-> I have Degus, called "Victoria, Snickers, Pringles and Nessi"
-> I am a huge Fan of the Band "ASP"
-> I love to be in the nature, but Iam to lazy to go out
-> I forget mostly anything and all, seriously I have horrible memory.
When I forget something just remind me please!
-> Iam interested in anything, I love to know how things work
-> I love reading. I read a Book in a Day when it is interesting
-> I would give my last stuff to ppl to be helpful
-> I have a very dark Past, wont open up easily
-> Iam totaly Shy at the beginning till I know the other one better, then Iam one to steal Horses with.
-> I like to take risks
-> Iam loyal and would never betray my loved ones
-> I have terrible social anxiety and often feel like a burden to others
This Deer was the first I created here.
I played this Deer as a Char, not knowing the difference between OOC and IC.
It was until much later I realized that I played OOC 70% of the Time.
You can treat this Deer ether IC or OOCly, I do not mind.
May be played with Player Identification off.
20.01.2021 ***Death and Alc use***
Oh Heck, the last Update was long ago. Much did happen the Past Year, some of which I dearly wished would have gone otherwise.
I got a new Flat, away from the abusive Roommate I lived in before. Things gone good for a bit, I got a Job, I was getting healthy and more outgoing. I made Plans to get my Girlfriend to come here life with me, put Money aside to buy her a Flightticket. I was hoping to fullfill that Plan.
But in the end she lost her Fight at the 4. July.
I was shattered by her sudden death, she was fighting so hard for years now and suddenly she was gone.
Tori was really loving , caring and open, she made my Day shine even in the darkest hours. She was there for everybody even when she should had put herself first.
I couldnt deal with loosing her and thus I grabbed one Alcbottle after another to not feel anything. Luckily my best friend got me out of that later... I was at the lowest point.
I am and I was still so deeply broken in my Heart. However I do want to feel the sadness, I want to cry about her Death, I want to remember her.
I love you Victoria. And Iam sorry I couldnt be there.
Sorry for everyone I did not Reply to anymore in this Time. I did vanish completely and I know it wasnt nice. But maybe you do understand now why. As for now, iam returning to the Forest, please forgive me when I forgot things or dont remember Pictos anymore.
18.03.2019
Had finally an MRT of my Knee made and now awaiting the Talk with my Doc about it.
Hoping it is not something which needs OP Treatment or such.
Deeply afraid of it. But the Pain kills me and I cant sit at home all my life. what life
On a other note, Iam terrible afraid of reaching out in the Commnity.
I dont know why but it feels like Iam hated and a burden to most.
I will try to not step on anyones Toes and If I did already please I beg you tell me what I did false.
Please forgive me my beginner Failures here, It was everything new for me and I was and still am a young naive Girl. Iam also not that good with english, still learning.
My Dog is doing alot better lately, he has a strong favor for hunting. Which I am afraid I cant fullfil at the moment. Cant even go out with him, my Mother takes him out for me which lives not that far away. Overall Iam so useless
21.02.2019
That moment when you felt healthy yesterday and woke up this morning all sick and meh.
On a other note... I should update my personal blog gosh its so old and outdated.
Second other note, my Body getting weaker each passing month.
Not to mention I did hurt my knee and thus I cant walk anymore until it fixes itself...
its like this now 4 months? Lol where did the Time go. My other Treatments are still nowhere in sight
04.10.2018
weee that update got deleted due to reasons
20.09.2018
Iam still sick with pneumonia and working 10hours a day.
I feel drained and weak, dont even have the feeling to Grab something to eat anymore. But I have to Work I have to get money in to pay the Vet Bills for my dog.
Its now nearly a month since he was run Over by a Maniac.
He has gone trought some OP's, the latest was last Monday. I Hope it was the last OP for now, I cant stand to See him in Pain, to see him want to run but stopping in pain yelping. I Love him so much, hes only 5 years old, he cant leave me just now... he still has so many more years to go.
On a other Note
Iam sorry to the Ones for which I couldnt draw their Char for the Fanart Week. I will try to get ya something After all this is done by me. I Hope I have the streanght to draw on the Weekend something for Argus... I cant Promise anything but I will Really try. I feel so Bad for signing up and cant draw. Iam Really sorry.
31.08.2018
Iam sick since some Weeks, pneumonia with blood coughing and pain
oh god so much Pain, please let it go away!
The Sad side... I cant even stay at home anymore or else I do get kicked
out of my school and the year just started. So guess who has to go to school
with extreme fever, Pain and what not? Yea me.
The Painkillers arent helping, since Iam so used to Painkillers since my
early Childhood they just dont do it for me anymore and my Doctor wont
give me stronger ones because of my other Decease. Double Yay me.
So Iam sitting here, coughing my Lungs out, quite literally and drawing
stupid things to get myself distracted.
If I do not Respond, its me being prob. a Blanket burrito and have no hands free
07.08.2018
Everything breaks someday.
