster
I let out a sigh, my body trembling with both sorrow and pain. I walked on, seeing the others playing, dancing, laughing. I wanted to join them in their games, but I already knew what would happen. They'd stare at me, judge me...reject me...
I walked away, into the deep parts of the birch forest. Here there are no deer, just the sounds of doves chirping and squirrels chattering, the occasional croak of a frog or caw of raven. I approached the strange fountain that sits alone, and with a hesitant sigh, I looked at my reflection.
A misshapen forehead with lumps and bulges that covers part of my left eye; abnormally long, shaggy fur covers my body; an underbite from my jaw, with my teeth protruding from my mouth; antlers that have grown improperly on my head...
A monster...I am a monster...
I walked away, letting my body succumb to the cold, letting my mind drift. I have no purpose, no reason to live. I am an abomination.
I find the only comfort I can, a soft patch of violet flowers let me sit among them. They don't judge me, they don't point and laugh.