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"Every judgement of conscience, be it right or wrong, be it about things evil in themselves or morally indifferent, is obligatory, in such wise that he who acts against his conscience always sins."
-Thomas Aquinas


It is not the sins that others accuse us of that hurts us the most. It is the sins we decide we have done, not because of any written law or code, but because something deep within us says this is not right for me. The accusers outside of ourselves we can often escape from. We can leave them behind, turn them out of our thoughts, or just tune them out. Our own conscience we can never escape. During the hours of our wakefulness we can distract such thoughts. Compartmentalize them to some little used section in our minds. Or just keep so busy we can not even think about much else than the task that we are on. At night when we sleep or even if we nap during the light the thoughts creep in about our sins we named for ourselves. The things we cannot forgive our self for or the things we refuse to let go. If we compare them to others, it makes no sense because we find the amount of importance we attach to our named sins means little to the other person. It makes us feel alone because we realize the only way to resolve such a thing has to come from within our self. The other can sympathize and empathize and provide roadways and paths for us deal with our named sin, but they cannot solve it or make it go away. The worse judgement comes not from others but our self. Redemption has to come from a realization with in our self that we are more than this body, but part of something larger and more ethereal. There is no running away from self only by embracing the darkness as being inherently human do we find peace and see the dark always gives way to the light.