I did a long break from TEF, which was due to Stress and Projects in my Life.
However, Iam trying to came back slowly. Yet Iam afraid.
The Forest is ever Changing, one may not see it but for the eyes of a Silent Watcher it does.
Many come, many go. Loosing Friends and finding new Ones. A circle I dont like.
Dont get me wrong Iam one of those People which absolutly love to make new Friends
But I hate to see them go.
Now with Fly's Death I feel the big and empty Lonelyness striking again.
He was always there to Speak to, always there to help out or make one laugh.
I do regret not being there, I regret being gone for months without a Word.
I will life on, like anyone else will do but will the Forest, our Lifes and thoughts be the same without you? I doubt it.
I would have loved to say Goodbye, to tell you how much I loved to write with you. I came to late.
You were One of a Kind, a brother, a friend, the kindest Soul and the biggest loving Human.
I will always miss you... I will cherish the memorys.
I will need a while truly believing that you are gone now.
Ich hoffe du hast deinen Frieden gefunden und bist nun an einen besseren Ort.
In meinen Gedanken wirst du weiter Leben bis wir uns Wiedersehen.
Auf das deine Schmerzen nun weg sind und du nur noch Glück empfindest.
Auf das du dich Jung und Stark fühlst und dein Lachen hell erklingen wird.
Auf das du ewig bei uns bist, in Herzen als auch Gedanken.
Leb wohl mein Freund allzu ich weiß das ich dir bald folge.
In Stiller Trauer und seiner Familie gedenkend. We love you.
30.01.2018
Hello? Is it me your looking for?
Lemme sing you the Song of my People.
I have terribly much Stress, first I need to move since I got kicked out by my best Friend, tho I have nowhere to stay. Second I got a heavy depression with terrible insomnia. I try to draw more but its mostly just trying and nothing more. I seem to getting back into TEF, finding people to hang out with is kinda hard but I guess over time it will change... or so I hope. Apart from all those things, hello Iam still the same stupid girl trying to find her place, please lend me a hand?
also damn that whole Blog here is so outdated I must really update it.
19.09.2017
Hello
Iam uhmm still here, just somewhere in the Shadows.
My time management got better more so since the Work got lesser over the past Months.
I am returned, but I lost all contact to others it seems.
I would love to get some Interactions or RPs up and running but I guess that will be a dream for now.
I will try and get to know others again, hoping for a chance.
02.07.2017
Iam still struggling with moving, over those past two months my Time and anything related to that was sucked away. I barely make it into the next month now and I really hope it will be over soon.
My Time to come online is = 0, I try to make it happen I really try but so far it never worked out. Iam terrible sorry for, not only my Chars but more for those my Chars are related to. I will have my moving finished till the 01.8. and then I can come online everyday again. Till then please have patience and no my chars did not abaddon anyone nor hates them. They would be there if I had the Time to play, please consider them if urgent sleeping in there Homes or Poke me in Discord which I have on my Mobilephone. Iam always open for Roleplaying!
No body ever reads that, Iam a no one in the Community here but I just wanted to state that.
I wish everyone a nice Day.
A Design I adopted from Thuka and got fast attached to. She is my little bab and I play her nearly daily, even when her Live is a bit boring but I love her. She is a very gentle soul but can go into a Rage mode aswell... even when thats hard to get that side out of her. A Doe which is rather big and masculine build but she is truly a female at heart and wants to get treated like this. Shes just a little girl in a big, big world...
The Fire Doe. My new precious Bab. Another adopted Design by Thuka which I did hold back for a long time now but finally using it. Really love her Colors and her Personality, hoping that I will play her as active as I play Rose. Great Plans for her.
I already said it on Skype but I am going to say it here!
I hope everything will go for the better for you very soon.
And I am saying it again so that you will see and remember it everytime you will go through the comments:
Do not hesitate to poke me on Skype if you wish to talk or you want to have some fun being killed of laughter by my meme party!~
Thank you Kamaya, I hope so too, even when I know that my live will go down the drain again now.
Iam sadly no person to go to others with my problems or begin a talk.
But Iam really happy that some really reading my updates, was a really suprise for me.
Ya know who you are <3 Thanks so much for the jokes, pics and videos!
Hey, glad to see you're still alive! Haha~
I don't know if this would help you, but when I feel the same way about my characters, I like to log into a pictogram I haven't used for a character (kind of a "secret" deer) and do whatever I feel like! Mostly I will follow other deer around to see how other people play their characters, ha ha. Or sometimes I just take screenshots of them. They must think I'm creepy!!
♥v♥
Edit: I'm so sorry to hear that Chizzu, but i must say that you are not alone.
Be strong and don't forget that you have friends here who would listen you and share you the company if you feel so.
You are always welcome to come sit with me in the forest if you wanna, i would be more than happy to chill out with you. ♥
Life is hard sometimes and i'm sorry you have been feeling down and all ; ;
Thank you so much Dear, you do not know how much it means to me that you are reading this.
