[EDIT PART DOS] checked in MS Word, this thing is like, 3 1/2 pages long XD thank you all who actually read it for reading all of it <3

[EDIT] SORRY BUT I MISSPELLED "HORDES" IT WAS BUGGING ME.



bad pun, whatever.

But yeah, since this has seemed to get people all "ohnoesdramamongersaaaahhhhhhhhhD:<"
I think I'll put an end to it since this has gotten to a point where it needs to end.

I apologize up front for any colorful language or if something is hurtful. It isn't meant to be, there just won't be any beating around the bush.

And Cato has been in a cranky mood today for a number of school related reasons.

Usually I am a very laid back, go with the flow, no stress kinda person. Easy to get along with, nice person to be around. You've all known me here, there to comfort when needed, funny and good humored to bring up the community mood if I could.

But here is where you will know the other side of me, one that I am too polite to show the general public. I can be blunt, sarcastic, sadistic, creepy, and a complete smart-ass. And I always abide by the Golden Rule: treat others how you want to be treated. Don't care if you agree with that or not, because frankly, my give-a-damn is effin' busted, and the repairman is being lazy. You can either like my views, or you can disagree with them. but no amount of anyone's arguing and flaming will ever get me to change them, just as I will never try to change yours. Just as the great Voltaire once said, "I may not agree with what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it."

Anywho, back to where I was going with the Golden Rule. Since this topic has been greeted with some rather rude remarks, I'll be blunt back. Just as I will be kind to those who are handling this like mature people.

The point: Since I don't really see this ending too peacefully, I'll see if I can stop it here and now. I'm not exactly sure how it started but Atiq comforted Isis, and she started to like him. Atiq was like, "Okay, um, I kinda like you too. We can go really slow and get to know one another, and we will see if this works." I was thinking a kind of high school style dating. Try it for a bit and if it's not working then "nice to know you, let's see different people." Apparently, I was misunderstood in what I said. Mistake number one. That's right, I'm owning up and taking credit for something I did, wow. And then there's the part that I didn't know about. Two other does were interested. Well it's like, "gee, thanks guys for telling me." See, if you had given me a faint clue, especially when me and five other people are saying, "WHO IN THE WORLD IS IT?!" then most of this could have been avoided. But I can understand why you wouldn't. I'm not an idiot.
Atiq however, is kind of. He's never been one to think things through entirely. He is also very sensitive, and can breakdown easy enough. Then he isolates himself and yeah. You get it. I on the other hand, I am not very sensitive. Sure I'll say something nice if you are sad, and are really crying out for help, I can feel ya brotha, I feel ya. But I am not overly so. I can probably say I am one of the few people who at 4 years old could watch giant dinosaurs massacre hordes of people and think, "Oh that Velociraptor is so cute! Look at it tear that guy's arm off! ^-^" and I'm serious too. Very few things make me cry, if it is something horribly tragic, on a world scale, I really start feeling. But if your pet turtle dies, I understand what you feel, I just don't completely break down and cry with you.

I never really let things get to me, if something bad happens I just say that I'll get through it one way or another, I can't stop it now. Tomorrow will bring something different. So with the whole RP thing here, I kinda just go with things, let it happen. MY BAD. Next time I know to plan a little. I'll also read all your minds and know what deer are crushing on my stag. And I had to notice, not that I particularly care, no one felt sorry for Atiq. Sure he made a mistake, but the whole thing wasn't his fault, and now he's stuck in it, confused and unsure of what to do next. But nope, everybody flocks to the drama haters and make him feel guilty. He says thanks. Don't get me wrong, I'm no big fan of drama, I'll go with it for a bit in an RP, as long as it's not overly done. I hate soap operas, DRAMA..CENTRAL..ugh i wanna puke just thinking about it. But i personally think that the drama now wasn't half as spread out as the previous episode, UNLESS I MISSED SOMETHING. I can do that, I am only human. Seriously, if you think i missed something, please come point it out to me, I don't bite.............much. But it almost felt as if............nah never mind. Not like it will matter, moving on.

This went waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy to fast. I tried to slow it down by suggesting that they "date" and go real slow, but again, my fault for not making that clear. Keep in mind that I do NOT, by any means, want to hurt anyone, I'm just making a point. I'll, admit it might not be to nice, and if you are hurt, I am sorry, but maybe you might be thinking a little too much that "Teh internetz is srs bussiness." It's not, at all.

