Ok... I need to beg I guess.

Zergarikiaka's picture
So, here's the deal. I've been under a lot of verbal abuse in real life and am constantly getting slapped with 'fixes' and critiques on how I dress/act/sound/live/what I eat/ ect. Frankly I'm basically at the point of tears in reality and started thinking about some very unplesant things to do to end it.
Frankly, I have been ridiculed to the point of finding myself feeling completely worthless. Like my live is a complete flaw and that I do nothing right, ever.
I need encouragment. Severely.

Please, just someone tell me SOMETHING good. Just let me know if there's ANYTHING good about my being around, or if I've done anything right that you can think of. I hate feeling like a worthless flaw.

Like a failure.
ocean's picture

You...are an amazing person,

You...are an amazing person, no matter what they say. They are wrong about you. You cannot do everything wrong- it's impossible. You are not worthless- by just being a person, you have worth.
And you have more worth than that, too- what I've seen of you is a funny, nice person with an awesome imagination.

You are not a failure, Zerg. Don't ever let yourself believe that. <3

Wo wo wo wo , stop ,stop. 1st

Wo wo wo wo , stop ,stop.
1st off your a great person
2 You are kind
3 You are NOT a worthless being
You are a great artist
You are great never forget that.

* hugs*

Nobodies perfect thats why we are human.
Verycrazygirl's picture

I have always admired

I have always admired you.
You are so extremely friendly...
You have amazing writing skills; you're so creative.
It might seem strange, but there is something really special about you that I can't explain or understand...

Tally's picture

Ever since I first got to the

Ever since I first got to the forest I've always wanted to really meet you. I've admired you for a long time. <3
arrowdoe's picture

You're not a failure, Zerg. I

You're not a failure, Zerg. I don't know you that well, but from watching you roleplay in-forest and seeing you on the community, I think that you are an amazing person.
I wish I knew you better, but please don't do anything like that.
You're too important to the community, Zerg.
We all love you.
Bylah's picture

There are no failures - just

There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them. - Tom Krause
I didn't fail the test - I just found 100 ways to do it wrong. - Benjamin Franklin
Failure is a detour, not a dead end street. - Zig Ziglar
Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement. - C.S. Lewis
Failure is the tuition you pay to success. - Walter Brunell


I don't know you that well - and for that, I'm sorry. I'm always delighted to see you pop into my livestream when you do. <3 I don't know you well..but what I do know? I like.


Well for one it makes me

Well for one it makes me wanna break teeth to hear that people are giving you so much guff about stuff like that. >:C

Um oh right, you wanted good, not violent *cough* well really like I said, it's frustrating just to hear that, nobody should be torn down like that!
trigger_mortis's picture

First of all *hug* don't ever

First of all *hug* don't ever feel that you should be ashamed of needing a little encouragement. We all go through low patches, and sometimes all we need is to reach out for some help.

Anyway, you are not a worthless flaw! I don't know why people ridicule you, but I certainly can't see the reasons here. In this community you always seem to be a bright and positive person, and your drawings always make me smile!

You are not a failure.

You are a beautiful person.

You are loved.

<3
Zergarikiaka's picture

Thank you guys... All of

Thank you guys... All of you.
I really needed to read that.
I wish I could adiquatly express just how much you all mean to me. Really, it means so much to just have some encouragment.
I love you all /too.

I love you, and I know that

I love you, and I know that you're a wonderful person. <3 I've always admired you, but never really had the courage to try and befriend you.

Zerg, though our times

Zerg, though our times together were limited, I enjoyed them so much.
Our adventures in TEF and IT were always fun. You're just a fun person to be around, and I think IRL we would get along very well. Some people's standards are impossible to adjust to, and some people are impossible to please. Those people talk nonsense, and I really hope you trust me in saying that, seeing as I'm restricted in the situation you're in. But just know I love you Zergie. I think you're a productive and fun member of our community, and I would never want anything bad to happen to you. Please take care, hun.
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quaesting's picture

I know it's hard to believe

I know it's hard to believe when you're just one person, surrounded by multiple people with constant criticism, but the problem isn't with you it's with them. Especially if you're still in school and/or living at home, you can't choose the people you're surrounded by, and that can be a miserable thing.
All through my school years I was harassed and ridiculed, until I reached a point where I had some seriously ugly thoughts... but I survived, and it was worth it. When I got into college I started having more freedom to be around the people I chose to be around, instead of having my social circle forced on me by the school situation. The older I've gotten the more power I've had to choose who I'm around, and you know who I've found? Well first I just thought I'd found a lot of amazingly cool, creative, intelligent, supportive people, but then I also found out that these people had suffered the same kind of humiliation in their school years.

