Why do I even bother.. I liked taking things slowly, but this is so troublesome. I don't even know why I'm typing this. I'd much rather spend all day sleeping or something...
My step father is too busy celebrating some old friends reunion.. Forgetting that I have exams coming up in the next few days and telling me that its not a big deal.
Sure, I don't care about grades in school: after all my grades are just fine without me studying, but it won't be too bad if you acted more like a parent instead of a friend.. for example, telling me that I should try harder in school and that my future depends on how well I do in school. Whatever.. why do I even bother.
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So much for a new year..
My whole family's asleep in the house and all we really did as a said "family" was eat dinner, in which it consisted of only three members including me..the rest of them are at some party.
How annoying- watching my step dad drink his beer and my mother's not even talking to me, because I was being honest for once about why I'm not eating the food that she cooked for four hours even though she put effort into it. And then she threatened to send me back in Europe to my real father; going on and on about how he would be more strict with me and make me into a better man.
Can't things be more simple in this world? Oh man.. all I really wanted was a: "Happy New Year, son." From my mother, or something.. I barely ever get excited about anything and now she's off to somewhere again outside of the house.
Next year I won't even bother lifting a finger to type something like this.. Really, if I'm not forced to write something or even talk I'd be sitting on my bed right now and sleeping. I'm not doing anything about this situation.. just standing off to the side-lines and waiting for something to happen. Nothings gonna happen unless I do something about it. I won't do anything. And the sad part about all of this? I'm the number one coward and the laziest person you'll ever meet.
I'm stuck in a new house all the way up in the mountains with some deer and wild hare. My internet connection is at its worst up here. I don't have a clue when I'll be moving out of this house.. or if I'll even get to move out and into another. Lets hope I do, soon. I guess I'm off to bed: I'm even gonna go out of my way and set up an alarm clock to wake up early so I can apologize to my mother for not doing anything bad at all, and yet I'll still apologize... this is so troublesome.
I'm basically complaining about something, and not doing anything about it... Nothing new.
Awwww.. ;; You need a hug.
I hope that in this new year, you can look forward to a better year where you can be closer to your mom and step-dad. Feel better, 'kay? :3 There's always something good to look forward to. Of course, you'll always have the TEF community to keep you comfort. They're just like a family too.
Happy New Year <3