Hope everything is alright by you and I hope we can talk soon again :3
Sorry that i haven't talked to you long time -
Also sorry that I have sound quite rude the last time we talked,
I know you have been busy irl since stress and your moving and still I acted stupidly.
It's good to see you back.
@Mozzy: Its nice to see you again. Would love it if you visit more ^^ You little Rascal
@Hauta: I do not harbour any ill feelings nor did I take it in any way as rude. I must apologize for not coming back to you and not being able to help you. Would love to talk with you again <3
Aw haha, well dang makes me want to offer more heh. Very sorry its been awhile, I was not too sure where your Discord was so I sent you an email pretty much saying similar stuff. I do hope to see you and your other guys around some more too, ill do my best to be around!
@Hauta: May I can add you in Discord? I feel like we have to talk trought a Year xD
@Mozzy: Shame on you! xD Yea I had my Name changed over the months so much I actually forgot to update it. I did so now. The Contact in this Bio should be up to date. Sorry about that.
Hopefully it will heal soon and Iam back to normal.
Last week my Dog got run over by a Driver who was speeding, Iam just so grateful that he survived.
OFC I need to catch something so that I cant even walk him out nor give him much love nor attention.
Its a really terrible month. I hope it changes
Horrible that you can't take off and try to recover. Hope you and the pup get well soon and that this upcoming month brings much more good news for you.
! WILL REDO
Hast ja paar stunden zeit um
Um zu dir zu kommen muss ich
och komm so weit weg bin ich
Oke Oke ich tu's fuer dich.
Dann erwarte ich dich mal
Ich muss mal sehen wie ich es
I wanna say it again here.
@Dardan: Wie arbeiten is doch
@moz: thank you once again ^^
I already said it on Skype
I hope everything will go for the better for you very soon.
And I am saying it again so that you will see and remember it everytime you will go through the comments:
Do not hesitate to poke me on Skype if you wish to talk or you want to have some fun being killed of laughter by my meme party!~
Thank you Kamaya, I hope so
Iam sadly no person to go to others with my problems or begin a talk.
But Iam really happy that some really reading my updates, was a really suprise for me.
Ya know who you are <3 Thanks so much for the jokes, pics and videos!
/dances and crs i hope you
i hope you feel better soon ;; Hugs for you!
Hey, glad to see you're still
I don't know if this would help you, but when I feel the same way about my characters, I like to log into a pictogram I haven't used for a character (kind of a "secret" deer) and do whatever I feel like! Mostly I will follow other deer around to see how other people play their characters, ha ha. Or sometimes I just take screenshots of them. They must think I'm creepy!!
Happy December first!
it would be great to see you
?v? Edit: I'm so sorry to
Edit: I'm so sorry to hear that Chizzu, but i must say that you are not alone.
Be strong and don't forget that you have friends here who would listen you and share you the company if you feel so.
You are always welcome to come sit with me in the forest if you wanna, i would be more than happy to chill out with you. ♥
Life is hard sometimes and i'm sorry you have been feeling down and all ; ;
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omg thank you
Its so beautiful aaaaa
Have a nice day too, Chi c:
Thank you so much Dear, you
Hope everything is alright by you and I hope we can talk soon again :3
hey, glad to see you. Hope
Sen, Heeiii :3 Thank you ^-^
Thank you ^-^
Good to see you back ♥
Yiss, always coming back to
♥!!
:3
<3
Still a lovely bio, so cool
Sorry that i haven't talked
Also sorry that I have sound quite rude the last time we talked,
I know you have been busy irl since stress and your moving and still I acted stupidly.
It's good to see you back.
@Mozzy: Its nice to see you
@Hauta: I do not harbour any ill feelings nor did I take it in any way as rude. I must apologize for not coming back to you and not being able to help you. Would love to talk with you again <3
That's relief to hear, i
The summer has been busy for me aswell since my disease got bad, but it's getting better now.
I would like a lot to talk with you again <3
Aw haha, well dang makes me
@Hauta: May I can add you in
@Mozzy: Shame on you! xD Yea I had my Name changed over the months so much I actually forgot to update it. I did so now. The Contact in this Bio should be up to date. Sorry about that.
oops, double post x.x Yes ofc
Yes ofc you may add! c:
Hautakumpu#4972
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Thinking of you. Try to get
That is absolutely the worst.
Hope you feel better soon!
omg thank you ya 3
Hopefully it will heal soon and Iam back to normal.
Last week my Dog got run over by a Driver who was speeding, Iam just so grateful that he survived.
OFC I need to catch something so that I cant even walk him out nor give him much love nor attention.
Its a really terrible month. I hope it changes
Don't ever forget. After the
After the storm the land shines the brightest. After each night there is a morning. It'll all be soon good.
Oh no, take care. Hope both
By Draak ♥
Horrible that you can't take
Goodness me! I hope you get