Hello and yes you are reading the bio of Misako’s newest deer. Although I have many allready, I have and will always love to see the progress of a character in progress. My deer develop themselves, and this newest doe is a fine example of that. She has been going around for a bit, gaining on friends while they didn’t know it was me. Apparantly this makes it easier for people to befriend my deer.

Nooit is the result of my frustration. It all started with the creation of a new fawn for myself, Altijd. Altijd was always wandering around the same log, apparantly waiting for his mother to come back and pick him up. I grew to love him and his strange picto quite easily, and I hoped a mother for him would come along once. Altijd never got that chance, because he in fact “died”. His account got lost in the server switch, and couldn’t be restored. After trying to find his now free picto again for hours, I gave up on hope and made a new deer: Nooit. Altijd actually means forever, while Nooit means never.

Nooit was not meant to become a secret deer, she was developing, so I wouldn’t give out her identity on the forums yet. Some people I have on msn knew about her, but that was it. I think this made it easier for her to develop, and tell me what she is like.



Time to put up a happy face and tell you about me! My name is Nooit, and I was, like any fawn, born in this forest. My father and mother took good care of me, and later of my newborn brother too. They fed us, loved us, smiled to us, and made us ready for the world out there. At one night, my dad had left. I wasn’t supposed to know why, mother said. The next day, she brought me and my little brother, Altijd, to some place in the forest. It was a log close to the old oak, with some ferns around it. She said “Wait for me here.”, and ran off.
We sat there for some hours, until we got hungry. I asked my brother if he would like something to eat too, but he said he didn’t want to leave the log. Mom might come back while we were gone. From the look in his eyes, I could tell he meant it, and I left him there.
It went like that every day. He never came along with me to eat, and didn’t want the pinecones I gave him. I had never seen him eat anything like that before though, but mom wasn’t there with her milk for him either.
We slept next to each other every night. We kept each other warm like that. One night, I had a strange dream.
”I came back for you.”
Frowning, I woke up to the voice.
”I came back for you, Altijd. I will always come back.”
Her white wings, bigger as any birds, where spread above me and my brother. I nudged him to wake him up. Together we looked up to the white doe we both recognized. She smiled, and my brother smiled back. Wobbly, he put his scrawny body on his hooves and walked over to her. I didn’t. I just stood there. Immediately it was clear that she hadn’t come for me.

By the sun shining in my eyes, I woke up again. But this time, nudging didn’t wake my brother’s cold body. He never woke up again. I think he went to dream on, forever, and I can only be mad at my mother.
She didn’t take me with her.

Some stags later came and took Altijd’s body away from me to bury him. They told me that that is what needs to be done with the “dead”, whatever that might mean. I felt alone, no one of them wanted to keep me company, and left me again. I guess that is when I started exploring the forest myself. I sometimes get strange dreams at night… Everything changes, and I wonder if it changes into reality, or into a illusion. Whatever it is, it scares me, and I want it to stop.



As Nooit falls asleep, there is a chance she goes into a “nightmare”. She wakes up, to find everything in the forest has changed in colour. Tree’s are black, her side is a violent green, masks and antlers also turned black. She tries to find a reason behind certain changes, and finds in black an unpure colour. Masks are black, she says, because they’re used to hide the real face. And antlers because they kill. But why then, she ask herself, are the eyes of the fawn black too?

She can interact with others while in a nightmare, and it’s certainly visible when she has one, or recently had one. Her set changes, according to her being in or out of the nightmare. When she recently had one, she’s skittish and shy. Especially of fawns.



Name: Nooit
Nicknames: None yet.
Colour: Mint. #78e4c2
Pictogram: Click
How to remember it: It looks like a computermouse, or a cellphone, with an extra cube on the side XD
Gender: Doe
D.O.B.: May the First.
Relatives: Parents are unknown, Altijd is her brother.
Mate: None. She doesn’t really understand what love is yet. Give her time.
Personality:
Nooit’s response can differ from day to day. If she’s cheerfull, she turns into a bit of a tease. Surprise-spell spamming is something she really likes to do, to see the expression of the victim. And when someone charges back at her for annoying them, she goes up to another stag acting scared of her “attacker”. So maybe it’s good that, because of her nightmares, she turns skittish and distant. Hesistant about others, she approaches slowly, but running away is something she tries not to do.
She’s a philosopher, thinking of a meaning behind everything. But she has a low basic understanding of things like love and hate. Learning about friendship through her fawnhood, her age has now come for her to learn further. But lessons are getting harder.
She cherishes all times she has with everyone in the forest, and is overall a nice personality with a bit of a temper. She wouldn’t let anyone walk over her, but does like being defended by a big stag acting impressive.

History:
As a short repeat, Nooit was the oldest of two fawns. When their parents had abandoned her, for whatever reason, she was able to survive, but her brother wasn’t. She took life on her own, not really being traumaticed by terrible events like some other orphan fawns. But at a certain point, her nightmares came. Through that, she did learn about another fawn being stuck in the same realm. They help eachother figuring out what is wrong with them, and what is wrong with the world.

Appearance: Nooit usually wears the magpie pelt – orca mask and – magpie antlers. Although when in a nightmare, she wears the Orca pelt - DotD mask and default antlers with poppies. Her mask and poppies turn black in this “form”.
Location:
Mostly where friends are, but she likes the birch forest.
Friends: I got a picture of her fawnhood friends:

But now, as an adult, she thinks of Nightmare (Played by Sunflyra) as a good friend of hers, but is also hoping to meet her fawnhood friends again once. But pretty everyone that plays with her is a friend.
Likes: Spell-spamming, getting a new mask, playing, cheering up friends, unplucked flowers, and forest critters.
Dislikes: Fawns, flowers, fallen tree’s, the log Altijd died at (She still sits there occasionally though), being forgotten, the crying idol, having a nightmare.
Other:
This’ll be updated later on too, since she’s still in-development, and pretty young. The story about her nightmare sounds cheesy, lol, but there’s more behind it. But as everything, story’s need thought. I do really like that I didn’t make this up before I created her; she made her own story. Also, the “nightmare” effect is created by removing a file from TEF.

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Hm. Ok. I'm tired. This needs work etc etc. I'm also working on the bio's of my other deer, they need to be updated. *Collapse*