Wow it feels like its been forever since I popped in here. TBH I haven't even touched the community site in months. I got to a point where I finally understand all the "I'm leaving TEF" messages. The light bulb clicked like "ah... so this is how they felt." The community made me anxious and a game that I loved for over a decade, made me feel sick to my stomach. I put tef in a box and threw it in a dark corner to forget about it for awhile. And... I was going to quit recently. I had a mind to archive my tef characters and leave it all behind me with a smile on my face. I hadn't touched it in so long, so what would it matter?

I got my job in september, and I've been working 8-9 hour shifts, 5 days a week. I've been playing other games with other online friends, and I've been riding the highs and lows. I'm fine without tef in my life. It doesnt occupy a prominent spot in my head anymore and I think thats good. I feel okay with testing the waters to just.... exist, in the forest. It wont consume me anymore. I'm content to plop a character in tef and not feel pressured to put all my effort in to it. I'll poke my head in from time to time, and my characters will lounge about here and there, and I welcome anyone to join us for some quiet company and/or casual unimportant rps ^^

I'm just existing and I'm content with that.

Sarah ; Lily, Kiwi
May 19th ; Female
Taurus, The ox, The bull
Ruled by Venus, A sun sign
Single and messed up
Friends with a few good and lovely people
TEF member for 10 whole years <3

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