January 13, 2012 - 2:53pm — onyxsoulclaw
Yer know I messed up
Yerp I know i typed stupid things
U wana know why?
1) Im stressed, Works hard, I have to work with idiots who make my work load double as they cant do the simplest job right , yet they get paid more than me.
2) A member of my familys seriously ill and im worried sick for him. my familys stressed out over it.
3) My Bro's gone in the army. I fear for him
4) The government copany i work fors up for review and with high unemplyment levals I dont know how i will earn enough to live Irefuse to go on benifits and take from the government
5) I need a house to live in if i lose my job i cant get one.
6)I'm going to be doing a degree soon and really need to pass it. I may also be doing a apprentiship course
So im sorry I have cause offence I have caused.
I'm not sure what you messed
Thanks BB, I have cause some
It's too bad we can't undo
I don't know who you hurt and
I really hope things get better for you. =)
Cheers guys . the comments
He had had a heart attack which was undiuganosed was on the wrong meds for diabities when he did not have it. On 1st January a lung collapsed and my cousin whos a nurse rushed him to hospital where his heart kept stopping and his lungs were fiulling with fluid. for many nights when have dreaded the phone ringing as new came back that the hole in his lung would not plug the powder they used he reacted to and when down with a infection. i'm not religious but i prayed every night . he became agited and nearly left the hospital,. but they kept him in. if he had left he would have died in a day. which shocked all. over the next few days his condtion peeked and trofted till stable enough to have an echocardiagram which showed his lower heart chambers were not moving right, followed buy more heart stoping in the night. yetarday he was fitted with a Defib and pace maker.
He looks 10 years younger and seems better but has to have his meds sorted as they are still not right. the kit under his skin is as big as a computer mouse and he is bruised from the tubes and needles.
Fingers crossed they will give hime the all clear in a week or so. I have been so worrid for him the relif to know and hope the road to recovery should (touch wood) will be smmoth is imense. I had forgotten what a rollercoaster life is.
Once clear I can sort out my degree course and job future,finaces and family.
My messgae to those still in scholl and under 16: Enjoy your youth, but dont waste it, dont quaral over small things because the world will throw far worse at you. Be strong and rember there is a silver linging to every cloud though sometimes you have to go through a storm to reach it.