Now to settle this whole love triangle/hexagon/decagon/whateverthehellshapeitis, I have since lost count as to how many it included, I am very scatterbrained, I miss things or I forget them, you never know with me. Atiq had a crush on Lacey a little bit after he met her, but he knew she wasn't looking for anyone and, being the gentleman he is, he respected that and gave her her space. Isis was hurting so again, being a gentleman, he comforted. Him and Isis were friends, they knew each other. I just think things were rushed. In all fairness, that much is partly my fault too. Since Atiq liked Lacey before he ever knew Isis, I think he probably would go with Lacey. He didn't think Lacey liked him so he was willing to test the waters with Isis, he was hesitant, but he'd try for her. Again, I knew he was too much of a gentleman. But I went with it for the sake of the character. MY FREAKING BAD AGAIN. In his best interests, (some of you are going to hate me but eh, I don't really care if you do or not, what are you gonna do? Come kill me in my sleep? Ha. You are not the ones with connections to the Mafia, how could you kill the invincible Cato?! >8D) Atiq would be best suited with Lacey. SORRY but as his keeper I think that would suit him best. He was after her heart first so..........

Now, if you can't take this and you now think I am a horrible person and that Atiq is a horrible stag, whoopdy-freaking-do for you. Again with the Voltaire quote, you can think or say anything you want about me or my deer, but if someone were to bash you for it, I would come and defend your right to say those things about me. Hell, I wouldn't be too peachy keen about what you said about me, but i am not the God of the Universe, i have no right to stop you.

This community is supposed to be like a family. FAMILIES FIGHT, IT'S JUST WHAT HAPPENS. GET OVER IT. If you don't think that's true, come live around my family for awhile, you'll see what I mean. But families are supposed to be able to work through it. No hating, no rude comments, no tears. Just talk it out. Unfortunately, right now I don't feel the happy anywhere. Atiq as of now feels safer residing in my head alongside a Bavarian, soul devouring, sadistic demon then here. That is sad. If we can't work this out, then I will retire Atiq for a long time until people forget who he is, and just use Lier. Because I do not want to hear anything bad about him or anyone else. I will stop this before it gets to that point. I myself would never leave, that would be stupid. Even if you all rallied against me and tried to ban me, I'd still be here. Because, forgive me, I LIKE THE FUCKING GAME, and I don't care if anyone else doesn't like me liking it, they can go their own way or I'll just ignore them. Spread th love people, don't be hatin'.

So people, let's talk this out. Not through emails anymore, if i am sent an email, it goes straight to the trash. It shouldn't be so private. Families talk. So let's talk. Nothing rude, just keep a civil head, curse if you like, just don't go overboard. In a week or so, I want to be laughing about this. I will bring it up in conversation and you should respond "omg that was so hilarious, I can't believe it lolololololololol X'D" LAUGH AT THIS DAMN YOU. IT'S FUNNY.

Okay kidlets, we got it? Are we good? Good. Because if this gets ridiculous, I will get ridiculous. I will not respond in a mature manner to immature comments. I will to either: start speaking in a dead language, use random movie quotes, sing a song, or go dig through my old English books (Macbeth, Romeo and Juliet, A Midsummer Night's Dream, To Kill A Mockingbird, The Things They Carried, The Giver.....never mind that's gone, or Rich Dad Poor Dad, pick your poison) and quote them.

So, you can either deal with the nice, funny Cato you all know and love, or you can get stress fueled, uberwitch Cato you see up there. I have no regrets about this blog and I hope you take it seriously. This has bothered me all day and I'm stopping it here and now. I have more important things to worry about than the internet. Unfortunately those things are what's causing me to bitch at you guys. It's a vicious cycle, can't help it.

If you don't like it, then come at me with your virtual deer, who will be virtually mad at me, and I will virtually quiver in fear. Oh no. Say what you like, don't care I'll say what i like. Then we can all move on. Forgive and forget, live and let live yadda, yadda.

I seriously do love you guys, but this is for anything in the future, anything in the past, anything now. we are seriously all a family, let us talk it out <3

DO NOT MAKE ME GO GET MY SENSE-BEATING STICK <3


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LONG RANT IS LONG

but Cato feels better now, too much work to do, not enough sleep=bad Cato