What I'm trying to say is that the awesome people are out there, and you're one of them.
Pegasicorn's picture

I'm not good with words, but

I'm not good with words, but I think you're awesome, so here's Scape being a dork:

you are a gorgeous,

you are a gorgeous, beautiful, funny, sincere, awesome, admirable, terrific, great, helpful, accepting, adorable, perfect person, and we love you. <3
Zergarikiaka's picture

@Danii: I'm always willing to

@Danii: I'm always willing to be a friend. <3 I always thought of you as someone simply amazing, admirable, and possably far out of my league to really talk to. It's amazing, mind blowing even... that you admire someone like me.

Rowan: That's really true. There are so many people, often in authority over others, who just never can be pleased. Even though in the past we've only been able to RP or hang out a select few times, I don't see any reason we can't again in the future. <3

Pega: SCAAAAAAAAPE. <3 Darn I think I teared up.

Sarie: ;_; Thank you. I think I officially started crying after reading that. I love you, and everyone here, so much darn it.

Quae: <3
Yeah, those schooling days are hard...

Fledermaus's picture

D8 I've seen nothing but

D8
I've seen nothing but kindness and a good attitude coming from you the whole time you've been here. I hate it when people disapprove or try to change someone else to better fit their personal ideal. It's stupid. I don't think there's anything you should change about yourself, and you are faaaaar from worthless, babe. <3
fayne's picture

You're incredible and smart

You're incredible and smart and funny and everyone loves you. <33333

And I feel this is necessary. -HUGHUGHUG-
day4's picture

iloveyou-fail- |D You are an

iloveyou-fail-
|D
You are an amazing person, and very funny. VERY funny....VER VERY VERY funny.
Even though I dont realllyyy know that well.
*hugglespam*
Kaoori's picture

You always say nice things to

You always say nice things to me. Don't let people get you down. Be who you want to be, be who you are.

Why didn't I see this

Why didn't I see this earlier?

I understand how you feel. I've been through the same thing.

You are one of the first friends I've made on TEF. I think you are among the first to welcome me, although I can't remember if you commented on my first blog here (I'm thinking you might have, either my first or second, one of my early blogs, anyway...they're gone now so I can't check). I have always thought that you are awesome, for several reasons. You're a talented writer, you have awesome characters, and you're a good friend. And you're just generally a cool person. I'm really glad to have met you and to know you.
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Lanithedeer's picture

I don't really know you at

I don't really know you at all, but you seem like a really nice person. Just ignore what these doo doo heads have to say to you - they probably are failures themselves so they take it out on you because they think they are too cool to be losers.. they make winners feel bad.
I used to have an open mind... but my brains kept falling out.

Rawr.

Marriage is a relationship where one is the husband and the other is always right.
Aegle's picture

I feel the same way. But to

I feel the same way. But to be slapped in the face with words can be just as painful as literally being slapped.

I love you so much dear. I enjoy you company. You make me feel happy and comfortable. You've never judged me and you've always been by my side. I care about you very much. And I'm always here for you if you ever need to talk to someone about anything.

Just go take some time to relax. Go outside and watch the sunset. Sleep in the sun during the day. Do anything you can to be alone and give yourself time to think. Your needed as much as anyone else. And if it counts for anything, I need you.

<3
Seed's picture

*hugs* You're awesome. Seed

*hugs* You're awesome. Seed was really happy to see Zerg last night and had loads of fun.
quadraptor's picture

WELOVEYOUZERG!!

WELOVEYOUZERG!! *nuzzlespams*

Be yourself, and don't let people tell you who to be. I went down that road and it doesn't lead anywhere.

Don't look at things as successes or failures, but rather as learning experiences. Like "Okay this doesn't work, so let's try something else." until you get it right.

And if you need some encouragement, read this poem. It's words are completely true! Smiling

Things may be terrible, but just keep going until it gets better. And that's coming from a pessimist! Eye

If you need to vent, I'll always listen.